EnD oF SeMeStEr!

**I must thank you for those who commented on my last blog. It was really uplifting to hear the repsonses, and I thank you very much. Although some was very confusing....** I would like to clarify that I WRITE on my blog because I am a writer and I feel that everyone has a reason to write, and this is my way of doing it. I can't keep in touch with a lot of my friends, and so I can tell them about my life and everything that is going on through this. So sorry if I am always thinking of myself, but this is my journal.... isn't that the point?
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It is the end of the semester, and as I look back, in a whole, it went pretty fast. Like yes, I complained a lot for such a short amount of time, but the classes themselves went quickly. I enjoyed my English class immensely, and I am actually sad to be leaving such fine people. I felt really comfortable in that class and I know I learned a lot from my professor; he is a very very smart man and I respect him greatly. As for my other classes, I loved my photo appreciation class in the end. I actually stayed after class one day to show him some of my photographs so he could critique them and he basically said I'm very curious and that makes for a good photographer. It was really nice to have him just tell me what i'm doing, and although it was only good criticism because he said he wasn't going to bash anything, it made me feel good. I just love photographs and I know I won't be basing my life work on being a photographer, it's nice to know that I COULD go into that field of work. And of course my orientation class. That actually ended a couple of weeks ago, but still....without that class, I would have adjusted to WSU a lot slower. They were such an outgoing talkitive group, and that's where I met Jen, Britney, Mike, Kevin, Sarah, Sam, etc. YOU GUYS ARE AWESOME PEOPLE!!!! Gradewise, I basically have all B's, and I won't complain about that. It's my first year of college... so yay!

I'm excited now because all I have left to do is write a four page paper, already have two pages, for my English class, and take a 35 minute final in my photo class on Monday. THEN I AM DONE TILL "NEXT YEAR" haha. It's so nice to have a month off and have no homework. It's basically like a miniature summer, only with snow! And it'll be nice because then i can work and save up for Montana, and Bethel. lol. I'm just really happy as apposed to the last blog I made! OH, I also found out that someone from here has/had a little bit of a liking towards me, and that just made that self conscience feeling lift instantly. I mean nothing will come out of that for reasons that I don't feel like getting into, but to know that your not this un-likeable girl. I dunno....good feeling.

Anna and I are here this weekend, our FINAL weekend, and it's not as bas as usual. We kept busy last night by going to Wal-mart, shopping around at a scrapbooking place, buying Subway, watching Bring It On, and figuring out my Bethel future. It was so busy that 11:00 came by so fast. And we just laughed a lot and were merry. hahaha! I know, I'm crazy today, but it's all good. And now it is snowing and I am very amused! It's so pretty. I am also happy that it's not FREEZING COLD like it has been for the past couple of days. Like that bitter cold where you just don't wanna leave your dorm room, but you must because you need food to survive.

I just also wanted to write that this may be my last post for sometime. I mean I will probably write more over break, but since everyone will be home for a month or whatever, I'm going to be seeing them more, and there is kinda no sense to writing in here if I see everyone. So I wouldn't look for updates too terribly much in the next month, but I will do my best to post if something big happens! I love you all and thank you for being my readers! Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!! Love you all very much!

Sister in Christ, Amy <3>College Moment: Tee hee hee! This was on MSN.com for a week in pictures! Isn't it just the cutest little thing you have ever seen? To make it just almost cuter, it's blind! Everybody go awwww!!

Today I feel....

SELF CONSCIENCE

I'm not sure why, I just do. I think just every once in a while, no matter how great life has been for you, you just feel...ugly, fat, stupid, etc. Now I'm not saying I feel ALL these things ALL the time. I know darn well I'm not stupid, and I'm certainly nowhere near fat. But I dunoo....today is just one of those days. I'm starting to get really scared about Bethel. It just seems no matter what I have someone saying, "wow your a procrastinator, Bethel won't let you get by with that" or "you won't be slacking off at Bethel like you do here" PROCRASTINATION IS HOW I WORK! I can't help that. I know this because this is how I have learned for the last 5 years. I've been on the A Honor roll a handful of times, I think even on the Principles Honor roll once. I'm obviously not doing bad. As much as I know my own strengths and weaknesses, it never seems to fail to have someone's comment finally get to me. What if i'm not good enough? What if fail miserably? The changes are good. It's a smart school... I mean JUSTIN goes there... he was valedictorian. You can't just shrug that off. I'm still going to Bethel, I'm just starting to get that nervous feeling in my stomach. =(

Besides that bothersome thing, I feel.....ugly I guess. I'm not going to use the term "fat" cuz again, I already know I'm not. But it just is this terrible cycle of eating, feeling terrible, eating more. I used to swim here before I got sick and then it got freezing. The pool is all the way across campus, and it's just been soo bitterly cold lately that I don't have the energy to do that. And yes... there are plenty of gym centers here that I could use to my advantage. Except one teeny tiny problem. i'm self conscience!! There are parts of me that i'm not comfortable with, and feel very self conscience with like running or stuff like that. I know I shouldnt' care, but I do. You don't understand. Of course I joke about msyelf in the "upper body" regions, but some people like to use my jokes over and over again. Heh.... I feel great about myself, I tell yah.

And I'm not all bitter. Like I got a B- on my huge English paper, my bowling teaching is letting me make up a day ( I think) and I got an A- on my last quiz in my Mass Media and Society class. Today has been a pretty decent day. I can't complain. Sigh... maybe I just see way too many beautiful girls here and then see myself in the mirror and shudder. Stupid society. Heh.

Maybe tomorrow won't be so bad...

Lets stay together

I, I'm so in love with you Whatever you want to do Is all right with me 'Cause you make me feel so brand new And I want to spend my life with you
They say since, since we've been together Loving you forever Is what I need Let me be the one you come running toI'll never be untrue
Let's, let's stay together Lovin' you whether, whether Times are good or bad, happy or sad Whether times are good or bad, happy or sad
Why, why some people break up Then turn around and make up I just can't see You'd never do that to me (would you, baby)Staying around you is all I see(Here's what I want us to do)

That is "Lets stay together" from Al Green... you might know the song from Down to You, an OLD Freddie Prinze Jr. movie. I found it on a Cd that I was burning to my laptop. It really makes me happy cuz it's just a sweet sweet song! And I felt like posting it cuz hey, why not right? lol. Does anyone else love this song like I do??

Oh, and FYI I have opened up my comments to ANYONE WHO READS IT!! yayayayayay!!! I just realized that I could do that, and I think it's a cool feature... I mean heck, you don't have to be a member to post something! I haven't gotten any post comments in a while. But it's not about the comments! lol. Anywhoo....

Not much to my weekend. My trip to Bethel was cancelled because Natalie was much too busy and I just could not make it work otherwise. It was saddening. To make matters worse my car has died yet again. It's starter well....won't start. Cuz I have all the money to just throw into it. I'm already getting my license plate tabs and paying my insurance. Sigh. It hates me... I tell yah. So my Friday was a tad bit of a downfall. Especially since I did nothing. But I did watch Super Size Me and then we made cookies! It was nice to spend time with my mom. I do'nt get to do that often so it was probably God's way of showing me that I can't ignore her all the time. Holly took the car that night, that was the reasoning for my strandedness. But it was good in the end.

I went shopping with my mom on Saturday, and again we spent some good quality time together. I also did some reading and writing, and did not do a whole lot otherwise. Oh! And I burned Cd's to my computer which is what I've been meanign to do for some time. So yay!! Oh yah... I did have one minor downfall to my weekend. So I was supposed to hang out with this guy friend from work and of course I start freaking out. It's not like I'm trying to DATE him or anything, but anyone from the opposite sex that I don't already know, freak me out! I get scared to call them and sometimes lie to get myself out of things I really don't want to get into I have no idea why I do this, and it's frusturating to me as well as the person recieving my uncalled for behavior. I can't explain myself. But anyway, I did text him and he was like oh we can't do anything tonight because a family thing came up. I just joked around saying to him that I was just blown off and I was sad! It was funnny cuz he was like, oh I'll make it up to you! And I was a tad relieved at the end of it. I mean I REALLY want to get to know him, but at the same time, I don't know if I'm brave enough...why... I have NO IDEA! I mean the guy friends I have now are all people I have known for quite some time and I had no problem with them. And when I met Justin, it was so natural to become friends with him and then date him. But now I am awkward around boys. If someone can explain my specialness for me, please do so! so yah... There's not much else to tell for my weekend! Short post eh? Well... what can I say? Let's just hope my car is fixed soon, or this will be one sad Amy!

Sister in Christ,

Love Amy (AKA Bear as some would call me...awww)

Somewhat College Moment: We were bowling and I tried to take a picture of us!..... well I got me in there pretty welll... haha!

First day of December and Snow!

Oh what a lovely day!

Well to start things off I had a stressful first half of the week! It was crazy! I had an 8 page paper that was due yesterday and a kinda big project for my photo appreciation class. It was big in the fact that it was a power point thing, and he wanted us to find out about a photographer's career and their zones of contention, and frankly, the whole zones of contention thing makes NO sense to me! It's insane! But turns out I didn't have to go on Tuesday (it was just a random draw) but watching everyone else, I knew I just had more information and that I had done it correctly! So yay me! I went today and I asked a girl how she think it went and she was like "you have so much information! It was actually interesting to listen to!" so that made me feel really good. And then my paper....wow. Took me basically all of yesterday. Rarely did I leave my seat to do anything but type and get my printed off papers. It was insane. And to top it all off I had my Mass media and society class that I still had to read for, so I was just like, ok, no break today I guess! But now all the stuff is over and my only stress now is my final for Photo a week from Monday. I have a kind of final paper for English but the one we just did is usually the one he gives us last, but he said it works better if we do it this way, that way we aren't so stressed by the end. Thank God for that!

