Everyone is home!! Everyone is ready for a break!! And Me... this just means I'm one step closer to school =) Gah... I don't even know how to react to that thought. Not living here, going to classes, taking tests, oh wow. Overload of emotions. I guess my prayer for all of this is that I don't take it for granted. I'll only have it for so long (hopefully) and I don't wanna spend my days being mad about taking tests and studying. I wanna welcome it because it's what I wanted and God provided for a reason. Amen to that.
Life has been good. I have no complaints. My car wants to die... I'm thinking it's not really fond of cold weather and winter. Nope. I think it'd rather drive south for the winter. Too bad that's not gonna happen. But I'm gonna stay calm about it because getting frustrated doesn't do anything and I already had my frustrated day. So I'm good! Lol.
Work is work. Since when is it ever a wonderful thing? I mean I really like being a manager. I like computer stuff and dealing with money. It just takes a while to feel comfortable doing it alone. But I hope everyone thinks I'm doing a good job. Most people are listening to me, some like to fluff my feathers but I think they respect me as a manager. I'm pretty happy about all of it.
So I was supposed to watch James' house for a week, but then I found out that I wasn't going to anymore. THEN I get a call saying that they really would like me to do it and so I jumped at the oppurtunity! I mean it's great. I'm going to be in Rockford so I'm closer to my friends and I'm closer to work AND I'll have the alone time I want so I can write my book. I need to get that done! So it's just a great thing. And they are paying me! I dont' think they need to, but they insist. And let me say, it's a good sum of money. I'm quite happy abotu all of this. Besides that week my brother (yes... I have a brother! hah) is going to Peru with his wife for two weeks so he wants me to watch the house while they are gone. It shall be interesting. My only worry about that one is he lives in the basement of his mother.... and that's my dad's ex-wife. I think it might be awkward but maybe we won't bump into eachother a lot. That'd be nice.
My Christmas party is coming up! I hope everyone is coming and sorry if you don't have invitations yet. Gah... mail sometimes is difficult. But man... this is looking pretty big. Really big. So... we might be moving it to the church! Hopefully that actually works out otherwise we don't know what the heck we'll do! But I'm a planner... .it'll be all worked out.
My hair is short. Really short
I have to go to work... so I bid you all farewell and Merry Christmas!!
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
Monday, December 11, 2006
I conquered the LoveSac <3 <3
Yes... so it was on December 10th, 2006 that I, Amy Vergin, slept on Anna's LoveSac and did not wake up freaking out because my leg was completely numb. Yep. Don't bother asking questions. It's a strange story and well, that's basically the gist (jist?) of it. So it goes...
My weekend was FANTASTIC. I mean I had Friday and Saturday off. To top it off, I got to hang out with Sarah and it was one on one for most of it. And I've been having issues with groups and such lately so it was just really good. I hate making people feel left out and I hate ignoring them cuz most of the time, I WANT to be really close with everyone, but I don't put in a lot of effort. So then it sizzles and dies and I feel really bad. But we went to Panera and ate and talked and she met some of my managers/fellow employees. Then we ran around Target and then went to see The Holiday with Kara in Delano. It was really good. It was a nice chick flick to see because boys never let us see girly movies without making fun of them. YES boys... I like them, I watch them, and I am giggly when love happens in them, which is all the time. So leave me alone. lol. But the rest of the night was spent at Adam's talking about... well, how to talk about God and really bring our group alive again. It was really good. I enjoyed it. Now a couple of us are reading Romans:1 and are going to discuss it at a further date. Which is good. Gives me an excuse to read the bible (like I don't have an excuse now? goll..) and then we can discuss... so I can be learned in our Lord. FINALLY.
Saturday was really super early, but quite an adventure. I met Laura and Abby (from PA! I love her!) at the Mall of America because Abby had never been since she was from PA. What a perfect time to be in Minnesota, because there is the world's larget ginger bread house inside the mall. But woah, I'm jumping ahead of myself.
LAURA: So to get to the Mall I need to go North on 494 and then...
AMY: Yes, go North and then you'll just see signs. It's not hard to miss. It's probably about 20 minutes
LAURA: So North, and a bunch of signs? Okay. Easy enough
(Fast forward 10 minutes until we are supposed to meet and Laura calls again)
LAURA: Does 494 turn into 94?
AMY: Uh.. yah, why?
LAURA: Cuz I'm there... I'm in Brooklyn Center
AMY: OMG!!! I'm sorry!! YOU were saying you were going North, but I thought you mean South so I just agreed!!
Yah, pretty much I'm a flame and got them lost because when I say N or S or whatever, I never know what I'm saying, I just know the direction I need to go. SO I thought she knew where she was going. Haha. Apparently not. So that was that. But Abby LOOOVVEED the Mall and we saw the big house (The outside is way better than the inside) and we rode a ride that Abby could not believe we were on inside of a mall. We also met up with a girl named Robin who also did YWAM and rode rides with her and got breakfast and went shopping. Speaking of shopping. We were in Urban Outfitters and I was looking at this book that was cool but I decided I didn't want it. We walk out of the store and I grab the map of MOA in my hand and lo and behold, the book was with it! The alarms didn't go off or anything! I totally forgot about it. My mouth just opened relaly wide and I was like: I'm a SHOPLIFTER!!! I mean we returned it and everything but it was just scary for a second. But now I can say I've shoplifted before. Woo hay. Besides that, we just bought things.
I also went to see my manager Russ' kids on Sat. because I hadn't seen them in a while. We played for like 2 1/2 hours and then they bought me pizza. Mmmmm. It was great. The girls love me and I feel like they are siblings I never had. I mean younger siblings. I don't know how to react to little kids. It's funny.
I also went to Adam's for a while and played Don't Break the Ice and hung out and then went to Anna's!!! That was wonderful. I mean I hadn't seen Anna in a while, and Laura and Abby were sleeping over. And then Karrah actually showed up and we were all amazed. We all laughed so hard. We all just go way bad so we can talk and talk forever about things and then switch to stuff going on now, and I just know that our friendships are good. I got a little mopey cuz I seem to not know things that have recently happened to my friends which is ridiculous, but oh well. We were up till almost 3 AM. It was great. I wish I could always spend my Sat. nights doing that. Being with just the girls. It doesn't happen much, especially with those girls. Except who am I kidding. I love boys. Anyway, it was nice. And I love them all.
So as everyone knows, I'm house sitting over Christmas break for James. It's interesting. I just am confused on why I was chosen to do this job? Like his parents met me once months ago, and as for James. I mean we were talking a lot for a while, but it's def. minimal now. And he called me and the last time we talked on the phone was this summer. So it is all really bizarre and I'm not sure how to feel about this. But hey I'll do it cuz I love the house, I love the dogs, and well yah. That's about it.
Oh yah, someone is paying for my school. EEP. wow. Yikes. amen. sigh. really? woah. huh... yep. Those are the things that come out of my mouth when I speak of this. It's crazy and I can't believe it's happening. I mean it's great and yet it scares me. my worries are like one, if I can't do it on my own now, I never will be able to, and then I will be a failure and not go back next fall. But again, I think God is teaching me to be humble because it's really hard to take people's money. I feel awkward doing it. I don't know why. I wanna do it on my own, but obviously it's not possible right now. Like I MISSED a semester because I couldn't do it by myself. And the fact that I'm going this semester is a miracle. A true miracle. How the heck am I only paying $1600? What the frick? I don't know. I praise God for it though. That's that. This blog is long. Sorry.
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My weekend was FANTASTIC. I mean I had Friday and Saturday off. To top it off, I got to hang out with Sarah and it was one on one for most of it. And I've been having issues with groups and such lately so it was just really good. I hate making people feel left out and I hate ignoring them cuz most of the time, I WANT to be really close with everyone, but I don't put in a lot of effort. So then it sizzles and dies and I feel really bad. But we went to Panera and ate and talked and she met some of my managers/fellow employees. Then we ran around Target and then went to see The Holiday with Kara in Delano. It was really good. It was a nice chick flick to see because boys never let us see girly movies without making fun of them. YES boys... I like them, I watch them, and I am giggly when love happens in them, which is all the time. So leave me alone. lol. But the rest of the night was spent at Adam's talking about... well, how to talk about God and really bring our group alive again. It was really good. I enjoyed it. Now a couple of us are reading Romans:1 and are going to discuss it at a further date. Which is good. Gives me an excuse to read the bible (like I don't have an excuse now? goll..) and then we can discuss... so I can be learned in our Lord. FINALLY.
Saturday was really super early, but quite an adventure. I met Laura and Abby (from PA! I love her!) at the Mall of America because Abby had never been since she was from PA. What a perfect time to be in Minnesota, because there is the world's larget ginger bread house inside the mall. But woah, I'm jumping ahead of myself.
LAURA: So to get to the Mall I need to go North on 494 and then...
AMY: Yes, go North and then you'll just see signs. It's not hard to miss. It's probably about 20 minutes
LAURA: So North, and a bunch of signs? Okay. Easy enough
(Fast forward 10 minutes until we are supposed to meet and Laura calls again)
LAURA: Does 494 turn into 94?
AMY: Uh.. yah, why?
LAURA: Cuz I'm there... I'm in Brooklyn Center
AMY: OMG!!! I'm sorry!! YOU were saying you were going North, but I thought you mean South so I just agreed!!
Yah, pretty much I'm a flame and got them lost because when I say N or S or whatever, I never know what I'm saying, I just know the direction I need to go. SO I thought she knew where she was going. Haha. Apparently not. So that was that. But Abby LOOOVVEED the Mall and we saw the big house (The outside is way better than the inside) and we rode a ride that Abby could not believe we were on inside of a mall. We also met up with a girl named Robin who also did YWAM and rode rides with her and got breakfast and went shopping. Speaking of shopping. We were in Urban Outfitters and I was looking at this book that was cool but I decided I didn't want it. We walk out of the store and I grab the map of MOA in my hand and lo and behold, the book was with it! The alarms didn't go off or anything! I totally forgot about it. My mouth just opened relaly wide and I was like: I'm a SHOPLIFTER!!! I mean we returned it and everything but it was just scary for a second. But now I can say I've shoplifted before. Woo hay. Besides that, we just bought things.
I also went to see my manager Russ' kids on Sat. because I hadn't seen them in a while. We played for like 2 1/2 hours and then they bought me pizza. Mmmmm. It was great. The girls love me and I feel like they are siblings I never had. I mean younger siblings. I don't know how to react to little kids. It's funny.
I also went to Adam's for a while and played Don't Break the Ice and hung out and then went to Anna's!!! That was wonderful. I mean I hadn't seen Anna in a while, and Laura and Abby were sleeping over. And then Karrah actually showed up and we were all amazed. We all laughed so hard. We all just go way bad so we can talk and talk forever about things and then switch to stuff going on now, and I just know that our friendships are good. I got a little mopey cuz I seem to not know things that have recently happened to my friends which is ridiculous, but oh well. We were up till almost 3 AM. It was great. I wish I could always spend my Sat. nights doing that. Being with just the girls. It doesn't happen much, especially with those girls. Except who am I kidding. I love boys. Anyway, it was nice. And I love them all.
So as everyone knows, I'm house sitting over Christmas break for James. It's interesting. I just am confused on why I was chosen to do this job? Like his parents met me once months ago, and as for James. I mean we were talking a lot for a while, but it's def. minimal now. And he called me and the last time we talked on the phone was this summer. So it is all really bizarre and I'm not sure how to feel about this. But hey I'll do it cuz I love the house, I love the dogs, and well yah. That's about it.
Oh yah, someone is paying for my school. EEP. wow. Yikes. amen. sigh. really? woah. huh... yep. Those are the things that come out of my mouth when I speak of this. It's crazy and I can't believe it's happening. I mean it's great and yet it scares me. my worries are like one, if I can't do it on my own now, I never will be able to, and then I will be a failure and not go back next fall. But again, I think God is teaching me to be humble because it's really hard to take people's money. I feel awkward doing it. I don't know why. I wanna do it on my own, but obviously it's not possible right now. Like I MISSED a semester because I couldn't do it by myself. And the fact that I'm going this semester is a miracle. A true miracle. How the heck am I only paying $1600? What the frick? I don't know. I praise God for it though. That's that. This blog is long. Sorry.
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Wednesday, December 06, 2006
Son of Sam in all his glory
So I am determined to make that "other" post not be the last thing I write since... well... it's sickly depressing. Heh. I talked to Sam about the issure; all is good there. Now it's just talking to Anna. Which I might avoid. Only because she has so much going on that I really don't wanna weigh her down with anything else. So... saved for another day I suppose. But I've been talked to and all things are great once more.
Now today I was on facebook and I just got invited to the Bethel Christmast Banquet and I couldn't be more excited!!! I don't know if I'm allowed to go, but if i'm going heck yes!! Then I get to go buy a pretty dress and everything!! YAY! How exciting.
So apparently there was this guy who killed 23 people in the last eight years and was found today. So I was reading through this but was quickly distracted by this picture link thing that had all these other notorious killers. The had Ted bundy and that Darhm or something guy who like skinned people or something, and then came David Berkowitz aka Son of Sam. And then I was like huh.. wonder if he still alive. Turns out, he is. But I wanted to know more. So I found this link that gave me all this information. It's sickely interesting. I'll give it to you guys in case anyone else is curious.
http://www.crimelibrary.com/serial_killers/notorious/berkowitz/letter_1.html
Seriously.. it's good. It's kinda long, but i like it. I think someday after I've finished reading the books in my "library" I will buy one of like that or about all the famous killers. I don't mean this in a wierd way, but it is fascinating to learn about these people and all the problems they had and why they did the things they did. Anyone with me? eh? lol okay.. .that's my rant about son of sam. What a crazy fool.
Now today I was on facebook and I just got invited to the Bethel Christmast Banquet and I couldn't be more excited!!! I don't know if I'm allowed to go, but if i'm going heck yes!! Then I get to go buy a pretty dress and everything!! YAY! How exciting.
Last night I went to St. Thomas last night to see my beloved Jen!! And I actually got to see Karrah cuz she met up with us. It was a lot of fun. We watched Gilmore Girls, ate Mac and Cheese and then created the christmas cards and my gift basket for Laura and Abby! We talked and laughed and then took really random pictures of me, Jen, and her stuffed lion Rory. I don't know why I love that thing so much but I do; I really do. If you are interested, there is a photo album... on facebook. Hahaha. I'm wierd.. yep.. pretty much. I wish all my Tuesdays were that eventful.
So apparently there was this guy who killed 23 people in the last eight years and was found today. So I was reading through this but was quickly distracted by this picture link thing that had all these other notorious killers. The had Ted bundy and that Darhm or something guy who like skinned people or something, and then came David Berkowitz aka Son of Sam. And then I was like huh.. wonder if he still alive. Turns out, he is. But I wanted to know more. So I found this link that gave me all this information. It's sickely interesting. I'll give it to you guys in case anyone else is curious.
http://www.crimelibrary.com/serial_killers/notorious/berkowitz/letter_1.html
Seriously.. it's good. It's kinda long, but i like it. I think someday after I've finished reading the books in my "library" I will buy one of like that or about all the famous killers. I don't mean this in a wierd way, but it is fascinating to learn about these people and all the problems they had and why they did the things they did. Anyone with me? eh? lol okay.. .that's my rant about son of sam. What a crazy fool.
Monday, December 04, 2006
You are my sweetest downfall
I know... it's like I TRY to find reasons not to be happy. I really don't. It just... I dunno.. happens?
So I spent the good part of a year building strong relationships with two wonderful people. Like I couldn't imagine life without them. And one friendship came from a break up. go figure. And the other came from me not wanting to choose a school, and just chose the only one I applied to. Now all I see is them... and not me. And it's stupid. Why was I pushed away when all I want to do is draw closer to them? Neither of them even TRY to contact me, and i'm pretty sure I try really hard with them. Okay, so I'm not getting married, and I don't have a boyfriend, do they really have to snub me for it? I've done everything I can to help with the wedding,but they don't even want my help. Yet others are asked. I mean they don't even care that I got into school that I'm happy in life right now. They couldn't care less or give me the time of day. I might as well be dead to them, cuz I doubt it'd phase them. Yes yes.. I'm in it.. sorta. Which is good. But it almost feels like i'm an obligation really. Well of course I should be in it (people say) because John and I have been friends forever... and Anna... well goll we lived with eachother for six months straight. Then I start to think what if I'm not even WANTED in the wedding anymore? I mean, you can't take that back from someone. How does one say, "hey.. um... I've been rethinking this wedding thing..." You don't. you just don't. So now they are just stuck with me. I don't get it.
As for the other one, well... she just stopped talking to me. I'm not sure what I did wrong. I'm sorry that you got what you wanted and I was left to figure it all out for myself. I'm sorry I'm not good enough for once a month.
I feel sad. I know I have other friends that I love dearly, but sometimes its just hard to lose ones you thought were gonna stay with you for at least longer than what it has been. Am I too crazy for them? Maybe. Well I'm sorry that I'm not serious enough, or I'm not a workaholic or perfect. I'm sorry i'm not loved like you guys are.
So I spent the good part of a year building strong relationships with two wonderful people. Like I couldn't imagine life without them. And one friendship came from a break up. go figure. And the other came from me not wanting to choose a school, and just chose the only one I applied to. Now all I see is them... and not me. And it's stupid. Why was I pushed away when all I want to do is draw closer to them? Neither of them even TRY to contact me, and i'm pretty sure I try really hard with them. Okay, so I'm not getting married, and I don't have a boyfriend, do they really have to snub me for it? I've done everything I can to help with the wedding,but they don't even want my help. Yet others are asked. I mean they don't even care that I got into school that I'm happy in life right now. They couldn't care less or give me the time of day. I might as well be dead to them, cuz I doubt it'd phase them. Yes yes.. I'm in it.. sorta. Which is good. But it almost feels like i'm an obligation really. Well of course I should be in it (people say) because John and I have been friends forever... and Anna... well goll we lived with eachother for six months straight. Then I start to think what if I'm not even WANTED in the wedding anymore? I mean, you can't take that back from someone. How does one say, "hey.. um... I've been rethinking this wedding thing..." You don't. you just don't. So now they are just stuck with me. I don't get it.
As for the other one, well... she just stopped talking to me. I'm not sure what I did wrong. I'm sorry that you got what you wanted and I was left to figure it all out for myself. I'm sorry I'm not good enough for once a month.
I feel sad. I know I have other friends that I love dearly, but sometimes its just hard to lose ones you thought were gonna stay with you for at least longer than what it has been. Am I too crazy for them? Maybe. Well I'm sorry that I'm not serious enough, or I'm not a workaholic or perfect. I'm sorry i'm not loved like you guys are.
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