Alright. So new year, new start right? That's what I always believe. Time to break those habits and commit to something worth while. Will we fail? You bet. But change was never about the time or place, it is about who is changing you. And that of course is God.
I love New Years. Don't get me wrong. Even though it's a completely pointless holiday filled with pointless resolutions, I love it. I love that you get to have (finally) one holiday that is meant to be spent with friends. I love that we stay up late with one another to watch a silly ball come down a pole. I love that we drink champagne or fake sparkly stuff to ring in the new year, and I love that at the end of the night, no matter if it was good or bad, you've walked into a year that is new and bright and shiny. Anything can happen. Is this the year I finish my book? Is this the year I resolve most of my debt? Is this when I finally finish college and get that "real job" that is lurking out in the midst? It's nice to know the book is wide open.
What's also nice is that I can close the chapter that I like to call "Hello 09 style". Okay. not really. I just made that up... right now. But look what 09 had to offer: Too expensive rent, a roomie that was absent all summer, fighting at a wedding, drunk at a wedding, drunk after quitting wells fargo, wells fargo in general, no school, boys that I shouldn't have been involved with, and so forth. Of course I did get to go to Hawaii and meet some amazing people, move in with those same people, see some friends that had been gone way too long, succeed at the job that I currently love, finish my first rough draft of my novel, and who knows what else. The best part is, a year from now, i'll have a list most likely the same length for both pros and cons of the year.
At any rate, I'm excited. I'm excited to see what God has in store for me. With a year that could end my school career and start me on a new path, it's exciting. Who will I meet? Who will leave? Where will I live? What will happen? It's all new and fresh and exciting. Maybe this will be the year that I really learn what it means to put God first. Not just have Him around when I need Him, or around when it's convenient, but maybe put Him where he was always meant to be. If I could learn what it means to be married to Christ and how to know my place in the church, then maybe i'll know what it it's like to really follow. Not saying I'm not a Christian or anything like that, but sometimes I feel like I'm walking blind. I know what's out there, and yet I don't trust it. Heaven forbid I let God control my life instead of me. God can't pay the bills, God can't fix my car, God doesn't know how to get the boy of my dreams on my front door step... or does He? Hopefully I can trust this year.
With a year of possibilities and endless decisions, one will never know where they will end up. Heck, we have several friends getting married and a few having babies. What a year! I know I'm up for the challenge to see where we end in this beautiful year of 2010. Are You?
God Bless.
Amy
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