Last night did get better though! So one of my guilty pleasures is that on Wednesday nights I watch Sex in the City. Yes I know.... BAADD show... shouldn't watch it. But I just simply can't help it! It's not that I watch it to hear about their sex stories or what have you, but I guess I'm intrigued because it is based on four friends, friends that go through everything together, and I love to see that. Friends are HUGE for me, and to see a connection like that makes me happy. The other reason is that two of the four girls are in the Mass Communication major! One is in P.R. (Public Relations) and the other is a Journalist! And Sarah Jessica Parker, although acting, is almost exactly wha tI wanna be in the magazine world. She gets to write her own columns, about whatever she is thinking about, and that amazes me. It's a dream job really. Yah I wouldn't write about sex, but the idea is still the same. Could you imagine to get paid to to write about whatever you feel like? Believe me, you don't get to do that all the time. Plus watching this gets me together with some girls on my floor... it's become a ritual to watch it all together. To get to the point, my RA couldn't host it tonight so she asked me to and of course I said yes! So I finally got around to unpacking (hah) and then people came! There is one of her guy friends named Matt who comes on watches for some odd reason, but he is really fun and it's good getting to know some guys! I love guys and not having any friends besides a sorta guy friend (Josh) down here is deathly! lol. So he was here first and watched the end of Gilmore Girls with me. Tee hee! Good show.... he just laughed. But it was a good time! Eventually Ali came back from her speech thing and Laura (RA) was back from wherever she was and so we were all talking and I was drinking her fake champagne and then we got the idea to play in the snow becaue it was snowing!! It's such a light snow that it's pure powder! So we made snow angels and threw snow at eachother and ran around and wrote things in it and ahhh! It was fun. I have pictures on my facebook about it in case anyone cares. yay!! It was a nice end to a nice evening.

So here I am, just sitting in my room, watching more snow fall down. I'm very content. I think by the end of this year I will miss Winona, for the few people that i came into contact with, that helped shape me, and prob. will be in a book someday when I write about my college experience. That' why I write these blogs. I need to have an outlet to voice my opinions and thoughts. So I may someday return to them and be like oh yahhhh.... and thus use them later in life. Really smart idea eh? Who would just hate it if you got to be elderly and could not remember a darn thing from your childhood?? I know that would kill me! But as it is, I must go.... I will be back again prob by Sunday! Farewell for all!

"Anyone who has seen me has seen the Father. How can you say, 'Show us the Father'? Don't you believe that I am in the Father, and that the Father is in me? The words I say to you are not just my own. Rather, it is the Father, living in me, who is doing his work. Believe me when I say that I am in the Father and the Father is in me; or at least believe on the evidence of the miracles themselves." John 14:9-11

Sister in Christ
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College Moment: Amazing! I still have college moments that are somewhat enjoyable!! This was before we started throwing snow at eachother with no mercy! I look like Santa's little helper, according to Nate! Yay CHRISTMAS AND ALL THINGS THAT GO WITH IT!

Thanksgiving

So much has been going on since I last wrote, it's crazy. I feel very happy for the people who are in my life, and the lives I encounter day in and day out. With that... to the blog!

So I arrived home Tuesday afternoon, and I must say, it was rather relaxing. I did some laundry, played on the computer, just enjoyed the home surroundings. Well we all met to go bowling around 9:00 Pm or so, so before that I headed over to the Knapps to tell them my decision of officially going to Bethel next year. I just wanted them to know for sure what my reasons were, and that they were not because of Justin. They took it well, and felt that it was a good idea for me to go. That makes me happy. They are like my parents away from my parents... if that makes sense. So anywho we went bowling and I did terrible! There goes showing off my bowling skills! Lol. But there were like 15 people there, and it was really nice to be in such a big group! There was a little resentment towards the quote unquote "crownies" but I'll talk about that later! After bowling I just went home because I had to be up at 3 so I could get to work at 4!!

Well... ends up I got to bed and finally fell asleep around 2. It was more of a nap than actual sleep. I worked until 1:30, and they day went by surprisingly fast. I knew Justin was returning home soon, and it's become almost a mini ritual that when he gets home he calls me, and then I end up hanging out with him for a while. He didn't end up calling, and it was already 2:00 or something, so I was like, I'm TAKING A NAP! Speak of the devil, he calls no more than 15 minutes later. Unfortunately I was carless for quite sometime and I didn't get over there until 6:00. At 7:00 his family and I all went to the Thanksgiving/Baptism service at church. It was awesome to see people get baptized for our Lord. Especially for some of them because they are so young! Church is always good. So of course a bunch of us wanted to hang out so we mosied over to Adam's. I don't even remember what we were originally doing, but it was soon decided to go to Applebees. GOOD FOOD! There had to be at least 16 of us. Luckily I had my camera because we were all so silly! (If you want to see pictures go to Facebook, look up me, and you will see my wonderful photos! ) Moving along, we did not feel like going to bed, and even though I had been up since basically the day before, we were like back to adam's! This is where we all lost it! We were laughing and giggling and making innuendos and ahhahah! It makes me laugh. Jake told Helen Keller jokes, Kara and Marlise got married, oh joyous evening! It's fun to get into goofy situations like that! People only get like that when there are not a lot of people. Not saying I hate big groups, but it's just how it all works out. Considering it was Thanksgiving the following day, we ended up leaving between 1 and 2.

Thanksgiving was.... interesting. I actually went to my Grandparents on my Dad's side this year. Last year I had gone to my mom's friends house, and the year prior to that I was at Justin's grandparent's house and his aunt's house. I had avoided the actual FAMILY for quite some time. well see my grandma had 10 kids, and everyone of them at least had three or so kids, and those kids even have kids, and so forth. So it's usually a big event. Well we got there an hour late, and there was liek no one there. It was really strange to not see this tiny blue house crammed with people. Of course all the conversations were shallow because they are not Christians and spend their time being alcoholics, so in all reality, we have nothing in common! Then my mom and one of the better aunts (married INTO the family...that explains her sanity) were talking about their husbands and their disatisfaction of them. It was really sad. I know it's totally true, but that's not what marriage should be! I wish I could help, but they are past help. Luckily I was also invited over to the Natrop's for Thanksgiving and I headed over there! It was a little awkward cuz his aunt and uncle and cousin was there but oh well. I mean I like the family, but it just felt like a situation that only the girlfriend is put into. Nothing against them at all. By the end of the evening I was looking at baby pictures....go figure. lol. Seward wanted to hang out with me afterward and I got to listen to her play her piano. I love that. She claims she sucks, and I admit, she is a little rusty, but ugh...it's gorgeous. We wanted to see a movie and so we saw Chicken Little! yay! CUTE MOVIE! Sure it was aimed for like children 7 and under, but it made me laugh and that's all that counts. Josh Bowens actually called me too and so we went to his house. Adam Arens, Volker, Tim Brown, and a few others were there, and it was nice to see some of them. I haven't seen the "band" for a long time, and it was a total blast into the past. They have not changed one bit.

Of course I left early because I worked at 5:00. Work came and went and I found myself extremely tired and excited. Laura had come home Wed. night but it wasnt' until way late in the evening, and now it was finally time to see her!! I had to do a Delano Royalty event first, but by the time I got to the food shelf, everything was done. Sad. I got ready to go out for the evening and then Karrah gave me a call and wanted to know if I would go to Wal-Mart with her and Laura. I was like YES! So she was going to drop Laura off at my house and get gas and then we would go. I didn't feel like I was going to cry, which funnily enough made me sad, but the moment she stepped out of the car I cried. Everytime! She just makes me cry cuz she is awesome and she has been gone for so long. I think it also has something to do with the fact that I have thought she was cool since we were little, minus a few years, and until this past summer, and a little bit before that did we actually start hanging out. We were really close by the time she left, and it was hard to see her go. But now she was back! We went to Target and after some back and forth stuff, her and I were at Schony's! It was really fun cuz everyone was excited to see her, and there is a pool table and fooseball table, so people just kept playing eachother over and over and I would win a lot, and then play John and lose terribley! He even played in Spanish (meaning he spoke in Spanish the whole time.. haha!) I tried to build a card castle, wrote names in cursive, and just had fun laughing with everyone. It was like everyone was back together, well, except for Zach. After that I headed over to Anna's where Anna, Laura, Karrah, and I had a sleep over! We had to bring my car back to Delano, but on the way, I had a really cool conversation with Laura. I haven't had one of those in a while with her. The rest of the night we spend laughing and playing Disney's Scene It and of course I WON! At one point, Karrah had gone to bed and I was being asked a question for the game... I guess Karrah knew the answer cuz she mummbled a name and it was so funny! I don't even know if she knew she had done that. We eventually did sleep, which was really nice for me.

