Tuesday, February 28, 2006
My heart hurts
My heart hurts tonight... it didn't minutes before, but now it does... and I don't understand.
Thursday, February 23, 2006
So it goes...
Here I am.. sorry for the delay. What can I say? I did warn you all that it'd be some time before I wrote, but here I am to share the tale of "Bridger Bowl- 2006."
Thursday was insane. It snowed... alot. I haven't seen it snow that much for months. My mom warned me, saying I might not be able to go, so I prayed to God to make it all possible. I got up super early, took my Public Speaking midterm, and because of all the snow, the other test that was going to probably make me late to the church, didn't show because of all the snow! So I actually lucked out. If it hadn't of snowed, I would have had to stay late and take a stupid test! So yay to the snow! I got back in Delano at 1:30 or so, so I ate and spent some time with my mom. But that's all the boring stuff... I'm gonna jump to the bus ride.
The drive wasn't that bad at all. Kara, Marlise, and I got to sleep in the back, but until then, Ben Bacon, John, Adam, and Lee were all in the back area, talking. I was really happy to see everyone- especially John. I NEVER get to see him, so it was just so refreshing to be talking with him for so much! We played apples to apples and hearts for a while, and then John and I went into a different seat and he played his guitar and I started to write. We watched The Rookie and The Sandlot, and it all went pretty smoothly. Adam and I were very content, who wasn't? There was no homework, no time frame, and we were surrounded by friends. Sleep... well... it was miniscule. My pillow was Marlise's bottom, and I just could not get comfortable. But as usual, it's totally worth it.
We woke up... and there were the mountains. Breathaking, astounding, gorgeous, etc. Those words don't even capture all of what I see every year. How can you see something like that and even QUESTION a God? I will show you guys pictures soon! Anyway, skis ended up costing $20 more dollars than I planned on, so that kinda took a dent in the wallet. The first day was -25 degrees! Can you believe it?! It was so cold. Your hair froze just being outside. Bridger Bowl even opened an hour later because of such severe coldness. At the end of every lift, there was a sign in the window saying "watch for frostbite." Comforting eh? Kara and I ended up going on only three runs. I know. It's pathetic. I was so angry. I didn't care about the cold, all I wanted to do was be skiing, but it was impossible. In order to stay warm, I had to wear my scarf over my mouth and nose. But then when I breathed, my sunglasses would not only fog over, but ICE over. Every few seconds I had to stop and try to fix them. It just wasn't worth it. So we tried to entertain ourselves. Lee's eye lashes froze, and some people took pictures of it. It was hysterical. Although Kara and I were inside most of the day, we spent a lot of time talking with Joe, and it made me really happy. Ever since Justin and I broke up, I just don't get to see him that much, and he is such a father figure to me, that... well... I don't want to lose him.
The hotel was amazing. They were in the process of remodeling, or building or something, but still, it was better than all the other hotels. I roomed and had small group wiht one girl: Gennie Bunting. She's a sophmore and she's really nice. She was also a strong believer, so some of the questions were kinda awkward. I mean it was nice having one on one time, but it couldn't go much farther. Oh well. We also played Dutch Blitz (My first time playing) and I did okay. It's an odd game, kinda like speed but way more screwed up! Haha. Hotel times weren't that great. They just brought sleep. So I won't go into detail about that. Except the first night, John and I were talking and then he wanted me to hear some of his music, so I listened to him play in the hallway. He got quite a crowd from that. Then some security people came by and told us to get back to our rooms, they weren't made or anything, but I didn't wanna go to bed! Boo to security.
The next day was 15 degrees warmer (still in the -10 degree weather) but it felt like heaven compared to the other day. Adam and Kara skied with me in the beginning, and it was just really nice and Adam gave me his goggles cuz he bought some new ones. We eventually met up with Joe and we all went skiing for a while. I love Joe.
After lunch, a huge group of us all went together, and Adam did some filming. I fell... down this stupid big hill... and I felt special ed. But Joe stayed by me and helped me. Then we watched some people do tricks. I was so sore by the end of the day! IT was insane, but Kara and I def. quadrupled how many runs we did that day.
