That's what I think of my miniature excursion (sp?) to Bethel. ahhahaah. So here is all the good news that fell upon me today:
I got to leave work early so I could meet up with miss Natalie Herringshaw to go to the Housing Office at Bethel to figure out if I can live with her and her room mates next semester. So then when I get to Natalie's room, I get the pleasure of talking with Julia and... goll Chelsea? They are funny and great. Julia will be my soon to be room mate! So Natalie and I talked to Housing and basically the girl that is leaving hasn't withdrawn yet so she wrote my name down and so basically went I get my housing stuff I'll just write the girls names down and bam, I'm in! So basically I get to live there!! Then I went to see Vicki Sanford (Transfer counselor woman...) And we hugged and laughed and talked and she told me that when we get the housing stuff she'll call me and fill it out for me so I don't have to do it! Isn't that awesome? I mean woah, she's doing all the hard work for me! Then I got to go back to Nat's dorm and we just talked about relationships. It was nice to have that bonding moment with her. Then her room mates came back, we had some laughs, talked about the strangest of things and then I went to get my total price for bethel next semester. This is the best part of it all. So I had to sign up for my monthly payment plan today and after entering the price for the semester minus my grants and scholarships (yes.. I got a Faculty Academic Scholarship! I didn't even notice that!!) and the subsidized and unsubsidized stafford loans, I owe $1700 or so!!!! I mean dude, it's awesome. So I made my first payment to my school!! AHHHHH!!!1 It's time to get excited cuz this means I'm going. Everything is working out! I GET TO GO TO SCHOOL! YIPEEEE!!!!!!
Okay, I'm done. Sorry. I'm just a litle...er... ecstatic!!!
Other news, something big happened, and it's kinda wierd that it didn't go exactly as I planned. Of course I'm not gonna talk about it just yet cuz it's not mine to share, but I'll still talk about the effects it has on me. So this thing that is big was supposed to go differently, and as I was rather excited, I was also sad. This thing was going to kinda leave it's mark and as happy I was that this thing was happening, I wasn't ready to let it go. It's stupid that it didn't happen, and I have to wait a while to figure out why, but now I'm left to wonder why? What made this decision happen? Distance? Relationships? Comfort? So many questions but none to be answered just yet! ahh!! The agony a week can bring. I'm guessing comfort, or not what was remembered from before.
------> Funny thing is, No ONE knows what the heck I'm talking about and most of you are probably confused. lol. Poor soul.
Anyway, I'm also starting the planning of the infamous Christmas party!! So far my plan is the 29th of December at Adam's house. I'll have to add some helpers for this just because I wanna make sure everything works out. But yah, I figured I better start early so there is no rush rush and that people arent' forgotten. And my goodness we have a lot of friends!! I mean there are 27 people on the list right now! yikes!! But of course I love this and I'm glad it's that big!
My Tired as Anna would say
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Sunday, November 19, 2006
OH that's good
“Only in America - do drugstores make the sick walk all the way to the back of the store to get their prescriptions while healthy people can buy cigarettes at the front of the store”
I love it. Haha. And it's sooo true. Anyway... you guys get the point. I'm ill. And no, not ill in the mind (though sometimes I wonder) but ill in the body. Pretty sure Perkins is trying to kill me. So my best advice to give at this point is one: Don't get the chicken. And two: Don't go to Perkins. Hahaaha. Seriously though I did get food posioning and it was pretty bad. (If you want details i'll gladly share with you. Just not here) But the funny part in all of this is: On Friday I weighed about 142 lbs. Now here I sit Sunday morning at 132 lbs. Heck yes. Maybe feeling like your dying is relaly worth it. But of course it's prob. just water weight or osmething cuz I don't feel like I look different. Bah. Well it was nice while it lasted.
Oh and is it sad to say I miss my friends already? I mean heck, I spent my SATURDAY dying on the couch. I'd rather be working then be in that same position again. I just wanted to play and watch movies and eat junk food and laugh. But no I had to be ill. But the good news is everyone will be home in a couple of days again because it is THANKSGIVING BREAK!! YAY!!! I'm really really excited about that. I mean yah, thanksgiving to me isn't all that good, but there are soo many days to see friends!! Of course now that I'm a manager I have to work more... and I don't know how I feel about that. Sigh. But I was thinking maybe I could let them give me a schedule of Sunday to Thursday. I could do like sunday and monday mornings and then close tuesday wednesday thursday. I doubt they'll let me do that but one can only hope. Cuz I mean I don't start school until January, so I still have plenty of time to work 40 hrs a week. Let's just hope they go for that. Anyway....