Saturday wasn't that great. Zach did call me in the morning though, and I haven't heard from him in a while, so that made me smile! I miss him! AND HE IS COMING HOME DEC. 22nd! WOO!! I had to work 2:00 to 10:00. All my friends kept coming in (Laura, Sarah, Jen, Lissie, Kirsten "Bill" and ahh!!) I did get to eat my lunch with Laura, Seward, and Sarah though, so that was fun! I had so many phoen calls too, and some of them were for Laura. Haha. Then I got invited to go to a Dave Matthew Band Concert by Justin and sadly I had to work. It just felt like it never ended!!! Justin called me when I was done and I picked him up from Robbie's so we could go to Jesse's house. I got to talk to him about Bethel, which is what I have wanted to do for a while, and it was good. I just needed to get some stuff off my chest. Anyway, Jesse's was fun.. we didnt' do anything really, but it's nice just to talk and laugh and watch his small dog fall in love with Mike Johnson's zip up hoodie. Ewww....

Sunday arose and I worked... and saw the Knapps as usual.... and came back to Winona.

I'm going to end now, for it is too long! here are a just a few pictures from the weekend!

I LOVE MY FRIENDS!!!

Sister In Christ,
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Dirty Little Secret

I don't think I feel like being here anymore. Honestly, full heartedly. I feel uncomfortable, and it doesn't feel like I would INTENTIONALLY want to call this home, yah know? I have always believed that college should be your home away from home, that you should feel happy to be here. Dread is on my face when I know I have to stay here just one more weekend. And yes yes yes! I have Anna, but everytime she leaves, I know I am beckoned to be alone once more, in this hole in the wall. It's not like I don't try to make friends... I don't feel... how I feel with my friends back at home, all of you who are probably reading thing. It's strange. And Ali has her friends, and I do not want to intrude on that. I just keep thinking, what the hell am I going to do when this semester is done? When Anna is no longer here to be my friend? The thought really terrifies me. And will Bethel be better? Who knows. I don't know for sure. I don't even know if God is telling me to go. I'M SO CONFUSED I FEEL SO LOST. It sucks. If I go, I'm probably gonna make Justin uncomfortable, and if I don't go, I'll be here.... FOREVER. But it's not about Justin, and it's not about me; it's about God. But HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO HEAR HIM? I don't know when he speaks to me or if it's me telling me what I think I should hear. I don't know I don't know I don't know. I don't understand where I stand...with God, with Justin, with school. UGH!!!!!! And usually I don't talk about Justin on here just for the sole reason taht I know people read this and some things just don't need to be said. But right now, it's stressing me out. We are the weirdest two people on earth, not even near normal. It was probably the worst idea ever to even apply to Bethel. Really... what was I thinking? My mom brought up a good point about it though. Could I handle going there? Not intellegence wise, but in another light... which I won't go into. Ok, I'm done for now.... Anna is back over here, and I won't waste my time writing this. Later all.

Sister in Christ,
Amy <3

Hugs and Kisses and Love oh my!

Sigh sigh sigh...so many things to just sigh about. Have you ever been in that moment where you want so much but can have nothing? ahh yes... I'm in that kind of mood again. These happen frequently and considering this IS my journal thingy, heck, I might as well write about it. Correct?

For the last couple of hourse I've basically been alone, not that that's a bad thing. Ali went to work on her speech and Anna headed back to her dorm, so here I sat. There was a floor meeting, but I just felt, out of the loop. Not really in the mood to be with people, but at the same time, I desire to be friends with all of them. haha. So I again headed to my room of lonliness to ponder life. Well I gave up on that pretty quickly, and then I was like hmmm....I should watch a movie!! So I ended up watchin "A Walk to Remember." My first choice would have been the Notebook, but nobody I know on this floor has it! ahhh!! I wanted to be all sappy. This movie worked though. But of course the result of watching sappy movies is that you want to be in love. Ahh Love, what a feeling! For those of you who have never experienced it yet, oh just wait! It is such a wonderful thing. Not saying that God's love is not more important or anything, but you gusy get what I'm getting at. Love by ANYONE makes you feel all tingly inside, it's how you keep people going in life sometimes. I've just been like, "wow, I've been single for almost a year in a half. That's a might long time." Yet here I sit, not even trying. Go figure. If anyone is like me, you get these urges to be like, screw it, I'll date the next random person that I am attracted to or something to that extent. But of course God lays it on my heart that that's really not what I want, so I never proceed on those feelings. Sigh... ah love...let's all reminisce about the past loves....

Well now that the "sappy moment" has passed, let's continue on! Thanksgiving is just around the corner, and you know what that means! Family and Friends and Food and a Break! Woo! Can't go wrong with all that. Even though I'm not close to any of my family member, I love going to my Dad's mom's house because they always have the best food ever. It's kinda the only family I got, and I guess I can give them one day a year... right? I guess in the last couple of years I've really drawn close to Justin's family, bad idea now eh? But anywho, they always have good food too, only I like the people more! Plus, this is the type of family that plays Trivial Pursuit like crazy, it's funny! Everyone gets so into it! Those were always fun to go to. Especially because it's like a for sure thing to go to Joe's Mom's in the early day for the big family reunion type thing with all the food and brothers and sisters, it's a mad house! But I love some of his aunts, like Liz! Then after you have stuffed yourself there, you would head over to Debbie's sister's hosue to have a smaller get together with good food as well. Mmmmm. Then of course the games, and the kids! I love those kids! Nathan is 10 an is TALLER THAN ME! Oh how sad is that? Anyway, I just love the holidays! What are you guys thankful for?

Oh but I suppose... I still have homework that has not been touched tonight. I bid you ado, god bless all.
Somewhat College Momet: This picture was taken by our lovely and talented Anna!! Lee didn't think I'd kiss him on the cheek, and that was a bet he lost! I'm just that daring! I love bowling!


Sister in Christ,
Amy <3

DeLaYeD

I'm sorry for my delays... I feel terribly bad. Sometimes this is the only thing that keeps me connected with the friends I do not get to see all the time. It has been just so crazy busy, and even though I was here all last weekend and such, not too much went on. I had NOTHING to report on. Luckily we had Veteran's Day off, which was the start of a very intriguing weekend.

So everytime Anna and I have a day off from school, we skip Thursday and come home Wednesday night. Well this time I decide to skip my 6:00-8:30 lecture, and we leave super early so we can go visit some wonderful people at the U of M!! The original reason was that our friend Corie was missing Anna so much, and it was Karrah's idea to come visit and surprise her. I also knew that Nate (aka NATHAN CRIST ahahaha! I can never not say it!) also lived in the same building, so we met up with Karrah and surprised Nate! I do believe he was surprised! It was funny cuz at first he had NO idea it was me! It's fun to surprise/scare people! They look all confused thinking, "you don't go here...." ah, the enjoyment..oh rapture. lol. At any rate we certainly surprised Corie, and it was a fun time! Even though all we did was get ice cream from Ben and Jerry's around the corner and talk, it was refreshing to be with them. Like I love being with Anna at school and such, but it's so much fun when there are more of you to just be together. We both felt refreshed with the change of scenery and the change of dorm rooms. haha. So Wednesday was such a hit.

Thursday was just as fun! So a couple weeks ago when a couple of us were at Schony's, Molly planned a little bowling thing, and so we were all going to go bowling when I called Medina and there was some private party! This is bad because, this is where we BOWL! Then I started feeling bad cuz I wasn't sure what we were going to do, but then I searched around and we thought we should go to Tuttles in Hopkins. NOTE: On Tuesday and Thursdays, it's all you can bowl for $10! It's a very good deal! Anyway, we all decided (Lee, Anna, Adam, Molly, Me) to eat at Perkins before hand because heck, some of us hadn't eaten yet, and it's always a good place to go. You can never go wrong at Perkins. It was really funny cuz I had some slip ups with words... like for example... Condiments turned into Condoms. Sometimes, I don't know about myself. Well after the wonderful Perkins we found ourselves at Tuttles, and we played oh so many games! And hey Molly, you did good! I mean heck, you beat Adam! (who got a 21....heehhehehee) but I won't laugh at him for that. My best was like 106 or something, and Anna half the time beat Lee! You better watch out Lee! We then all headed back to Anna's house because we weren't tired, and I was NOT ready to call it a night! The night was still young as far as i was concerned. So how did we entertain ourselves? Well Anna has this Disney Scene-It game, and even though we played it totally wrong, I got super competitve, and it was a gay old time. Somewhere between bowling and the game, i got drunk hyper. If I drank, you woulda sworn I was beligerently drunk! hee hee! And when peopel get giggly, things just get more fun! We were trying to run through the HUGE LUV-SACs, and we were wearing side "pomies" and the quote: "and then it'll be like HEAD CROTCH! (motion to pulling my neck down" oh you so had to be there, but I haven't laughed that hard in a long time. WE were all enjoying ourselves so much. I couldn't of asked for a night like that. I love laughing so hard that you feel like your gonna pee yourself. It's such a happy/worry free thing. It's like being a little kid all over again. Of course, all good things must come to an end, like the evening.

But of course the fun continues! Friday I spent lounging around until I got a call from good ole Mr. Justin Robert Knapp! He was in town again, and we were waiting on Adam to get off his walk, but that took too long, so Nate and I met over at Melanie's house with Justin, and that's when....he fit his FEET into MY SHOES! It was so funny to see his feet in my teeny tiny little shoes! We all got a kick outta that! Well we all talked for a while, which is nice! I don't see Med too much, so it's always good to catch up! All of us did end up at Adam's though, and we watched Batman Begins. I had to say, I didn't think it'd be all that great, but it was! IT really was! Even Melanie enjoyed it and I think she was totally against it! She prob. tried NOT to like it! lol.