We then went to the hot springs which was fun but because of the cold weather, we were not allowed to go outside. The outside is the BEST part. But we all just hung out in the pools and stuff. That place is always sooo crowded and has a funny smell to it. I take it though, cuz it def. feels good on the muscles.
The last day of skiing was the best. I always am at my peak on the last day, even though I'm tired, because I feel a tad more daring. The way I see it is if I get hurt on the last day, I won't have to miss any days of skiing, and yah. It just feels better for me. So Kara and I got some "air" (more like are skis left the snow for .5 seconds) and went through all the first powder, and on the edge of an avalance areas, and yah. It was really funny. I liked it. We also had our annual "service on the mountain" where we sang God of Wonders, Heart of Worship, and Amazing Grace. Marlise, John, Me, Lee, and Kara gave our testimonies, and I think we all brought a little something to the table to make it very solid and complete. I didn't prepare, and I was a little nervous, but when I got up and spoke, I let God speak through me, and chose what should be said and what shouldn't (we only had three minutes apiece) I felt that I touched people, and I was actually surprised to hear some things that I said. It was realy powerful and I'm glad everyone could be there.
That was the trip. The bus ride back was good too, but I won't make this longer than it has to be. I'm really thankful for John. When we are together, we are wonderful friends. I know that he doesn't dislike me, but we just are so busy nowadays, and I can't have him all to myself. I'm just thankful for everyone who came on the trip. I also loved the feeling of being a leader. I love the feeling that people look up to me, think that I have all this knowledge and wisdom, and I think some cases, you just have to wing it, and God helps you through.
I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH! I WOULD NOT BE THE SAME WITHOUT YOU!
So then yah.. I went back to school, my mom left for Arizona on Tuesday, and I've been stockpiled with homework, and tests, and quizzes, and articles to write, and it's just been crazy. That's why it took soo long to write again. All I know is that it's already Thursday, and tomorrow I dont' have my last class so I get to go home early! I'm also excited cuz Justin and Jake will be home and we are all having game night! YAY!! OH joy! So yes... I will see some of you soon enough! God Bless to all of your weekends!
Sister in Christ,
Amy <3
Thursday was insane. It snowed... alot. I haven't seen it snow that much for months. My mom warned me, saying I might not be able to go, so I prayed to God to make it all possible. I got up super early, took my Public Speaking midterm, and because of all the snow, the other test that was going to probably make me late to the church, didn't show because of all the snow! So I actually lucked out. If it hadn't of snowed, I would have had to stay late and take a stupid test! So yay to the snow! I got back in Delano at 1:30 or so, so I ate and spent some time with my mom. But that's all the boring stuff... I'm gonna jump to the bus ride.
The drive wasn't that bad at all. Kara, Marlise, and I got to sleep in the back, but until then, Ben Bacon, John, Adam, and Lee were all in the back area, talking. I was really happy to see everyone- especially John. I NEVER get to see him, so it was just so refreshing to be talking with him for so much! We played apples to apples and hearts for a while, and then John and I went into a different seat and he played his guitar and I started to write. We watched The Rookie and The Sandlot, and it all went pretty smoothly. Adam and I were very content, who wasn't? There was no homework, no time frame, and we were surrounded by friends. Sleep... well... it was miniscule. My pillow was Marlise's bottom, and I just could not get comfortable. But as usual, it's totally worth it.
We woke up... and there were the mountains. Breathaking, astounding, gorgeous, etc. Those words don't even capture all of what I see every year. How can you see something like that and even QUESTION a God? I will show you guys pictures soon! Anyway, skis ended up costing $20 more dollars than I planned on, so that kinda took a dent in the wallet. The first day was -25 degrees! Can you believe it?! It was so cold. Your hair froze just being outside. Bridger Bowl even opened an hour later because of such severe coldness. At the end of every lift, there was a sign in the window saying "watch for frostbite." Comforting eh? Kara and I ended up going on only three runs. I know. It's pathetic. I was so angry. I didn't care about the cold, all I wanted to do was be skiing, but it was impossible. In order to stay warm, I had to wear my scarf over my mouth and nose. But then when I breathed, my sunglasses would not only fog over, but ICE over. Every few seconds I had to stop and try to fix them. It just wasn't worth it. So we tried to entertain ourselves. Lee's eye lashes froze, and some people took pictures of it. It was hysterical. Although Kara and I were inside most of the day, we spent a lot of time talking with Joe, and it made me really happy. Ever since Justin and I broke up, I just don't get to see him that much, and he is such a father figure to me, that... well... I don't want to lose him.
