It's true. It's already March 31st. Why is today significant? Many reasons. Probably for reasons that I won't remember in a year's time. Kissing? Warmth? Movies? Love? It's funny that what happens in our lives stays with us for such a short time. I have a friend who just doesn't remember some of the most important moments he's experienced. It's bizarre. I sit on the other side of that fence. I remember it all. Good words, bad words, crying, smiling, sunny days, thunderstorms, etc. And then it becomes the question.... which one is better? Is it better to live in the moment and not remember it later, or have it stuck with you forever to haunt you in either a good way or bad? I think I like having a good memory. I like to remember the smells of things and the music that was playing and that moment that may or may not change the rest of my life.
Like lets describe today. I was outside. The sun shone viciously upon me and my friend. It was windy. Windy enough to irk me a little bit. I love the feeling of wind blowing through my hair, but it was just too much. But it was warm and so the wind was zoned out. Then there was the talk. It was a pretty long talk. We were leaning on a car, watching the garbage man drive by and a dozen of Bethel kids driving way too fast on a road that musta been only 20 MPH. We talked of pride. We talked about love. We talked about uncertainty. We talked of the most honest things in our life. Yet nothing was discussed. For the present time, nothing was discussed.
While that may seem somewhat meaningful, especially when you add in details, it'll lose all meaning in a matter of weeks. That's something I am always curious about. When are these "defining" moments we all talk about? We are so busy trying to push through this class or that job interview or whatever else, that we seem to miss the little things. As usual. This is all random and not a big deal. But it's late and I thought I'd throw something at you guys.
Today is also the day I received all of my graduation information. :) Yes! That's right, this Super Senior is seeing the light at the end of the tunnel! Sorta anyway. I still have to find an internship, and I have to take a course worth 3 credits. But they can be from anywhere which is nice. But it's funny to know that I've been writing this blog for FIVE YEARS and soon the title just won't work if it still says College Life. College will be over. What do I change the title to? Any suggestions? I'm sure I'll come up with something clever. OR I could say, Amy's Post College Life... and put year six even though it wouldn't make sense with the new title. But I really don't want to start back at one. I won't know how to track where I've been! Haha. Oh the details make everything. AT ANY RATE... I graduate in less than two months. Go me! I've arrived!
The downfall is that senioritis is back. Boo. It's bad. I need to actually go to my classes before they fail me! EEK! It's just that life happens and I can't predict it and I can't time it out according to my classes. Oye. Whatever... as long as I pass I guess it doesn't really matter now does it? If I fail I guess I don't graduate. What pressure! But at the same time it doesn't cause me to feel stress.
Alright, I'm rambling. And I'm tired. So I'm out. Enjoy this wonderfully glorious and happy week!
Amy
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
~*Delicate*~
I was reading an old e-mail I had sent to a friend a few years ago, and I found some pretty funny questions in there. I laughed out loud when I read it and decided I should post them up on here.
1) Why do we press harder on a remote control when we know the batteries are
flat?
2) If people evolved from apes, why are there still apes?
3) If someone with a split personality threatens to commit suicide, is it a hostage situation??
Those are great questions don't you think??? I must have gotten them from somewhere because I can't be THAT creative. These are questions people have probably thought about forever. But really? Why do we push on remotes even though we know they are not going to do the things we want them to do any faster! People are silly like that. And I just LOOVE the thing about committing suicide with multiple personalities. Okay, that sounds bad. I don't LOVE SUICIDES. I love the second part of that statement. Haha. Oh man. I really think about my words huh?
For some reason I can't seem to focus on writing this blog. I keep switching back to do a million other things. ADD much? Maybe it's because I'm antsy right now. I'm antsy for things that happened, and for things that didn't. I'm antsy for the completion of my book and antsy for school to be done forever. I think I need to work on my patience skill.
Earlier this week I jumped on the trampoline for exercise. I know right? I had gone running the previous day and decided that some yoga would do the trick. But I couldn't find the yoga tape ANYWHERE so I glanced out the back door at the trampoline. It sat there, whispering "jump on me" and I just simply couldn't resist. It's black surface ached of warmth and it's cold metal legs created stability. The bright blue sky beckoned me to jump in it and join those happy puffy clouds and the birds chirped a song to me. Ah... it was exhilarating. I jumped as high as I could and tried to fall back down as slow as possible. I looked at the church a few blocks down and smiled. Not only did I feel like a kid, but I smiled like one too. It was huge. If I had missing teeth, i would have portrayed an 8 year old to a T. Everyone should jump on a trampoline.
