Okay, so the title is just a joke that Jen and I have been doing for about a week now. No I do not take God's will lightly, but the way Jen and I are seeing it seems to just be ironic, so we laugh at irony, not will.
I would also like to make a sad point that it has been exactly one month since I wrote last. Tragic right? I guess I've just been putting everything else first, and sometimes that is better. I've fallen way behind on homework to keep up with this thing, and I've also been spending a lot of my hours listening to Mark Driscoll sermons, which I HIGHLY recommend. I would say listen to the Peasant Princess, but any of them are good! I swear! Other than that, I've been taking trips and doing homework, and being with friends and trying to just make it out alive of this semester.
One of the bigger things that happened in the last month was of course the Election. Obama won. There are happy thoughts and frustrated thought and sad thoughts and ecstatic thoughts. But Seward made a good point and it basically was that when all of it boils down, we have to put faith in our God for He knows what He is doing, and we hope and pray that God chooses Obama for something awesome and significant. I fully trust in God for doing what is right, so I don't worry. I don't keep thinking about the election. I just sit back and watch God's glory happen :)
Another thing is that my ROOMIE has a friend... I shall call him... Boy. yes. This boy came out of nowhere and Boy is too good to be true. I mean.... he does "MY" dishes, cleans, buys us flowers, and oh so many other things! He is nice, thoughtful, interesting, smart, and funny. And softspoken. Hee hee. I enjoy him a lot and I think Jen is too! So that was just a nice little November surprise for us all. YAY!! Boys in the house make me happy. Just don't take a shower during my "get ready time". Lol.
Jen and I also went to Chicago this past weekend to see Marlise! It was a lot of fun because the two of us decided to stop late Friday night at a hotel instead of driving to chicago at such late hours. It was actually a lot of fun and then we felt refreshed for the day with Marlise! We went downtown and bought things and took fantastic pictures and watched the light festival! Except the bummer is is that I lost Jen's camera!!!!! Actually I'm pretty sure it was taken from me, but at any rate I cried and felt really bad. Lame. Jen wasn't as mad as I thought she'd be, but I was mad at myself. I'm getting over it slowly though... sOrRy Jen!!!!!!!!!! Oh yah, Ali and her bf met us in Chicago, so that was a lot of fun. Too bad I was mopey. Boo.
Seward also had a show with her classmates in the cities to basically present their projects that they have been slaving away on for like the whole semester. I was really really proud of her. She is so talented and so smart and I just cherish her and everything that she does. I couldnt' have been more proud of her than that moment... and of course when she got baptized. Hee hee
So much to keep writing about but so little time. I'll try to write more this week since it's already Thanksgiving weekend and i'll hopefully find more time then 10 minutes to delve into my mind and all the things I think about! But for now, I bid you farewell and I hope everyone has a great week!
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Monday, November 24, 2008
Friday, October 24, 2008
My Name is Amy Vergin, and I approve this message
So while I was hanging out with Alyssa last night, she showed me something that I really really loved. Now I am morally obligated to post this and kind of side with him as well. It is something that David Letterman wrote about politics and America's dissatisfaction with Bush. I have never been a person to really care either way. Lesser of two evils, abortion, finance, rules, regulations, laws... that's all these are based on. These are all very important topics, and I know that I should have a say in what happens, but really my say is limited to the efficientness of the president. It's limited to what the president decides to do once in power. It's limited to the fact that they all lie and you can't tell who is telling the truth and who is not. There is too much based on arguments and ads that attack the other opponents. Competition is not bad by all means, but the way that is done is disgraceful. At any rate, I am not a major in political science, economics, theology, or anything that could give good information about the system. I just have my own opinions. But here, David Letterman makes some very valid points and I think you should take five minutes to read it. It's quite interesting:
Amy
David Letterman wrote this; it’s the David we don’t often see….
“As most of you know I am not a President Bush fan, nor have I ever been, but this is not about Bush, it is about us, as Americans, and it seems to hit the mark
‘The other day I was reading Newsweek magazine and came across some poll data I found rather hard to believe. It must be true given the source, right?
The Newsweek poll alleges that 67% of Americans are unhappy with the direction the country is headed and 69% of the country is unhappy with the performance of the President. In essence, 2/3 of the citizenry just ain’t happy and want a change. So being the knuckle dragger I am, I started thinking, ‘What are we so unhappy about?’ ‘
1... Is it that we have electricity and running water 24 hours a day, 7 days a week?
2... Is our unhappiness the result of having air conditioning in the summer and heating in the winter?
3... could it be that 95.4% of these unhappy folks have a job?
