Let's play "How do you really feel" game

I've decided that that game is really cool. It's funny the things people DON'T say even though it's how they really feel. I've played this with a few people, including myself, and wow... there is a lot to be said... about everything. A lot of it is stuff you don't say cuz it's too personal or it might hurt someone, so it's not like we are being two faced, but I think it's important to let this stuff out sometimes.... if you haven't played it with me yet, please do so. I'm up for listening and I'm very good at keeping these things secrets...

Anywho... life is good. Busy, but good. I can't believe it's been so long since I wrote last. I just had finals, and then I've been working two jobs for the last two weeks, so writing on this was a no go. I have two more days at Panera which is so exciting I can't even contain myself. Wells Fargo is a lot of work. We are only doing training now but it's eight hours a day for two weeks. It's a lot. I just hope I do okay when I actually get to my store. Oh yah, my grades weren't the best, I'm actually quite disappointed with myself... but I did work a lot so I have SOME reason for them to not be good. But fingers crossed for next semester.

A lot of my friends graduated in the last week or two. It's amazing how fast everyone grows up. I find it to be such an important event in people's lives, yet not very many agree with me. It's such a big stepping stone. You have done it, your out of this world and into the next. The next chapter of your life is beginning, be AMAZED by this. Like Sarah, Jake, Ashely Oeffling, Jamie Barnes, Colleen Thomas, Lizzy Seward, etc... it's insane!! It one makes me feel very old, and two, makes me very excited to see where life takes them. Who knows. But I hope they all put their best foot forward... whatever that means. whatever guys... CONGRATULATIONS!!! =)

My dear dear Jen L. is gone for the summer. Luckily we have been able to talk every week and so I can breath easier. I just wish she was around because I've become so attached to her that it's hard to not be able to go see her whenever I want. But I do have RORY so I cannot complain. He's a good stuffed animal, I must say. Always quite, always behaves... ha ha. But Jen I love you and can't wait to see you again!!

This summer is different then all the other ones I've experienced. Maybe for the better in the long run, but it feels worse right now. It's called growing up. Too much has happened in our lives and we all have to move on eventually. I 've found that I love my friends, even if we don't encourage each other more like we should, and I feel almost like it's an obligation to stay together, for Travis' sake. That no one will know him like we knew him, and I don't want to be with other people that won't understand anything about him. But I dunno.... we all have to grow up eventually right? Adam and Mike live in Richfield, I work 40hrs a week 8-4 Mon-Fri. Marlise works like two jobs, Justin is busy with his house, Nate has a job too... Life is just hitting us and we can't stop it, we can't turn around. We can't be out on the boat everyday, we can't hang out every night, I can't stay out late anymore, but again... this is us growing up. I do think we need to be closer in the sense of our spirituality side because we all seem to be floundering and pulling everyone around us down with us... if that makes sense. I think we all feel it. I feel lost, Justin, nate, Sarah..... so it seems only natural that'd we help one another instead of ignoring it. I think it's something we have to work on. We really should, for our own sake. We'll see what happens.

I got really sick last night. Like SUPER sick..... a little something called TSS... the boys won't know what that is.... and i'm not going to explain what it is either. But my heart rate was twice as fast as everyone else's, my skin hurt, I couldn't stop shaking, I was cold in places that it wasn't cold, my eyes were bloodshot, I couldnt' think straight, apparently I acted completely high/drunk, my hands are extremely swollen, I threw up (which seems to be the norm), among other things. It was not fun, and it def. was not pretty. But hey, I had some good conversations somehow. Lol. But I thank you Justin and Nate for taking care of me. I really super appreciate it. Oh yes, and Thanks Sarah for worrying. Your too cute

Anyway, it's time for me to go. I love you all.