Tears stream... down your face

No, I'm not sad, I'm listening to "fix you" from Coldplay, and it's part of the song. If you have not heard this song, bust out the...cd? or something! It's from X&Y!

It has been terribly long, and I apologize. The week went fast because of my illness. It took over our week and before we knew it, Anna and I were off to home once more. I've been really happy though because I've been doing well on all my homework assignments and such, and it feels really nice to not be doing bad in college.

The weekend was good. It's always good. It is getting tiring to drive back and forth though. Like I love the time with Anna, and I love the result of the drive (HOME/FRIENDS) but it's 6 hours in a weekend. Plus on Friday I drove up to St. John's to pick up Jake with Adam and Nathan. It was a good drive because I was uber hyper and I love them all so yah, but I was tired of driving. Jake gave us a tour of his campus, showed us the relic in the basement (cReEpY), and we also got to meet some of his friends. It's a gorgeous campus, and i'll have to visit the school in the daytime. So after our beautiful tour, we ended up at Schony's house! I love that place a lot because they have a nice fireplace area, and if you get cold they have a nicely furnished basement. There's pool, fooseball, and a huge couch where many can sit and converse. All my friends were there too (minus some of the best...you know who you are) I lost in pool, lost in fooseball, lost in life...ya know. HAha. No, but I enjoyed myself. Justin and Molly ended up showing up, and she wanted me to come with them to get her back to 55 and such. So I got my car (with a lot of work to get it out of the garage..oh man, rock on Justin) and we got Molly to 55, and I dropped of Justin. I was going that way anyway because I needed to get my stuff out of Natrop's car, but I ended up sitting in Justin's driveway for an hour! Good talk, it really was. Finally around three, I got home... big mistake. I had to be up at 8:00 for my parade...

It was a long day, but it was very enjoyable! I had Jake Barnes and John Patnode on my float with the other girls, and it worked out so well. We dressed up as flappers and they had a trumpet and trombone and we all kinda danced to "all that jazz" from the Chicago Movie/Broadway show. The crowd LOVED us! They got so into it, which made us feed on their actions, and by the end of the parade, the boys were so into it! John, if you deny it, well...your lying. lol. Jake seemed to be enthused the whole time, so I never worried about him. We also got 3rd place for the costume/float contest thing. Bravo to us! The day ended up lasting from 8:00 AM (when I got up and showered) to 9:30 PM (when we finally left). It was tiring to the max, but even after the long day, I ended up at Natrop's again. Some went to Applebee's, but the rest got the idea of making pancakes and watching a movie. So Lee, Rachel, and I made the pancakes, Adam made the juice, Nathan... found us bacon we never ate, and Kara...slept. Haha. It was nice though. We all had a great time and ended up watching the moive "Robots" Not I, Robot, but the cartoon thing. I fell asleep, but Lee made sure to wake me up at what he called the "funny part". It was amusing though...they made fun of Britney Spears. Then I got really super giggly...it was like I was drunk, but not! I get high on life...

Sunday was spent with my mom gettin a new cell phone! it's sooo cute (it's like Karrah Anderson's cell phone! yayayay!) I showed Lee a picture of it. He thought it was "hot". Haha. But then Joe Knapp, one of my most favorite people ever, was having difficulties on the computer, so my mom went over there! It was funny.... he spent three hours trying to do something, and I did it in five minutes. The family is computer illiterate, but that just gives me an excuse to see them. It was really fun to be with them and my mom! I like my mom bonding with people I love. Good evening. Then I had to drive back to this hole of a town. No, I do like the town, just not as much as home.

I planned out my life today with my Academic Advisor. It was kinda scary to really think about all this. I have a sheet next to me as I speak that has every semester until graduation basically figured out for my Major and some internships thrown in there too. Can we say STRESSFUL?!?! But I'm gonna shrug it off for now. I used to think I was good with the future stuff, but it really scares me. And I don't really need to think about it now do I? At least I know what my major and minor are. At least I know I want to be an author/journalist. I'm a step ahead a few, so I find I have time to breath...right?

Well anyway, tonight was Halloween so I got to hand out candy to adorable little kids. Our school set up this thing where parents can bring their kids here and certain rooms can sign up to give candy if they want, and so we did, and we got over 100 kids! They were so precious, I wanted to just keep some of them. Too bad I couldn't take pictures. =( parents probably woulda been scared...so I refrained! Yep..... that's my life in a the smallest nutshell I could deliver it in. I will write more often so these "blogs" aren't so flipping long! We'll see.