4... Maybe it is the ability to walk into a grocery store at any time and see more food in moments than Darfur has seen in the last year?
5... Maybe it is the ability to drive our cars and trucks from the Pacific Ocean to the Atlantic Ocean without having to present identification as we move through each state?
6... Or possibly the hundreds of clean and safe motels we could find along the way that can provide temporary shelter?
7... I guess having thousands of restaurants with varying cuisine from around the world is just not good enough either.
8... Or could it be that when we wreck our car, emergency workers show up and provide services to help all and even send a helicopter to take you to a hospital.
9... Perhaps you are one of the 70% of Americans who own a home.
10... You may be upset with knowing that in the unfortunate case of a fire, a group of trained firefighters will appear in moments and use top notch equipment to extinguish the flames, thus saving you, your family, and your belongings.
11... Or if, while at home watching on of your many flat screen TVs, a burglar or prowler intrudes, an officer equipped with a gun and a bullet-proof vest will come to defend you and your family against attack or loss.
12... This all in the backdrop of a neighborhood free of bombs or militias raping and pillaging the residents. Neighborhoods where 90% of teenagers own cell phones and computers.
13... How about the complete religious, social and political freedoms we enjoy that are the envy of everyone in the world?
Maybe that is what has 67% of you folks unhappy.
Fact is, we are the largest group of ungrateful, spoiled brats the world has ever seen. No wonder the world loves the U.S. , yet has great distain for its citizens. They see us for what we are. The most blessed people in the world who do nothing but complain about what we don’t have, and what we hate about the country instead of thanking the good Lord we live here.
I know, I know. What about the president who took us into war and has no plan to get us out? The president who has a measly 31% approval rating? Is this the same president who guided the nation in the dark days after 9/11? The president that cut taxes to bring an economy out of recession? Could this be the same guy who has been called every name in the book for succeeding in keeping all the spoiled ungrateful brats safe from terrorist attacks? The commander in chief of an all-volunteer army that is out there defending you and me?
Did you hear how bad the president is on the news or talk show? Did this news affect you so much, make you so unhappy you couldn’t take a look around fro yourself and see all the good things and be glad? Think about it……. Are you upset at the president because he actually caused you personal pain OR is it because the ‘Media’ told you he was failing to kiss your sorry ungrateful behind every day. Make no mistake about it.
The troops in Iraq and Afghanistan have volunteered to serve, and in many cases may have died for your freedom. There is currently no draft in this country. They didn’t have to go. They are able to refuse to go and end up with either a “general” discharge, and “other than honorable” discharge or, worst case scenario, a “dishonorable” discharge after a few days in the brig.
So why then the flat-out discontentment in the minds of 69% of Americans?
Say what you want but I blame it on the media. If it bleeds it leads and they specialize in bad news. Everybody will watch a car crash with blood and guts. How many will watch kids selling lemonade at the corner? They media knows this and media outlets are for-profit corporations. They offer what sells, and when criticized, try to defend their actions by ‘justifying’ them in one way or another. Just ask why they tried to allow a murderer like O.J. Simpson to write a book about how he didn’t kill his wife, but if he did he would have done it this way……… INSANE!
Turn off the TV, BURN Newsweek, and use the New York Times for the bottom of your bird cage. Then start being grateful for all we have as a country. There is exponentially more good than bad. We are among the most blessed people on Earth and should thank God several times a day. Or at least be thankful and appreciative. With hurricanes, tornados, fires out of control, mud slides, flooding, severe thunderstorms tearing up the country form one end to another, and with the threat of bird flu and terrorist attacks, ARE WE SURE THIS IS A GOOD TIME TO TAKE GOD OUT OF THE PLEDGE OF ALLEGIANCE?
David Letterman.
