So much has been going on since I last wrote, it's crazy. I feel very happy for the people who are in my life, and the lives I encounter day in and day out. With that... to the blog!
So I arrived home Tuesday afternoon, and I must say, it was rather relaxing. I did some laundry, played on the computer, just enjoyed the home surroundings. Well we all met to go bowling around 9:00 Pm or so, so before that I headed over to the Knapps to tell them my decision of officially going to Bethel next year. I just wanted them to know for sure what my reasons were, and that they were not because of Justin. They took it well, and felt that it was a good idea for me to go. That makes me happy. They are like my parents away from my parents... if that makes sense. So anywho we went bowling and I did terrible! There goes showing off my bowling skills! Lol. But there were like 15 people there, and it was really nice to be in such a big group! There was a little resentment towards the quote unquote "crownies" but I'll talk about that later! After bowling I just went home because I had to be up at 3 so I could get to work at 4!!
Well... ends up I got to bed and finally fell asleep around 2. It was more of a nap than actual sleep. I worked until 1:30, and they day went by surprisingly fast. I knew Justin was returning home soon, and it's become almost a mini ritual that when he gets home he calls me, and then I end up hanging out with him for a while. He didn't end up calling, and it was already 2:00 or something, so I was like, I'm TAKING A NAP! Speak of the devil, he calls no more than 15 minutes later. Unfortunately I was carless for quite sometime and I didn't get over there until 6:00. At 7:00 his family and I all went to the Thanksgiving/Baptism service at church. It was awesome to see people get baptized for our Lord. Especially for some of them because they are so young! Church is always good. So of course a bunch of us wanted to hang out so we mosied over to Adam's. I don't even remember what we were originally doing, but it was soon decided to go to Applebees. GOOD FOOD! There had to be at least 16 of us. Luckily I had my camera because we were all so silly! (If you want to see pictures go to Facebook, look up me, and you will see my wonderful photos! ) Moving along, we did not feel like going to bed, and even though I had been up since basically the day before, we were like back to adam's! This is where we all lost it! We were laughing and giggling and making innuendos and ahhahah! It makes me laugh. Jake told Helen Keller jokes, Kara and Marlise got married, oh joyous evening! It's fun to get into goofy situations like that! People only get like that when there are not a lot of people. Not saying I hate big groups, but it's just how it all works out. Considering it was Thanksgiving the following day, we ended up leaving between 1 and 2.
Thanksgiving was.... interesting. I actually went to my Grandparents on my Dad's side this year. Last year I had gone to my mom's friends house, and the year prior to that I was at Justin's grandparent's house and his aunt's house. I had avoided the actual FAMILY for quite some time. well see my grandma had 10 kids, and everyone of them at least had three or so kids, and those kids even have kids, and so forth. So it's usually a big event. Well we got there an hour late, and there was liek no one there. It was really strange to not see this tiny blue house crammed with people. Of course all the conversations were shallow because they are not Christians and spend their time being alcoholics, so in all reality, we have nothing in common! Then my mom and one of the better aunts (married INTO the family...that explains her sanity) were talking about their husbands and their disatisfaction of them. It was really sad. I know it's totally true, but that's not what marriage should be! I wish I could help, but they are past help. Luckily I was also invited over to the Natrop's for Thanksgiving and I headed over there! It was a little awkward cuz his aunt and uncle and cousin was there but oh well. I mean I like the family, but it just felt like a situation that only the girlfriend is put into. Nothing against them at all. By the end of the evening I was looking at baby pictures....go figure. lol. Seward wanted to hang out with me afterward and I got to listen to her play her piano. I love that. She claims she sucks, and I admit, she is a little rusty, but ugh...it's gorgeous. We wanted to see a movie and so we saw Chicken Little! yay! CUTE MOVIE! Sure it was aimed for like children 7 and under, but it made me laugh and that's all that counts. Josh Bowens actually called me too and so we went to his house. Adam Arens, Volker, Tim Brown, and a few others were there, and it was nice to see some of them. I haven't seen the "band" for a long time, and it was a total blast into the past. They have not changed one bit.