Saturday came, and I was out at 10:3o AM picking apples for the annual Apple Cider Making! Mmmmmmm! I love that Apple Cider! We make it at the Knaptons every year (this being my second) and we pick the apples from their orchard, wash them, cut the bad parts off, put them in the apple crusher thingy, and then squeeze out all the juice from them! It is seriously so fun, I want to have apple trees when I'm older just so I can make my own cider. It's such a like old tradition type thing. Why buy it when you can make your own?! lol. It is always fun! Even though it was freezing! Inbetween all this, one of my dear friends Sarah was in the Wizard of Oz play so Nate, Rachel, Anna, Anna's mom and sister, Kara, and I all went to watch her! It was nice to be back watching a Delano play. Anyway she did a terrific job; I was so proud of her. We all ended up back at Melanie's where we made more and more apple cider! Some of us missed Joe so we went to go visit him, and then Lee called saying he was having people over! This was good cuz we weren't sure what we were going to do! We didn't stay there long though... we all ended up at Applebees! Holly was working, so she waited on us... it was fun to have her working. Anyway, We were there for a long time just goofing around and laughing. By the end of the night we were drawing all over eachother, and oh yah! I cut Justin with a knife! Talk about being clumsy! I don't even remember what we all talked about it, but all I know is that every moment wiht my friends is so precious, I would never take a moment back.

This is one of many good moments where your heart just floats up to the heavens. So my mom wakes me up at 8:30 AM on Sunday to tell me I got a letter from Bethel Admissions on Saturday. I was like wow...rejection in the morning (for al who didn't know, I applied to Bethel University earlier this year because I was sorta told to and I figured, what the hey. I never told that many people because if I got rejected, I'd feel really bad about myself) anway... I proceed to open the letter, and the first words I read are: "congratulations! you have been accepted to....." OMG OMG OMG! ME, AMY VERGIN WAS ACCEPTED TO BETHEL UNIVERSITY! I never thought in a million years that I would get this oppurtunity. I have never felt smart enough for something like that. Seriously... I had talked myself out of thinking I could actually get in weeks ago! But this, wow. Either God really is pushing me to go, or I just got extremely lucky. I mean I have to figure some things out, but if everything works out, I'm going to Bethel Fall of 2006! Anyway, I brought it to church with me to show Anna, and when she read the first line she freaked out, and I started crying. OH it was such a good feeling. But of course all good things come to an end. I ended up telling Justin later that night, and let's just say it wasn't the reaction I was looking for. It really brought me down, I expected him to be one who was almost just as excited as Anna, but in turn, he was a little uneasy for some reasons. I let it get to me, and then after talking to a lot of my good friends, I realized it was Satan trying to work against me... he knows my true weak spots. So yah. I really have to pray about it, and I know God will lead me in the direction I must go to, but it would help if I could get everyone to pray for me. I'd hate to not listen to Him. Thanks guys.

Anyway, this week has been busy, lots of papers, lots of homework, and a lot of procrastinating going one. It was terrible. Now hopefully everything will calm down for a while. But I know, it's so incredibly long, and many have lost interest by now. I will try to write more another day so I don't have to make them so freaking long! Forgive me all!

Sister in Christ,
Amy <3
Somewhat College Moment: This is from the crazy night at Anna's, and this is me with my side pomie! I say pomie cuz I got really hyper and could NOT pronounce pony. Haha. Isn't it sooo me? lol. Just love me anyway...don't mind my "specialness"....

P.S.- LAURA KOENECKE IS COMING HOME FOR THANKSGIVING!!! WOO HAY!!!

sorry!!!!!

I have been super busy for the last couple of days, but I PROMISE I will update tomorrow...prepare yourself for a long one. =)

Sister in Christ,
Amy

Baby I'm bad news

Again, it's just a song as my title for today's blog. Good song. Most probably won't like it, but I am in love with it. =) I love music. Every kind. I can't get enough of it. And tonight is one of those nights where I'm listening to such random stuff. Don't get me wrong, I love my Christian music, but every once in a while... I need other stuff. Does that make me a terrible person? I don't think so.

So Anna and I were here (Winona) this weekend. Let me tell you... we were BoReD with a capital B! It's not that we are bored of eachother, but we do nothing all week, and then we did nothing on the weekend. It was sad. We got so bored that we bough ice cream and wedding magazines from Wal-Mart and watched Friends. IT was really fun, but not how I want to spend all my weekends. I did, however, find my dream wedding dress. It is beautiful but highly expensive and of course I know I don't have a money for it, and I shouldn't be looking since I don't even have a boyfriend, but who cares. I'll put a picture of it on the post so you guys can see it. aww I'm in love with it. Anyway, the weekend was not as bad as it COULD have been. I would rather be with Anna than all by myself. Ali wasn't around much, which was a good thing. But I don't mean in a good way cuz she wasn't with us, but in a good way by her having other people to hang out with. It makes me feel better when we leave her here that she has someone to hang out with. Plus her parents came down for Saturday/Sunday, and that was fun. They took Anna and I out to lunch at this Acoustic Cafe... I had the best pita sandwich ever there! So I thank them, and I also believe they are very nice people!!

What else happened this weekend??? Not a whole lot... I got nothing. I don't know why I started writing in my blog, but I figured I should. OH! Anna and I are coming home Wednesday night and I am super excited!! Wednesday isn't special, but Thursday I get to go bowling with some good friends, and i'm very excited for it! Should be quite fun! Yay home!

Well I survived one of my very few weekends here... so I'm proud of myself.



College Moment: Isn't it just the most beautiful dress ever? I mean who knows HOW it would look on me, but uh...gorgeous. The price? $1040.00...... big fat no!! Oh well....

Sister in Christ,
Amy <3

Pre-registration

Lalala! this week has gone fast! Seriously, it was really nice. I don't even remember what I've been up to. Oh... I have been reading the book Farenheit 451, and let me tell you, it's gotten my feathers riled. lol. The sad thing is, this book was written in the future, and he probably did not think the things in this book would come to, but oh it is slowly but surely. Books and reading in general are being hidden from view. Television and movies and the internet are taking over our lives, and it's scary to think. It made me frustrated with life and people who don't care to read. This also sucks because this is the field I'm going into yah know? My FIELD IS DWINDLING AWAY! That's not cool. Wow, how much one book can make someone think... Anyway, you should all read this book. It's good for the soul, body, and mind.

I went bowling on Tuesday for the first time... and I got 113!! That is soo not a bad score! And I even threw the ball correctly. Everyone who has been bowling would be oh so proud of me. Watch, I will be amazing when I'm done with this class. It is fun to do, but I don't know anyone in the class, so my friend is a mother. Kinda awkward... oh well. Life goes on.

I had a really deep discussion with a friend this week, and it was really good... for both of us. They had a lot to say, some I never even thought they would feel, but it was powerful to read. The reason it was good for me was because somehow God worked through me I think rather well, and I feel like I succeeded in helping this person. It made me think about my own life too... like really ponder it. Remember the things I have done wrong and how God has made me learn through these obstacles. If I sound full of myself, I'm sorry... that's not what I intended. I just feel good. And since this is my "online journal" I think it's okay I write my feelings. Moving forward...

So funny story. I'm laying in my bed, and Ali's bed is under mine, like a bunk bed thing. Well my bed is moving farther away from the wall, so I stuck my hand down there. Ali yells "Hey! Touch me!" As she reaches her hand towards me I pull away and say "no, I don't like that game...". It sounded so petafileish....you had to be there, but it was hysterical. I even made it into her quote book! Woo oo! Now THAT'S an honor.

I had to pre-register for classes today. It was rather scary. I didn't know what I was doing, or even what was going to happy, so I just was like...ok... turns out it was easy! All I had to do was sign up for the classes my advisor told me to sign up for, fill out some forms, get them OKed, and leave. It's gotta be way easier second time around. Now I won't know if I get into those classes until Nov. 15 so fingers crossed! It'd be really nice to get into them. I like that I can pick my times I want to go. So I probably never need to go to an early early class! Ahh..it's heaven. The one thing I did though was sign up for a lot of MWF classes. Nice because then classes are only 50 minute classes, but bad because I'm going to Montana again this year, and I'll miss a Friday and Monday....so I kinda hurt myself there. MEh...I'm sure it'll be fine.

Non-college moment: This was taken about a year ago, and basically what's goin on here is that Baby Jesus is chillin in his cradle, and ya know, Santa is there to visit. But I'm sure baby Jesus was crying or something because Big Bad Librarian Man came to hush him up! OH good story eh? I know I agree!! YAY! This was at Ben Little's house..oh good times.

Sister in Christ,
Amy <3

Tears stream... down your face

No, I'm not sad, I'm listening to "fix you" from Coldplay, and it's part of the song. If you have not heard this song, bust out the...cd? or something! It's from X&Y!

It has been terribly long, and I apologize. The week went fast because of my illness. It took over our week and before we knew it, Anna and I were off to home once more. I've been really happy though because I've been doing well on all my homework assignments and such, and it feels really nice to not be doing bad in college.