College Moment: I handed out candy to the little kids and it was cute.... and just to make it special, I bought a pumpkin thing! I loved it! It makes me smile, and I hope you all smile as well! Happy Halloween.

Sister In Christ,
Amy <3

I'm alive!

So I KNOW I haven't written in quite sometime, so I'm gonna do my best to NOT make this a small book. Wish me luck, my life has been interesting....

My Birthday was wonderful! It really was! I had a great time with Anna on the way back (Non-moving hawks in mid-air, me laughing cuz I wanna slap you, ICEBERG! No one else will get that, I'll tell you guys in person when I see ya!) It was funny. Also, I got over 15 Happy Birthday's through facebook, even though people usually only remember cuz they get a reminder! Who cares, it's awesome! Oh! and Chris Bingea CALLED me to wish me Happy Birthay in my DORM ROOM! I didn't even know he had my cell phone number. It was very sweet of him (his birthday is a day after mine.) So then I got home and My mom, Holly, Anderw (holly's boyfriend), and myself went out to Olive Garden (Dad...well...whatever) We ate a whole lot, and it was surprisingly very fun. My sister and I CAN BOND!!! And I just want to say thanks mom! She is a good good woman! =) Anywho, after that, I went over to Adam's house, and they through me a sorta surprise little birthday thing. If my mom wouldn't of taken me out, they would have planned something else, or so I hear, and who cares. It's the thought that counts. I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH, AND "I THANK MY GOD EVERYTIME I REMEMBER YOU" Phillipians 1:3. The night ended with a very pretty cake, a pipe cleaner hat, a pipe cleaner car, and a pipe cleaner butterfly ring! It was so wonderful, and homemade things are the best.

Saturday was an up and down sort of day. Jen had slept over, and we went shopping with her and Holly, and it just was...eh...for many reasons that I won't go into. It made me very grumpy and unhappy. Then Molly Taylor met us at Applebees, and it was really good to see her. We enjoyed our time and laughed, and I was happy. lol. Then I finally got over to Adam's for the Chris Tomlin/Matt Redman/and Louis Gigalo or something concert! The fun part was we took two vans and all drove down together. The only bad part was I cried in the car because I was just so stressed from the day I had, what victoria secret representative told me, and of course boy problems. Again it's one of those moments that I can't go into detail here, cuz it'd take too long. The concert was so amazing, and it really moved me. The music was fantastic, and the speaker showed us how small we are to God, and I really just felt so small (not in a bad sense) and humbled by God's grace. It made me love my friends even more than ever, and God just really took my heart. After the concert we went to Perkins, and our waiter girl/man was Sc-sc-scary! haha. But we were all acting like 14 year olds on their own for the first time. It's fun to be that way sometimes though. You need a little immaturity in your life! And thanks Justin for spitting water down my shirt....love you anyway amazingly. To keep the night going, we watched The Minority Report at Adam's and it was LONG but sooo worth it. I loved it! I had seen previews for it but wow, I was thoroughly enjoyed. Finally, I made it back home at 4:00 or so. I was happy.

Sunday hit, and I started not feeling so hot (after Applebees, I felt sick, but figured it would pass...I was wrong) I had to get my costume fitted for our Royalty Halloween Parade, and standing there...I almost passed out. I had no color in my cheeks, and I felt like throwing up. Luckily I had a wave of relief for a while so I went to the Knapps so I could see them all! Somehow Debbie burnt something and smoke filled the entire house! It was hysterical! Then of course I went over to Anna's and got to be with John and Anna (they make me SOOO incredibly happy) Even though it makes me sad cuz I don't have someone who loves me with that much love (BESIDES God...I know he loves me) but at the same time it makes me so happy cuz John is so happy, and I think he deserves it. They are both astounding people, and really are blessed by God through their relationship. Rock on you two. Car ride was good as usual, and Anna slept over. Woo!

So final paragraph of the tale... Monday, I was sick...really sick. Not like throwing up sick, but other kind of "fluid" sickness...I'll leave it at that. And it was all day long, and on Sunday too, and it got to the point where I could not even stand for longer than a minute because there was so much pain in my side. It was so bad. So at 11:00 at night, Anna and Ali drove me to the Emergency Room. That's right, I had to go to the ER! It sucked and we were there until 2:00 AM! They took three viles of blood, made me give a urine sample, and just made sure it wasn't life threating. I felt bad for my two little heros who had to just sit here and deal with me, and I thank them for taking me. The doctor was very nice, and told me it could be a very small kidney stone, or the stomach flu, or something just viral. At any rate, they gave me the glorious VICODIN and I slept very very well. My story is done, don't forget you can always IM me in case you want more depth, I will be glad to talk.

