For some reason, that song has stuck with me in this last couple of weeks. I just think the lyrics are so beautiful. So with that, I decided to title my entry that, so if you don't like it.. oh well. I won't care. Haha... Anywhoo...
Sorry it's been such a long time. It's been crazy. I went on TWO Roadtrips (one with Jen L. to the Wisconsin/Illinois area and one with Kara to Nebraska) so I've been spending my time doing that and working AND GETTING READY FOR SCHOOL!!!! Which, ahem, starts in two days for me. Can you believe it? I am going to school!!!!!! It's ridiculous (I think that's my new favorite word) to think that I finally get to go to my dream school. I fought for it for the last year and a half, but it just makes it that much better. The only frustrating thing is that I haven't done ANY packing. I have been doing loads of laundry though... it's funny how much stuff I have after I do laundry, go figure. Lol. I also got boxes so I can pack up some stuff so at least I've done something.... right? Haha. I'm a procrastinator, I can't help it. The other hard thing is that actual leaving process. Like it's gonna be so different then when I went to Winona. I won't come home every weekend. I mean of course I'll still be seeing people, but it's changing. People are moving, I plan on not coming home very much... it almost feels like we are really growing up. Haha. I was actually thinking today that we haven't grown up. Yah sure some of us have gone to college, some have even graduated, but most of us are just sittin in the same place we've been. We see eachother ALL the time. I think it'll do us all some good. I really do. We have to grow up eventually, and if we don't do it soon, we'll be sad and pathetic adults. lol.
So... what else has happened? I've been working and becoming a manager and working in Shakopee and Elk River and soon i'll be at Roseville Panera... good lord. I'm a panera floosy. Hahaha... sorry, it made me laugh. Couldn't resist. As much as I don't wanna be part of the company anymore, I'd be stupid to quit. I need the money, especially with the new car I purchased... heh.. heh... I love my car. If I didn't write about it, well I have a 2006 Chevy Cobalt, Victory Red. FANTASTIC if I do say so myself. =) But I have to make monthly payments now so I don't really have time to get a new job and start with a low paying wage again. Nope... so we'll see what happens with me and the future of the Panera corporation. lol.
When I was in Nebraska, I met Kara's cousin Ryan and he gave me some really good advicec for my major and my career. He told me to get an MFA (Master in Fine Arts) because then I could like get a teaching degree and teach like creative writing in high school or college or something. I could get tenure (sp?) and everything. It's kinda a failsafe in case journalism is just horrible (which they just cut so many people within the Time company) and my books dont' really get that much money. I mean, I've never really thought about teaching, but it's such a smart idea. I really like it. So I have to talk to my advisors and see what I can do. Oh exciting! I have a plan! I mean I've always HAD a plan, but it's definetly narrowing in on more realistic goals. But we'll see where the wind takes me.
I guess it's a good time to talk about my roadtrips!! The one to see Ali was awesome. I went with Jen and it was a six hour drive to Milwaukee. We ate downtown and we then went to Ali's hometown (Burlington) and then saw Marlise in Chicago and just explored. It was great! I had a really good time and I'm really happy I got to see Ali. She is someone I don't get to see very much so it was nice to even have three or so days with her. Then my seocnd roadtrip was with Kara, Jake, and his girlfriend and we went to Omaha Nebraska!! I was really happy to see Laura, even though we got in at 5AM, she went to school, we ate dinner with her, and that's about it. She had to go to Oregon the next day so our time with her was limited. Then we saw Kara's cousins and they are sweet ass people. Like they are 25 and 28 so I thought they'd act "older" but they don't. We all got along really well. I enjoyed myself. I mean on that trip, we didn't do too much, but it was really relaxing so I have no complaints on my end. I've also decided I LOVE Omaha. It's such a nice place to be. Like... it's got a downtown area, then a suburb area, and then like an area that's really open and lots of land. I wouldn't mind living there... of course I'd have to have a job and actually find courage to move... we'll see what happens. Nothing will happen ANYTIME soon.
Okay, I think that's all I got. I could go on... I want to go on, but it's already three and I haven't done anything. EEep. I promise to write more once school starts. I'll be a tad more organized and as funny as it sounds, I'll have more time... lol.. Wish me luck for school!!!
Amy
Saturday, January 27, 2007
Saturday, January 06, 2007
If this is a year of new beginnings, why do I feel so used?
Hello one and all. It's been a while since I've written, and I apologize. Life has been crazy. I was house sitting for Jame's family from the 23rd to the 30th, and then of course there was Christmas, and New Years and my Christmas party and working in Plymouth and Shakopee and getting ready for school and of course house sitting for my brother, which I am currently doing. So I think it's been okay that it's been a while. But I'll go through this all cuz It's been an interesting couple of weeks.