Amy
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
~*Be OK*~
I've chosen this title for the "day after" blog for many reasons. One: It's the title of the album by Ingrid Michaelson that I just bought because I have a very big addiction to music. It's okay, I admit it. Deal with. It just means that everyone around me can download my library of music. haha. Two: That's how i'll sum up my life. I'll be okay. I will. Because days like yesterday exist and I can breath easily once again. I love that
Yesterday pretty much went perfectly. I didn't wake up until 11. Then I got to go see my mommy and we ate ice cream and watched "Baby Mama". I personally found it a nice comic relief, but it probably wouldn't of been that good on any other day. But the weather was nice, mom was happy, and everything was right in the world. Then I went and put a flower on Travis' grave. Since he died on April 21st, the 6-month marker is my birthday. I feel like I should honor him and so I try to go out there on my birthday every year. And the day was just soooo nice that I could just sit with him for a while. I took a really sweet picture there too. but anyway, I loved having that moment with him. I know it'll never do and that I'd rather just call him and say hello, but such is life. It was peacful. I chatted, he listened. I told him that I love him and that he is the friend that will never change. Technically he can't at this point, but I don't care. there is just something inside of me that can't let me leave him behind. His life was taken and he should still be along for the ride. At least he can be on my ride. I don't mind ;)
After my moment I drove to the Knapton's field and bought pumpkins!! YAY! Now Jen and I can carve them! How exciting!! I love carving pumpkins, even though I've only done it like three times or maybe even four. It's fun though. Then I tried to go see my second set of "parents" but they weren't home! JOE AND DEBBIE WHERE WERE YOU?!?!?! Lol. It's okay, the sang me happy birthday on a message later that evening, so I'll live. Oh! then I went to Target to kill some time and I found this adorbale and soft monkey and so I HAD to buy it for Anna and John's baby! I couldnt' resist!! And when I rang it up the lady was like "this is the type of thing that kid's hold on to forever" which of course is what I was going for. So YAY! I feel awesome about that. And by buying that present, I actually got to SEE John and Anna!!! I love them oh so very much and it makes me happy to see them, even if it is for only a few minutes.
There were some herdles at this point. Holly had a bad day, and of course it just got worse and I had partial blame for that. I love her and I just wanted to see her and be happy. Hopefully we can have a sister day soon and it won't be so bad. i'll make it up to her. I promise. I just sometimes feel like she thinks I dont' care about her. But I do, I really do. The older we get, the more I love her and it kills me when she's sad like that. Sigh...
Of course there was dinner later, at this super nice restaurant called "Figlios" and it was in Uptown which is fun. But when I got there everyone was either upset, or confused, or frustrated, so I in turn got upset. I mean it didn't last long but a lot of it was unneccesary tension. Just put on your happy faces for me please!!!!! lol. Alyssa and Justin were an hour late, but I forgive them because trying to get to Calhoun Square is a joke. It's so hard to do!!!1 I get lost every single time. Man. Oh well, at least I wasn't driving otherwise I would have never made it. So thank Jen! What made me happy about dinner was the prayer Justin said. It was ridiculous. I can't remember it word for word, but it really meant a lot to me. For him to talk about me and Holly and how we have impacted his life, well, it's things like that that make me happy and forget all the bad things he does to me. That is the side of Justin I really got to know first, and that's why I have such a hard time with him usually. He is genuine and caring, he just never shows it. But I love that he can pull it out on my birthday, because that's when it matters most. At least he knows that. I'd rather have that than for him to buy me something. Gifts are gifts, no matter what it is or how much it costs.
Anyway, everyone came back to the house and gave me presents! PRESENTS! Can you believe it? It was wierd. Like ok, I'm really used to giving all the attention to people and loving them and making sure they feel loved. It is what I do and I love it. Nothing pleases me more than making my friends happy. but It's awkward to have it right back at you. Not that people ignore me, but as Alyssa put it, it was complete "undivided attention" that they were giving me. I felt out of my element. And people got me NICE gifts. I won't go into it, but it really was one of those moments where you say, awwww you shouldn't have. no really... you shouldn't have! It was nuts. But I do fully accept them now and I promise to love and cherish them all. Thank you guys for being wonderful and really making me feel happy and special.
Alright, i've rambled as usual and managed to blow off homework for a long time. I must go now!! love you all, thank you again for everything, love you.
Amy
Yesterday pretty much went perfectly. I didn't wake up until 11. Then I got to go see my mommy and we ate ice cream and watched "Baby Mama". I personally found it a nice comic relief, but it probably wouldn't of been that good on any other day. But the weather was nice, mom was happy, and everything was right in the world. Then I went and put a flower on Travis' grave. Since he died on April 21st, the 6-month marker is my birthday. I feel like I should honor him and so I try to go out there on my birthday every year. And the day was just soooo nice that I could just sit with him for a while. I took a really sweet picture there too. but anyway, I loved having that moment with him. I know it'll never do and that I'd rather just call him and say hello, but such is life. It was peacful. I chatted, he listened. I told him that I love him and that he is the friend that will never change. Technically he can't at this point, but I don't care. there is just something inside of me that can't let me leave him behind. His life was taken and he should still be along for the ride. At least he can be on my ride. I don't mind ;)
After my moment I drove to the Knapton's field and bought pumpkins!! YAY! Now Jen and I can carve them! How exciting!! I love carving pumpkins, even though I've only done it like three times or maybe even four. It's fun though. Then I tried to go see my second set of "parents" but they weren't home! JOE AND DEBBIE WHERE WERE YOU?!?!?! Lol. It's okay, the sang me happy birthday on a message later that evening, so I'll live. Oh! then I went to Target to kill some time and I found this adorbale and soft monkey and so I HAD to buy it for Anna and John's baby! I couldnt' resist!! And when I rang it up the lady was like "this is the type of thing that kid's hold on to forever" which of course is what I was going for. So YAY! I feel awesome about that. And by buying that present, I actually got to SEE John and Anna!!! I love them oh so very much and it makes me happy to see them, even if it is for only a few minutes.