The weekend was good. It's always good. It is getting tiring to drive back and forth though. Like I love the time with Anna, and I love the result of the drive (HOME/FRIENDS) but it's 6 hours in a weekend. Plus on Friday I drove up to St. John's to pick up Jake with Adam and Nathan. It was a good drive because I was uber hyper and I love them all so yah, but I was tired of driving. Jake gave us a tour of his campus, showed us the relic in the basement (cReEpY), and we also got to meet some of his friends. It's a gorgeous campus, and i'll have to visit the school in the daytime. So after our beautiful tour, we ended up at Schony's house! I love that place a lot because they have a nice fireplace area, and if you get cold they have a nicely furnished basement. There's pool, fooseball, and a huge couch where many can sit and converse. All my friends were there too (minus some of the best...you know who you are) I lost in pool, lost in fooseball, lost in life...ya know. HAha. No, but I enjoyed myself. Justin and Molly ended up showing up, and she wanted me to come with them to get her back to 55 and such. So I got my car (with a lot of work to get it out of the garage..oh man, rock on Justin) and we got Molly to 55, and I dropped of Justin. I was going that way anyway because I needed to get my stuff out of Natrop's car, but I ended up sitting in Justin's driveway for an hour! Good talk, it really was. Finally around three, I got home... big mistake. I had to be up at 8:00 for my parade...

It was a long day, but it was very enjoyable! I had Jake Barnes and John Patnode on my float with the other girls, and it worked out so well. We dressed up as flappers and they had a trumpet and trombone and we all kinda danced to "all that jazz" from the Chicago Movie/Broadway show. The crowd LOVED us! They got so into it, which made us feed on their actions, and by the end of the parade, the boys were so into it! John, if you deny it, well...your lying. lol. Jake seemed to be enthused the whole time, so I never worried about him. We also got 3rd place for the costume/float contest thing. Bravo to us! The day ended up lasting from 8:00 AM (when I got up and showered) to 9:30 PM (when we finally left). It was tiring to the max, but even after the long day, I ended up at Natrop's again. Some went to Applebee's, but the rest got the idea of making pancakes and watching a movie. So Lee, Rachel, and I made the pancakes, Adam made the juice, Nathan... found us bacon we never ate, and Kara...slept. Haha. It was nice though. We all had a great time and ended up watching the moive "Robots" Not I, Robot, but the cartoon thing. I fell asleep, but Lee made sure to wake me up at what he called the "funny part". It was amusing though...they made fun of Britney Spears. Then I got really super giggly...it was like I was drunk, but not! I get high on life...

Sunday was spent with my mom gettin a new cell phone! it's sooo cute (it's like Karrah Anderson's cell phone! yayayay!) I showed Lee a picture of it. He thought it was "hot". Haha. But then Joe Knapp, one of my most favorite people ever, was having difficulties on the computer, so my mom went over there! It was funny.... he spent three hours trying to do something, and I did it in five minutes. The family is computer illiterate, but that just gives me an excuse to see them. It was really fun to be with them and my mom! I like my mom bonding with people I love. Good evening. Then I had to drive back to this hole of a town. No, I do like the town, just not as much as home.

I planned out my life today with my Academic Advisor. It was kinda scary to really think about all this. I have a sheet next to me as I speak that has every semester until graduation basically figured out for my Major and some internships thrown in there too. Can we say STRESSFUL?!?! But I'm gonna shrug it off for now. I used to think I was good with the future stuff, but it really scares me. And I don't really need to think about it now do I? At least I know what my major and minor are. At least I know I want to be an author/journalist. I'm a step ahead a few, so I find I have time to breath...right?

Well anyway, tonight was Halloween so I got to hand out candy to adorable little kids. Our school set up this thing where parents can bring their kids here and certain rooms can sign up to give candy if they want, and so we did, and we got over 100 kids! They were so precious, I wanted to just keep some of them. Too bad I couldn't take pictures. =( parents probably woulda been scared...so I refrained! Yep..... that's my life in a the smallest nutshell I could deliver it in. I will write more often so these "blogs" aren't so flipping long! We'll see.

College Moment: I handed out candy to the little kids and it was cute.... and just to make it special, I bought a pumpkin thing! I loved it! It makes me smile, and I hope you all smile as well! Happy Halloween.

Sister In Christ,
Amy <3

I'm alive!

So I KNOW I haven't written in quite sometime, so I'm gonna do my best to NOT make this a small book. Wish me luck, my life has been interesting....

My Birthday was wonderful! It really was! I had a great time with Anna on the way back (Non-moving hawks in mid-air, me laughing cuz I wanna slap you, ICEBERG! No one else will get that, I'll tell you guys in person when I see ya!) It was funny. Also, I got over 15 Happy Birthday's through facebook, even though people usually only remember cuz they get a reminder! Who cares, it's awesome! Oh! and Chris Bingea CALLED me to wish me Happy Birthay in my DORM ROOM! I didn't even know he had my cell phone number. It was very sweet of him (his birthday is a day after mine.) So then I got home and My mom, Holly, Anderw (holly's boyfriend), and myself went out to Olive Garden (Dad...well...whatever) We ate a whole lot, and it was surprisingly very fun. My sister and I CAN BOND!!! And I just want to say thanks mom! She is a good good woman! =) Anywho, after that, I went over to Adam's house, and they through me a sorta surprise little birthday thing. If my mom wouldn't of taken me out, they would have planned something else, or so I hear, and who cares. It's the thought that counts. I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH, AND "I THANK MY GOD EVERYTIME I REMEMBER YOU" Phillipians 1:3. The night ended with a very pretty cake, a pipe cleaner hat, a pipe cleaner car, and a pipe cleaner butterfly ring! It was so wonderful, and homemade things are the best.

Saturday was an up and down sort of day. Jen had slept over, and we went shopping with her and Holly, and it just was...eh...for many reasons that I won't go into. It made me very grumpy and unhappy. Then Molly Taylor met us at Applebees, and it was really good to see her. We enjoyed our time and laughed, and I was happy. lol. Then I finally got over to Adam's for the Chris Tomlin/Matt Redman/and Louis Gigalo or something concert! The fun part was we took two vans and all drove down together. The only bad part was I cried in the car because I was just so stressed from the day I had, what victoria secret representative told me, and of course boy problems. Again it's one of those moments that I can't go into detail here, cuz it'd take too long. The concert was so amazing, and it really moved me. The music was fantastic, and the speaker showed us how small we are to God, and I really just felt so small (not in a bad sense) and humbled by God's grace. It made me love my friends even more than ever, and God just really took my heart. After the concert we went to Perkins, and our waiter girl/man was Sc-sc-scary! haha. But we were all acting like 14 year olds on their own for the first time. It's fun to be that way sometimes though. You need a little immaturity in your life! And thanks Justin for spitting water down my shirt....love you anyway amazingly. To keep the night going, we watched The Minority Report at Adam's and it was LONG but sooo worth it. I loved it! I had seen previews for it but wow, I was thoroughly enjoyed. Finally, I made it back home at 4:00 or so. I was happy.

Sunday hit, and I started not feeling so hot (after Applebees, I felt sick, but figured it would pass...I was wrong) I had to get my costume fitted for our Royalty Halloween Parade, and standing there...I almost passed out. I had no color in my cheeks, and I felt like throwing up. Luckily I had a wave of relief for a while so I went to the Knapps so I could see them all! Somehow Debbie burnt something and smoke filled the entire house! It was hysterical! Then of course I went over to Anna's and got to be with John and Anna (they make me SOOO incredibly happy) Even though it makes me sad cuz I don't have someone who loves me with that much love (BESIDES God...I know he loves me) but at the same time it makes me so happy cuz John is so happy, and I think he deserves it. They are both astounding people, and really are blessed by God through their relationship. Rock on you two. Car ride was good as usual, and Anna slept over. Woo!

So final paragraph of the tale... Monday, I was sick...really sick. Not like throwing up sick, but other kind of "fluid" sickness...I'll leave it at that. And it was all day long, and on Sunday too, and it got to the point where I could not even stand for longer than a minute because there was so much pain in my side. It was so bad. So at 11:00 at night, Anna and Ali drove me to the Emergency Room. That's right, I had to go to the ER! It sucked and we were there until 2:00 AM! They took three viles of blood, made me give a urine sample, and just made sure it wasn't life threating. I felt bad for my two little heros who had to just sit here and deal with me, and I thank them for taking me. The doctor was very nice, and told me it could be a very small kidney stone, or the stomach flu, or something just viral. At any rate, they gave me the glorious VICODIN and I slept very very well. My story is done, don't forget you can always IM me in case you want more depth, I will be glad to talk.

College Moment: The picture that I will throw on here later today is from the ER last night. We decided it would make for a good story, and a good picture as well. I hope you all enjoy and laugh at my pain. haha.

Sister in Christ,
Amy <3

Stress over...and birthday ToMoRrOw!

That's right, I'm back, and I'm happy!! :-D

So let's see....my midterm! Oh I was so stressed out by it! Seriously, I had no idea what the heck was going to be on it, how he was going to set it up, so how do you study for something like that? Plus I spent a good portion talking on the phone with someone (But it WAS about a math problem...so gimme a break! Haha) SO I went into it, scared, but as ready as I'll ever be...and there were five questions! It did take me the whole hour in a half, and I'm not sure how some of my answers were, but all in all, I think I got a C or better. I'll accept a C in college, it's COLLEGE! So we'll see what that stupid man syas about my grade....pray for me!