College Moment: The picture that I will throw on here later today is from the ER last night. We decided it would make for a good story, and a good picture as well. I hope you all enjoy and laugh at my pain. haha.

Sister in Christ,
Amy <3

Stress over...and birthday ToMoRrOw!

That's right, I'm back, and I'm happy!! :-D

So let's see....my midterm! Oh I was so stressed out by it! Seriously, I had no idea what the heck was going to be on it, how he was going to set it up, so how do you study for something like that? Plus I spent a good portion talking on the phone with someone (But it WAS about a math problem...so gimme a break! Haha) SO I went into it, scared, but as ready as I'll ever be...and there were five questions! It did take me the whole hour in a half, and I'm not sure how some of my answers were, but all in all, I think I got a C or better. I'll accept a C in college, it's COLLEGE! So we'll see what that stupid man syas about my grade....pray for me!

And of course, IV was wonderful. I love Tuesdays. No matter how angry or sad my Photo teacher makes me, InterVarsity just makes it better. For some reason, I just don't stay around at the end when everyone is talking and meeting eachother...well Tuesdays, I go swimming...maybe I should just swim on different days. Lol. I'm so indecisive. But I come out okay by the end of the day...so meh! Am I right or am I right? But yah, the only bummer of Tuesday was I had to write a three page rough draft for my English class. See, it's more of an informational paper, but we had to have a thesis for it, and so in the end I just bulled my way through it...thank goodness the final isn't until next Wednesday, so I have a whole week to figure it out. But I did scrounge three pages together, so yah! I think I'll be okay! Sigh...yah, that was my stress for the week!

Oh last night was sooo fun! Okay, so my RA and a bunch of people on my floor usually watch a show on Wednesdays together at 9:00, but for some reason, she was not there! Well she came in around 11:00 or so, and I got all sad at her and then she said we'll let's all hang out. So I was just talking with her, and this girl named Rachel from two rooms down came in too and we spent like an hour talking! It was so fun! This Rachel girl is just funny cuz she kept giving me love advice, and ahh, I laugh. I love bonding with people on my floor! I mean yah, we aren't like best friends, but it's good to just meet people. I may be here for some time, so yah....I really need to get to know my fellow classmates! Oh, and Nate was being so funny last night...long story, it won't make sense, I'll just stop there.

I got to shop today! The only reason was because my Photo class was cancelled (the teacher sounded like he was dying on Tuesday during our midterm.... I should've expected this! lol) but yah, so Anna and I went to Target, and ah it was so much fun! I bout a new loofa (My dog ate the last one...awww) and pretty earrings, and "eye-popping" eye shadow. Sounds weird right? well apparently the people at Almay put some colors together that go with people's different eye colors, and can make them really stand out. So Anna and I bought some, and I'm gonna have to say, I like it! Yaya! Anna's looked perty too, but she looks pretty no matter what...am I right?

So Sam and Robbie left tonight for New Orleans or something! Well everyone who reads this or the forum should really pray for them not becauase they won't be fine down there, but just for the strength for everything they need to be doing down there, and to be selfless... I think it's sometimes hard to put so much into something, and yah... I don't know where I'm going with that! I'll stop here.

It's my Birthday tomorrow and I got my first Happy Birthday from Jenny VanBuesekom! wooo ooo!! I love my birthday and i'm just so excited! Yay happiness! Every year I always wonder if I didn't say anything, how many people would remember my birthday, but I always get way too excited and I end up being like "10 days until my BIRTHDAY!!!" and yah....I can't keep quiet. That's me! I LOVE LOVE!!! (random I know, I'm just uber happy!)

What else do I have to say? Wow...nothing...my week has been full of nothingness! oh well. I gotta get swimming so, I'll see some of you this weekend! Love you all, yay to me! yay to you! Haha...I'm done!
Somewhat College Moment: I like this picture! It was taken last Friday at our lovely Adam Natrop's house during a good ole bonfire! I LOVE Sarah's face, and Justin...ah his hair...I'll get used to it! Love you both! (Anna thanks for the picture! what would I do without you?)

