Hi, my name is Amy... not Aimee

I love God. I really do. It's an odd thing to have this love for a person who is never right in front of you. It's a friendship kind of love, and a love for a Father, and all the other kind of loves out there that anyone could ever come up with. To put it easier, it's an Agape love. The word agape just wraps it all into one tight little package. I do have a problem with this though. Although I love God with all my heart, I find it hard sometimes to show it. Not all the time, I've got it down for some of the time... but all the time. Oh... it's a hard lifestyle to lead. To be continuously praising Him in everything I do. That's a lot of responsibility. ESPECIALLY for someone who I NEVER get to see. With all of my friends I usually get pretty frustrated if we are out of contact with each other after a while. I need to have you in my life to feel complete. So I think that is where I struggle. I know God is Everywhere at ALL times, but my brain doesn't really grasp it, yah know? I think this is something I'll pick up eventually, but in the meantime, I want him to come down and hang out with me a while. I'm crazy aren't i?

I think I've just been thinking about God a lot lately because I'm in a Christian Theology class and it's challenging me in ways I never thought i'd be challenged in. What do I believe about God's Foreknowledge? Is he all knowing, or is He not? Is He within time or outside of time? Does any of this matter in the end? Who's right on the interpretations of the bible? Is it literal? Is it not? I want all of these questions answered! It's hard to have someone you love so much have so much hidden that our minds will never grasp. I want to know everything about Him! I want to have the answers, and not just sit here dumbfounded on the wonders of God. And the whole "it's a mystery answer" c'mon, really? lol

I just felt like writing that. Just because I was in that sort of mood to ponder. Pondering is good!

Oh, I also had a super awesome time last night with some work people and Kara! Well ookay, not SUPER AWESOME.... but a good happy time! We went to my friend Melody's show (she books bands at the Dinkytowner) and I went with my friends Toni and Adam (who are just absolutely adorable!) I love people who are dating or whatever you wanna call it. They are just all cute together. It was fun though cuz the music was interesting. It wasn't the music I'd listen to persay, but it fit the atmosphere. I've really grown in love with my fellow co-workers. We are all diferrent, but I just like em! you guys should meet them all! Someday... =)

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So.... I'm actually on my laptop on my break from work. Why you ask? Oh because I have homework that's due in about mmmm..... (or memm) 2 hours. So I know McDonald's has WiFi! yay WiFi and being able to be on the internet. So I get here.... (might as well eat right?) Turn on my computer.... do things... yah know, the usual.... but oh no, wait. wait. I have to PAY!!!! And this took about 10 minutes to set up, get my stinkin credit card, and all that fun jazz. So now I'm just irritated to no end. So it leaves me about 10 minutes to do my homework. Yah, not gonna happen. I'm not gonna half ass it. Especially cuz it gets read out loud on the radio at Bethel. So can't really do a crappy job. So now I'm just wasting my time away. Woo hoo

Homework is the devil and somehow it takes up all of my time and none of my time at all. It'd rather just taunt me from the corner, pointing a finger at me and laughing the entire time. How I loathe you Mr. Homework.....

I get to talk to Jen tonight (even though I talked to her last night) but this time I get to SEE her. See... I'm not as HIGH TECH as Adam is, so I can only type to her! But yayayyayayaya I miiiiss her..... .i memm her.. he hee

I also have to say that Mr. Bobuttons is... probably no longer. This has been a long time coming, I just didn't know really what to write. So I'll write that. I don't know how to put it.... I mean we were never really really dating, but... who knows. He won't talk to me. I wish I knew what was going on. I'm a GREAT listener... especially if it involves me! lol. Oh well... he'll come around evenutally. I'm down with being friends... but man I just have no patience!

Ok, I have to go, break is over! Later lovies!

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P.S.-Spring is so close I can just smell it! YAYYAYAYAYA!

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So we've officially started up a blog for our online journalism class... mind you we LITERALLY just started... but here's the link. we had to do a warm up post, and of course mine is a tad long... for a beginning post anyway. Not long like on this thing though. lol. Anyway... take a look at it, it should be fun and interesting! Woo

Here's the link

http://veramy.wordpress.com/

I wanna make that a link... but I'm not sure how to do that! Ah! Ok, bye guys! 

