Not Ideal

So I know I have to actually write something, besides this thing I'm gonna write now. I promise I'll write. I'll actually get around to it... someday.

But for now:

Saying goodbye is hard. It's never been a simple thing and I pretty much hold on to my friends and everything else around me until they die (love you travis!) or something else... But I'm feeling trapped in this spot where I'm fighting for something that's dead. Is it true friendship to stick around and make it work through "thick and thin" or is it just time to leave? I feel underappreciated and unwanted and it hurts. It stings. It just sucks. I don't ask for much. I enjoy being there for others and doing everything I can do please my wonderful friends! But I feel like it's never been returned. It might even be too late to make it work. I'm old news. I'm a has been. I've been there no matter what but I don't know if that means anything anymore. Now I'm not really going to answer the questions that will come from this blog because this is more just a beneficial thing for me. It doesn't matter who the person is because they already know who they are, and could prob. be okay with my conclusion. If they really cared, they'd be talking to me about it, but they don't. So I dunno. There's no actual removing going on here, so no worries.... but... it's time to say goodbye.


Wishing for the years past,
Amy