Of course I left early because I worked at 5:00. Work came and went and I found myself extremely tired and excited. Laura had come home Wed. night but it wasnt' until way late in the evening, and now it was finally time to see her!! I had to do a Delano Royalty event first, but by the time I got to the food shelf, everything was done. Sad. I got ready to go out for the evening and then Karrah gave me a call and wanted to know if I would go to Wal-Mart with her and Laura. I was like YES! So she was going to drop Laura off at my house and get gas and then we would go. I didn't feel like I was going to cry, which funnily enough made me sad, but the moment she stepped out of the car I cried. Everytime! She just makes me cry cuz she is awesome and she has been gone for so long. I think it also has something to do with the fact that I have thought she was cool since we were little, minus a few years, and until this past summer, and a little bit before that did we actually start hanging out. We were really close by the time she left, and it was hard to see her go. But now she was back! We went to Target and after some back and forth stuff, her and I were at Schony's! It was really fun cuz everyone was excited to see her, and there is a pool table and fooseball table, so people just kept playing eachother over and over and I would win a lot, and then play John and lose terribley! He even played in Spanish (meaning he spoke in Spanish the whole time.. haha!) I tried to build a card castle, wrote names in cursive, and just had fun laughing with everyone. It was like everyone was back together, well, except for Zach. After that I headed over to Anna's where Anna, Laura, Karrah, and I had a sleep over! We had to bring my car back to Delano, but on the way, I had a really cool conversation with Laura. I haven't had one of those in a while with her. The rest of the night we spend laughing and playing Disney's Scene It and of course I WON! At one point, Karrah had gone to bed and I was being asked a question for the game... I guess Karrah knew the answer cuz she mummbled a name and it was so funny! I don't even know if she knew she had done that. We eventually did sleep, which was really nice for me.
Saturday wasn't that great. Zach did call me in the morning though, and I haven't heard from him in a while, so that made me smile! I miss him! AND HE IS COMING HOME DEC. 22nd! WOO!! I had to work 2:00 to 10:00. All my friends kept coming in (Laura, Sarah, Jen, Lissie, Kirsten "Bill" and ahh!!) I did get to eat my lunch with Laura, Seward, and Sarah though, so that was fun! I had so many phoen calls too, and some of them were for Laura. Haha. Then I got invited to go to a Dave Matthew Band Concert by Justin and sadly I had to work. It just felt like it never ended!!! Justin called me when I was done and I picked him up from Robbie's so we could go to Jesse's house. I got to talk to him about Bethel, which is what I have wanted to do for a while, and it was good. I just needed to get some stuff off my chest. Anyway, Jesse's was fun.. we didnt' do anything really, but it's nice just to talk and laugh and watch his small dog fall in love with Mike Johnson's zip up hoodie. Ewww....
Sunday arose and I worked... and saw the Knapps as usual.... and came back to Winona.
I'm going to end now, for it is too long! here are a just a few pictures from the weekend!
I LOVE MY FRIENDS!!!
Sister In Christ,
<3> 
I don't think I feel like being here anymore. Honestly, full heartedly. I feel uncomfortable, and it doesn't feel like I would INTENTIONALLY want to call this home, yah know? I have always believed that college should be your home away from home, that you should feel happy to be here. Dread is on my face when I know I have to stay here just one more weekend. And yes yes yes! I have Anna, but everytime she leaves, I know I am beckoned to be alone once more, in this hole in the wall. It's not like I don't try to make friends... I don't feel... how I feel with my friends back at home, all of you who are probably reading thing. It's strange. And Ali has her friends, and I do not want to intrude on that. I just keep thinking, what the hell am I going to do when this semester is done? When Anna is no longer here to be my friend? The thought really terrifies me. And will Bethel be better? Who knows. I don't know for sure. I don't even know if God is telling me to go. I'M SO CONFUSED I FEEL SO LOST. It sucks. If I go, I'm probably gonna make Justin uncomfortable, and if I don't go, I'll be here.... FOREVER. But it's not about Justin, and it's not about me; it's about God. But HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO HEAR HIM? I don't know when he speaks to me or if it's me telling me what I think I should hear. I don't know I don't know I don't know. I don't understand where I stand...with God, with Justin, with school. UGH!!!!!! And usually I don't talk about Justin on here just for the sole reason taht I know people read this and some things just don't need to be said. But right now, it's stressing me out. We are the weirdest two people on earth, not even near normal. It was probably the worst idea ever to even apply to Bethel. Really... what was I thinking? My mom brought up a good point about it though. Could I handle going there? Not intellegence wise, but in another light... which I won't go into. Ok, I'm done for now.... Anna is back over here, and I won't waste my time writing this. Later all. Sister in Christ,Amy <3
Sigh sigh sigh...so many things to just sigh about. Have you ever been in that moment where you want so much but can have nothing? ahh yes... I'm in that kind of mood again. These happen frequently and considering this IS my journal thingy, heck, I might as well write about it. Correct?