The hotel was amazing. They were in the process of remodeling, or building or something, but still, it was better than all the other hotels. I roomed and had small group wiht one girl: Gennie Bunting. She's a sophmore and she's really nice. She was also a strong believer, so some of the questions were kinda awkward. I mean it was nice having one on one time, but it couldn't go much farther. Oh well. We also played Dutch Blitz (My first time playing) and I did okay. It's an odd game, kinda like speed but way more screwed up! Haha. Hotel times weren't that great. They just brought sleep. So I won't go into detail about that. Except the first night, John and I were talking and then he wanted me to hear some of his music, so I listened to him play in the hallway. He got quite a crowd from that. Then some security people came by and told us to get back to our rooms, they weren't made or anything, but I didn't wanna go to bed! Boo to security.
The next day was 15 degrees warmer (still in the -10 degree weather) but it felt like heaven compared to the other day. Adam and Kara skied with me in the beginning, and it was just really nice and Adam gave me his goggles cuz he bought some new ones. We eventually met up with Joe and we all went skiing for a while. I love Joe.
After lunch, a huge group of us all went together, and Adam did some filming. I fell... down this stupid big hill... and I felt special ed. But Joe stayed by me and helped me. Then we watched some people do tricks. I was so sore by the end of the day! IT was insane, but Kara and I def. quadrupled how many runs we did that day.
We then went to the hot springs which was fun but because of the cold weather, we were not allowed to go outside. The outside is the BEST part. But we all just hung out in the pools and stuff. That place is always sooo crowded and has a funny smell to it. I take it though, cuz it def. feels good on the muscles.
The last day of skiing was the best. I always am at my peak on the last day, even though I'm tired, because I feel a tad more daring. The way I see it is if I get hurt on the last day, I won't have to miss any days of skiing, and yah. It just feels better for me. So Kara and I got some "air" (more like are skis left the snow for .5 seconds) and went through all the first powder, and on the edge of an avalance areas, and yah. It was really funny. I liked it. We also had our annual "service on the mountain" where we sang God of Wonders, Heart of Worship, and Amazing Grace. Marlise, John, Me, Lee, and Kara gave our testimonies, and I think we all brought a little something to the table to make it very solid and complete. I didn't prepare, and I was a little nervous, but when I got up and spoke, I let God speak through me, and chose what should be said and what shouldn't (we only had three minutes apiece) I felt that I touched people, and I was actually surprised to hear some things that I said. It was realy powerful and I'm glad everyone could be there.
That was the trip. The bus ride back was good too, but I won't make this longer than it has to be. I'm really thankful for John. When we are together, we are wonderful friends. I know that he doesn't dislike me, but we just are so busy nowadays, and I can't have him all to myself. I'm just thankful for everyone who came on the trip. I also loved the feeling of being a leader. I love the feeling that people look up to me, think that I have all this knowledge and wisdom, and I think some cases, you just have to wing it, and God helps you through.
I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH! I WOULD NOT BE THE SAME WITHOUT YOU!
So then yah.. I went back to school, my mom left for Arizona on Tuesday, and I've been stockpiled with homework, and tests, and quizzes, and articles to write, and it's just been crazy. That's why it took soo long to write again. All I know is that it's already Thursday, and tomorrow I dont' have my last class so I get to go home early! I'm also excited cuz Justin and Jake will be home and we are all having game night! YAY!! OH joy! So yes... I will see some of you soon enough! God Bless to all of your weekends!