And of course, IV was wonderful. I love Tuesdays. No matter how angry or sad my Photo teacher makes me, InterVarsity just makes it better. For some reason, I just don't stay around at the end when everyone is talking and meeting eachother...well Tuesdays, I go swimming...maybe I should just swim on different days. Lol. I'm so indecisive. But I come out okay by the end of the day...so meh! Am I right or am I right? But yah, the only bummer of Tuesday was I had to write a three page rough draft for my English class. See, it's more of an informational paper, but we had to have a thesis for it, and so in the end I just bulled my way through it...thank goodness the final isn't until next Wednesday, so I have a whole week to figure it out. But I did scrounge three pages together, so yah! I think I'll be okay! Sigh...yah, that was my stress for the week!

Oh last night was sooo fun! Okay, so my RA and a bunch of people on my floor usually watch a show on Wednesdays together at 9:00, but for some reason, she was not there! Well she came in around 11:00 or so, and I got all sad at her and then she said we'll let's all hang out. So I was just talking with her, and this girl named Rachel from two rooms down came in too and we spent like an hour talking! It was so fun! This Rachel girl is just funny cuz she kept giving me love advice, and ahh, I laugh. I love bonding with people on my floor! I mean yah, we aren't like best friends, but it's good to just meet people. I may be here for some time, so yah....I really need to get to know my fellow classmates! Oh, and Nate was being so funny last night...long story, it won't make sense, I'll just stop there.

I got to shop today! The only reason was because my Photo class was cancelled (the teacher sounded like he was dying on Tuesday during our midterm.... I should've expected this! lol) but yah, so Anna and I went to Target, and ah it was so much fun! I bout a new loofa (My dog ate the last one...awww) and pretty earrings, and "eye-popping" eye shadow. Sounds weird right? well apparently the people at Almay put some colors together that go with people's different eye colors, and can make them really stand out. So Anna and I bought some, and I'm gonna have to say, I like it! Yaya! Anna's looked perty too, but she looks pretty no matter what...am I right?

So Sam and Robbie left tonight for New Orleans or something! Well everyone who reads this or the forum should really pray for them not becauase they won't be fine down there, but just for the strength for everything they need to be doing down there, and to be selfless... I think it's sometimes hard to put so much into something, and yah... I don't know where I'm going with that! I'll stop here.

It's my Birthday tomorrow and I got my first Happy Birthday from Jenny VanBuesekom! wooo ooo!! I love my birthday and i'm just so excited! Yay happiness! Every year I always wonder if I didn't say anything, how many people would remember my birthday, but I always get way too excited and I end up being like "10 days until my BIRTHDAY!!!" and yah....I can't keep quiet. That's me! I LOVE LOVE!!! (random I know, I'm just uber happy!)

What else do I have to say? Wow...nothing...my week has been full of nothingness! oh well. I gotta get swimming so, I'll see some of you this weekend! Love you all, yay to me! yay to you! Haha...I'm done!
Somewhat College Moment: I like this picture! It was taken last Friday at our lovely Adam Natrop's house during a good ole bonfire! I LOVE Sarah's face, and Justin...ah his hair...I'll get used to it! Love you both! (Anna thanks for the picture! what would I do without you?)

Sister in Christ,
Amy <3

bonfires, hayrides, and Perkins

To continue the weekend of happiness....

Even though I had to miss the Rockford game (which they amazingly won!) I had a great time with my girls for my Royalty thing. Our parents were working on our float, so we just basically caught up on what's been going on since I have not seen these girls since end of August! It's amazing how much can happen in that amount of time! It was rather nice. We also were trying to find songs that we could play on our float, so we were listening to all these Broadway songs...it was fun! *Our theme is a Chicago Jazz idea...we are flappers* We also got the idea of having guys on our float, so it'll be fun cuz two of my close guy friends are coming on it! (John and Jake) I'm excited for this!! We got pizza and stuff afterward, so all in all, the last three hours seemed to go by quite fast!

Natrop called me later and told me that he was having people at his house, so I instantly left the royalty thing and bussed myself over there! I always get so excited for these things cuz I get to see so many people! I LOVE THEM!! There weren't as many people as I thought were going to be there, but it didn't matter. My closest friends were there, and some were the ones I haven't seen for at least a month. My friend Jake also brought a friend (Alex) and he was really cool. It was just a good time to be with everyone around a cozy bonfire! Things like those always gets me hyper!

Saturday was interesting....I seriously shopped from 12-7. Yes, I am a girl. Yes, I like to shop. Yes, I like to buy things, BUT NOT FOR THAT AMOUNT OF TIME! I feel that it is tedious and sometimes people spend too much time on things that could be done in like an hour or so. It seriously was a waste of a beautiful afternoon. The other problem was I was with my royalty people because were getting costumes for our float, and one of the girls' mothers in a MOTHER. What I mean by that is she's motherly, unlike my mother. My mom is more of a friend, has never really had a curfue for me, let's me do whatever I want because she trusts me, and it's something that doesn't seem to be normal for parents. So being around someone like that frustrates me terribly! So we were done with that by 5:00, but my whole point of Saturday was that I wanted to go shopping for some clothes that I needed, and be out of there in no time. I also had Kelly's party in mind so I knew it had to be fast. I power shopped!! It was insane, I went to so many stores in an hour, and I spent less than $100. That's right, be VERY proud of me!

Unfortunately I was "fashionably late" to Kelly's, but I made it just in time for the hay ride! It was a gorgeous night out (although some wind kept it chilly) and we went down this path on her relatives property, and ah! It was good. There were a bit more people at Kelly's than at Adam's, but a lot of them were from Crown and I met some...cool people! makes me want to go there even more, but sadly still, they do not have my major. Oh well! At the bonfire Mark was playing his guitar, and I liked it because I love hearing Mark sing and play! Anna and John also showed up, and John got a TATTOO!! It is soo cool looking. You guys should really see it. He's a manly man now! Anyway, at one point Kara and I were swinging on swings, and playing the "I went to a picnic and I brought..." game. It's where you go A-Z and listing things you bring with you. It was fun! I ended up saying for Q that I brought a Koala Bear...yah, stupid i know! And then I said, I went to a Hackysack....yah...it's okay to laugh, I laughed too! Then Justin and Nate came by us and we had a swing jumping contest, and even though Justin didn't jump very far, he won....and I jumped....walked a little bit, and fell on my butt. Then we all started tackling eachother, and did terrible cartwheels. I think the insanity made us hungry, because about tweleve of us ended up at Perkins. The food was good, the people were great, and the conversations were even better!

Sunday, amazingly was also very fun. Usually I just sit at home, do some laundry, watch some movies, MAYBE motivate myself to doing some homework, but this time Kara decided that we should all do something! So Jake, Sarah, Justin, Kara, and myself went to Northwestern Bookstore and Ridgedale for a while, just walking around and spending time together. We were going to eat, but then Justin's mom said that we could eat lunch at her house, and of course FREE FOOD=HECK YES! So we showed up late, oops, and Debbie had made really good food! It was like this chicken with this amazing gravy stuff on it, potatoes, and corn. I haven't had a homecooked meal since I ate at Anna's like a month ago! Sure beats school food, and even Subway. Then after we were all stuffed, they served us ice cream and we all sat in the living room talking. It felt like Thanksgiving because everyone wanted to nap, the weather was warm, and we were stuffed. God Bless the Knapps! haha

I've decided, that even though Sundays sorta suck for the fact that I have to come home, I always enjoy it because I get to meet up with Anna, and John is there, so I get to see two great people! It's become a ritual for the three of us. We all go to church, and I part my ways with them while they eat a brunch, take a nap, maybe do some laundry/homework, eat dinner, and then I show up and we all leave. It's nice because I dont' spend as much time with Anna during the weekend as I would during the week, so it's always a joy to see her again! Plus John is there and it always makes me happy to see him, so I'm even more delighted. Anyway, to cut to the chase, the car ride was amazing. We usually talk for like an hour, listen to music and start talking again once we get close to home, but we talked for almost the whole car ride! It was great. We were so into our conversations that we missed our turn and ended up in Cannon Falls (luckily not too far out of the way) I enjoy my Anna!

So yes, there's my weekend, and it's obviously shortened for the sake of the readers. Alot more things happened, and I could go to much greater detail, but I fear to lose the attention of my dearest readers, and nobody wants that. :-) That's why there is always the option of calling me, IMing me, or E-mailing me in case you are hungry or dying for me! P.S.-I hope that none will fear my death, but I will prob. not write until Thursday because for once, I have a little stress in my life. I have a mid term tomorrow, and a Major Paper on Wednesday. So this is not the top of my priority list. So anyway, I love you all, you are all fantastic, and sorry it's so long! Bye all!

No Picture: I have pictures I want to put up but they are on Anna's Camera, so maybe I'll make a post of just some awesome pictures!

Sister in Christ,
Amy <3

Another weekend, another good time... so far

Yes! I got to leave the little town of Winona Wednesday night! I'm happy to be home as usual... and of course, I'm having a GREAT time! Anna and I got home around...ten or so, and even though I did nothing that evening, it's just always nice be home.