Now why did I title this blog "delicate"? Well one it's my top song right now. I think it has so much truth to life. Or maybe that's just what I feel like. who knows. It's hard also to explain everything because a lot of people read blogs and there's always that chance that I'll say something that I didn't mean to say. I guess that's the upside of having 1) a blog that nobody knows about besides complete and utter strangers or 2) a diary/journal. Blogging is probably not meant to write down every feeling you have. Oops. I do it for the most part anyway. And if I omit names or anything people always figure everything out anyway. I guess I just feel like my life is delicate right now. I've put myself in a position where everything is completely fine, but any tilt in a different direction could be very wounding. And I feel like that it makes me contemplative. But for now, I ignore the delicateness of the situation and I continue to smile at my life.
It's supposed to rain on Friday: JUMP IN PUDDLES
1) Why do we press harder on a remote control when we know the batteries are
flat?
2) If people evolved from apes, why are there still apes?
3) If someone with a split personality threatens to commit suicide, is it a hostage situation??
Those are great questions don't you think??? I must have gotten them from somewhere because I can't be THAT creative. These are questions people have probably thought about forever. But really? Why do we push on remotes even though we know they are not going to do the things we want them to do any faster! People are silly like that. And I just LOOVE the thing about committing suicide with multiple personalities. Okay, that sounds bad. I don't LOVE SUICIDES. I love the second part of that statement. Haha. Oh man. I really think about my words huh?
For some reason I can't seem to focus on writing this blog. I keep switching back to do a million other things. ADD much? Maybe it's because I'm antsy right now. I'm antsy for things that happened, and for things that didn't. I'm antsy for the completion of my book and antsy for school to be done forever. I think I need to work on my patience skill.
Earlier this week I jumped on the trampoline for exercise. I know right? I had gone running the previous day and decided that some yoga would do the trick. But I couldn't find the yoga tape ANYWHERE so I glanced out the back door at the trampoline. It sat there, whispering "jump on me" and I just simply couldn't resist. It's black surface ached of warmth and it's cold metal legs created stability. The bright blue sky beckoned me to jump in it and join those happy puffy clouds and the birds chirped a song to me. Ah... it was exhilarating. I jumped as high as I could and tried to fall back down as slow as possible. I looked at the church a few blocks down and smiled. Not only did I feel like a kid, but I smiled like one too. It was huge. If I had missing teeth, i would have portrayed an 8 year old to a T. Everyone should jump on a trampoline.
Now why did I title this blog "delicate"? Well one it's my top song right now. I think it has so much truth to life. Or maybe that's just what I feel like. who knows. It's hard also to explain everything because a lot of people read blogs and there's always that chance that I'll say something that I didn't mean to say. I guess that's the upside of having 1) a blog that nobody knows about besides complete and utter strangers or 2) a diary/journal. Blogging is probably not meant to write down every feeling you have. Oops. I do it for the most part anyway. And if I omit names or anything people always figure everything out anyway. I guess I just feel like my life is delicate right now. I've put myself in a position where everything is completely fine, but any tilt in a different direction could be very wounding. And I feel like that it makes me contemplative. But for now, I ignore the delicateness of the situation and I continue to smile at my life.
It's supposed to rain on Friday: JUMP IN PUDDLES
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
What does that make me?
It's my 200th blog posting today. I've been putting it off because I felt that it needed to be epic. It wasn't going to suffice if it was a simple blog! So here I am. And I have no idea what to write. It's not that I don't have anything to say, cuz I have lots to say, but where to begin? What can I write about? I just don't know. I guess we'll start simple.
I was in Chicago this last weekend. It was a short trip but I really needed it. School is exhausting and even though I'm excited to be back, it's hard to stay responsible and on top of everything (Like I was really on top of everything! Haha) I also wasn't very excited for this trip. I am just getting out of my financial hole that I've been in for the last year and that makes it scary. But I went anyway because I'm not smart... or something like that. I'm just glad that it happened. It was a breath of fresh air to see Marlise and Ali. I love those ladies!I won't go in to all the details of the trip because that isn't necessarily entertaining for everyone reading this blog. Let's see... we'll do a highlights recap:
1) Someone wrote "dang" on a bunch of signs in the city... HiLarious!
2) There were a group of guys already drunk at 10AM on Saturday. They had a beer can tied to a string and hung it below their balcony. Then they continued to yell at people to "GET THE BEER!!" It was so funny.
3) St. Patty's Day Parade and The Lime Green River dying- nice
4) Walking ALL DAY in the rain and wind and cold- not so nice... but still fun
5) The bean... that'll always be fun. ALWAYS
6) Sushi, Deep Dish Pizza, Pasta, DESSERT..... food is so good when you are road tripping!
7) Boys think Kara, Alyssa, and I are cute! SCORE
8) The Violet Hour= $$$$$$$$ to the extreme but a once in a lifetime opportunity.
9) Singing off key loudly with friends= priceless
That was that. Obviously there were downfalls but who cares about those. You only wanna remember the great parts anyway right?