There were some herdles at this point. Holly had a bad day, and of course it just got worse and I had partial blame for that. I love her and I just wanted to see her and be happy. Hopefully we can have a sister day soon and it won't be so bad. i'll make it up to her. I promise. I just sometimes feel like she thinks I dont' care about her. But I do, I really do. The older we get, the more I love her and it kills me when she's sad like that. Sigh...
Of course there was dinner later, at this super nice restaurant called "Figlios" and it was in Uptown which is fun. But when I got there everyone was either upset, or confused, or frustrated, so I in turn got upset. I mean it didn't last long but a lot of it was unneccesary tension. Just put on your happy faces for me please!!!!! lol. Alyssa and Justin were an hour late, but I forgive them because trying to get to Calhoun Square is a joke. It's so hard to do!!!1 I get lost every single time. Man. Oh well, at least I wasn't driving otherwise I would have never made it. So thank Jen! What made me happy about dinner was the prayer Justin said. It was ridiculous. I can't remember it word for word, but it really meant a lot to me. For him to talk about me and Holly and how we have impacted his life, well, it's things like that that make me happy and forget all the bad things he does to me. That is the side of Justin I really got to know first, and that's why I have such a hard time with him usually. He is genuine and caring, he just never shows it. But I love that he can pull it out on my birthday, because that's when it matters most. At least he knows that. I'd rather have that than for him to buy me something. Gifts are gifts, no matter what it is or how much it costs.
Anyway, everyone came back to the house and gave me presents! PRESENTS! Can you believe it? It was wierd. Like ok, I'm really used to giving all the attention to people and loving them and making sure they feel loved. It is what I do and I love it. Nothing pleases me more than making my friends happy. but It's awkward to have it right back at you. Not that people ignore me, but as Alyssa put it, it was complete "undivided attention" that they were giving me. I felt out of my element. And people got me NICE gifts. I won't go into it, but it really was one of those moments where you say, awwww you shouldn't have. no really... you shouldn't have! It was nuts. But I do fully accept them now and I promise to love and cherish them all. Thank you guys for being wonderful and really making me feel happy and special.
Alright, i've rambled as usual and managed to blow off homework for a long time. I must go now!! love you all, thank you again for everything, love you.
Amy
Monday, October 20, 2008
Last day of being 21- rEfLeCtIoN TiMe
When I was 20, sitting in my dorm and thinking, I'll be 21 tomorrow, I never knew that crazy things would happen. It was a high point and a low point for me, and I couldn't even begin to make sense of it all. I just couldn't. I remember saying that I was going to be a "slut" this year. And although I wasn't that (thank goodness) I did however date. Yes. I said date. Who knew I had it in me? Lol. Of course they were at the same time... and from wells fargo... and I didn't even really like one all that much... and the other one stopped talking to me... but I did date! All it proved was that I shouldn't just date randomly. I mean I think it was a good experience, and it made me happy at the time, but it just wasn't the best for me in the long run. oh well, you live you learn right?
I also had never had so many explosions with friends before. That was a new one. I mean I think most girls know that there will be drama all the time. it's inevitable. For people who say they dont' deal with drama, they are all liars. What I think we have all had a hard time dealing with is this silly little thing called growing up. Nobody wants it, nobody likes it, and nobody can be taught how to deal with it. It is unique to the individual and can only be taught through trial and error. What I mean is that we have been friends forever. Travis died, and this family was formed. We have been through everything together and have even survived the transition period of going to schools that are not 10 minutes apart and we do not live on the same road anymore. I couldn't even could the number of times I was told that all my best friends would coem from college. Not completely true. While I've met wonderful people in these last few years, I know that I still have my family and that I just keep adding to it. I think Travis kept us together, and now while we fight and get mad and just plain ole' ignore, we'll always be there for each other. How could we not? But what I'm getting at is that we have learned the hard way on how to deal with this. Denouncing friendship usually isn't the best way to stay friends with someone. Being mad at the distance that is caused from growing up isn't going to help. Becoming a hermit sure doesn't keep the friends either. And getting married causes drifts with people as well. Politics, religion, different friends, different lifestyles, they all cause "chaos" in our personal lives, leading us to attack each other for this and that. And I don't mean to be picking on any certain person, this is just a generalization of what has happened, and will continue to happen as we learn the long and frustrating passage of adulthood.