Sister in Christ,
Amy <3
Monday, February 13, 2006
Sometimes I worry
I sometimes don't understand. I really don't. I mean... we are all God's children. We are all supposed to search God in our own way, because nobody really can tell you what he's like, and such. It's a one on one relationship, and others are their for fellowship. Then why is it that everyone attacks eachother on their beliefs, or what they read, or what they say? I'm confused. I believe in God, I believe in the Bible, I believe in a heaven and a hell. I know that I will never be able to understand everything in the bible, nor do I intend to. I do my best to understand, but if I don't understand something, I know I will if and when God wants me to. If a book is sold in a Christian bookstore, isn't there a good chance that it is a good thing? But here I sit, reading a message from a friend disregard a book because it's got a new way of looking at the bible. Because these people embrace the mysteries of the bible. I don't know what to think anymore. Why is it such a controversy? Does anybody know? Are we supposed to question eachother? Are we supposed to drive each other up the walls, until we have turned ourselves against one another? I thought we were supposed to be equal. We can't force our ideas upon one another, but it's what I see being done. It does not compute to me. Am I naive or am I full of wisdom for not wanting to take part in this behavior? Where am I then? All I know is you can't conform people, only God can change someone, or open their ears to what they are hearing. I just feel lost in this fog of friends, fellowship, and God. I'm not looking for answers if you can't give them to me, I guess I'm looking for people to ponder what I have to say. I'm tired of being quite... not putting in my view of things for the fear of being brought down by someone else's ideas. It seems the moment that I speak, it is turned around and thought of as wrong, going against this and that. And then people wonder why I never really comment on religious debates. I don't need my beliefs ripped apart. I pay my dues. I speak to my God every night, hopefully more during the day. I read His word, and keep my ears open in case He may say something. Hmmm.... what a world we live in
Friday, February 10, 2006
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
OOOOOHHH The weather outside is FrIgHtFuL
No... the weather really isn't that frightful, but I gave my instructional speech on how to make snowflakes today, and I played that song for my attention getter.... but I will get to the details later.
I first wanted to address that I just found out Jake Barnes mom reads my blog! I find that SOOOO CUTE! She is a great lady and although I don't know her very well, she makes me smile whenever I'm over at their fine house. So yay to her!
Moving right along...
It has been sooo crazy busy since I last wrote, and I apologize for not writing sooner, things just alwasy seem to get in the way. Last week was sort of dull and went sort of fast until about Thursday. I had to have an article done for my News Writing class, and it was Tues. night and I had nothing! It was due 8:00 AM Thursday morning. Luckily, Bush had his annual state of the union address, and so I made that into a localizer which basically means I had to talk to someone, of signifcance, about the address. It worked out rather well and my teacher was very happy on how I wrote it. It made me very happy to see that I can pull things together in the last minuted! Basically the week wasn't anything special because all I wanted to do was go home once again to play games with my great friends! So Friday came along and I headed straight home after my classes. It was a nice drive and I got home a little before 7:00, which is when game night was starting. The funny part was that on my way home, Justin called me, asking me if I had food because he had gotten his wisdom teeth out the day before and he didn't know where Debbie was. I laughed at him cuz he sounded like a little child and so I got him some Panera Bread Chicken Wild Rice soup. Aren't I just too much of a pushover? Well anyway, I got to Justin's and Nate, Mike, Mark, and Justin had already started a game of Settlers. So I sat around and talked with them until Melanie came. Adam also showed up, same with Lee and Jesse a while later, and soon I found myself playing a very good game of risk, where I was the black plague and stretched out rather far... and then imploded upon myself. What can I say, I have no strategy. After that game, with of course Justin winning, we played this new game called Samuari Swords and let me tell you: that was the ODDEST game ever, and I still mix up the ronins and the kokus and the whatevers. HAha... that game made me lose all attention in board games... somehow Melanie, Justin, and I were the last players and Justin said we should just quit, so I agreet and cleared off my pieces, only to find that he didnt' wanna lose to Melanie, making me forfeit by myself!! I scoff at him very loudly now and make an angry face. Whatever... I would have lost eventually right?
