Hi, my name is Amy... not Aimee

I love God. I really do. It's an odd thing to have this love for a person who is never right in front of you. It's a friendship kind of love, and a love for a Father, and all the other kind of loves out there that anyone could ever come up with. To put it easier, it's an Agape love. The word agape just wraps it all into one tight little package. I do have a problem with this though. Although I love God with all my heart, I find it hard sometimes to show it. Not all the time, I've got it down for some of the time... but all the time. Oh... it's a hard lifestyle to lead. To be continuously praising Him in everything I do. That's a lot of responsibility. ESPECIALLY for someone who I NEVER get to see. With all of my friends I usually get pretty frustrated if we are out of contact with each other after a while. I need to have you in my life to feel complete. So I think that is where I struggle. I know God is Everywhere at ALL times, but my brain doesn't really grasp it, yah know? I think this is something I'll pick up eventually, but in the meantime, I want him to come down and hang out with me a while. I'm crazy aren't i?

I think I've just been thinking about God a lot lately because I'm in a Christian Theology class and it's challenging me in ways I never thought i'd be challenged in. What do I believe about God's Foreknowledge? Is he all knowing, or is He not? Is He within time or outside of time? Does any of this matter in the end? Who's right on the interpretations of the bible? Is it literal? Is it not? I want all of these questions answered! It's hard to have someone you love so much have so much hidden that our minds will never grasp. I want to know everything about Him! I want to have the answers, and not just sit here dumbfounded on the wonders of God. And the whole "it's a mystery answer" c'mon, really? lol

I just felt like writing that. Just because I was in that sort of mood to ponder. Pondering is good!

Oh, I also had a super awesome time last night with some work people and Kara! Well ookay, not SUPER AWESOME.... but a good happy time! We went to my friend Melody's show (she books bands at the Dinkytowner) and I went with my friends Toni and Adam (who are just absolutely adorable!) I love people who are dating or whatever you wanna call it. They are just all cute together. It was fun though cuz the music was interesting. It wasn't the music I'd listen to persay, but it fit the atmosphere. I've really grown in love with my fellow co-workers. We are all diferrent, but I just like em! you guys should meet them all! Someday... =)

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