We are no longer able to hang out every night, have bonfires constantly, play games at Justin's, or skinny dip at Justin's. We are not able to talk to each other everyday, be in large groups, or have only one best friend. We don't have the time to keep up with everyone around us. I think the hardest part is that we still all want to be in this place. The place of comfort and control. And that's why we started butting heads anyway. By trying to live the lifestyle of five years ago, we actually cause more problems because your focus lasts too long on someone else. While satisfying one friend, we've upset another, and you are torn in two. Someday we'll get it right. Not now. but someday. And we'll all hopefully all still be around when that day comes. I think we will. how could we not?
Another year older also brings on a new era for me. No longer in the "fun ages", we continually refer to this now as the "all down hill" era. I disagree. While I'm not looking forward to the pressures of paying back the loans and finding my real job, I am looking forward to move on in a sense. School has been apart of me for what, 15 years? Something like that. I'm scared to move forward to a life without it, but we live such short lives here on earth and I'm looking forward to see what God has planned for us. Some of us have already started living this life. Anna and John are married and having a baby. Adam is going to be doing missions for two years. Laura still wants to live in Africa, and so forth. We are pushing foward, knowing that God has us firmly in His arms and won't let go of us. We move foward cuz we can trust in Him and live the lives He has planned for us. I'm excited to see what's in store for me! Isn't all just so amazing?
Alright, I'm done reflecting now. I can't wait for the next year in my life and to see what happens! it's like a movie really. Unfortunately you can rewind, fast foward, or pause at the good parts. you can't put it in slow motion (although sometimes it does it naturally) or see the minds of all the players involved. You can only sit back and watch what's in front of you, hearing the inner dialogue of the main character (YOU!). Enjoy the movie, cuz it's not that long.
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On a small tangent, I just wanted to say that Adam's party turned out really well. He had NO idea that we were throwing him one and he was completely shocked when we were all there. I think there was a little over 15 of us there, and he was swept up with emotion for the love we showed him. Thanks to everyone for making it a wonderful day for Adam and letting him know how much we care about him. Continue to give your love to him before he leaves us for two years! Pray for him, talk to him, love him!
Love you guys
Amy
I also had never had so many explosions with friends before. That was a new one. I mean I think most girls know that there will be drama all the time. it's inevitable. For people who say they dont' deal with drama, they are all liars. What I think we have all had a hard time dealing with is this silly little thing called growing up. Nobody wants it, nobody likes it, and nobody can be taught how to deal with it. It is unique to the individual and can only be taught through trial and error. What I mean is that we have been friends forever. Travis died, and this family was formed. We have been through everything together and have even survived the transition period of going to schools that are not 10 minutes apart and we do not live on the same road anymore. I couldn't even could the number of times I was told that all my best friends would coem from college. Not completely true. While I've met wonderful people in these last few years, I know that I still have my family and that I just keep adding to it. I think Travis kept us together, and now while we fight and get mad and just plain ole' ignore, we'll always be there for each other. How could we not? But what I'm getting at is that we have learned the hard way on how to deal with this. Denouncing friendship usually isn't the best way to stay friends with someone. Being mad at the distance that is caused from growing up isn't going to help. Becoming a hermit sure doesn't keep the friends either. And getting married causes drifts with people as well. Politics, religion, different friends, different lifestyles, they all cause "chaos" in our personal lives, leading us to attack each other for this and that. And I don't mean to be picking on any certain person, this is just a generalization of what has happened, and will continue to happen as we learn the long and frustrating passage of adulthood.
We are no longer able to hang out every night, have bonfires constantly, play games at Justin's, or skinny dip at Justin's. We are not able to talk to each other everyday, be in large groups, or have only one best friend. We don't have the time to keep up with everyone around us. I think the hardest part is that we still all want to be in this place. The place of comfort and control. And that's why we started butting heads anyway. By trying to live the lifestyle of five years ago, we actually cause more problems because your focus lasts too long on someone else. While satisfying one friend, we've upset another, and you are torn in two. Someday we'll get it right. Not now. but someday. And we'll all hopefully all still be around when that day comes. I think we will. how could we not?
