Not sure why I chose that title. Maybe because I flirt with disaster. For instance, because I work two jobs, I am lacking sleep. Which means my immune system is low. Which also means I'm not up to par when I'm driving to work in the morning. Which means I easily get irritated throughout the day. All those things lead to disaster.
Or maybe it's because life is potentially one big disaster waiting to happen. I mean that's possible right? One major wrong move, and we are in disaster mode. That also makes life feel little more thrilling too! Instead of a mundane "this is my life" attitude, I feel like it's always an adventure, a Choose-Your-Own-Ending kind of thing. Free will or not (depending on your view of the bible and God) it's fun to choose your destiny in a sense.
Anyway, I apologize for my ranting, it's been a looong couple of days and I'm in Zombieland right now. I swear, I'll never feel better if I don't get the sleep I need. It's a okay to have a cold forever... right? lol.
Not too much has happened since Wednesday. But I'm trying to write more often and not such long posts because, frankly, I think people get exhausted. Or maybe you don't. Maybe you all love the random tangents I go on.
As of Wednesday, I have officially been a long-term gym goer. When I moved into the Beckman's house last summer, I signed up with LA Fitness just so I could start working out again. I was on a pay-per-week subscription because I wasn't sure how long I would be staying with them and I wasn't sure if I really could afford to go without having health insurance cover some of it.
That was August 1st, 2011. Now I can say that I have gone to the gym for several months at 12 times or more per month, that I've really learned how to work out, and how to work out certain areas of my body, and that I've really found a love in it. Working out isn't just "working out" anymore. It's a way to unwind, relax, and feel good about myself and my body. Sure, I'm not quite where I want to be weight and muscle wise, but I'm a heck of a lot closer than I was a year ago. In that time I also lost 12 pounds and kept it off. I may have lost more, but I also think I've gained muscle which has maybe added a few pounds back on.
At my lowest, before I started a day job that required 8 hours of sitting, I had lost almost 20 pounds! So trying to adjust to this new sedentary lifestyle (besides the few nights a week I serve and run around for hours on end) has been difficult. I hope by August 1st, 2013 I'll have reached my goal weight (an extra 14 pounds) Fingers crossed!
Besides that, this week has been pretty mellow. I don't have any crazy plans for the weekend, no dramas has happened... i've pretty much just been working. Oh the joys of adulthood. OH! I will say Jenna Marbles (on Youtube) made a new video about her boyfriend putting her makeup on for her... it's 9 minutes of hilariousness! Seriously. Watch it. You'll love it.
Cheers to the weekend my friends!
Always, A
Friday, August 03, 2012
Wednesday, August 01, 2012
The Only Political Rant I'll Give
I'm not political. I don't like to post stuff on Facebook to talk about all the injustice in the world, or if I'm Republican or Democrat or if I'm a Christian who thinks it's all whack... whatever. Not my thing. Sure, I am a Christian, but my allegiance doesn't align with a party, or a sexual orientation, it aligns with God. Anyway, NOT the point right now.
Here's the problem. Look, I love you. I think you are great people (either Facebook friends, real-life friends, or readers of this blog) and I am happy to know you. We all have our own issues and our burdens in this life that may not make sense to others, or have something that's easy to judge from afar, but I'm well aware of this and I try to look past all of that. BUT when you start politically ranting on your Facebook just so the news feed will pop up with your rants, it infuriates me. I don't HAVE to believe in gay marriage, I don't HAVE to believe in voting Democrat/Republican, I don't HAVE to agree/disagree with war. And the fact that it's not that you want me to be tolerate of the idea of these things (which I pretty much am), it's that you intend on conforming me to believe the same beliefs that you have. And you do it rudely and disrespectfully.
Let's take an example... gay marriage. I know this is a button pusher, but if we're pushing buttons on one end, might as well on the other right? I have plenty of gay friends. In or not in relationships. Some want to get married, some are happy just dating, or some are just happy playing the field. Awesome. That's your judgement call, not mine. I don't know if you are born gay, or choose to be gay, or what have you, but again, it's fine. It is what it is. I still love my friends for it, although I don't necessarily agree with it. But for some reason that's not okay. It angers people that I may not agree with their lifestyle or the fact that I believe marriage is a sacred vow given to us by God and you can't really argue the parameters of marriage with God. And while I believe this, and have many other views on this topic, I keep to myself because I don't need anyone attacking my personal beliefs. Just how I DON'T attack yours. So why do you feel the need to put such hate out there? I don't hate you, I don't hate your personal beliefs.