For the last couple of hourse I've basically been alone, not that that's a bad thing. Ali went to work on her speech and Anna headed back to her dorm, so here I sat. There was a floor meeting, but I just felt, out of the loop. Not really in the mood to be with people, but at the same time, I desire to be friends with all of them. haha. So I again headed to my room of lonliness to ponder life. Well I gave up on that pretty quickly, and then I was like hmmm....I should watch a movie!! So I ended up watchin "A Walk to Remember." My first choice would have been the Notebook, but nobody I know on this floor has it! ahhh!! I wanted to be all sappy. This movie worked though. But of course the result of watching sappy movies is that you want to be in love. Ahh Love, what a feeling! For those of you who have never experienced it yet, oh just wait! It is such a wonderful thing. Not saying that God's love is not more important or anything, but you gusy get what I'm getting at. Love by ANYONE makes you feel all tingly inside, it's how you keep people going in life sometimes. I've just been like, "wow, I've been single for almost a year in a half. That's a might long time." Yet here I sit, not even trying. Go figure. If anyone is like me, you get these urges to be like, screw it, I'll date the next random person that I am attracted to or something to that extent. But of course God lays it on my heart that that's really not what I want, so I never proceed on those feelings. Sigh... ah love...let's all reminisce about the past loves....
Well now that the "sappy moment" has passed, let's continue on! Thanksgiving is just around the corner, and you know what that means! Family and Friends and Food and a Break! Woo! Can't go wrong with all that. Even though I'm not close to any of my family member, I love going to my Dad's mom's house because they always have the best food ever. It's kinda the only family I got, and I guess I can give them one day a year... right? I guess in the last couple of years I've really drawn close to Justin's family, bad idea now eh? But anywho, they always have good food too, only I like the people more! Plus, this is the type of family that plays Trivial Pursuit like crazy, it's funny! Everyone gets so into it! Those were always fun to go to. Especially because it's like a for sure thing to go to Joe's Mom's in the early day for the big family reunion type thing with all the food and brothers and sisters, it's a mad house! But I love some of his aunts, like Liz! Then after you have stuffed yourself there, you would head over to Debbie's sister's hosue to have a smaller get together with good food as well. Mmmmm. Then of course the games, and the kids! I love those kids! Nathan is 10 an is TALLER THAN ME! Oh how sad is that? Anyway, I just love the holidays! What are you guys thankful for?
Oh but I suppose... I still have homework that has not been touched tonight. I bid you ado, god bless all.
Somewhat College Momet: This picture was taken by our lovely and talented Anna!! Lee didn't think I'd kiss him on the cheek, and that was a bet he lost! I'm just that daring! I love bowling!Sister in Christ,
Amy <3
I'm sorry for my delays... I feel terribly bad. Sometimes this is the only thing that keeps me connected with the friends I do not get to see all the time. It has been just so crazy busy, and even though I was here all last weekend and such, not too much went on. I had NOTHING to report on. Luckily we had Veteran's Day off, which was the start of a very intriguing weekend.