The other exciting part is that I get to leave for Duluth TOMORROW!!! Huzzah! I get to go with Claire from work and we couldn't be more excited. I mean sure we have to work 11-9 everyday but we can still have fun in the evenings right?? I've never been so it'll be fun no matter what. I'll have to write about that more later.
Now... what should make this 200th posting special? There is a number of things. We could go into the fact that I graduate in a few short months and that my adult life is truly beginning. Or we could talk about how my book is so amazing to me and it's getting closer and closer to it's end. But we'll talk about something that is prevalent. This is it: I'm in the same place I was 200 posts ago.
Maybe not in every sense. But in some key ideas. Is it love that has me hung up? Can I just not get over my past? Is it ruining my future? I don't know. God's purpose for me has me really complexed.Even if that's not the right word, I'm keeping it. How does He expect us to go through our life and just let the randomness happen? I want to go right up there and shake Him until He tells me the plan in all of this. But that's where patience comes in and all those other things we are supposed to have as follower's of Christ. And I've done that for the most part. But some of this stuff feels so serious that he can't possibly not let me in on the point of all of it! cuz then I just sit here feeling like I've failed at everything he throws at me. I know I failed not too long ago... FAIL. So is this the point where we just let go? That we say "Screw it" because we will never know the answers. All we can do is be the best we can and pick ourselves up again when we fall.
That answer still leaves me confused, it doesn't make me happy, and I am angry I have to be patient and wait maybe my entire life before I figure out the reason for some of this. ::grumbles:: BUT seriously.... there's a little fun in the not knowing right?
That's enough for now. Thanks to all who have followed this far. I appreciate the people who read it. :) These will be coming for a long time. Let's see where I'll be when my 500th one comes rolling around!
Amy
I was in Chicago this last weekend. It was a short trip but I really needed it. School is exhausting and even though I'm excited to be back, it's hard to stay responsible and on top of everything (Like I was really on top of everything! Haha) I also wasn't very excited for this trip. I am just getting out of my financial hole that I've been in for the last year and that makes it scary. But I went anyway because I'm not smart... or something like that. I'm just glad that it happened. It was a breath of fresh air to see Marlise and Ali. I love those ladies!I won't go in to all the details of the trip because that isn't necessarily entertaining for everyone reading this blog. Let's see... we'll do a highlights recap:
1) Someone wrote "dang" on a bunch of signs in the city... HiLarious!
2) There were a group of guys already drunk at 10AM on Saturday. They had a beer can tied to a string and hung it below their balcony. Then they continued to yell at people to "GET THE BEER!!" It was so funny.
3) St. Patty's Day Parade and The Lime Green River dying- nice
4) Walking ALL DAY in the rain and wind and cold- not so nice... but still fun
5) The bean... that'll always be fun. ALWAYS
6) Sushi, Deep Dish Pizza, Pasta, DESSERT..... food is so good when you are road tripping!
7) Boys think Kara, Alyssa, and I are cute! SCORE
8) The Violet Hour= $$$$$$$$ to the extreme but a once in a lifetime opportunity.
9) Singing off key loudly with friends= priceless
That was that. Obviously there were downfalls but who cares about those. You only wanna remember the great parts anyway right?
The other exciting part is that I get to leave for Duluth TOMORROW!!! Huzzah! I get to go with Claire from work and we couldn't be more excited. I mean sure we have to work 11-9 everyday but we can still have fun in the evenings right?? I've never been so it'll be fun no matter what. I'll have to write about that more later.
Now... what should make this 200th posting special? There is a number of things. We could go into the fact that I graduate in a few short months and that my adult life is truly beginning. Or we could talk about how my book is so amazing to me and it's getting closer and closer to it's end. But we'll talk about something that is prevalent. This is it: I'm in the same place I was 200 posts ago.
Maybe not in every sense. But in some key ideas. Is it love that has me hung up? Can I just not get over my past? Is it ruining my future? I don't know. God's purpose for me has me really complexed.Even if that's not the right word, I'm keeping it. How does He expect us to go through our life and just let the randomness happen? I want to go right up there and shake Him until He tells me the plan in all of this. But that's where patience comes in and all those other things we are supposed to have as follower's of Christ. And I've done that for the most part. But some of this stuff feels so serious that he can't possibly not let me in on the point of all of it! cuz then I just sit here feeling like I've failed at everything he throws at me. I know I failed not too long ago... FAIL. So is this the point where we just let go? That we say "Screw it" because we will never know the answers. All we can do is be the best we can and pick ourselves up again when we fall.
That answer still leaves me confused, it doesn't make me happy, and I am angry I have to be patient and wait maybe my entire life before I figure out the reason for some of this. ::grumbles:: BUT seriously.... there's a little fun in the not knowing right?