Sister in Christ,
Amy <3

bonfires, hayrides, and Perkins

To continue the weekend of happiness....

Even though I had to miss the Rockford game (which they amazingly won!) I had a great time with my girls for my Royalty thing. Our parents were working on our float, so we just basically caught up on what's been going on since I have not seen these girls since end of August! It's amazing how much can happen in that amount of time! It was rather nice. We also were trying to find songs that we could play on our float, so we were listening to all these Broadway songs...it was fun! *Our theme is a Chicago Jazz idea...we are flappers* We also got the idea of having guys on our float, so it'll be fun cuz two of my close guy friends are coming on it! (John and Jake) I'm excited for this!! We got pizza and stuff afterward, so all in all, the last three hours seemed to go by quite fast!

Natrop called me later and told me that he was having people at his house, so I instantly left the royalty thing and bussed myself over there! I always get so excited for these things cuz I get to see so many people! I LOVE THEM!! There weren't as many people as I thought were going to be there, but it didn't matter. My closest friends were there, and some were the ones I haven't seen for at least a month. My friend Jake also brought a friend (Alex) and he was really cool. It was just a good time to be with everyone around a cozy bonfire! Things like those always gets me hyper!

Saturday was interesting....I seriously shopped from 12-7. Yes, I am a girl. Yes, I like to shop. Yes, I like to buy things, BUT NOT FOR THAT AMOUNT OF TIME! I feel that it is tedious and sometimes people spend too much time on things that could be done in like an hour or so. It seriously was a waste of a beautiful afternoon. The other problem was I was with my royalty people because were getting costumes for our float, and one of the girls' mothers in a MOTHER. What I mean by that is she's motherly, unlike my mother. My mom is more of a friend, has never really had a curfue for me, let's me do whatever I want because she trusts me, and it's something that doesn't seem to be normal for parents. So being around someone like that frustrates me terribly! So we were done with that by 5:00, but my whole point of Saturday was that I wanted to go shopping for some clothes that I needed, and be out of there in no time. I also had Kelly's party in mind so I knew it had to be fast. I power shopped!! It was insane, I went to so many stores in an hour, and I spent less than $100. That's right, be VERY proud of me!

Unfortunately I was "fashionably late" to Kelly's, but I made it just in time for the hay ride! It was a gorgeous night out (although some wind kept it chilly) and we went down this path on her relatives property, and ah! It was good. There were a bit more people at Kelly's than at Adam's, but a lot of them were from Crown and I met some...cool people! makes me want to go there even more, but sadly still, they do not have my major. Oh well! At the bonfire Mark was playing his guitar, and I liked it because I love hearing Mark sing and play! Anna and John also showed up, and John got a TATTOO!! It is soo cool looking. You guys should really see it. He's a manly man now! Anyway, at one point Kara and I were swinging on swings, and playing the "I went to a picnic and I brought..." game. It's where you go A-Z and listing things you bring with you. It was fun! I ended up saying for Q that I brought a Koala Bear...yah, stupid i know! And then I said, I went to a Hackysack....yah...it's okay to laugh, I laughed too! Then Justin and Nate came by us and we had a swing jumping contest, and even though Justin didn't jump very far, he won....and I jumped....walked a little bit, and fell on my butt. Then we all started tackling eachother, and did terrible cartwheels. I think the insanity made us hungry, because about tweleve of us ended up at Perkins. The food was good, the people were great, and the conversations were even better!

Sunday, amazingly was also very fun. Usually I just sit at home, do some laundry, watch some movies, MAYBE motivate myself to doing some homework, but this time Kara decided that we should all do something! So Jake, Sarah, Justin, Kara, and myself went to Northwestern Bookstore and Ridgedale for a while, just walking around and spending time together. We were going to eat, but then Justin's mom said that we could eat lunch at her house, and of course FREE FOOD=HECK YES! So we showed up late, oops, and Debbie had made really good food! It was like this chicken with this amazing gravy stuff on it, potatoes, and corn. I haven't had a homecooked meal since I ate at Anna's like a month ago! Sure beats school food, and even Subway. Then after we were all stuffed, they served us ice cream and we all sat in the living room talking. It felt like Thanksgiving because everyone wanted to nap, the weather was warm, and we were stuffed. God Bless the Knapps! haha

I've decided, that even though Sundays sorta suck for the fact that I have to come home, I always enjoy it because I get to meet up with Anna, and John is there, so I get to see two great people! It's become a ritual for the three of us. We all go to church, and I part my ways with them while they eat a brunch, take a nap, maybe do some laundry/homework, eat dinner, and then I show up and we all leave. It's nice because I dont' spend as much time with Anna during the weekend as I would during the week, so it's always a joy to see her again! Plus John is there and it always makes me happy to see him, so I'm even more delighted. Anyway, to cut to the chase, the car ride was amazing. We usually talk for like an hour, listen to music and start talking again once we get close to home, but we talked for almost the whole car ride! It was great. We were so into our conversations that we missed our turn and ended up in Cannon Falls (luckily not too far out of the way) I enjoy my Anna!

