P.S. I love you

I cried tonight. I watched a movie that just... it didn't do anything huge and dramatic, it didn't have someone die in the end (actually in the beginning, and not detailed either) and it didn't have her die like in the Notebook. It just knew how to speak to me and I feel like every other living person. It was a movie about love, real love. (well maybe movie love, but a love that I think is possible) I mean these two people had undying love for each other. While I could understand how it is to lose love, I kinda related it more towards Travis on the dying part. It made me wish that Travis could have known he was dying because then he could have left us letters to help us cope. I think that's all we'd ever want. To be comforted, and know that the person who left us understands our pain, and how we want more than anything to have them back. I think that's why I always feel compelled to write notes about my friends just in case that moment happens when i'm not here anymore. I'm not trying to be morbid or weird, I'm just trying to help others cope.

The movie also made me want love more than anything and yet run away screaming. I don't want to hurt that much. I fear that I may lose that person. I'm not a strong enough person for that. Losing Travis was hard enough, but my husband? Couldn't do it. But I want someone to love me that much, to know that it'd be hard to be left without them here and to do something to help me know that i'm not alone. It's the sweetest gesture that anyone could ever do.

I think these are all the reasons I cried. the movie lived up to expectations, especially in a girl world. Men: Be that man to your wife. Be that one that loves her more than anyone else could ever love her. Worship the ground she walks on, and let her know it. Be sincere, be kind, but loving. And maybe watch the movie... it's just that good. It's not a cheesy love, it's not a romantic comedy, it's not a depressing movie, it's a perfect movie. That's my suggestion for tonight.

May we all find that love that you would die for. Or as quote from the movie: "for once I kiss you it to be the end of the world" sigh... how wonderful

Amy