So everytime Anna and I have a day off from school, we skip Thursday and come home Wednesday night. Well this time I decide to skip my 6:00-8:30 lecture, and we leave super early so we can go visit some wonderful people at the U of M!! The original reason was that our friend Corie was missing Anna so much, and it was Karrah's idea to come visit and surprise her. I also knew that Nate (aka NATHAN CRIST ahahaha! I can never not say it!) also lived in the same building, so we met up with Karrah and surprised Nate! I do believe he was surprised! It was funny cuz at first he had NO idea it was me! It's fun to surprise/scare people! They look all confused thinking, "you don't go here...." ah, the enjoyment..oh rapture. lol. At any rate we certainly surprised Corie, and it was a fun time! Even though all we did was get ice cream from Ben and Jerry's around the corner and talk, it was refreshing to be with them. Like I love being with Anna at school and such, but it's so much fun when there are more of you to just be together. We both felt refreshed with the change of scenery and the change of dorm rooms. haha. So Wednesday was such a hit.
Thursday was just as fun! So a couple weeks ago when a couple of us were at Schony's, Molly planned a little bowling thing, and so we were all going to go bowling when I called Medina and there was some private party! This is bad because, this is where we BOWL! Then I started feeling bad cuz I wasn't sure what we were going to do, but then I searched around and we thought we should go to Tuttles in Hopkins. NOTE: On Tuesday and Thursdays, it's all you can bowl for $10! It's a very good deal! Anyway, we all decided (Lee, Anna, Adam, Molly, Me) to eat at Perkins before hand because heck, some of us hadn't eaten yet, and it's always a good place to go. You can never go wrong at Perkins. It was really funny cuz I had some slip ups with words... like for example... Condiments turned into Condoms. Sometimes, I don't know about myself. Well after the wonderful Perkins we found ourselves at Tuttles, and we played oh so many games! And hey Molly, you did good! I mean heck, you beat Adam! (who got a 21....heehhehehee) but I won't laugh at him for that. My best was like 106 or something, and Anna half the time beat Lee! You better watch out Lee! We then all headed back to Anna's house because we weren't tired, and I was NOT ready to call it a night! The night was still young as far as i was concerned. So how did we entertain ourselves? Well Anna has this Disney Scene-It game, and even though we played it totally wrong, I got super competitve, and it was a gay old time. Somewhere between bowling and the game, i got drunk hyper. If I drank, you woulda sworn I was beligerently drunk! hee hee! And when peopel get giggly, things just get more fun! We were trying to run through the HUGE LUV-SACs, and we were wearing side "pomies" and the quote: "and then it'll be like HEAD CROTCH! (motion to pulling my neck down" oh you so had to be there, but I haven't laughed that hard in a long time. WE were all enjoying ourselves so much. I couldn't of asked for a night like that. I love laughing so hard that you feel like your gonna pee yourself. It's such a happy/worry free thing. It's like being a little kid all over again. Of course, all good things must come to an end, like the evening.
But of course the fun continues! Friday I spent lounging around until I got a call from good ole Mr. Justin Robert Knapp! He was in town again, and we were waiting on Adam to get off his walk, but that took too long, so Nate and I met over at Melanie's house with Justin, and that's when....he fit his FEET into MY SHOES! It was so funny to see his feet in my teeny tiny little shoes! We all got a kick outta that! Well we all talked for a while, which is nice! I don't see Med too much, so it's always good to catch up! All of us did end up at Adam's though, and we watched Batman Begins. I had to say, I didn't think it'd be all that great, but it was! IT really was! Even Melanie enjoyed it and I think she was totally against it! She prob. tried NOT to like it! lol.