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P.S.- If you guys can think of a better title for the blog, that'd be great. I'm thinking... I mean I am the writer, but "Amy's Weblog" just makes me wanna throw up a little in my mouth. Lol. So does the tag.... but we'll work on it.... =) 

The World Carries On Without You, But Nothing Remains the Same

Those are lyrics from A Fine Frenzy's song "Last of Days". I was listening to this song last night when I was driving back from a meeting, and I just got really sad. I missed Jen. I missed Travis. I missed being in high school. I missed being a kid. So I called Adam and begged him (which really wasn't necessary cuz he was more than willing) to let me talk to Jen on Sunday. I'm not sure why I miss her so much. I mean yes she's one of my best friends, and yes we are moving in together, but we only saw each other like twice a week! Maybe it's because the whole thing with Nate is just really tough and frustrating and I don't have her to lend her advice unless it's over facebook. That just doesnt' do it. I mean she's been gone FIVE WEEKS... and I still have so many ahead of me. And Travis... well I have an eternity for that. And that blows. I also miss my Seward because I had a dream that she died and it was so realistic and scary. I woke up without knowing if that was real or not. I hope nobody dies again. I'm not ready for it. but why do I have that icky feeling? I'm sure i'm just overreacting, but I mean anything is possible. At any rate, I LOVE you all and don't think otherwise. =)

I apologize for not writing sooner. Life... oh life. It's crazy and all I'm trying to do is balance my friends and my homework. So far, homework loses. As much as my mind WANTS homework to win, no other part of me wants it to. So it loses hard core. But it doesn't help that I've been sick for the past three weeks. That takes away my motivation. First I had Bronchitis, and then when I thought I was better, I stayed sick.... but I just let it happen cuz my friend Ben told me that I'll be sick for a while. But then I started feeling like a DIFFERENT sick so I went to the doctor again and he said I didn't have strep, but I have something (he's not sure what! That's not helpful) but he gave me medicine so happy day! I should be feeling wonderful by Monday, and that's so good to hear!

Last weekend was probably one of the better weekends that I've had! Not saying that most of my weekends aren't fun, but this one was just wonderful. It was Nick Schonhardt's (I KNOW I'm spelling that wrong! ahh!) birthday and Mike Johnson's Birthday! And Nick decided to have a bunch of people over at his parents house! Because it was Nick's birthday, Marlise came back from Chicago, and Ali came from Milwaukee. So I got to see two people then I never get to see and it made me really happy. We got to have some special bonding time over some late lunch before Nick's house. We needed it! Then we went to Nick's and there were so many people! I was there for 8 hours!! I talked myself to the point of not having a voice. That was partly because of me being sick, but also because I probably talked a week's worth while I was there. but who couldn't! I mean John, Anna, Justin, Sarah, Rachel, Mike, Adam, Ali, Marlise, Lee, Mary, Sam, Robbie. Zach, Brittany, Jake, Adam and Eric Neis, Nick, Mitch, Eric Norgren, Kara, Kyle, Nate, Kelly, Tim and so many others were there! It was like being in high school all over again! Where everybody hung out in one big group and had a good time. The nice thing was that Nick also had friends from school and family there. He just brought everyone together and did it nicely. Nate said he counted at one point and there were over 30 people there. lol. Good times. The people I listed above already made 26 people. lol. Man oh man. It was great that we all came together for Nick's birthday. Happy Birthday to Nick and Mike!! =) But yah, I'd go into more detail, but I've done enough. But yes.... Mary beat me in darts, I played a super long game of pool, I played doubles in fooseball (adam neis on my team, John and Jake on the other) and it got so intense that I actually BROKE the fooseball man's legs off! oopsies! And I "helped" build a fire off of smouldering coals... .or I just stood back and watched... same thing

Friday was fun too. I hung out with my roomie Alyssa the whole night. We ordered pizza, went to Target, and watched the move Martian Child, good movie by the way! And then our RA Skyler invited us to play Settlers and kicked our butts! But the ONLY reason he won is because all the other people are not competitive (which drives me crazy!) and they just trade him ridiculous trades! It still blows my mind! lol. But it was fun. It was just nice to spend some time with her. I don't do it a whole lot, so I was happy. Actually.... i've been hanging out with her a lot, who knows what I'm talking about! lol

And the other exciting thing from last weekend was that Karla (Graham's wife who works with me at the bank and who I absolutely adore) had her baby!!!! YAY!! It's so cute, looks totally like Graham! They neamed her Sophia Margaret which is funny because my brother and his wife just named their baby Sophia Madison. lol. So two Sophia's in like a month. Must be a popular name this year. But I'm super excited for her.

So hmmm, oh yes. Last night I went to my first Clairon meeting--> that's Bethel's newspaper. I've never gone before because my first semester it was during the time I worked (stupid Panera) and then last semester I worked Friday mornings so I always slept at Jen's house and watched Grey's Anatomy. But now I have no excuse, so I went. I know most people on the paper so it wasn't scary, but I did actually raise my hand to do a story. Eep!! April 17th is the paper my story will be in, and I couldn't be more terrified! I mean I've been writing forever, this should be nothing. And it's a profile on these two sisters that play doubles in tennis. Easy peasy! I should be fine. But it's still terrifying that the Bethel population can read and critique my story. Maybe I won't tell anyone that it's coming out. lol. Unless it's really good.....

Ok, I'm done. I gotta do stuff! Bye guys!!!

Love,
Amy <3