So yes, there's my weekend, and it's obviously shortened for the sake of the readers. Alot more things happened, and I could go to much greater detail, but I fear to lose the attention of my dearest readers, and nobody wants that. :-) That's why there is always the option of calling me, IMing me, or E-mailing me in case you are hungry or dying for me! P.S.-I hope that none will fear my death, but I will prob. not write until Thursday because for once, I have a little stress in my life. I have a mid term tomorrow, and a Major Paper on Wednesday. So this is not the top of my priority list. So anyway, I love you all, you are all fantastic, and sorry it's so long! Bye all!

No Picture: I have pictures I want to put up but they are on Anna's Camera, so maybe I'll make a post of just some awesome pictures!

Sister in Christ,
Amy <3

Another weekend, another good time... so far

Yes! I got to leave the little town of Winona Wednesday night! I'm happy to be home as usual... and of course, I'm having a GREAT time! Anna and I got home around...ten or so, and even though I did nothing that evening, it's just always nice be home.

Thursday was fun because I went to see my Journalism class in high school. I bought my teacher, Mrs. Poppler, two red roses because her birthday is the day before mine, October 20th. Even though it's still a week or so till then, this was the only time I probably could see her until Thanksgiving break! And frankly, I LOVED my Journalism class (well...love/hate relationship) and I really wanted to see how they were doing! The newspaper seems to be running smoothly, and the yearbook seems in wonderful shape! To the class: WOO! I love the cover! I'm excited to see how everyone else feels about it! Anyway, I almost made my teacher cry by giving her the flowers. It was so cute. She's also lost a lot of weight and is looking wonderful. Not only was it great to see her, but I saw Sarah Fleming, and Roz, and Jesse, and all the wonderful editors! And Roz told me I'm looking good! It was just good to hear cuz I've been freaking about the whole "Freshman 15" thing... I lost like 15 lbs. in the last year, and really don't wanna gain it back. I am swimming at least twice a week, and try to walk a lot. I know I shouldn't be so worried about it, but it's who I am. Society has destroyed my self confidence, what can I say? haha....

So even though not a lot of people could do anything, I still got to hang out with one of my bestest friends ever! (besides seelard! lol) It was just good because every once in a while, you need some alone time with your friends, it's refreshing. I don't get a lot of it with people, so it was soothing. We talked for an hour or so, than rented the worst movie ever! I've seen "Kingdom of Heaven" before, but he was totally psyched on seein it. So of course, being the doormat that I am, rented it anyway. Anna Banana came and joined us for our movie adventure, and what do ya know, it was worse the second time through! haha! My evening was just splendid!

Now God has been laying on my heart a lot of things, and some things were things I thought were kinda done and over with, but God lets me know that nothing is over. It's odd really. I bring everything to Him, and try my best by being satisfied with his silence, and being patient (cuz I know patience for things, especially answers, are hard for me) and when I think I'm done, and it's been settled, honestly, He brings it to me that I'm not settled yet! So now I'm frusturated with myself, and trying to look to God once more, asking for the step that I just seem to be missing. If I could just get some prayer for my little pickle, I would really appreciate it!

Tonight is the Rockford Homecoming Game and I'm SOO EXCITED...unfortunately, the infamous "royalty" thing takes me away from my life! ARGH! That's my noise of frustration. Honestly! I just wanted to watch the game with all my friends, but noooo...I have to build a float. Grr....luckily people are getting together afterwards, so I can't be too angry, but still, can't they just fire me now?!

Non College Moment: Well would you look at that....my pictures aren't downloading...So....I got nothing for ya! Well, the picture was going to be at my coronation when we had some of the other royalty kiss us on the cheek, it made for a very cute picture.

