Sometimes I worry

I sometimes don't understand. I really don't. I mean... we are all God's children. We are all supposed to search God in our own way, because nobody really can tell you what he's like, and such. It's a one on one relationship, and others are their for fellowship. Then why is it that everyone attacks eachother on their beliefs, or what they read, or what they say? I'm confused. I believe in God, I believe in the Bible, I believe in a heaven and a hell. I know that I will never be able to understand everything in the bible, nor do I intend to. I do my best to understand, but if I don't understand something, I know I will if and when God wants me to. If a book is sold in a Christian bookstore, isn't there a good chance that it is a good thing? But here I sit, reading a message from a friend disregard a book because it's got a new way of looking at the bible. Because these people embrace the mysteries of the bible. I don't know what to think anymore. Why is it such a controversy? Does anybody know? Are we supposed to question eachother? Are we supposed to drive each other up the walls, until we have turned ourselves against one another? I thought we were supposed to be equal. We can't force our ideas upon one another, but it's what I see being done. It does not compute to me. Am I naive or am I full of wisdom for not wanting to take part in this behavior? Where am I then? All I know is you can't conform people, only God can change someone, or open their ears to what they are hearing. I just feel lost in this fog of friends, fellowship, and God. I'm not looking for answers if you can't give them to me, I guess I'm looking for people to ponder what I have to say. I'm tired of being quite... not putting in my view of things for the fear of being brought down by someone else's ideas. It seems the moment that I speak, it is turned around and thought of as wrong, going against this and that. And then people wonder why I never really comment on religious debates. I don't need my beliefs ripped apart. I pay my dues. I speak to my God every night, hopefully more during the day. I read His word, and keep my ears open in case He may say something. Hmmm.... what a world we live in