Thursday was fun because I went to see my Journalism class in high school. I bought my teacher, Mrs. Poppler, two red roses because her birthday is the day before mine, October 20th. Even though it's still a week or so till then, this was the only time I probably could see her until Thanksgiving break! And frankly, I LOVED my Journalism class (well...love/hate relationship) and I really wanted to see how they were doing! The newspaper seems to be running smoothly, and the yearbook seems in wonderful shape! To the class: WOO! I love the cover! I'm excited to see how everyone else feels about it! Anyway, I almost made my teacher cry by giving her the flowers. It was so cute. She's also lost a lot of weight and is looking wonderful. Not only was it great to see her, but I saw Sarah Fleming, and Roz, and Jesse, and all the wonderful editors! And Roz told me I'm looking good! It was just good to hear cuz I've been freaking about the whole "Freshman 15" thing... I lost like 15 lbs. in the last year, and really don't wanna gain it back. I am swimming at least twice a week, and try to walk a lot. I know I shouldn't be so worried about it, but it's who I am. Society has destroyed my self confidence, what can I say? haha....

So even though not a lot of people could do anything, I still got to hang out with one of my bestest friends ever! (besides seelard! lol) It was just good because every once in a while, you need some alone time with your friends, it's refreshing. I don't get a lot of it with people, so it was soothing. We talked for an hour or so, than rented the worst movie ever! I've seen "Kingdom of Heaven" before, but he was totally psyched on seein it. So of course, being the doormat that I am, rented it anyway. Anna Banana came and joined us for our movie adventure, and what do ya know, it was worse the second time through! haha! My evening was just splendid!

Now God has been laying on my heart a lot of things, and some things were things I thought were kinda done and over with, but God lets me know that nothing is over. It's odd really. I bring everything to Him, and try my best by being satisfied with his silence, and being patient (cuz I know patience for things, especially answers, are hard for me) and when I think I'm done, and it's been settled, honestly, He brings it to me that I'm not settled yet! So now I'm frusturated with myself, and trying to look to God once more, asking for the step that I just seem to be missing. If I could just get some prayer for my little pickle, I would really appreciate it!

Tonight is the Rockford Homecoming Game and I'm SOO EXCITED...unfortunately, the infamous "royalty" thing takes me away from my life! ARGH! That's my noise of frustration. Honestly! I just wanted to watch the game with all my friends, but noooo...I have to build a float. Grr....luckily people are getting together afterwards, so I can't be too angry, but still, can't they just fire me now?!

Non College Moment: Well would you look at that....my pictures aren't downloading...So....I got nothing for ya! Well, the picture was going to be at my coronation when we had some of the other royalty kiss us on the cheek, it made for a very cute picture.

Sister in Christ,
Amy <3

MmM...PrOpEl satisfies the thirst

I LOVE PROPEL! Seriously! It's soo good for you, and there's nothing really bad in there for you! It's better than water that's for sure. Bleh!

So I love my friends as usual! I mean like my friend Jake commented on my last one, and it just makes me happy to read comments from people, especially people who i never really thought of me as a good friend. So yay Jake, you rock at life!

So today, I had my Photo Appreciation class, and it was so good. We got our second projects back... I was so nervous. My first one he knocked off five points because I didn't type the question! So I had low hopes, but I got ten out of ten, so I still have an A-! Plus he is giving us extra credit, worth ten points, so I can be at a perfect A! I have faith in myself once again in this class. Now if I can just keep up the good work....well I'll be very proud of myself. I feel smart. Considering I have an A in that class, nothing lower than a B in my english, and I'm passing my orientation and math class. The only class I have a C in currently is my Media lecture because..well...I don't know. But I mean, I'm passing all my other classes! Go me.

I had this lecture tonight, his name was Fan Shen. He was the author of Gang of One, and the book is about the Cultural Revolution in China. It is an interesting book (we are not done with it yet in my English class) and like I was astounding for two reasons. One, the things he went through seem almost fictional, but once you meet the man, you take in the fact that THIS IS REAL....and EVERYTHING ACTUALLY HAPPENED. It's truly amazing to see someone that you've read about. The second reason was because he is an author. As you all know by now, I'm going to be an author, whether it makes me poor or not, and I just get excited to see other authors. Unfortunately my listening skills where terrible because it was really hot and I had a bad bad headache. So I felt really bad. PLUS, I didn't think of bringing my book, and I could have gotten it signed! It would have been my first one! How depressing is that eh? yah...I wasn't too happy bout myself.

I come home tomorrow! I hope to see a lot of people this weekend, especially the people i haven't seen in a while! I miss you all so much!
Sort of College Moment: So this was an awesome weekend at Camp Courage with just a few of my favorite people! It was a spontaneous sort of picture, and I didn't even realize how many people were in it until tonight! lol. You'll be seeing more of my pictures because there were so many good ones from the weekend!


Sister in Christ,
Amy <3

Always learning

I know it sounds retarded, but I am constantly learning things, especially when I go on retreats with my church. I was given the wonderful oppurtunity to be a leader for the youth group, since I'm not considered "the youth" anymore. Of course, I got butterflies. I get scared because I feel that sometimes I'm not qualified to give younger kids information, that I have no tried hard enough to read the bible and such. But in reality, it's all about God speakng through you, giving you the words to say, and the way to figure out how to do this....if you reall want him to. And I prayed about it. I ended up having the 7th and 8th graders for a group, and it was hard. The weekend was based about Dating, Courtship, Engagement, Marriage, and everything in between. Younger kids do not care about this, but of course, I got every little thing out of it.
(NOTE: if anyone is curious about it, I have the whole packet, and it would be a VERY good read)
I learned a lot about the opposite sex, and how are different (in more ways than I already knew) and I also learned a really big important thing. I learned how I had a hand in my own destruction of my relationship with Justin. Not gonna lie, it was very hard for me to grasp that concept, that I was the one who was broken up with, but it was a lot of my fault that it ended. I won't go into detail cuz not EVERYONE needs to know about these things, so again, if your close to me, just IM me (Amers1386). I'm open, just not this open...ya never know who's reading. haha. Anyway, this was a powerful weekend, and it was a God given thing that I was even able to attend this weekend. *~God is truly amazing~*

Another problem I was semi-having this weekend was that since I have been here at WSU, I have gotten rather close with MS. Anna Oeffling. She is a wonderful girl, and I've come accustomed to spending a lot of time with this girl, mainly because I WANT to, but also cuz she can relate to me so well. But this weekend, Johnny was there, and of course, they want to spend time together. This is totally understandable too because they go to sepereate schools and love eachother, and want to spend their time together, at the neccessary times. It was just stupid because I became jealous, at no fault of their own, and so I'm working on that. That was the downfall of my weekend, I felt abandoned, but by my own stupidity. They are cute and I love them to death so yah. Lol. I'm dumb...it happens

Once I got home, I got spend time with my mom for like 5 hours, and it was nice. I love my mom. She is a wonderful woman. We watched some movies, I bought her lunch, and it was nice. I should do that every Sunday, because I care, and she doesn't have a whole lot of people she can count on. Ahh..I'm all mushy. I'm also very proud of her because she has lost over 40lbs. in the last year or so, and ahh, she's looking so good. IF you know my mother and see her, TELL her she looks good, she'd appreciate it immensley. Ok, done being mushy.

School is going good, and ya know what? If I don't get accepted to Bethel, or to Northwestern College (which I JUST applied to today) it won't be the end of the world. Like I've applied to these schools because I would love to be at a Christian school, but I mean I might be meant to be here, it's not a bad thing. I just needed to get used to it. I'm not going to worry about it though. God has a plan, and I'm soothed by that alone. He's a good man, I think I can trust him. Haha. So yah, we'll see if I even get accepted, then i'll start thinking.

I get to come home WEDNESDAY NIGHT!! AHHH! Thank goodness for fall breaks! Gotta love them. It was also Johnny Patnodes 19th Birthday and Kelly Johnson's 21st Birthday on Sunday! SO HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BOTH, I love you both....you are good people!

Well, I'm done with that....I hope this satisfies my daily readers.


Non-college Moment: This is just in honor of John's birthday. This was taken this year at prom, and I love this picture! I actually look decent, and he is just a handsome young man. lol. Love you so much John Randall Patnode! Hope your birthday was exactly what you wanted it to be!





Sister in Christ,
Amy <3

Answer

~*~*~*~*~Answer~*~*~*~*~

I will be the answer,

at the end of the line

I will be there for you

while you take the time

in the burning of uncertainty

I will be your solid ground

I will hold the balance

if you can't look down

If it takes my whole life

I won't break, I won't bend

It will all be worth it

Worth it in the end

Cause I can only tell you what I know

That I need you in my life

When the starts have all gone out,

you'll still be burning so bright

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

This is a song from Sarah McLachlan, and it is such a beautiful song. I mean look at the words! ahh! It's so emotional, and heck I'm an emotional girl. Sorry, I had to be sappy tonight, cuz this is how I am tonight. Nothing more, nothing less. I know people feel like this sometimes, and Im in just in a love mood. Like I just want to be with a significant someone, just to be there with them. Sit on a couch and sleep and do nothing at all but love one another. And when I say a signifcant someone, I don't mean any certain person, I just mean someone who I can love, and have them love me back as much as anything in the world. What a feeling that would be. And I know God will bring this to me when I am ready, and I know it won't be now, but I'm a girl and I just miss it sometimes. I love my life, and I love God, and I love my friends, don't get me wrong, just on a cold night like tonight...I miss warm and comforting arms.