Saturday was good because Jake was home!! So Jake, Nate, Jesse, Lee, Mike, Melanie, Adam, and myself were all at Adam's house, playing risk, and some peopel were downstairs talking. We then got hungry and went to the Buffalo Perkins at midnight where we had just a fun time talking and laughing and telling jokes; it was a good good time. Well then we got in our heads that ANOTHER game of Risk but present itself because Jesse had never played before! This was such a wierd game cuz it took FOREVER, and at one point everyone was in the running for winning at least once. Nate got cranky and finally he won and dominated the whole game.... at 4:30 AM!! Talk about a lllllaaaaaaaaaaaattttttttttteee night. Again? Heck yes! Just not THAT night... next time I'm home? of course!
Sunday was filled with taxes and Bethel information, and FAFSA, and all that good kind of paperwork. I actually filled out my housing application for Bethel. I'm really really excited. Everytime I get anything from there I get tingly and big smile crosses my face. Ahhh.... I hope I get the building I want! ::fingers crossed:: Well Sunday was pretty eventful because one, Holly somehow hurt my poor car (I'll get a pic to show you all) and two, I drove around forever. Nate needed a ride back to school, so I gladly took him. Since I was going that way, I helped out the Knapps by bringing Justin's biology book to him at Bethel. So Nate and I got there, and he showed us around a little bit (Second time for me but it's all good) and then Nate and I found our way (eventually) to the U of M. Then I was like well heck, if I'm in the cities I MIGHT as well get on to 94 and go East cuz that'll lead me right to Stout where I can go visit Jenny. So I was there a while, showed her my car, and left just in time to see Grey's Anatomy! Only reason I made it though was because the Super Bowl stuff went until 9:30, and Grey's usually starts at 9:00! Thank goodness for the Super Bowl!!
Now here I sit on a Tuesday night, with Monday long behind me. It was crazy. I didn't write my speech that was due today until last night, I had a speaker to go to for my news writing article I needed to write, and so it left me completely booked until about 2:30 AM. Talk about being exhausted! I fetl very stressed but considering that's my latest night at college doing homework so far, I can't complain. Needless to say the speech went pretty well, if shaking is considered not bad (hah) and even though I failed to do my Bible as Literature reading, it was four of the shorter Pslams and I quick read them before class. Go me! So I had a relaxing evening and am satisfied in today. And my oh my look at the time, homework is upon me still... so I must attend that... goodnight to all and oh yah! Sorry! One more thing... or maybe two. So I don't remember if I had mentioned that I might not be able to go to Montana as a leader, but I worked things out with my teachers and so everything is okay! Meaning that I may write a little blog before I leave, but from Thursday the 16th to probably Tuesday the 21st, don't expect any kind of update. And also you may need to prepare because since I'm going on thsi wonderful trip, you'll have to sit back and grab some popcorn cuz I can tell you now it WILL BE LONG. I am forewarning you! Okay, resume your evening activities! Good night all!
Sister in Christ,
Amy <3
I first wanted to address that I just found out Jake Barnes mom reads my blog! I find that SOOOO CUTE! She is a great lady and although I don't know her very well, she makes me smile whenever I'm over at their fine house. So yay to her!
Moving right along...