Saturday came, and I was out at 10:3o AM picking apples for the annual Apple Cider Making! Mmmmmmm! I love that Apple Cider! We make it at the Knaptons every year (this being my second) and we pick the apples from their orchard, wash them, cut the bad parts off, put them in the apple crusher thingy, and then squeeze out all the juice from them! It is seriously so fun, I want to have apple trees when I'm older just so I can make my own cider. It's such a like old tradition type thing. Why buy it when you can make your own?! lol. It is always fun! Even though it was freezing! Inbetween all this, one of my dear friends Sarah was in the Wizard of Oz play so Nate, Rachel, Anna, Anna's mom and sister, Kara, and I all went to watch her! It was nice to be back watching a Delano play. Anyway she did a terrific job; I was so proud of her. We all ended up back at Melanie's where we made more and more apple cider! Some of us missed Joe so we went to go visit him, and then Lee called saying he was having people over! This was good cuz we weren't sure what we were going to do! We didn't stay there long though... we all ended up at Applebees! Holly was working, so she waited on us... it was fun to have her working. Anyway, We were there for a long time just goofing around and laughing. By the end of the night we were drawing all over eachother, and oh yah! I cut Justin with a knife! Talk about being clumsy! I don't even remember what we all talked about it, but all I know is that every moment wiht my friends is so precious, I would never take a moment back.
This is one of many good moments where your heart just floats up to the heavens. So my mom wakes me up at 8:30 AM on Sunday to tell me I got a letter from Bethel Admissions on Saturday. I was like wow...rejection in the morning (for al who didn't know, I applied to Bethel University earlier this year because I was sorta told to and I figured, what the hey. I never told that many people because if I got rejected, I'd feel really bad about myself) anway... I proceed to open the letter, and the first words I read are: "congratulations! you have been accepted to....." OMG OMG OMG! ME, AMY VERGIN WAS ACCEPTED TO BETHEL UNIVERSITY! I never thought in a million years that I would get this oppurtunity. I have never felt smart enough for something like that. Seriously... I had talked myself out of thinking I could actually get in weeks ago! But this, wow. Either God really is pushing me to go, or I just got extremely lucky. I mean I have to figure some things out, but if everything works out, I'm going to Bethel Fall of 2006! Anyway, I brought it to church with me to show Anna, and when she read the first line she freaked out, and I started crying. OH it was such a good feeling. But of course all good things come to an end. I ended up telling Justin later that night, and let's just say it wasn't the reaction I was looking for. It really brought me down, I expected him to be one who was almost just as excited as Anna, but in turn, he was a little uneasy for some reasons. I let it get to me, and then after talking to a lot of my good friends, I realized it was Satan trying to work against me... he knows my true weak spots. So yah. I really have to pray about it, and I know God will lead me in the direction I must go to, but it would help if I could get everyone to pray for me. I'd hate to not listen to Him. Thanks guys.
Anyway, this week has been busy, lots of papers, lots of homework, and a lot of procrastinating going one. It was terrible. Now hopefully everything will calm down for a while. But I know, it's so incredibly long, and many have lost interest by now. I will try to write more another day so I don't have to make them so freaking long! Forgive me all!
Sister in Christ,
Amy <3
Somewhat College Moment: This is from the crazy night at Anna's, and this is me with my side pomie! I say pomie cuz I got really hyper and could NOT pronounce pony. Haha. Isn't it sooo me? lol. Just love me anyway...don't mind my "specialness"....P.S.- LAURA KOENECKE IS COMING HOME FOR THANKSGIVING!!! WOO HAY!!!
I have been super busy for the last couple of days, but I PROMISE I will update tomorrow...prepare yourself for a long one. =)Sister in Christ, Amy
Again, it's just a song as my title for today's blog. Good song. Most probably won't like it, but I am in love with it. =) I love music. Every kind. I can't get enough of it. And tonight is one of those nights where I'm listening to such random stuff. Don't get me wrong, I love my Christian music, but every once in a while... I need other stuff. Does that make me a terrible person? I don't think so.
So Anna and I were here (Winona) this weekend. Let me tell you... we were BoReD with a capital B! It's not that we are bored of eachother, but we do nothing all week, and then we did nothing on the weekend. It was sad. We got so bored that we bough ice cream and wedding magazines from Wal-Mart and watched Friends. IT was really fun, but not how I want to spend all my weekends. I did, however, find my dream wedding dress. It is beautiful but highly expensive and of course I know I don't have a money for it, and I shouldn't be looking since I don't even have a boyfriend, but who cares. I'll put a picture of it on the post so you guys can see it. aww I'm in love with it. Anyway, the weekend was not as bad as it COULD have been. I would rather be with Anna than all by myself. Ali wasn't around much, which was a good thing. But I don't mean in a good way cuz she wasn't with us, but in a good way by her having other people to hang out with. It makes me feel better when we leave her here that she has someone to hang out with. Plus her parents came down for Saturday/Sunday, and that was fun. They took Anna and I out to lunch at this Acoustic Cafe... I had the best pita sandwich ever there! So I thank them, and I also believe they are very nice people!!