Sister in Christ,

Amy <3

Swim....swim....swim

Today was a good good day! Well..sorta. So I woke up today to find a not so friendly e-mail. It totally sucked! It offended me greatly, and in anger, I wrote back. LESSON 253: Don't write letters when you are angry. You look like a fool and regret it later. I've come to learn this quite well, but not well enough where I actually stop doin it. Then I got another e-mail back with their apologizes, and now I feel like this biggest fool in the entire world. so here I go:

I'm sorry I suck. My bad. I know you read this so I know you'll see this. I hate the way I am sometimes, and don't mean to be so...like the way I am. I love you very much.

Anyway...So I had to walk all the way to K-mart in this sickening humidity. That was my fault though. I needed to develop pictures for my class that was at 1:00 (mind you it's like 11:30) So I needed to do it! I was really happy though because a lot of people in my class liked my pictures, and that just boosted my spirit for the reason that I thought I did bad in this class. I jsut don't feel creative there, just dumb. So that boosted my self esteem big time.

Tonight was IV and it was good as usual. Just being in that atmosphere lifts my spirits, like I write every week. We had an African American speaker named Cal talk tonight, and he basically shared a piece of his life story with us. It was intriguing to listen him talk about the 40's through the 70's on what his life was like. It's jsut amazing what people go through. I was very interested and I was so interested in what he had to say.

I also went swimming tonight! yaya! I feel refreshed, and i'm sure i'll hurt tomorrow. It makes me feel good though that I actually attempted exercise, now I don't feel so bad for all that Ice cream I eat. FACT: two pints of Ben and Jerry's ice cream is the equilvence to a pound in calories...sick sick sick
Not college moment: Look! I'm a princess and I have the cutest baby ever...who looks a lot like my father! haha! I love it! He's my nephew Jack and my half sister Sarah brought him to my coronation this summer. YAAY BABIES!

Sister in Christ,
Amy <3

So I just took a test

So, I took this test on Quizzila or something, and it was about which animal personality I have. These were my results:


What Is Your Animal Personality?
brought to you by Quizilla

Does this fit? YAY OR NAY??? That's all I wanted to say.....night all!

Such a demand!!

I laugh because I have realized that many people seem to live off my blog coughcough::Samantha::coughcough so I'm sorry to all who depend on me! So here it is, a fresh new edition to "The college life of amy"

So this weekend was amazing, as usual! It is always a breath of fresh air to enter back into that oh so familiar world of Delano/Rockford. I especially love it because the trees on County Rd. 11 are becoming beautiful shades of oranges, reds, browns, and everything inbetween. It was also Homecoming on Friday and even though I figured I would never attend a Delano Homecoming game again, Abby Oeffling was dancing for half time, and if you haven't found out by now: I love dancing! Over the years, I've realized I'm just not made for danceline, so I live through other people. haha. It went well and I was very proud of her! Rock on Abs! The rest of that evening went well because Ali and I met up with Lee and ate at Applebees, where Gilby and Jake Haseltine were! *Note to all: Gilby has this love test on his profile, DONT TAKE IT! Whatever you write on there is directly sent to him....I'm too gullible....learn from my mistake!* Then at midnight or so, we wandered over to Natrop's, and Mark,Lee, Ali, Natrop, and myself, sat in Adam's bedroom just talking and laughing and catching up on things. I cherished that night because I don't have any guy friends at school, and so basically I go 2 weeks before I get to be with boys! And I'm a flirtatious person, so it's killing me inside. Too much built up energy. Haha. That night ended around 1:45 AM, and bed never looked so sweet.

Saturday was truly a busy busy day. I woke up at the ripe time of 12:00pm (Ali at 12:30) and we spent the good chunk of the early afternoon getting ready for the MALL OF AMERICA! Woo hoo! As luck would have it, Adam and Lee wanted to come with us (poor fellows....) so we picked them up and went on our merry way at like 3:00 or so! We walked around what felt like forever, and I found out that Lee was a good person to go shopping with! He bough more than Ali, Adam, and I put together! Ohhh Lee...I should go shopping with him more! =) Adam did buy me a button though and it said: Stupid is as stupid does, and it had a big smiley face on it. Insult or not I love it! After shopping for a good 3 or 4 hours, it was time to pick up Justin! On our way over there, we started listening to classical music, and Lee pulled out his air violin. Let's just say you had to be there, but it was the funniest thing ever! We got Justin, and then decided that we should get some people together at Adam's house, just so we could all see one another! That was really fun! WE made fun of Sarah, Jesse fell asleep, I got to see Med, Justin was acting gay with almost all the boys...what more could you ask for in an evening? Sadly, around 1 or so, it was time to leave. Funny thing was, I was half way home when Justin called and said that he left his backpack in the trunk of my car. So I turned around, and suddenly got a boost of energy. I turned on 101.3 and it had this good dance song on, and Jesse (I was giving him a ride home) started dancing in the backseat for a good 2 minutes. He was flailing about as if he were on fire! And then he died. So Saturday proved to be a joyous day.

Sunday I got to see Heidi Fair! She has such a cute little bump to her! AWww...she's due in January... in case anyone was wondering... well church was good because Mark spoke about forgiveness and love, and he presented it in a good way, and it really got you to think about God's love, and forgiveness of others, and well.... Bravo Mark! I think you'll make a good pastor someday. But sundays are sundays, and they are usually pretty lazy, and not much interestingness in them. That's okay, it's the SABBATH....

Retard Moment: So I'm talking to Justin on the phone Friday night, and I asked him what he was doing on Saturday. He replies, "I'm taking my Sabbath tomorrow." I pause, think about it, and blurt out, "Is that like a test or something?" Yes yes....Laugh at the fool....


College Moment: Ok, so dude... this blue thing in the picture is this storage container that came with all my bedding package delio. Well, I totally forgot about it, and it made for a perfect suitcase! It's just so COOL! And wow...not a very flattering picture, but oh well!

Friends Quote:
Ross: A thumb?
Phoebe: I know. I know. I opened it up, and there is was, just floating in there, like this tiny little hitch-hiker.
Chandler: Maybe it's a contest, you know, like, "collect all five."

Oh yes, and it's OCTOBER!!!!! It's the best month in the world! And only 18 days until my birthday! Woo hoo! Everyone better buy me something pretty....haha

Sister in Christ,
Amy <3

Thoughtful today

So I wake up today, much happier than the previous couple of days, only to find out Jesse's parents are getting a divorce. Usually I wouldn't announce it on my blog like this, but he put it on the forum for everyone, and I felt I should write about it. I know I've never dealt with divorce, but my Dad was divorced before he married my mom, and all I know is that was not fun. She took us to court, and we lost a lot of money to his ex, and it was really hard on the whole family. Luckily in Jesse's situation, his parents are Christians, and they will handle it maturally. I still want to tell everyone to pray for him, and I will continue to pray also.

Moving on from tragedy, the week has been okay. I was sorta down on Tuesday because I miss having a boyfriend. And I know, that sounds lame. It's not really having a boyfriend persay, it's more like I love having someone be with you, who would rather fall asleep next to you than anything else. It was a nice comforting feeling. And I see Anna who is sooo happy and sooo adorable, and just on some days, it breaks my heart for myself. I become selfish, and that's what Tuesday was. Luckily for me, we have Intervaristy that night (the church thing on my campus) and that always makes me even a tad happier because I love church and God! Also, my newest friend Jenni was there also, and that makes me even more happy....I know, I'm retarded! But the speaker, Keith Carpenter (sp?) who is actually one of the main people of IV, and he talked about death, and are we going to be the christians that go and stake our space and lie down and wait for death to happen, or are we going to spread God's word, and tell everyone about the Kingdom? It was really good. What would I do without my church?!

Yesterday was a rough day only for the fact that I had to deal with tuition and loans. For any of you who actually caught a glimpse of my previous post before I deleted it (samantha!) you know what i'm talking about. No, I just freak out about money because I mean my family isn't the richest of rich, and I was having complications with my loans and such. Basically I'm still $2000 short. Go figure. So you would see why I am stressed. Last night though, I had a good night! I was going to my night class with Jenni, and I was talking to her, saying that I wished that the professor would get sick and lose his voice. Go figure, I get to the auditorium (it's like a 300 people class) and he tells us he's losing his voice so class will be short today. It's usually from 6:00-8:00 or so. We ended at at 6:30! We took the our quiz and it was over! How nice eh? I'm physic! or is tha physic? you can't hear me pronounce those differently, so I will stop! The bad news is that I got an F on my True or False 30 point quiz. Talk about sucking! I don't know what went wrong! So yah...but then I went down to the Wharf with Jenni and we bought cookie dough and made cookies! It was so funny! we sucked them up bad, and we put so much Pam spray on the cookie sheet that even after the cookies were cooked, it was still wet. And the cookies just slid off. It was gross, but hey, the cookies were dang good!! My night turned rather well! So yay uplifting moments!

College Moment: I had to take pictures for a project outside (I'll show more on here later) and so I wanted a picture of Anna, but she was hiding behind her cup. Too bad I don't care, so I took it anyway. Isn't Anna beautiful? John, your a lucky man.

Friends Quote:
Phoebe: Oh, it's Dr. Seuss!
Joey: That book got me through some tough times.
Melanie: There is a little child inside this man!
Chandler: Yes, the doctors say if they remove it, he'll die.

Gotta love friends!!
Sister in Christ,
Amy <3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NATE!!