Alright one and all- this is it. I have my surgery in NINE HOURS!!! Which means
1) Pray for me
2) YAY!
3) It'll be a while till I write
I'm really pumped about tomorrow (and still scared- which is soo normal) and i'm just glad that I have so many people supporting me! =)
I had my "going away party tonight and it was great. I thank EVERYONE for being there and I thank Lissa for the "boob cake" and the "teeny titty cakes" and Nate for hosting, and just seriously everyone who was there for me. It really makes everything a lot easier when i have the support. But yes... I need to sleep cuz I was supposed to be sleeping by like midnight for sure (says mother) but I'm such a night owl!
Well thanks guys for everything and I will be back soon! no worries!!!!!!!
<3>
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
So close!
So it's Wednesday! Why is Wednesday day a big deal?! Oh I dunno... cuz SO MANY THINGS HAVE HAPPENED TODAY AND YESTERDAY! WOO! I just don't even know where to start.
The fact that I have a few days left of school is crazily exciting. My room mate Jen moved out today which kinda sucks but I mean she's happy cuz she gets to be with her boyfriend and such. So I respect that. Alyssa and I are here until Friday (which had to be moved cuz I forgot that I worked on Saturday! BOO) so we are taking it easy. On Monday I got a really bad headache so I had to go to sleep at like 7:30PM! I haven't done that since I was a wee little one. lol. But that's okay. So I worked yesterday and studied at the same time for my Theology test. YIKES! I don't know how I did. I really just can't tell. I feel awful about it, which usually means I did OK. And when I looked over my notes I know for sure that I got things wrong, but a lot of it I feel like it was okay. I dunno. We shall see. It just is nerve wracking because I have a really bad grade in that class and I HAVE to do well on that Final!
I think the reason I feel so great though is because I went to my mailbox and saw that I OFFICIALLY got accepted for the Hawaii Interim trip in January of next year! AHHH!!!! I, Amy Vergin, am going to be in HAWAII for 24 DAYS! How insane is that?! I'm just really excited for this opportunity! Like... I never go anywhere that exciting, so it's just like I get to experience a different culuture while learning how to surf and getting tan and going to different churches, and snorkeling, and just everything that I couldn't' even imagine. I think it works well too because I would get home sick if it was any longer. I can't be away for longer than that at this point. Am I being a pansy? Maybe. But I don't care. So in.... less than 8 months, I will be in that wonderful state. Yay for me!
What else... oh yes. Holly's wedding planning is totally crazy. I just feel like we have soo much to do and not enough time. lol. But I guess that's how all weddings are. I also have like my friend Calli and Tim's wedding in June and Kara's birthday coming up. Then I have Sonshine in July, along with Holly's bridal shower, and a dress fitting, and lots of WAKE BOARDING (when I can... hee hee) And then I have to find an apartment and move in in August, and then go on a camping trip. And I have JENNIFER (a.k.a wonderfulness) coming home on June 6th, and Holly's flower picking out on June 7th and Adam leaving for two weeks right away in June, and Adam potentially leaving later this year, and Justin doing research all summer and going to Seattle (not fair Justin Robert Knapp!) in July, and man oh man! This summer is going to be crazy!!! Like all of that makes me feel warn out already!!
That's it... I need a planner
Hmmm.... well yah. That's it. I really don't wanna move home. I'm not looking forward to it. I like living with Alyssa and being on my own. So going home is always a little sad. But I'm brought right back up knowing that I get to see all my friends all the time again and not having to worry about school and homework and grades!
I've also decided that I wanna do some classes in photography, or maybe even MINOR in photography. Not at Bethel because they don't have that minor. But maybe I could take some classes somewhere else? Who knows. We'll see. I just really like pictures. Ok... ANYWAY
I have more to say, but you have to go to my OTHER blog.... ha ha.
http://journeyofsurgery.blogspot.com/
Ok, I'm out. Love you guys!! Happy end of finals!!
Amy
The fact that I have a few days left of school is crazily exciting. My room mate Jen moved out today which kinda sucks but I mean she's happy cuz she gets to be with her boyfriend and such. So I respect that. Alyssa and I are here until Friday (which had to be moved cuz I forgot that I worked on Saturday! BOO) so we are taking it easy. On Monday I got a really bad headache so I had to go to sleep at like 7:30PM! I haven't done that since I was a wee little one. lol. But that's okay. So I worked yesterday and studied at the same time for my Theology test. YIKES! I don't know how I did. I really just can't tell. I feel awful about it, which usually means I did OK. And when I looked over my notes I know for sure that I got things wrong, but a lot of it I feel like it was okay. I dunno. We shall see. It just is nerve wracking because I have a really bad grade in that class and I HAVE to do well on that Final!
I think the reason I feel so great though is because I went to my mailbox and saw that I OFFICIALLY got accepted for the Hawaii Interim trip in January of next year! AHHH!!!! I, Amy Vergin, am going to be in HAWAII for 24 DAYS! How insane is that?! I'm just really excited for this opportunity! Like... I never go anywhere that exciting, so it's just like I get to experience a different culuture while learning how to surf and getting tan and going to different churches, and snorkeling, and just everything that I couldn't' even imagine. I think it works well too because I would get home sick if it was any longer. I can't be away for longer than that at this point. Am I being a pansy? Maybe. But I don't care. So in.... less than 8 months, I will be in that wonderful state. Yay for me!