Another year older also brings on a new era for me. No longer in the "fun ages", we continually refer to this now as the "all down hill" era. I disagree. While I'm not looking forward to the pressures of paying back the loans and finding my real job, I am looking forward to move on in a sense. School has been apart of me for what, 15 years? Something like that. I'm scared to move forward to a life without it, but we live such short lives here on earth and I'm looking forward to see what God has planned for us. Some of us have already started living this life. Anna and John are married and having a baby. Adam is going to be doing missions for two years. Laura still wants to live in Africa, and so forth. We are pushing foward, knowing that God has us firmly in His arms and won't let go of us. We move foward cuz we can trust in Him and live the lives He has planned for us. I'm excited to see what's in store for me! Isn't all just so amazing?
Alright, I'm done reflecting now. I can't wait for the next year in my life and to see what happens! it's like a movie really. Unfortunately you can rewind, fast foward, or pause at the good parts. you can't put it in slow motion (although sometimes it does it naturally) or see the minds of all the players involved. You can only sit back and watch what's in front of you, hearing the inner dialogue of the main character (YOU!). Enjoy the movie, cuz it's not that long.
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On a small tangent, I just wanted to say that Adam's party turned out really well. He had NO idea that we were throwing him one and he was completely shocked when we were all there. I think there was a little over 15 of us there, and he was swept up with emotion for the love we showed him. Thanks to everyone for making it a wonderful day for Adam and letting him know how much we care about him. Continue to give your love to him before he leaves us for two years! Pray for him, talk to him, love him!
Love you guys
Amy
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Just for kicks
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Phew... i needed that immensely.
Life is a bitch 95% of the time. Between the stress of friends, school, money, loans, jobs, the economy, homework, and everything else, I'm surprised more people don't off themselves. lol. Okay, so I am kidding, but it gets so hectic and crazy that I feel like I should be on meds just to take it all in! Like yesterday I got denied, for the 7th time, for a loan for J-term. So now I have$995 on my Bethel account that I for sure can't pay cuz I can't get the loan. And who knows how that will affect my spring semester. And then of course friends are very good at tearing you down inside. It's a powerful hold they have on you, and they can either make you feel like you could never have a better friend to you are not even worth my attention. Yikes. To black and white for me. I just don't wanna cry. Boo.
The nice thing on the loan thing is that the financial advisor is struggling with me to find an answer. If I have to pay the money any way, there has got to be a way we can play with the numbers or something. There just has to. i'm going to make this work cuz I'm determined. It seems that God likes to make me work really hard for what I want in life. The battles get tiring, but I guess He knows I can do it. How unfortunate. I wish He thought I had a low limit. I would just breeze through life. lol. But where's the fun in that right?
Okay, I'm hungry and class starts soon AND i haven't done my reading as usual.
Amy
Phew... i needed that immensely.
Life is a bitch 95% of the time. Between the stress of friends, school, money, loans, jobs, the economy, homework, and everything else, I'm surprised more people don't off themselves. lol. Okay, so I am kidding, but it gets so hectic and crazy that I feel like I should be on meds just to take it all in! Like yesterday I got denied, for the 7th time, for a loan for J-term. So now I have$995 on my Bethel account that I for sure can't pay cuz I can't get the loan. And who knows how that will affect my spring semester. And then of course friends are very good at tearing you down inside. It's a powerful hold they have on you, and they can either make you feel like you could never have a better friend to you are not even worth my attention. Yikes. To black and white for me. I just don't wanna cry. Boo.
The nice thing on the loan thing is that the financial advisor is struggling with me to find an answer. If I have to pay the money any way, there has got to be a way we can play with the numbers or something. There just has to. i'm going to make this work cuz I'm determined. It seems that God likes to make me work really hard for what I want in life. The battles get tiring, but I guess He knows I can do it. How unfortunate. I wish He thought I had a low limit. I would just breeze through life. lol. But where's the fun in that right?
Okay, I'm hungry and class starts soon AND i haven't done my reading as usual.
Amy
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
pitterpat
Of course my title refers to many things. One it is the song I'm listening to by Erin McCarley. It's a song that they played on Grey's Anatomy naturally. I can't help it, they have music that is so amazing and that I would never discover otherwise. And it always sets the mood of the scene. Music is powerful like that.
The other reason I chose my title is because I was at my sister Sarah's house this weekend! I got to see Sarah, Buck, Jackson, Olivia, Dusty, Sophie, and Holly! It was one big happy family. Of course I was pretty much just up for Saturday, but honestly I don't think the siblings have all hung out together... ever. I mean yah when we were little, but that never means much. So it was nice. We played with Jack and took pictures with Sophie, and slept in real late and Sarah made this amazing biscuits and gravy... ahh! Sooooo good. I'd be so fat if I ate those all the time, but it was worth it. Mmmm.. Kudos sarah, kudos.
