October 13th, 2013... what a magical and wonderful and surprising day.
My darlingest friend Ali (aka first ever college roommate) was in town to celebrate my birthday week early and we had a great time hanging out and catching up on Glee (RIP Cory Monteith.. ugh... cried my eyes out). Anywho, Justin and I always have our FaceTime dates/ bible studies on Sunday, so he told me to call him when I was home after dropping off Ali at the airport. Apparently he had some plans with some friends later that night and needed to do our study early. As I was driving home, I chose to call my mom and figure out birthday plans for the following weekend. After a few minutes of talking, she suddenly had to hang up on me. I thought "weird" but honestly gave it no more thought. She ended up calling me back, not really giving a reason why she hung up, but then quickly asked when I'd be home. Strange question considering I don't live with her and I wasn't planning on coming over. I then said "I am not babysitting," thinking she wanted me to watch Holly's kids while they did something. She said no and I quickly forgot about it.
I got to the Knapps house (where I am currently living) and went downstairs to text Justin and wait for his call. He texted me and said it'd be a few minutes. As I was hanging out downstairs, I heard one of his parents come into the house. But as I heard the footsteps, I knew it wasn't his mom because she walks slower. I knew it wasn't his dad because you can hear him going "clomp clomp stomp clomp" everywhere. The person started to come down the stairs, and I just waited to see it was. Suddenly, Justin's head popped around the corner.
My mouth dropped. "You are NOT here right now!" He smiled at me and walked into the living room and got down on one knee. This is it. This is what I've been waiting for for ten years. Well... i guess less than that, but honest to God I knew I was supposed to be in his life when I met him. His smile was perfect. It was genuine; full of excitement and maybe a dash of fear. "Just wait... I wrote you something" he said, still on his one knee. Tears welled up in my eyes and as he began to read what he wrote for me. I barely remember it.
A little bit into it, I asked him if I could hug him. I did and kissed him and finally backed away. "I have to sit down" I told him as he continued to read. I felt like I was going to faint. It was all happening so fast and I was so excited and nervous! Finally, he pulled out the box with the ring, asked me to stand and officially asked me to marry him. I said yes. Twice!
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The Man, The Ring |
We sat on the couch and I geeked out over what had just happened. Then, he dropped the bomb. He had booked the venue we both wanted. I saw that the day we were hoping would be available when we finally got engaged had booked a few weeks prior, and my heart was shattered. Not because I'm that shallow about a wedding and that it has to be perfect, but it was more of us running out of time if we wanted to get married next spring. But, he told me to trust him, and I did. So before even 20 minutes of being engaged, we had a venue booked and ready for us May 18th, 2014.
It was then I realized, I still hadn't put on the ring! I hadn't even LOOKED at it! I was so excited that this was finally happening. That the person, who is my best friend and my companion in life, asked me to marry him. It had nothing to do with the ring or the wedding or anything. It was about the love that he wants to give to me for the rest of his life. Nothing is more special than that. It still makes me smile and get butterflies in my stomach. well, as luck would have it... the ring was perfect and beautiful in every way. Shiny, good size, solitaire. And guess what? Women always worry about what their ring looks like, the size, the color, but is it about that? Not for me. It's now just a symbol on my hand for the world to see. Now that's beauty.
It's pretty much been a whirlwind ever since. When you think "May 18th" you think you have plenty of time. But almost everyone you talk to (bridal gown consultants, caterers, photographers, hair stylists) are already booking up and needing you to figure things out now. What a crazy world. Lucky for me, Justin was home the entire week. We were graciously provided impromptu engagement photos with the lovely Megan, hammered out a guest list, got a general idea of what we want for our wedding, made our own timeline since he won't be here for most of the months, got our marriage counselor all figured out, picked our wedding party, and picked John as our officiant.
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The beginning of planning.... |
Those are the key ingredients. Honestly, if the food falls through or people don't come because it's a few hours from the city, so what. I have this godly man presented in front of me, and you better believe I'm walking down that aisle (aka grassy spot) to marry him, with or without anything else.
Anyway, I never expected Justin to surprise me like this. I knew he had a reading week/fall break, but he said he was busy. It was a perfect week with him. He unfortunately won't be back until Christmas, but I have plenty to do before that. The week was filled with visiting friends, telling people the news, everything else I mentioned above, and just spending time with my ... FIANCE :)
Oh yah, it was also my birthday yesterday. And ya know what? I got to try on my first ever wedding dress! What a crazy experience. I also realized that this is my last birthday as a Vergin. What a drug trip. But I'm ready. I'm ready to be his wife.
I don't even know what else to mention! I cannot believe it's all here and happening. I do feel bad because now my posts will be wedding-related (with hopefully other things) but yah... it pretty much takes over. Which hey, I guess it's not so bad ;)
Always,
A