Christmas was amazing. I got a lot of things that I didnt' expect. I got a car (Kinda my present to myself but I got someone to co-sign the loan so it all worked out) and gift cards and stuff from Clinique and Gilmore Girl season 2 and some other stuff. It was a nice Christmas cuz everyone was friendly and Andrew was there and I felt like we actually have a real family.
House sitting was really interesting. I've never watched house before, so I really didn't know what was to happen. Am I supposed to LIVE THERE? Day and night, be there in case something happened? I figured out that that is not possible. Maybe for some people, but not me. I can't even stay at my own house for more than a couple hours at a time. Ha. But the Dog (Tobie) was pretty good (besides the fact he pooped once cuz I was at work for 10hrs and he threw up the first night I was there) He really liked the company though. It was hard because they had two dogs a week before they left, but then he died cuz he had cancer. So the other dog was just lethargic and so that was the main reason I was there. But I got paid rather well. I really enjoyed doing it.
My Christmas party was stressful as Hell. Planning a thing that big is horrible. I vow never to do it again (but we'll see if that actually happens) It's like, is the payoff worth the stress? Who knows. But everyone seemed like they had a good time. Secret Santa thing was really fun and everyone just had a good time hanging out together and the food was excellent. Everyone did a really good job. Sadly I got a migraine so Ali and my night was cut short.
speaking of Ali, she was down for the week and it was fun. She came specifically for the Christmas party and New Years. And New years... oh my it was great. Like we played broomball for hours. I think from 8 to 11 or something. I've never done so much running before. It was crazy. But the best part is, I didn't get hurt!! Woo hay!! I am wound-free! and I had a lot of fun cuz I flirted with Dusty a lot and there was just soo many people there that I got to catch up with. The night was also a little frustrating cuz some people were just ignoring me and I fetl sad. But I've talked to that person so all things are well now.
NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS
1.) Read a book a month
2.) Finish my book
3.) Continue running
I think those are a doable goals. Don't you? I'm feeling it. haha.
So my title to my blog has some meaning. I was basically taken advantage of the other day and let me just say it's a horrible feeling. I tried to shower off the feeling but believe me, it sticks there. No nothing REALLY bad happened, but it's the concept. It's that concept that I was the deer standing in headlights and did NOTHING to save myself. A push of the arm does not say HEY please don't touch me. Nope.... But this isn't the place or the time to get into this. Just realize that I wasn't stupid, I was just frozen.
I hope you all had a great new years and I will write again soon!!
Christmas was amazing. I got a lot of things that I didnt' expect. I got a car (Kinda my present to myself but I got someone to co-sign the loan so it all worked out) and gift cards and stuff from Clinique and Gilmore Girl season 2 and some other stuff. It was a nice Christmas cuz everyone was friendly and Andrew was there and I felt like we actually have a real family.
House sitting was really interesting. I've never watched house before, so I really didn't know what was to happen. Am I supposed to LIVE THERE? Day and night, be there in case something happened? I figured out that that is not possible. Maybe for some people, but not me. I can't even stay at my own house for more than a couple hours at a time. Ha. But the Dog (Tobie) was pretty good (besides the fact he pooped once cuz I was at work for 10hrs and he threw up the first night I was there) He really liked the company though. It was hard because they had two dogs a week before they left, but then he died cuz he had cancer. So the other dog was just lethargic and so that was the main reason I was there. But I got paid rather well. I really enjoyed doing it.
My Christmas party was stressful as Hell. Planning a thing that big is horrible. I vow never to do it again (but we'll see if that actually happens) It's like, is the payoff worth the stress? Who knows. But everyone seemed like they had a good time. Secret Santa thing was really fun and everyone just had a good time hanging out together and the food was excellent. Everyone did a really good job. Sadly I got a migraine so Ali and my night was cut short.
speaking of Ali, she was down for the week and it was fun. She came specifically for the Christmas party and New Years. And New years... oh my it was great. Like we played broomball for hours. I think from 8 to 11 or something. I've never done so much running before. It was crazy. But the best part is, I didn't get hurt!! Woo hay!! I am wound-free! and I had a lot of fun cuz I flirted with Dusty a lot and there was just soo many people there that I got to catch up with. The night was also a little frustrating cuz some people were just ignoring me and I fetl sad. But I've talked to that person so all things are well now.
NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS
1.) Read a book a month
2.) Finish my book
3.) Continue running
I think those are a doable goals. Don't you? I'm feeling it. haha.
So my title to my blog has some meaning. I was basically taken advantage of the other day and let me just say it's a horrible feeling. I tried to shower off the feeling but believe me, it sticks there. No nothing REALLY bad happened, but it's the concept. It's that concept that I was the deer standing in headlights and did NOTHING to save myself. A push of the arm does not say HEY please don't touch me. Nope.... But this isn't the place or the time to get into this. Just realize that I wasn't stupid, I was just frozen.
I hope you all had a great new years and I will write again soon!!
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