What else... oh yes. Holly's wedding planning is totally crazy. I just feel like we have soo much to do and not enough time. lol. But I guess that's how all weddings are. I also have like my friend Calli and Tim's wedding in June and Kara's birthday coming up. Then I have Sonshine in July, along with Holly's bridal shower, and a dress fitting, and lots of WAKE BOARDING (when I can... hee hee) And then I have to find an apartment and move in in August, and then go on a camping trip. And I have JENNIFER (a.k.a wonderfulness) coming home on June 6th, and Holly's flower picking out on June 7th and Adam leaving for two weeks right away in June, and Adam potentially leaving later this year, and Justin doing research all summer and going to Seattle (not fair Justin Robert Knapp!) in July, and man oh man! This summer is going to be crazy!!! Like all of that makes me feel warn out already!!
That's it... I need a planner
Hmmm.... well yah. That's it. I really don't wanna move home. I'm not looking forward to it. I like living with Alyssa and being on my own. So going home is always a little sad. But I'm brought right back up knowing that I get to see all my friends all the time again and not having to worry about school and homework and grades!
I've also decided that I wanna do some classes in photography, or maybe even MINOR in photography. Not at Bethel because they don't have that minor. But maybe I could take some classes somewhere else? Who knows. We'll see. I just really like pictures. Ok... ANYWAY
I have more to say, but you have to go to my OTHER blog.... ha ha.
http://journeyofsurgery.blogspot.com/
Ok, I'm out. Love you guys!! Happy end of finals!!
Amy
Friday, May 16, 2008
God give me strength today...
My life has been a soap opera this week. Really, if you look at this story that's been told, it's really been going on for three years. a Story of heartache, and tears, and laughter, and smiles.
I struggle because I have to lose a friend, maybe two. And I don't think he understands that this is a really hard thing for me to do. No, it's none of YOU (you know who you are) It's prob. someone who never reads this, but it's still hard. I've been friends with him for so long, and to let go is like a friend dying, and we all know how well I handle THAT.
Basically I have to let go because bad decisions have/had been made. I have to walk away because it's not worth screwing up a marriage, especially when you can take the easy route and just screw up the friendships. Marriage should be forever. And no, there was no cheating on... .don't think that low of me or anyone else involved. That's why it's dumb. But I'm respecting everyone and backing down.
I need the strength though. i hate being in this position. I mean my friend thinks I never cared about him! So not true. And I hate that he is left feeling that way. I don't think he'll forgive me for anything, and that I regret. I wish I could make this whole thing better. But I can't.
So if he ever reads this, I hope he really understands where I'm coming from, and i hope he knows that I did it for him and for her.
I trust God will always make the right decisions.... maybe it's for the best.... but I wish it wasn't. Sigh
Still happy though cuz it's sunny and it's the LAST DAY OF CLASSES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
10 days till surgery
21 days till jen's back
2 finals
5 days till SUMMER!!!!!
so many countdowns
<3>
I struggle because I have to lose a friend, maybe two. And I don't think he understands that this is a really hard thing for me to do. No, it's none of YOU (you know who you are) It's prob. someone who never reads this, but it's still hard. I've been friends with him for so long, and to let go is like a friend dying, and we all know how well I handle THAT.
Basically I have to let go because bad decisions have/had been made. I have to walk away because it's not worth screwing up a marriage, especially when you can take the easy route and just screw up the friendships. Marriage should be forever. And no, there was no cheating on... .don't think that low of me or anyone else involved. That's why it's dumb. But I'm respecting everyone and backing down.
I need the strength though. i hate being in this position. I mean my friend thinks I never cared about him! So not true. And I hate that he is left feeling that way. I don't think he'll forgive me for anything, and that I regret. I wish I could make this whole thing better. But I can't.
So if he ever reads this, I hope he really understands where I'm coming from, and i hope he knows that I did it for him and for her.
I trust God will always make the right decisions.... maybe it's for the best.... but I wish it wasn't. Sigh
Still happy though cuz it's sunny and it's the LAST DAY OF CLASSES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
10 days till surgery
21 days till jen's back
2 finals
5 days till SUMMER!!!!!
so many countdowns
<3>
Wednesday, May 07, 2008
P.S. I love you
I cried tonight. I watched a movie that just... it didn't do anything huge and dramatic, it didn't have someone die in the end (actually in the beginning, and not detailed either) and it didn't have her die like in the Notebook. It just knew how to speak to me and I feel like every other living person. It was a movie about love, real love. (well maybe movie love, but a love that I think is possible) I mean these two people had undying love for each other. While I could understand how it is to lose love, I kinda related it more towards Travis on the dying part. It made me wish that Travis could have known he was dying because then he could have left us letters to help us cope. I think that's all we'd ever want. To be comforted, and know that the person who left us understands our pain, and how we want more than anything to have them back. I think that's why I always feel compelled to write notes about my friends just in case that moment happens when i'm not here anymore. I'm not trying to be morbid or weird, I'm just trying to help others cope.
