Fidelity

I know I know... I've been a bad blogger. It's a shame really. I had all the time in the world last week, what with Spring Break and all, but here I sit, end of the following week and finally writing. It's funny how I work. But that's what makes me interesting. I don't do things when I normally should.

So this is how I feel today:

Just kidding. I don't feel THAT happy.... but I just really love the facial expression in this picture. I think this is what my soul looks like on most days. Like for no reason whatsoever, I was extremely happy last night. I was just walking from my car to my dorm and I couldn't help but smile. Why? Who knows!! But this is me, inside and out... on my good days. lol.

Spring Break was amazing. Just what I needed. I needed to be done with classes and homework and staying up late, and ridiculous hours at work. I mean yes, I worked a ton last week and got overtime, but I also got to take a few days off to go down and see Lola!! but first... I slept around this break. HAHAH. I love saying that. It's not good, but it's fun to say. What I mean is I slept at people's houses cuz I didn't wanna go home. I slept at Adam's, Sarah's, Justin's, Adam's, Kara's, Laura's, Anna's, and Jen's. I mean c'mon, who can say they've slept that many places in one week?! No one. I win. Thanks, I'll accept my award of chocolate ice cream. Mmm.... But yah, it was good. I watched movies, and watched people play video games, and stayed up late, and just did random things. When I went to Nebraska, I went by myself. I know, it's a six hour drive and I went by myself. I needed the time to be by myself. I don't get that a lot. It was peaceful. I got to think and sing and sit and almost fall asleep (not safe!!) But it was good. I love seeing Laura. She's my special friend. lol.. I mean we went shopping for Anna's Bridal shower gift, and we watched two movies (Stranger than Fiction-bizarre, Someone's journal for Nicholas-very good! If your a girl and you liked the Notebook, see this movie!) and then we played the game Life at Starbucks at like 10:30 at night. The guy working there I've decided could sell me anything. He was that good. I mean I bought a muffin from him! Granted I WANTED the muffin, but he's just that good. lol. I also met one of her friends, Jenny, and she was pretty cool. We all hung out and then she slept over the night laura had knee surgery. But luckily she is alive and kicking!! She did burst out laughing when she tapped her knee with her crutches... that was funny. And that is what Vicodin does to people. Welcome to the happy life!!

What else happened.... oh yes! Anna's bridal shower #1! That was sufficiently awkward but good. I've just realized I'm HORRIBLE at family gatherings. Because of the fact that I really have an awkward family and I was never really allowed to go to the family stuff, I've lost the ability to interact properly. I usually look goofy. But Sam was with me, and Abby... so I felt better. She got a lot of stuff... and luckily only one toaster and one blender out of two! (Two people bought the same things on her registry and so it would have been really bad if they were both at the same shower. eep) Anyway..... I also got to see Anna and John's apartment. She said it was the smallest thing, but honestly, for two people, I think they will be completely fine. I really do. I liked it and it seemed fresh and there was some things that needed to be spruced up, but all in all, I say it was good.

Well being back at school hasn't been too bad. I really do think though that I have really gotten bad at making close friends. Maybe I'm in the mindset that I have my friends, so why bother! I can make friends, I mean I have my roomies, and Katie, and Becky, and random people from class, but none of them are really CLOSE to me. Who knows, all I know is I gotta really work on that cuz it gets kinda lonely sometimes. Wow, I sound like a loon. I'm done!

Last thing, I saw the movie Zodiac... and I personally liked it a lot. I mean it was long, and the eneded was disappointing, but it was based on real case files, and that always interests me. I mean you can't change the ending to a real life situation. Then it would be unsatisfying knowing that it's a lie. I think people should see it, they do a nice job with acting and making it seem very real. Anyway, I'll stop rambling! goodbye ladies and gents.

I GET MY TEST BACK TODAY FOR CWC!! Wish me luck guys. I'm really nervous. Eep.

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