I've been writing more in my book again. And I'm getting really excited. I mean in the "Week" that I'm writing in right now, I have to write about the wake and the funeral and then the end, and I'm done with that! Then I believe I have a couple month gap between the week and the rest of the book so I'm really excited. I mean yah it's not perfect and I'm sure I've weaved in and out with the past/present tense on things, and it just totally needs to be edited, but hey, it's a start. I wonder how many pages it would be. I have about 160 pages. That's not too shabby. I mean by the time I'm all said and down I'll have over 200. I'm not sure what the average book contains, but for a first book, well.... let's just hope for the best. =)
Okay I'm worn out. I'm gonna go. Ciao.
I love it. Haha. And it's sooo true. Anyway... you guys get the point. I'm ill. And no, not ill in the mind (though sometimes I wonder) but ill in the body. Pretty sure Perkins is trying to kill me. So my best advice to give at this point is one: Don't get the chicken. And two: Don't go to Perkins. Hahaaha. Seriously though I did get food posioning and it was pretty bad. (If you want details i'll gladly share with you. Just not here) But the funny part in all of this is: On Friday I weighed about 142 lbs. Now here I sit Sunday morning at 132 lbs. Heck yes. Maybe feeling like your dying is relaly worth it. But of course it's prob. just water weight or osmething cuz I don't feel like I look different. Bah. Well it was nice while it lasted.
Oh and is it sad to say I miss my friends already? I mean heck, I spent my SATURDAY dying on the couch. I'd rather be working then be in that same position again. I just wanted to play and watch movies and eat junk food and laugh. But no I had to be ill. But the good news is everyone will be home in a couple of days again because it is THANKSGIVING BREAK!! YAY!!! I'm really really excited about that. I mean yah, thanksgiving to me isn't all that good, but there are soo many days to see friends!! Of course now that I'm a manager I have to work more... and I don't know how I feel about that. Sigh. But I was thinking maybe I could let them give me a schedule of Sunday to Thursday. I could do like sunday and monday mornings and then close tuesday wednesday thursday. I doubt they'll let me do that but one can only hope. Cuz I mean I don't start school until January, so I still have plenty of time to work 40 hrs a week. Let's just hope they go for that. Anyway....
I've been writing more in my book again. And I'm getting really excited. I mean in the "Week" that I'm writing in right now, I have to write about the wake and the funeral and then the end, and I'm done with that! Then I believe I have a couple month gap between the week and the rest of the book so I'm really excited. I mean yah it's not perfect and I'm sure I've weaved in and out with the past/present tense on things, and it just totally needs to be edited, but hey, it's a start. I wonder how many pages it would be. I have about 160 pages. That's not too shabby. I mean by the time I'm all said and down I'll have over 200. I'm not sure what the average book contains, but for a first book, well.... let's just hope for the best. =)
Okay I'm worn out. I'm gonna go. Ciao.
Thursday, November 16, 2006
As Dory would say, I speak WHALE
Work consumes me.... my writing has come to a minimal... I will update... just at the right time
So... anyone hungry? haha........ ok
Fin
So... anyone hungry? haha........ ok
Fin
Sunday, November 05, 2006
A poem in the rush of things
Stop
I never wanted more than this
This was all it was meant to be
A life of broken promises, of cheating and deceit
This is the life the world was giving me
And I took it
In the spinning and twirling of this world
I danced in all its glory
Ignorance is bliss is what they say, oh it’s what they say
But I found a secret, wrapped in all of the leaves and the muck
The secret taught me the truth
Now it was my time, do I stay or do I go
Do I truly live or do I die?
In a moment all was lost, in a moment I lost control
The lies were no longer good enough, the deceit was washed away
In my life a hole was filled, a hole I didn’t know existed
When everything is taken away, what will be left?
So I come back to you now with these things to think
If ignorance is bliss, is it worth it?
Is it worth it to die instead of truly live?
Dark
I never wanted more than this
This was all it was meant to be
A life of broken promises, of cheating and deceit
This is the life the world was giving me
And I took it
In the spinning and twirling of this world
I danced in all its glory
Ignorance is bliss is what they say, oh it’s what they say
But I found a secret, wrapped in all of the leaves and the muck
The secret taught me the truth
Now it was my time, do I stay or do I go
Do I truly live or do I die?
In a moment all was lost, in a moment I lost control
The lies were no longer good enough, the deceit was washed away
In my life a hole was filled, a hole I didn’t know existed
When everything is taken away, what will be left?
