This is an easy one:
Would you rather be doomed to die alone because of who you are and you will never change no matter how much you beg and plea with yourself.... which somehow only makes it worse and then you hide it until months later it retaliates and is mad that you tried to change whatever it was that was holding you back in the first place
--OR--
Live a happy life where you find that "Mr/Mrs Right" and fall in love and ride away on a white stallion, or carriage if you are afraid of horses.
Easy huh? Well then how come it isn't that easy. I think I'm broken. Take me back where you got me from and get me fixed. yay thanks!
I know.... really random for most of you. and don't worry, I'm not depressed or dying or uh.... "special" I'm half kidding.... jen gets it. oh man does she get it. heh heh. ....... boo.
Whatever... that's why I'm at Bethel (not the ONLY reason... silly people)... I need to meet someone. Or just learn how to make friends with guys again cuz I'm lacking in that category. I have had my friends for a long time which is fantastic, but they can't be at school with me and it makes me sad taht I have very little boy interaction. I mean there's justin... sometimes... and jesse... .even fewer than justin. If anyone knows why i'm failing at meeting a guy, please tell me what I'm doing wrong! Answers, yes?
Okay, I'm ranting and raving like a 5 year old hopped on sugar. =)
HOnestly? You want my opinion? You are wanting to hard. You are looking to actively. That happend to me years ago. I was looking for a girlfriend. As a result i was blind to other possibilitys. But when i stoped, when i said ok i am just going to leave it well and alone, that was when i met rachael. And if i hadnt stoped looking so hard i might not even have noticed her.
ReplyDeleteThat is a really clumsy explination. If you want a better one i would be able to explain it better in person. ^_^
Just keep you chin up Amy. You are going to find someone. God just thinks you have other things to do right now.
Hmmm... like I said: Foreign, no english, perfection. What more can a girl want? I guess a lot of things but it's a quick fix! Come away with me!
ReplyDeletenate, I totally understand that. And I'm not just talking about DATING wise.... just guy friends in general. and I'm not ALWAYS looking.... there are things that I can't shake and then I get annoyed and somewhat lonely, which sets me into my cycle of wanting someone all over again. I'm tired of feeling agitated on certain things and I'm not sure how to fix it.
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