What else happened this weekend??? Not a whole lot... I got nothing. I don't know why I started writing in my blog, but I figured I should. OH! Anna and I are coming home Wednesday night and I am super excited!! Wednesday isn't special, but Thursday I get to go bowling with some good friends, and i'm very excited for it! Should be quite fun! Yay home! Well I survived one of my very few weekends here... so I'm proud of myself.
College Moment: Isn't it just the most beautiful dress ever? I mean who knows HOW it would look on me, but uh...gorgeous. The price? $1040.00...... big fat no!! Oh well.... Sister in Christ,Amy <3
Lalala! this week has gone fast! Seriously, it was really nice. I don't even remember what I've been up to. Oh... I have been reading the book Farenheit 451, and let me tell you, it's gotten my feathers riled. lol. The sad thing is, this book was written in the future, and he probably did not think the things in this book would come to, but oh it is slowly but surely. Books and reading in general are being hidden from view. Television and movies and the internet are taking over our lives, and it's scary to think. It made me frustrated with life and people who don't care to read. This also sucks because this is the field I'm going into yah know? My FIELD IS DWINDLING AWAY! That's not cool. Wow, how much one book can make someone think... Anyway, you should all read this book. It's good for the soul, body, and mind.
I went bowling on Tuesday for the first time... and I got 113!! That is soo not a bad score! And I even threw the ball correctly. Everyone who has been bowling would be oh so proud of me. Watch, I will be amazing when I'm done with this class. It is fun to do, but I don't know anyone in the class, so my friend is a mother. Kinda awkward... oh well. Life goes on.
I had a really deep discussion with a friend this week, and it was really good... for both of us. They had a lot to say, some I never even thought they would feel, but it was powerful to read. The reason it was good for me was because somehow God worked through me I think rather well, and I feel like I succeeded in helping this person. It made me think about my own life too... like really ponder it. Remember the things I have done wrong and how God has made me learn through these obstacles. If I sound full of myself, I'm sorry... that's not what I intended. I just feel good. And since this is my "online journal" I think it's okay I write my feelings. Moving forward...
So funny story. I'm laying in my bed, and Ali's bed is under mine, like a bunk bed thing. Well my bed is moving farther away from the wall, so I stuck my hand down there. Ali yells "Hey! Touch me!" As she reaches her hand towards me I pull away and say "no, I don't like that game...". It sounded so petafileish....you had to be there, but it was hysterical. I even made it into her quote book! Woo oo! Now THAT'S an honor.
I had to pre-register for classes today. It was rather scary. I didn't know what I was doing, or even what was going to happy, so I just was like...ok... turns out it was easy! All I had to do was sign up for the classes my advisor told me to sign up for, fill out some forms, get them OKed, and leave. It's gotta be way easier second time around. Now I won't know if I get into those classes until Nov. 15 so fingers crossed! It'd be really nice to get into them. I like that I can pick my times I want to go. So I probably never need to go to an early early class! Ahh..it's heaven. The one thing I did though was sign up for a lot of MWF classes. Nice because then classes are only 50 minute classes, but bad because I'm going to Montana again this year, and I'll miss a Friday and Monday....so I kinda hurt myself there. MEh...I'm sure it'll be fine. 
Non-college moment: This was taken about a year ago, and basically what's goin on here is that Baby Jesus is chillin in his cradle, and ya know, Santa is there to visit. But I'm sure baby Jesus was crying or something because Big Bad Librarian Man came to hush him up! OH good story eh? I know I agree!! YAY! This was at Ben Little's house..oh good times. Sister in Christ,Amy <3