Are you telling me that when there are things in my life you don't approve of, you don't get to judge me on it? I'm pretty sure you do. I'm pretty sure you make it a point to attack said problem and make things better. Why is it such a hypocritical topic? Why can I be attacked for my sins and problems but if I just happen to LOVE you but disagree with you, I've burned you at the stake? I would just love if someone could make this clear to me.
All I'm getting at is that as a Christian, I'm taught to love one another, not demean others and tell them how horribly sinful they are and how they are going to hell. I don't get to make that call. I get to be the light onto the world and hope that people see Christ through me. That's my job. You want answers to your questions? Sure, maybe God will give me some. You want me to be your friend? Awesome! I love friends! But you want me to change my entire belief system to make you feel better at night that one more person agrees with you? Sorry. Doesn't work that way. We can talk all day long, and you may be better at arguments (I never win them) but it won't change anything. Just accept the love that I give you and stop trying to corner me into changing my beliefs. I'm not doing it to you, so stop doing it to me.
Good grief.
Oh man these topics are trouble. Let's see if I get any rage on this thing. Haha.
Always, A
Here's the problem. Look, I love you. I think you are great people (either Facebook friends, real-life friends, or readers of this blog) and I am happy to know you. We all have our own issues and our burdens in this life that may not make sense to others, or have something that's easy to judge from afar, but I'm well aware of this and I try to look past all of that. BUT when you start politically ranting on your Facebook just so the news feed will pop up with your rants, it infuriates me. I don't HAVE to believe in gay marriage, I don't HAVE to believe in voting Democrat/Republican, I don't HAVE to agree/disagree with war. And the fact that it's not that you want me to be tolerate of the idea of these things (which I pretty much am), it's that you intend on conforming me to believe the same beliefs that you have. And you do it rudely and disrespectfully.
Let's take an example... gay marriage. I know this is a button pusher, but if we're pushing buttons on one end, might as well on the other right? I have plenty of gay friends. In or not in relationships. Some want to get married, some are happy just dating, or some are just happy playing the field. Awesome. That's your judgement call, not mine. I don't know if you are born gay, or choose to be gay, or what have you, but again, it's fine. It is what it is. I still love my friends for it, although I don't necessarily agree with it. But for some reason that's not okay. It angers people that I may not agree with their lifestyle or the fact that I believe marriage is a sacred vow given to us by God and you can't really argue the parameters of marriage with God. And while I believe this, and have many other views on this topic, I keep to myself because I don't need anyone attacking my personal beliefs. Just how I DON'T attack yours. So why do you feel the need to put such hate out there? I don't hate you, I don't hate your personal beliefs.
Are you telling me that when there are things in my life you don't approve of, you don't get to judge me on it? I'm pretty sure you do. I'm pretty sure you make it a point to attack said problem and make things better. Why is it such a hypocritical topic? Why can I be attacked for my sins and problems but if I just happen to LOVE you but disagree with you, I've burned you at the stake? I would just love if someone could make this clear to me.
All I'm getting at is that as a Christian, I'm taught to love one another, not demean others and tell them how horribly sinful they are and how they are going to hell. I don't get to make that call. I get to be the light onto the world and hope that people see Christ through me. That's my job. You want answers to your questions? Sure, maybe God will give me some. You want me to be your friend? Awesome! I love friends! But you want me to change my entire belief system to make you feel better at night that one more person agrees with you? Sorry. Doesn't work that way. We can talk all day long, and you may be better at arguments (I never win them) but it won't change anything. Just accept the love that I give you and stop trying to corner me into changing my beliefs. I'm not doing it to you, so stop doing it to me.
Good grief.
Oh man these topics are trouble. Let's see if I get any rage on this thing. Haha.
Always, A
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