Sister in Christ,
Amy <3

MmM...PrOpEl satisfies the thirst

I LOVE PROPEL! Seriously! It's soo good for you, and there's nothing really bad in there for you! It's better than water that's for sure. Bleh!

So I love my friends as usual! I mean like my friend Jake commented on my last one, and it just makes me happy to read comments from people, especially people who i never really thought of me as a good friend. So yay Jake, you rock at life!

So today, I had my Photo Appreciation class, and it was so good. We got our second projects back... I was so nervous. My first one he knocked off five points because I didn't type the question! So I had low hopes, but I got ten out of ten, so I still have an A-! Plus he is giving us extra credit, worth ten points, so I can be at a perfect A! I have faith in myself once again in this class. Now if I can just keep up the good work....well I'll be very proud of myself. I feel smart. Considering I have an A in that class, nothing lower than a B in my english, and I'm passing my orientation and math class. The only class I have a C in currently is my Media lecture because..well...I don't know. But I mean, I'm passing all my other classes! Go me.

I had this lecture tonight, his name was Fan Shen. He was the author of Gang of One, and the book is about the Cultural Revolution in China. It is an interesting book (we are not done with it yet in my English class) and like I was astounding for two reasons. One, the things he went through seem almost fictional, but once you meet the man, you take in the fact that THIS IS REAL....and EVERYTHING ACTUALLY HAPPENED. It's truly amazing to see someone that you've read about. The second reason was because he is an author. As you all know by now, I'm going to be an author, whether it makes me poor or not, and I just get excited to see other authors. Unfortunately my listening skills where terrible because it was really hot and I had a bad bad headache. So I felt really bad. PLUS, I didn't think of bringing my book, and I could have gotten it signed! It would have been my first one! How depressing is that eh? yah...I wasn't too happy bout myself.

I come home tomorrow! I hope to see a lot of people this weekend, especially the people i haven't seen in a while! I miss you all so much!
Sort of College Moment: So this was an awesome weekend at Camp Courage with just a few of my favorite people! It was a spontaneous sort of picture, and I didn't even realize how many people were in it until tonight! lol. You'll be seeing more of my pictures because there were so many good ones from the weekend!


Sister in Christ,
Amy <3

Always learning

I know it sounds retarded, but I am constantly learning things, especially when I go on retreats with my church. I was given the wonderful oppurtunity to be a leader for the youth group, since I'm not considered "the youth" anymore. Of course, I got butterflies. I get scared because I feel that sometimes I'm not qualified to give younger kids information, that I have no tried hard enough to read the bible and such. But in reality, it's all about God speakng through you, giving you the words to say, and the way to figure out how to do this....if you reall want him to. And I prayed about it. I ended up having the 7th and 8th graders for a group, and it was hard. The weekend was based about Dating, Courtship, Engagement, Marriage, and everything in between. Younger kids do not care about this, but of course, I got every little thing out of it.
(NOTE: if anyone is curious about it, I have the whole packet, and it would be a VERY good read)
I learned a lot about the opposite sex, and how are different (in more ways than I already knew) and I also learned a really big important thing. I learned how I had a hand in my own destruction of my relationship with Justin. Not gonna lie, it was very hard for me to grasp that concept, that I was the one who was broken up with, but it was a lot of my fault that it ended. I won't go into detail cuz not EVERYONE needs to know about these things, so again, if your close to me, just IM me (Amers1386). I'm open, just not this open...ya never know who's reading. haha. Anyway, this was a powerful weekend, and it was a God given thing that I was even able to attend this weekend. *~God is truly amazing~*

Another problem I was semi-having this weekend was that since I have been here at WSU, I have gotten rather close with MS. Anna Oeffling. She is a wonderful girl, and I've come accustomed to spending a lot of time with this girl, mainly because I WANT to, but also cuz she can relate to me so well. But this weekend, Johnny was there, and of course, they want to spend time together. This is totally understandable too because they go to sepereate schools and love eachother, and want to spend their time together, at the neccessary times. It was just stupid because I became jealous, at no fault of their own, and so I'm working on that. That was the downfall of my weekend, I felt abandoned, but by my own stupidity. They are cute and I love them to death so yah. Lol. I'm dumb...it happens

Once I got home, I got spend time with my mom for like 5 hours, and it was nice. I love my mom. She is a wonderful woman. We watched some movies, I bought her lunch, and it was nice. I should do that every Sunday, because I care, and she doesn't have a whole lot of people she can count on. Ahh..I'm all mushy. I'm also very proud of her because she has lost over 40lbs. in the last year or so, and ahh, she's looking so good. IF you know my mother and see her, TELL her she looks good, she'd appreciate it immensley. Ok, done being mushy.

