Is that alright?

It's the wrong kind of place to be thinking of you. It's the wrong time for somebody new. It's a small crime and I've got no excuse.

Mmmm... Damien Rice. He knows what to say at the right time. It's a song called "9 Crimes" and you should really look it up. It was also played on Grey's Anatomy. Good moments.

Life has been crazy and I'm not sure where to go from here. My classes are all being failed my me. Haha. I know, I worded that funny, but I'm not going to change it so deal! lol. Ok... so I'm not failing.. but I have C's in all of them. That takes a stab towards my self worth. I know it shouldn't be that big of a deal. I have been out of school for a long time, it is the second year of school which is hard, it's a new school, and I work too much. But I feel like these are all weak excuses and I should not let them hold me back. But I am trying and trying and still not doing as good as I want to. I talk to Justin and he says it's not a big deal but if he were doing this bad, it would be a big deal. I want to suceed but I fear I will not here. And I have been trying to go here for so long, and well... i'm failing at my dream and I never calculated that into my dream. It was never a possibility for me. Never. So now that it is happening, I'm in a panic. I sound like it's this huuuuuge deal, but I really just don't talk about it that much. So no worries about me! I'm just writing this to give everyone an insight on me!

I talked to my advisor today about dropping my Journalism Workshop course. It was really hard for me to decide this. It's not that I don't want to do it, and it's not that I don't want to make the time for it. The problem is I CANT make time for it. I just can't. I'm already so far into the semester and I have done nothing towards the class. The problem isn't finding the time to write the articles, but it's the time I have to find to go to the events and interview so-so and about this and that. Anywayyy..... my advisor was like, it's not that big of a deal to drop. Just take it next semester. Life is long. I am really happy she put it that way. Big deal. I don't take it this semster. Sure, I'm out money for it, but it was a one credit class and it didn't cost THAT much in the whole scheme of things. So no worries here. I feel just that much better. =)

SPRING BREAK IS IN 3 DAYS!!!!!! AHHHHHH!!! That is sooo exciting! I don't have to write TAS's, Take tests, listen to stupid Into. to Bible discussions, or wake up at 7:30AM for a whoollleee week!! I get to see Laura, live at Adam's new townhouse, play games, watch movies, and work. Yah, work sucks but man... everything else makes it just that much better. Huzzah!!! Haha, sorry, had to say that. I'm a loser... it's okay. I can't wait to see Laura. Oh man. I get to spend like three whole days with her. It's a magical time I tell yah!

Anna's Bridal showers are coming up. Wierd. So wierd. It just seems like it's all happening too fast. I'm so excited for her though. It's gonna be a whole new life. Scary at first i'm sure. Oh man. Oh man. I can't even wrap my head around it. PS- I have a good gift idea if anyone wants to pitch in money for it, that'd be awesome. It could be a big group gift. It's kinda wierd though so you totally don't have to. Just talk to me about it later. (I'm not sure if she reads these so I don't wanna mention it!!)

Life with friends is really good right now. Justin and I are on fanatastic terms, Jen is wonderful. Kara and I are getting along wonderfully, and I dunno. It's just good. I love with things are like this. I am not fretting about my friendships or what people are REALLY thinking about me when we hang out, it's just innocent funness. Haha. Can you guys tell it's late and that I just got done writing a six page philosophy paper? Yah... all my energy is gone. Maybe that means I should end this. Well.... I will then. It's been fun.

I love all of you!