The movie also made me want love more than anything and yet run away screaming. I don't want to hurt that much. I fear that I may lose that person. I'm not a strong enough person for that. Losing Travis was hard enough, but my husband? Couldn't do it. But I want someone to love me that much, to know that it'd be hard to be left without them here and to do something to help me know that i'm not alone. It's the sweetest gesture that anyone could ever do.
I think these are all the reasons I cried. the movie lived up to expectations, especially in a girl world. Men: Be that man to your wife. Be that one that loves her more than anyone else could ever love her. Worship the ground she walks on, and let her know it. Be sincere, be kind, but loving. And maybe watch the movie... it's just that good. It's not a cheesy love, it's not a romantic comedy, it's not a depressing movie, it's a perfect movie. That's my suggestion for tonight.
May we all find that love that you would die for. Or as quote from the movie: "for once I kiss you it to be the end of the world" sigh... how wonderful
Amy
The movie also made me want love more than anything and yet run away screaming. I don't want to hurt that much. I fear that I may lose that person. I'm not a strong enough person for that. Losing Travis was hard enough, but my husband? Couldn't do it. But I want someone to love me that much, to know that it'd be hard to be left without them here and to do something to help me know that i'm not alone. It's the sweetest gesture that anyone could ever do.
I think these are all the reasons I cried. the movie lived up to expectations, especially in a girl world. Men: Be that man to your wife. Be that one that loves her more than anyone else could ever love her. Worship the ground she walks on, and let her know it. Be sincere, be kind, but loving. And maybe watch the movie... it's just that good. It's not a cheesy love, it's not a romantic comedy, it's not a depressing movie, it's a perfect movie. That's my suggestion for tonight.
May we all find that love that you would die for. Or as quote from the movie: "for once I kiss you it to be the end of the world" sigh... how wonderful
Amy
Thursday, May 01, 2008
when is it enough?
I've recieved some disturbing news tonight and i felt that I needed to say something about it. I was going to let it go after I worked out, bu then I realized that this was a big deal.
There is a reason I do not answer my cell phone sometimes. Actually there are several reasons:
1) It's not on me
2) I'm at work
3) I'm trying to sleep cuz I wake up at 5:30
4) I'm in the middle of something important and it's rude to answer in the middle of that
5) I'm just not in the mood to talk
I think those are all the reasons why sometimes I'm not by my cell phone. And don't get me wrong, I love my friends and I love getting phone calls and I just love how I get to hear from my friends all the time. But there are times when I NEED to just not answer it.
I shouldn't be ridiculed when I'm not 100% available. No one should. I need a break sometime though. Even if it is an hour here or an hour there... I mean c'mon. That's a reasonable amount.
There is no part of me that wants to come off as "oh well I just have oh so many friends and I just don't have time for all of them!" That is NOT what I'm saying. But I'm just always meeting people and trying to keep in touch with everyone, and I just get tired. I'm just trying to make everyone happy and nothing sucks more than when I take that me time, and then I get people mad or people that keep calling, or people who leave me threatening messages. These should not be acceptable things.
Again, I love you all, but just understand that if I need some time...give me some! I'll call you back when I can, and leave a message if it's super important, or call again.... and sometimes I just don't have it sewn to my hip. Bare with me. I know I have to be a littl ebit better with answering it but sometimes if I answer this is what I'll say "I'm just not in the mood to talk" and then people will be like "why?" which ensues a conversation. I'm doing my best okay? I love you and I do care what's going on, just gimme a little credit okay?
Amy <3
There is a reason I do not answer my cell phone sometimes. Actually there are several reasons:
1) It's not on me
2) I'm at work
3) I'm trying to sleep cuz I wake up at 5:30
4) I'm in the middle of something important and it's rude to answer in the middle of that
5) I'm just not in the mood to talk
I think those are all the reasons why sometimes I'm not by my cell phone. And don't get me wrong, I love my friends and I love getting phone calls and I just love how I get to hear from my friends all the time. But there are times when I NEED to just not answer it.
I shouldn't be ridiculed when I'm not 100% available. No one should. I need a break sometime though. Even if it is an hour here or an hour there... I mean c'mon. That's a reasonable amount.
There is no part of me that wants to come off as "oh well I just have oh so many friends and I just don't have time for all of them!" That is NOT what I'm saying. But I'm just always meeting people and trying to keep in touch with everyone, and I just get tired. I'm just trying to make everyone happy and nothing sucks more than when I take that me time, and then I get people mad or people that keep calling, or people who leave me threatening messages. These should not be acceptable things.
Again, I love you all, but just understand that if I need some time...give me some! I'll call you back when I can, and leave a message if it's super important, or call again.... and sometimes I just don't have it sewn to my hip. Bare with me. I know I have to be a littl ebit better with answering it but sometimes if I answer this is what I'll say "I'm just not in the mood to talk" and then people will be like "why?" which ensues a conversation. I'm doing my best okay? I love you and I do care what's going on, just gimme a little credit okay?
Amy <3
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