School is going good, and ya know what? If I don't get accepted to Bethel, or to Northwestern College (which I JUST applied to today) it won't be the end of the world. Like I've applied to these schools because I would love to be at a Christian school, but I mean I might be meant to be here, it's not a bad thing. I just needed to get used to it. I'm not going to worry about it though. God has a plan, and I'm soothed by that alone. He's a good man, I think I can trust him. Haha. So yah, we'll see if I even get accepted, then i'll start thinking.

I get to come home WEDNESDAY NIGHT!! AHHH! Thank goodness for fall breaks! Gotta love them. It was also Johnny Patnodes 19th Birthday and Kelly Johnson's 21st Birthday on Sunday! SO HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BOTH, I love you both....you are good people!

Well, I'm done with that....I hope this satisfies my daily readers.


Non-college Moment: This is just in honor of John's birthday. This was taken this year at prom, and I love this picture! I actually look decent, and he is just a handsome young man. lol. Love you so much John Randall Patnode! Hope your birthday was exactly what you wanted it to be!





Sister in Christ,
Amy <3

Answer

~*~*~*~*~Answer~*~*~*~*~

I will be the answer,

at the end of the line

I will be there for you

while you take the time

in the burning of uncertainty

I will be your solid ground

I will hold the balance

if you can't look down

If it takes my whole life

I won't break, I won't bend

It will all be worth it

Worth it in the end

Cause I can only tell you what I know

That I need you in my life

When the starts have all gone out,

you'll still be burning so bright

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

This is a song from Sarah McLachlan, and it is such a beautiful song. I mean look at the words! ahh! It's so emotional, and heck I'm an emotional girl. Sorry, I had to be sappy tonight, cuz this is how I am tonight. Nothing more, nothing less. I know people feel like this sometimes, and Im in just in a love mood. Like I just want to be with a significant someone, just to be there with them. Sit on a couch and sleep and do nothing at all but love one another. And when I say a signifcant someone, I don't mean any certain person, I just mean someone who I can love, and have them love me back as much as anything in the world. What a feeling that would be. And I know God will bring this to me when I am ready, and I know it won't be now, but I'm a girl and I just miss it sometimes. I love my life, and I love God, and I love my friends, don't get me wrong, just on a cold night like tonight...I miss warm and comforting arms.

Sister in Christ,

Amy <3

Swim....swim....swim

Today was a good good day! Well..sorta. So I woke up today to find a not so friendly e-mail. It totally sucked! It offended me greatly, and in anger, I wrote back. LESSON 253: Don't write letters when you are angry. You look like a fool and regret it later. I've come to learn this quite well, but not well enough where I actually stop doin it. Then I got another e-mail back with their apologizes, and now I feel like this biggest fool in the entire world. so here I go:

I'm sorry I suck. My bad. I know you read this so I know you'll see this. I hate the way I am sometimes, and don't mean to be so...like the way I am. I love you very much.

Anyway...So I had to walk all the way to K-mart in this sickening humidity. That was my fault though. I needed to develop pictures for my class that was at 1:00 (mind you it's like 11:30) So I needed to do it! I was really happy though because a lot of people in my class liked my pictures, and that just boosted my spirit for the reason that I thought I did bad in this class. I jsut don't feel creative there, just dumb. So that boosted my self esteem big time.

Tonight was IV and it was good as usual. Just being in that atmosphere lifts my spirits, like I write every week. We had an African American speaker named Cal talk tonight, and he basically shared a piece of his life story with us. It was intriguing to listen him talk about the 40's through the 70's on what his life was like. It's jsut amazing what people go through. I was very interested and I was so interested in what he had to say.

I also went swimming tonight! yaya! I feel refreshed, and i'm sure i'll hurt tomorrow. It makes me feel good though that I actually attempted exercise, now I don't feel so bad for all that Ice cream I eat. FACT: two pints of Ben and Jerry's ice cream is the equilvence to a pound in calories...sick sick sick
Not college moment: Look! I'm a princess and I have the cutest baby ever...who looks a lot like my father! haha! I love it! He's my nephew Jack and my half sister Sarah brought him to my coronation this summer. YAAY BABIES!