Life, as usual, has thrown me for loops and really expects me to keep up with it. Sometimes I don't feel prepared to do so. Like i'm really excited to go to Hawaii, and I was so on top of everything. But then financial aid failed to tell me that I needed to reapply for the extra loan to go on the trip. Because they waited so long, the lender I used tightened their choices on who gets a loan and who doesn't, so now I don't qualify. The other hard part is because the school told me so late, I still have to pay for a lot of the trip. So basically if I don't get the money, I can't take off the work to go on the trip because I'm going to have to be paying back a partial trip anyway. It's so stupid and not even my fault and I just want to scream and cry, but I know that gets me nowhere. I wish I had a cosigner. I wish I was credit-worthy. I thought I was. I thought I had finally gotten to this place where I didn't have to worry anymore. I could breath. I could just be me and not rely on others since that has never really been an option anyway. So if anyone wants to cosign, I'm here! lol
I love my apartment. I think I say that in every blog I write. But I do. It's big and pretty and getting full of things. It makes me happy. It make me happy to be able to sit at our six person table and type while looking into my spacious living room. It makes me happy to know that everyone loves to come here and that our calendar is jam packed with things to do and people to see. It makes me happy that my bedroom is so cozy and sometimes I just never wanna get out of bed, even though school and work continuously pull me out. And of course I love the roomie. I do find myself struggling sometimes because I feel like we never really see each other. And that is because we don't. So it makes me sad and a little worried that we wont' be good friends anymore because we never see each other. But I think I'm just paranoid and the feeling will leave. But she's not here this morning, so I just miss her.
I saw the movie the Duchess the other day with Jen, and it really made me sad! I mean it was a good movie but there wasn't a happy ending. And I know that is how life is. But I think that I just want a happy ending in my movies since there is no such thing in real life. Aren't movies created to escape the realities of life? Oh well, it was based on a true story about a woman who married into power in the 1770's and he only wanted a son and didn't love her. Every other man loved her because she was smart and pretty and fashionable. Oh yah, and he cheated on her all the time. So when she finally found someone she loved, she tried to be with him. I won't say more in case you want to see the movie. but it's sad. And then I thought, hm... I'm alone too. I wish it didn't bother me that I'm not with someone. But it does. It always will. I'm not good on my own. I like having someone there for you, and in more of a way than a best friend would be. It's so different. I've had it before, this perfect love and relationship where they are your counterpart. But as people keep telling me "Your young still, don't worry, you'll find someone!" Then why is everyone already finding their person??
Both of my jobs are going well. I don't mind them. I mean Buffalo Wild Wings is busy and you really have to be on your game all the time or the servers are mad, or the cooks are mad, or something! And then at Wells Fargo it's the same-old stuff. I'm either showing up late or not doing enough sales. I worry that they'll fire me soon, but I don't know. I guess we'll see what happens. I don't want to lose the job because my benefits come from them and I can't afford to not have insurance! AH!
Alright, I'm on a tight schedule and I've totally screwed it up by writing here. But it was needed. Love you guys. Hope you are all doing well and I'm sorry I'm never around. It's hard. We are growing up and life has to change. If I had the time to see you all without failing school, I would. But there are burdens upon my shoulders, upon all of our shoulders, and so it is impossible. That's why summers are so wonderful. =) Hang in there guys. We can do it.
Sister in Christ,
amy
P.S.- I've been writing in the book! YAY! Someday soon.... ::fingers crossed::
The other reason I chose my title is because I was at my sister Sarah's house this weekend! I got to see Sarah, Buck, Jackson, Olivia, Dusty, Sophie, and Holly! It was one big happy family. Of course I was pretty much just up for Saturday, but honestly I don't think the siblings have all hung out together... ever. I mean yah when we were little, but that never means much. So it was nice. We played with Jack and took pictures with Sophie, and slept in real late and Sarah made this amazing biscuits and gravy... ahh! Sooooo good. I'd be so fat if I ate those all the time, but it was worth it. Mmmm.. Kudos sarah, kudos.