So I come back to you now with these things to think
If ignorance is bliss, is it worth it?
Is it worth it to die instead of truly live?
Dark
Friday, November 03, 2006
Sorry for the anger
once upon a time there was a girl
this girl was a very very very happy girl
This girl was a very happy girl with a $3000 check
So she took it to the bank to cash it not only for money but all her hopes and dreams as well
But then she walked inside and the teller ripped her heart out.
She ripped it out and stabbed it over and over again
This once happy girl was screaming and crying, praying to God she'd just die
But instead God left her alive and gave her back her broken heart.
Her punishment for having hopes and dreams was to wander the world forever bitter for being selfish.
I didn't get the loan
Thursday, November 02, 2006
fairy tales come true right?
"Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts." Winston Churchill
I mean that really says it all for me today.
Or even better. This saying is much closer to my heart than dear Winston will ever be:
". . . The race is not [always] to the swift, nor the battle to the strong. . ." [Ecclesiastes 9:11] Bible
What am I talking about? OH, the gloriousness of God and all that he does of course. It's a shame I only glorify his name in His miracles and not when I'm stuck knee deep. But He truly is everything anyone would ever need. Wow. Just take a step back from everything and stand in awe of what your life is and what it would be without Him.
All of this is because I get to go to school this spring. I got my financial aid stuff on Monday and they basically rewarded me $10,000 (that's including student employment, so i try not to count that) The semester costs like $14,920 so when I do the real math of it all, I owe $5,888 or so. Now to the amazing part. Wells Fargo offers this small dollar loan for people who don't have credit, and need to build some without a cosigner (or something to that effect) They let you take up to $3,000. The catch is in order to take that money out, I have to HAVE $3,000, which we all know I don't. So my idea was to talk to my grandparents to get them to help me. I mean they get their money back in about a week and I get my loan. So today I finally went to their house. I was so nervous, it was unbelievable. I prayed to God to calm me cuz I know I could not do it alone, and I just said this over and over and then eventually called Adam cuz I just couldn't stop panicking. But from the moment I stepped into the house, to the moment I left, I was as calm as a cucumber. I dont' know what happened. The only way to explain it was that it was a miracle from God. I feel shameful for doubting God in ANY of his plans, and not having faith in Him. So this is all good, but also an eye opener to the power of God. Now I know the math doesn't add up, I still owe $2,888. That's where the monthly installments come in. Bethel has a montly plan and that way I can work and save and it's just all coming together so nicely. I'm really happy. really really really happy. So thank you to all who prayed for me and I still need prayer while all of this paper work and technical stuff go on. Thank you all again. I love you.
Amy
I mean that really says it all for me today.
Or even better. This saying is much closer to my heart than dear Winston will ever be:
". . . The race is not [always] to the swift, nor the battle to the strong. . ." [Ecclesiastes 9:11] Bible
What am I talking about? OH, the gloriousness of God and all that he does of course. It's a shame I only glorify his name in His miracles and not when I'm stuck knee deep. But He truly is everything anyone would ever need. Wow. Just take a step back from everything and stand in awe of what your life is and what it would be without Him.
All of this is because I get to go to school this spring. I got my financial aid stuff on Monday and they basically rewarded me $10,000 (that's including student employment, so i try not to count that) The semester costs like $14,920 so when I do the real math of it all, I owe $5,888 or so. Now to the amazing part. Wells Fargo offers this small dollar loan for people who don't have credit, and need to build some without a cosigner (or something to that effect) They let you take up to $3,000. The catch is in order to take that money out, I have to HAVE $3,000, which we all know I don't. So my idea was to talk to my grandparents to get them to help me. I mean they get their money back in about a week and I get my loan. So today I finally went to their house. I was so nervous, it was unbelievable. I prayed to God to calm me cuz I know I could not do it alone, and I just said this over and over and then eventually called Adam cuz I just couldn't stop panicking. But from the moment I stepped into the house, to the moment I left, I was as calm as a cucumber. I dont' know what happened. The only way to explain it was that it was a miracle from God. I feel shameful for doubting God in ANY of his plans, and not having faith in Him. So this is all good, but also an eye opener to the power of God. Now I know the math doesn't add up, I still owe $2,888. That's where the monthly installments come in. Bethel has a montly plan and that way I can work and save and it's just all coming together so nicely. I'm really happy. really really really happy. So thank you to all who prayed for me and I still need prayer while all of this paper work and technical stuff go on. Thank you all again. I love you.
Amy
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