Always learning

I know it sounds retarded, but I am constantly learning things, especially when I go on retreats with my church. I was given the wonderful oppurtunity to be a leader for the youth group, since I'm not considered "the youth" anymore. Of course, I got butterflies. I get scared because I feel that sometimes I'm not qualified to give younger kids information, that I have no tried hard enough to read the bible and such. But in reality, it's all about God speakng through you, giving you the words to say, and the way to figure out how to do this....if you reall want him to. And I prayed about it. I ended up having the 7th and 8th graders for a group, and it was hard. The weekend was based about Dating, Courtship, Engagement, Marriage, and everything in between. Younger kids do not care about this, but of course, I got every little thing out of it.
(NOTE: if anyone is curious about it, I have the whole packet, and it would be a VERY good read)
I learned a lot about the opposite sex, and how are different (in more ways than I already knew) and I also learned a really big important thing. I learned how I had a hand in my own destruction of my relationship with Justin. Not gonna lie, it was very hard for me to grasp that concept, that I was the one who was broken up with, but it was a lot of my fault that it ended. I won't go into detail cuz not EVERYONE needs to know about these things, so again, if your close to me, just IM me (Amers1386). I'm open, just not this open...ya never know who's reading. haha. Anyway, this was a powerful weekend, and it was a God given thing that I was even able to attend this weekend. *~God is truly amazing~*

Another problem I was semi-having this weekend was that since I have been here at WSU, I have gotten rather close with MS. Anna Oeffling. She is a wonderful girl, and I've come accustomed to spending a lot of time with this girl, mainly because I WANT to, but also cuz she can relate to me so well. But this weekend, Johnny was there, and of course, they want to spend time together. This is totally understandable too because they go to sepereate schools and love eachother, and want to spend their time together, at the neccessary times. It was just stupid because I became jealous, at no fault of their own, and so I'm working on that. That was the downfall of my weekend, I felt abandoned, but by my own stupidity. They are cute and I love them to death so yah. Lol. I'm dumb...it happens

Once I got home, I got spend time with my mom for like 5 hours, and it was nice. I love my mom. She is a wonderful woman. We watched some movies, I bought her lunch, and it was nice. I should do that every Sunday, because I care, and she doesn't have a whole lot of people she can count on. Ahh..I'm all mushy. I'm also very proud of her because she has lost over 40lbs. in the last year or so, and ahh, she's looking so good. IF you know my mother and see her, TELL her she looks good, she'd appreciate it immensley. Ok, done being mushy.

School is going good, and ya know what? If I don't get accepted to Bethel, or to Northwestern College (which I JUST applied to today) it won't be the end of the world. Like I've applied to these schools because I would love to be at a Christian school, but I mean I might be meant to be here, it's not a bad thing. I just needed to get used to it. I'm not going to worry about it though. God has a plan, and I'm soothed by that alone. He's a good man, I think I can trust him. Haha. So yah, we'll see if I even get accepted, then i'll start thinking.

I get to come home WEDNESDAY NIGHT!! AHHH! Thank goodness for fall breaks! Gotta love them. It was also Johnny Patnodes 19th Birthday and Kelly Johnson's 21st Birthday on Sunday! SO HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BOTH, I love you both....you are good people!

Well, I'm done with that....I hope this satisfies my daily readers.


Non-college Moment: This is just in honor of John's birthday. This was taken this year at prom, and I love this picture! I actually look decent, and he is just a handsome young man. lol. Love you so much John Randall Patnode! Hope your birthday was exactly what you wanted it to be!





Sister in Christ,
Amy <3