That's enough for now. Thanks to all who have followed this far. I appreciate the people who read it. :) These will be coming for a long time. Let's see where I'll be when my 500th one comes rolling around!
Amy
Monday, March 01, 2010
The Sky is blue, the Sun is shining, oh Yah, it's March 1st too!
Happy March 1st!!!! Oh I love the first of the months. It's so refreshing to start over in a new month and new weather patterns! Haha. That just basically means that it'll be spring soon and I'm so excited. I'm long since done with the drab weather and these icy patches that clutter our roads and sidewalks. Bring on the summer!!!
It was a pretty good weekend I'd say! It was busy but that's what was good about it! Friday I got to have some roomie time and we went up to Uptown and to Uncommon Grounds. That was place is DE-lightful. It's in this old house and when you walk in the lighting is dim and soothing. And of course is reeks of coffee which is a bonus. The funny part is they are famous for their "orgasmic chai" and they aren't kidding. You know it's good chai when you don't even like chai and it tastes amazing! I wasn't even going to try it but I did and now I may get it next time I go. At any rate, it was wonderful to spend time with Kassi and Megs outside of the house.
Saturday was work day. Eesh. What a mess that was! I didn't eat at all until 10pm and then my friend Alissa said she'd watch my tables so I could eat, so when I eventually ordered my food I was pumped! of course that's when the slew of 50 or 60 kids came in. They were dressed up like it was prom and asking me if I could "wipe off that dirty table" even though there were still people there! Oye. So all of my actual tables were getting irritated and then they left and then these hoards of people took almost every table in my dinning room and most in the lower part. I was stupid enough to take some of the tables. most of them ordered at the counter... but no.... I was like "they could tip!" Wrong. Wrong wrong wrong. Thank you Central High School Snow Fest.
Sunday was my friend from work's baby shower!! Alyssa curled my hair and I looked awesome! It's nice to be able to go to something outside of work with people so they know you don't always look like you just woke up. haha. The house we were out was just outstanding. They had this dark maple floor and light blue walls and the kitchen was a freaking kitchen of the future! They appliances were all steal and humungo! there were spice racks hidden in this pull out cupboard that actually looked like it was just part of the wall. The stove and microwave had these lights for buttons that illuminated when you swiped your hand in front of it. Oh man. I could live in that kitchen. OH! and the sink was big enough to fit me! Anyway.... there was a party. Haha. We played a few games (like every shower) and ate food, opened presents and just hung out. It was nice. I had a really good time.
Those were the real highlights of the weekend. Just relaxed and entertaining. Unfortunately I didn't do any homework even though I was planning to do it all of Sunday... that died fast. Whatever. Homework won't matter months from now.
Alright, I should go! Toodles folks!
Amy
It was a pretty good weekend I'd say! It was busy but that's what was good about it! Friday I got to have some roomie time and we went up to Uptown and to Uncommon Grounds. That was place is DE-lightful. It's in this old house and when you walk in the lighting is dim and soothing. And of course is reeks of coffee which is a bonus. The funny part is they are famous for their "orgasmic chai" and they aren't kidding. You know it's good chai when you don't even like chai and it tastes amazing! I wasn't even going to try it but I did and now I may get it next time I go. At any rate, it was wonderful to spend time with Kassi and Megs outside of the house.
Saturday was work day. Eesh. What a mess that was! I didn't eat at all until 10pm and then my friend Alissa said she'd watch my tables so I could eat, so when I eventually ordered my food I was pumped! of course that's when the slew of 50 or 60 kids came in. They were dressed up like it was prom and asking me if I could "wipe off that dirty table" even though there were still people there! Oye. So all of my actual tables were getting irritated and then they left and then these hoards of people took almost every table in my dinning room and most in the lower part. I was stupid enough to take some of the tables. most of them ordered at the counter... but no.... I was like "they could tip!" Wrong. Wrong wrong wrong. Thank you Central High School Snow Fest.
Sunday was my friend from work's baby shower!! Alyssa curled my hair and I looked awesome! It's nice to be able to go to something outside of work with people so they know you don't always look like you just woke up. haha. The house we were out was just outstanding. They had this dark maple floor and light blue walls and the kitchen was a freaking kitchen of the future! They appliances were all steal and humungo! there were spice racks hidden in this pull out cupboard that actually looked like it was just part of the wall. The stove and microwave had these lights for buttons that illuminated when you swiped your hand in front of it. Oh man. I could live in that kitchen. OH! and the sink was big enough to fit me! Anyway.... there was a party. Haha. We played a few games (like every shower) and ate food, opened presents and just hung out. It was nice. I had a really good time.
Those were the real highlights of the weekend. Just relaxed and entertaining. Unfortunately I didn't do any homework even though I was planning to do it all of Sunday... that died fast. Whatever. Homework won't matter months from now.
Alright, I should go! Toodles folks!
Amy
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