Are you my Ishmael or are you my Issac?

I got that quote today from Chapel today. It speaks really strong to me, as does the whole message the woman gave today. What it is referring to is that we are always trying to find that someone we are supposed to marry. God has a plan for us, but as imperfect humans, we try to find our own person, because although we have faith in our Father, we feel that he needs a little help cuz he is failing at his job. So we find our so-called "Issac." Back story is that Issac was the son Sarah and Abraham in their very old age. God had told Abraham he was to have a child, but Abraham waited and waited. When he finally thought God wasn't doing what he was supposed to, he slept with Sarah's maid and who had Ishmael. So God did not let Ishmael be the heir to Abraham's estate because God was still planning on Issac takin gover when Abraham left. Anywho... so God has our Issac, but we just have to be patient. Ishmale may be something we really want, but it may not truly be our "Issac." I find this soo very true, especially in my life. It's hard to follow God's plan and be on God's time, but if we truly put our faith in him, we will be content until that day arrives!!! How exciting!

While the woman at Chapel talked about having faith in our Lord in this sense, she also meant in everyday life, and that's when it hit me. I AM GOING TO BETHEL!! I cried when I realized this. It didn't click, it wasn't hitting me. Even though I've been in classes for a week and I live in a dorm-like thing and I'm meeting all these people, I just didn't really accept it. I think I went through so many highs and lows and painfully nights that I turned myself to this numb being. I couldn't take more pain. But wow.... it hit me. And it hit me hard. I'm so thankful that I'm here, and it's because God wanted me here, I just had to learn patience and be on his time, not my own. His time is so much better than mine and if only I could open my eyes a little wider, I think I'd realize this without having to go through so much pain first. Well anyway, praise God!!

So.... life is one big track and I keep running around and around and around. I'm referring to my wake up at 8AM, have class until 3PM (minus lunch and chapel) go running for 30 minutes, work 4:30pm-11:00pm, do homework until 2 or 3AM. Sleep. Start all over agian. This is my life for the last week, and will continue being my life until.... well... I think the end of the month. Crazy eh? I'm taking it one day at a time because otherwise I'd panic. Yes, I have a lot of classes. Yes, I have a lot of reading and homework for these classes. Yes, I'm working 33hrs a week. Yes, I'm crazy. lol. But it's okay, cuz I want to be here, and I want to be challenged. I love being here. I didn't think I could love being away from home so much. Of course I miss my friends, but I would hope they all know that I love them dearly and school will not tear us apart. We are bound together forever through Christ. =)

So yah, that's me right at this very moment. Happy, somewhat healthy (I think i'm getting sick! Go figure) and enjoying life. I love you all!

Amy <3