It has been sooo crazy busy since I last wrote, and I apologize for not writing sooner, things just alwasy seem to get in the way. Last week was sort of dull and went sort of fast until about Thursday. I had to have an article done for my News Writing class, and it was Tues. night and I had nothing! It was due 8:00 AM Thursday morning. Luckily, Bush had his annual state of the union address, and so I made that into a localizer which basically means I had to talk to someone, of signifcance, about the address. It worked out rather well and my teacher was very happy on how I wrote it. It made me very happy to see that I can pull things together in the last minuted! Basically the week wasn't anything special because all I wanted to do was go home once again to play games with my great friends! So Friday came along and I headed straight home after my classes. It was a nice drive and I got home a little before 7:00, which is when game night was starting. The funny part was that on my way home, Justin called me, asking me if I had food because he had gotten his wisdom teeth out the day before and he didn't know where Debbie was. I laughed at him cuz he sounded like a little child and so I got him some Panera Bread Chicken Wild Rice soup. Aren't I just too much of a pushover? Well anyway, I got to Justin's and Nate, Mike, Mark, and Justin had already started a game of Settlers. So I sat around and talked with them until Melanie came. Adam also showed up, same with Lee and Jesse a while later, and soon I found myself playing a very good game of risk, where I was the black plague and stretched out rather far... and then imploded upon myself. What can I say, I have no strategy. After that game, with of course Justin winning, we played this new game called Samuari Swords and let me tell you: that was the ODDEST game ever, and I still mix up the ronins and the kokus and the whatevers. HAha... that game made me lose all attention in board games... somehow Melanie, Justin, and I were the last players and Justin said we should just quit, so I agreet and cleared off my pieces, only to find that he didnt' wanna lose to Melanie, making me forfeit by myself!! I scoff at him very loudly now and make an angry face. Whatever... I would have lost eventually right?
Saturday was good because Jake was home!! So Jake, Nate, Jesse, Lee, Mike, Melanie, Adam, and myself were all at Adam's house, playing risk, and some peopel were downstairs talking. We then got hungry and went to the Buffalo Perkins at midnight where we had just a fun time talking and laughing and telling jokes; it was a good good time. Well then we got in our heads that ANOTHER game of Risk but present itself because Jesse had never played before! This was such a wierd game cuz it took FOREVER, and at one point everyone was in the running for winning at least once. Nate got cranky and finally he won and dominated the whole game.... at 4:30 AM!! Talk about a lllllaaaaaaaaaaaattttttttttteee night. Again? Heck yes! Just not THAT night... next time I'm home? of course!
Sunday was filled with taxes and Bethel information, and FAFSA, and all that good kind of paperwork. I actually filled out my housing application for Bethel. I'm really really excited. Everytime I get anything from there I get tingly and big smile crosses my face. Ahhh.... I hope I get the building I want! ::fingers crossed:: Well Sunday was pretty eventful because one, Holly somehow hurt my poor car (I'll get a pic to show you all) and two, I drove around forever. Nate needed a ride back to school, so I gladly took him. Since I was going that way, I helped out the Knapps by bringing Justin's biology book to him at Bethel. So Nate and I got there, and he showed us around a little bit (Second time for me but it's all good) and then Nate and I found our way (eventually) to the U of M. Then I was like well heck, if I'm in the cities I MIGHT as well get on to 94 and go East cuz that'll lead me right to Stout where I can go visit Jenny. So I was there a while, showed her my car, and left just in time to see Grey's Anatomy! Only reason I made it though was because the Super Bowl stuff went until 9:30, and Grey's usually starts at 9:00! Thank goodness for the Super Bowl!!
Now here I sit on a Tuesday night, with Monday long behind me. It was crazy. I didn't write my speech that was due today until last night, I had a speaker to go to for my news writing article I needed to write, and so it left me completely booked until about 2:30 AM. Talk about being exhausted! I fetl very stressed but considering that's my latest night at college doing homework so far, I can't complain. Needless to say the speech went pretty well, if shaking is considered not bad (hah) and even though I failed to do my Bible as Literature reading, it was four of the shorter Pslams and I quick read them before class. Go me! So I had a relaxing evening and am satisfied in today. And my oh my look at the time, homework is upon me still... so I must attend that... goodnight to all and oh yah! Sorry! One more thing... or maybe two. So I don't remember if I had mentioned that I might not be able to go to Montana as a leader, but I worked things out with my teachers and so everything is okay! Meaning that I may write a little blog before I leave, but from Thursday the 16th to probably Tuesday the 21st, don't expect any kind of update. And also you may need to prepare because since I'm going on thsi wonderful trip, you'll have to sit back and grab some popcorn cuz I can tell you now it WILL BE LONG. I am forewarning you! Okay, resume your evening activities! Good night all!
Sister in Christ,
Amy <3
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