Sister in Christ,
Amy <3

So I just took a test

So, I took this test on Quizzila or something, and it was about which animal personality I have. These were my results:


What Is Your Animal Personality?
brought to you by Quizilla

Does this fit? YAY OR NAY??? That's all I wanted to say.....night all!

Such a demand!!

I laugh because I have realized that many people seem to live off my blog coughcough::Samantha::coughcough so I'm sorry to all who depend on me! So here it is, a fresh new edition to "The college life of amy"

So this weekend was amazing, as usual! It is always a breath of fresh air to enter back into that oh so familiar world of Delano/Rockford. I especially love it because the trees on County Rd. 11 are becoming beautiful shades of oranges, reds, browns, and everything inbetween. It was also Homecoming on Friday and even though I figured I would never attend a Delano Homecoming game again, Abby Oeffling was dancing for half time, and if you haven't found out by now: I love dancing! Over the years, I've realized I'm just not made for danceline, so I live through other people. haha. It went well and I was very proud of her! Rock on Abs! The rest of that evening went well because Ali and I met up with Lee and ate at Applebees, where Gilby and Jake Haseltine were! *Note to all: Gilby has this love test on his profile, DONT TAKE IT! Whatever you write on there is directly sent to him....I'm too gullible....learn from my mistake!* Then at midnight or so, we wandered over to Natrop's, and Mark,Lee, Ali, Natrop, and myself, sat in Adam's bedroom just talking and laughing and catching up on things. I cherished that night because I don't have any guy friends at school, and so basically I go 2 weeks before I get to be with boys! And I'm a flirtatious person, so it's killing me inside. Too much built up energy. Haha. That night ended around 1:45 AM, and bed never looked so sweet.

Saturday was truly a busy busy day. I woke up at the ripe time of 12:00pm (Ali at 12:30) and we spent the good chunk of the early afternoon getting ready for the MALL OF AMERICA! Woo hoo! As luck would have it, Adam and Lee wanted to come with us (poor fellows....) so we picked them up and went on our merry way at like 3:00 or so! We walked around what felt like forever, and I found out that Lee was a good person to go shopping with! He bough more than Ali, Adam, and I put together! Ohhh Lee...I should go shopping with him more! =) Adam did buy me a button though and it said: Stupid is as stupid does, and it had a big smiley face on it. Insult or not I love it! After shopping for a good 3 or 4 hours, it was time to pick up Justin! On our way over there, we started listening to classical music, and Lee pulled out his air violin. Let's just say you had to be there, but it was the funniest thing ever! We got Justin, and then decided that we should get some people together at Adam's house, just so we could all see one another! That was really fun! WE made fun of Sarah, Jesse fell asleep, I got to see Med, Justin was acting gay with almost all the boys...what more could you ask for in an evening? Sadly, around 1 or so, it was time to leave. Funny thing was, I was half way home when Justin called and said that he left his backpack in the trunk of my car. So I turned around, and suddenly got a boost of energy. I turned on 101.3 and it had this good dance song on, and Jesse (I was giving him a ride home) started dancing in the backseat for a good 2 minutes. He was flailing about as if he were on fire! And then he died. So Saturday proved to be a joyous day.

Sunday I got to see Heidi Fair! She has such a cute little bump to her! AWww...she's due in January... in case anyone was wondering... well church was good because Mark spoke about forgiveness and love, and he presented it in a good way, and it really got you to think about God's love, and forgiveness of others, and well.... Bravo Mark! I think you'll make a good pastor someday. But sundays are sundays, and they are usually pretty lazy, and not much interestingness in them. That's okay, it's the SABBATH....

Retard Moment: So I'm talking to Justin on the phone Friday night, and I asked him what he was doing on Saturday. He replies, "I'm taking my Sabbath tomorrow." I pause, think about it, and blurt out, "Is that like a test or something?" Yes yes....Laugh at the fool....


College Moment: Ok, so dude... this blue thing in the picture is this storage container that came with all my bedding package delio. Well, I totally forgot about it, and it made for a perfect suitcase! It's just so COOL! And wow...not a very flattering picture, but oh well!

Friends Quote:
Ross: A thumb?
Phoebe: I know. I know. I opened it up, and there is was, just floating in there, like this tiny little hitch-hiker.
Chandler: Maybe it's a contest, you know, like, "collect all five."

Oh yes, and it's OCTOBER!!!!! It's the best month in the world! And only 18 days until my birthday! Woo hoo! Everyone better buy me something pretty....haha

Sister in Christ,
Amy <3