Life, as usual, has thrown me for loops and really expects me to keep up with it. Sometimes I don't feel prepared to do so. Like i'm really excited to go to Hawaii, and I was so on top of everything. But then financial aid failed to tell me that I needed to reapply for the extra loan to go on the trip. Because they waited so long, the lender I used tightened their choices on who gets a loan and who doesn't, so now I don't qualify. The other hard part is because the school told me so late, I still have to pay for a lot of the trip. So basically if I don't get the money, I can't take off the work to go on the trip because I'm going to have to be paying back a partial trip anyway. It's so stupid and not even my fault and I just want to scream and cry, but I know that gets me nowhere. I wish I had a cosigner. I wish I was credit-worthy. I thought I was. I thought I had finally gotten to this place where I didn't have to worry anymore. I could breath. I could just be me and not rely on others since that has never really been an option anyway. So if anyone wants to cosign, I'm here! lol
I love my apartment. I think I say that in every blog I write. But I do. It's big and pretty and getting full of things. It makes me happy. It make me happy to be able to sit at our six person table and type while looking into my spacious living room. It makes me happy to know that everyone loves to come here and that our calendar is jam packed with things to do and people to see. It makes me happy that my bedroom is so cozy and sometimes I just never wanna get out of bed, even though school and work continuously pull me out. And of course I love the roomie. I do find myself struggling sometimes because I feel like we never really see each other. And that is because we don't. So it makes me sad and a little worried that we wont' be good friends anymore because we never see each other. But I think I'm just paranoid and the feeling will leave. But she's not here this morning, so I just miss her.
I saw the movie the Duchess the other day with Jen, and it really made me sad! I mean it was a good movie but there wasn't a happy ending. And I know that is how life is. But I think that I just want a happy ending in my movies since there is no such thing in real life. Aren't movies created to escape the realities of life? Oh well, it was based on a true story about a woman who married into power in the 1770's and he only wanted a son and didn't love her. Every other man loved her because she was smart and pretty and fashionable. Oh yah, and he cheated on her all the time. So when she finally found someone she loved, she tried to be with him. I won't say more in case you want to see the movie. but it's sad. And then I thought, hm... I'm alone too. I wish it didn't bother me that I'm not with someone. But it does. It always will. I'm not good on my own. I like having someone there for you, and in more of a way than a best friend would be. It's so different. I've had it before, this perfect love and relationship where they are your counterpart. But as people keep telling me "Your young still, don't worry, you'll find someone!" Then why is everyone already finding their person??
Both of my jobs are going well. I don't mind them. I mean Buffalo Wild Wings is busy and you really have to be on your game all the time or the servers are mad, or the cooks are mad, or something! And then at Wells Fargo it's the same-old stuff. I'm either showing up late or not doing enough sales. I worry that they'll fire me soon, but I don't know. I guess we'll see what happens. I don't want to lose the job because my benefits come from them and I can't afford to not have insurance! AH!
Alright, I'm on a tight schedule and I've totally screwed it up by writing here. But it was needed. Love you guys. Hope you are all doing well and I'm sorry I'm never around. It's hard. We are growing up and life has to change. If I had the time to see you all without failing school, I would. But there are burdens upon my shoulders, upon all of our shoulders, and so it is impossible. That's why summers are so wonderful. =) Hang in there guys. We can do it.
Sister in Christ,
amy
P.S.- I've been writing in the book! YAY! Someday soon.... ::fingers crossed::
Monday, September 29, 2008
Where I Stood
Ah! I apologize for the lack of writing! The second I think I should write, I get this guilty feeling in the pit of my stomach because I know that I should be doing homework or something that is just as productive. But then I get sad because there are so many things to say, and so many things to comment on in life, and I don't get to say any of them! so I have the next ten minutes to do as I wish!! I'll make it short and sweet.
I've lived with Jen for over a month and we are still friends! YAY! Our goal is to prove everyone wrong when they said it's the worst idea ever to live with a friend. So take that America!! Also, we are looking more and more lived in by the week. We finally have bookshelves! Big bookshelves that took forever to put together, but we have them! AND we have cable....ooooo......ahhh.. Ya, we're fancy. We're still stealing internet though. I can't help that people don't put passwords on their accounts. I'm a poor college saving money. I win!
It's been crazy busy because I had Holly's Wedding, school, Kelly and Tim's wedding, lots of work, and fun adventures. Holly's Wedding was absolutely amazing, and my speech went really well!! Which is always good. I was nervous about it because I didn't know if I put enough time into it, or if my family would feel weird since I mentioned God alot. not that I would have taken it out, but yah know, it just makes things weird. And let's see, there were small issues, but nothing we couldn't handle. Holly forgot her shoes but Jen L. saved the day on that one! And there was no plug for the computer, but Andrew Beckman saved the day on that! What lifesavers! I adore BOTH of them!!! And pictures were really really fun, and again, Holly looked amazing... and ya!
Kelly and Tim's wedding was unique, to put it in the best words.... When Tim put on kelly's ring he said "One ring..." and when she put on his she said "to rule them all" (Lord of the Rings reference in case you didn't know) It was hysterical and just totally them. So go them! And then they walked back down the aisle to "Tim's favorite song" which happened to be the Star Wars theme! Hahaha. And then Zach and Julie Johnson pulled out light sabers and battled each other all the way down. