My 95 Theses

hah Just kidding. It's my 95th post so I figured I'd just be silly. Haha fooled you all... yah... anyway....

Today is Assesment day which means NO CLASSES!! Huzzah!! No classes is like breathing the freshest air possible. It's amazing. It re-energizes you. It brings sanity. Deep sigh... oh yah.

So I'm sorry the last blog was, well, right down depressing. But it needs to be said. That's the point of my blog. I need to say the things I'm thinking and what's going on in my life, otherwise this thing is useless and a complete waste of time. My father could die, I realize that, but he could also live and life could be good. Who knows what will happen. I just pray that God gives me the strength to handle whatever happens. And thanks for the prayers guys... it meants a lot.

Besides that... I get to register for classes today! I'm kinda nervous because I think I'm taking way too many writing classes. Which is fine. I love writing. And they are going to be classes I enjoy. I mean Intro. to creative writing? Great Writers? Feature writing for Magazines? I'm set man. =) I'm really excited to see where next year will take me considering all these classes are for my major and my minor. Oh man..

I love my friends. I know you all know that. But I really do. I enjoy each and every one of you. From Jen and her spunkyness, to Adam and his listening ability, to Kara and her silliness when she's with me, to Sarah and her young fresh eyes, to Mike and his wisdom, to Nate and his love for music, to Justin and his... Justiness? And every one else!! there are too many people to list and list why I love them oh so much. Just know that I love you and you guys are my family!

I had a really interesting conversation with Justin last night. Basically it stemmed from a conversation Mike and Justin were having, and then an argument Kara and Justin were having. Justin parked my car with me and we just started about talking about Predistination, and the idea of free will and what the purpose is for anything. And I mean of course you have the main answer of "who are we to ask?" which almost feels like a copout answer because you could say that for anything. It almost feels like when you ask your parents why they won't let you do something and they say "Because I said so" But Justin pointed out that God has a plan and then he made a comparison to pots. Like we could make two pots and choose one to be used for washing dishes and one to be the centerpiece on your table. But if the pot were to ask you why, you would say because you just picked one. It's not about being fair... the pot doesn't know what fair even means. (Where I said, well crap I have a talking pot! i'm rich! yes, I stay focused) I dunno. We literally stood and talked for an hour about just different ideas and God and I think it was really cool. I mean of course I can't completely side with him since I don't know much about any other viewpoints but he made some valid points and also answered some questions, or at least attempted to answer my questions. Just something to consider...

Okay, too much to do in such a little time! Later guys!

P.S.-I'm gonna miss you Jen. So.... I have to see you lots and lots before you leave. But CONGRATS AGAIN!!!! ((((((((HUG A 100 TIMES))))

Like it or not, it's coming

I know, your thinking... two posts in one week, amazing. But this one won't be happy nor will it be long. It will be a moment of panic and worriedness. It'll be of my deepest feelings at this present time.

My dad is going to die

No, not this instant, and not in the next few days, but soon. He told my mom he stopped drinking (which he did). unfortunately he started again, and i think it's worse than ever. From Easter until now, he has already had 12 large bacardi bottles or whatever he drinks now. It's just really hitting me that he won't be here. He's never been a really good father to me. But... that doesn't mean I dont' want him around. I don't know his life, I don't know how he really feels... nothing. I've tried, but nothing. And to imagine that I won't have someone to walk me down the aisle when I get married, well... it's too much to bare.. my heart hurts guys. And with this being the week of the Travis thing, I'm just super emotional. It's too much stress on my heart. Please pray for me.. or for him. I'm just at a loss for words.

Your Guardian Angel

Not only is this a song, but it's also something that everyone hopefully has at this very moment.

It hurts to be walking towards class and be stopped dead in my tracks to find that there was a school shooting yet again. Since when has it become a constant act to shoot your fellow students? How can anyone can joy or any kind of enjoyment from such a crime? These people are 18,19,20 and they have been just living their lives. They haven't begun to know their Father, fall in love, or really know what it means to live your life to the fullest. I can't comprehend the pain that everyone is feeling at this very moment while I sit in my comfy dorm room, typing on my laptop. But that's right, I do know pain. I know that in 5 days it has been four years since one of my closest friends died. I know pain. I don't know the pain of having him shot by someone, but I know the pain of someone's life being ripped away from this Earth without a chance to say goodbye. I know. I can do nothing but sit here and ponder what these next few days, weeks, and months will look like for those families and anyone else who knows those kids. God is just, this I believe, but in the process of being just, life is torturous at moments. Although no one involved in that shooting will ever read this lowly blog, I feel it a necessary act to pray for them.

Lord, Almighty Father. I come to you today with my hands held high. I want to lift up the 31 lives that were either injured or lost. Help the families that are now in pain, cradle them in your arms. I know you know what you are doing, and I trust in your decisions Lord, but help to remind those families that have lost love ones on this day. Help them to remember your grace and your kindness. Help them remember that they are here because of what your son did for us. Although we hurt because of this great tragedy, help heal the wounds that have been created. I praise you for all that you are and ever will be. Amen


Amy

Life is Beautiful

Ahem... .to SOME people (JEN JEN JEN) I was spending soooo much time changing the blog, that I had to run to class cuz I didn't realize how late it was.... so here I am... giving you a brand spanking new blog and post! Fantastic ain't it???

Let's start with this little ditty:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qWK0wtseBL0

Two of my favorite things in such a small area!!! It's the song "Life Is Beautiful" From Vega4 AND scenes from Grey's Anatomy.... does it get any better than that right there? Nope... didn't think so. If you aren't a Grey's Anatomy fan, check on Vega4 because they are my latest obession. Phew... okay, on to other things...

like my new blog!!! I needed a change. I love the polka dots and all, but I've had this blog for quite some time and it was SCREAMING change me!!! So I did. And on the right hand side of this whole thing is a news feed, so check it out. It's good to be in the know of the news (Corny statement!) so learn a thing or two besides what I did over the weekend! haha. I know both are top priorities, but still.... you need some culture people!!

I got an 80% on my Bible Test!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! etc. lol. Oh man. I'm so pumped. That's the first test I've done good on in the last three months of being here. I don't know if that's sad or what, but I'm so proud of myself. So very proud. I studied a lot with my friend Marta and we went over the essays a million bagillion times. I only got two points off of the essays (out of a total of 50 points, so not bad) and then multiple choice, just some of them were really hard. And yes, it's a B-, but the last test was a 69% because of that bogus third essay question he just threw on there without telling anyone. I would have a B right now in that class if it wasn't for that essay quesetion. Whatever, water under the bridge! Let me bask in the glory of NOT failing yet another test!!! (Bask Bask Basking away)

Oh wait, I have more news to bask in! I think I got the Wells Fargo job I applied for!! I had an interview with them last Thursday and I was horribly sick. But I still went cuz Samantha told me to just push through it and then I can die later. Haha. And well they called me on Tuesday and wanted me to come in and fill out a background check! And my mom made a good point, who would waste their time on a background check if they didn't want to hire me? NO ONE! Well, maybe loserish companies, but hopefully not here! So everyone cross their fingers cuz this could be the month Amy leaves her job.
Sidenote: Tomorrow it will be 4 years since I started working at Panera Bread! Eep!!
But yah... life is just too good right now. Way too good. Which also means that something bad is probably going to happen. But because I am a positive person, I won't focus on that until it happens; then of course I'll wallow in self pity and forget about all the good things and write angry blogs. Mmmm satisfying. =)

Okay, well way too much has happened since I last wrote to really write a detailed blog on everything, but I can give you the most important stuff.
I got an 86% on my CWC Test. Amazing right? NOPE! The teacher added wrong and I actually got a 76%. I had to tell the teacher and that was really hard. BUT in the end she gave me an 81% probably cuz I was honest. So I'm happy in the end, but that was a craptacular week following that. From there, Jen and Adam started dating! ON april 1st too. how cute is that!? Love it love it. Uh lets see here... we went to Adam's house and just hung out. Nothing too spectacular. I had Anna's Bridal shower which turned out really well... all of her friends were there, she got soo much stuff (Kelly's gift takes the cake. It was well thought out) and she cried. Not because she was sad, but she was so happy that everyone was in the same room. And probably embarrassed because of all the wedding gifts she got. Haha. Good times. I started tanning and I actually look healthy. Who knew that could happen. Lol.

Last week was a short week since we had Good Friday and then Easter Monday!! So we had a bonfire at Justin's which was stupid because it was freezing, but so much fun because it was different and it was with people I love. I bought s'more stuff and we took an hour to get the thing finally burning so there was heat. Johnny came by too and that was just great. I love seeing him. It makes be so calm in a world so chaotic. I feel like I'm in 10th grade all over again without a care in the world.

Friday was a really cool Good Friday service at Open Door. we actually walked around to stations in the sanctuary of how people expressed their faith, and then we wrote stuff on black cards and nailed our names to crosses. That was really hard. After that we watched the Passion of the Christ and even though that movie is hard to watch, it helps remind us of what we are doing here and why and how. It's good.

Saturday was full of giggles. Literally. Jen, Kara, and I just laughed and laughed and tickled and joked the whole night. Jen was tired, I was just off of work, and Kara needed to blow off steam cuz her job is dumb lately. Needless to say, we got to lay in Nate's bed and I got to laugh. Two of the best things in life. Tee hee.

Easter came and went. I worked, I saw some family which was nice, and I got Caribou with Nate, Sarah, and Kara. We took funny pictures and then went to Applebees where Justin met up with us. We THEN went to Nate's house and played pool, listened to music, and talked in Nate's room, on Nate's bed. I played with a sword and got punched by Justin. I have a bruise to prove it!! Oh man.. it was fun.

Monday I went to John's baseball game with Kara and Justin (they did so bad!!! I won't even go into it... lets just say that Crown's pitcher hit more people than he got strikes, and by the 3rd inning, the other team had well over 10 points.) We played on the playground that was there and Justin spun me so much I felt like tossing the cookies. But phew, I didn't. Then I went to see Seward at Stout.

Somewhere in there we played Mafia two nights in a row and some other stuff, but I've already talked your ear off.. or written your ear off? I dunno. You decide. I'm out. Enjoy the longness.... i'm going to go to work!

Amy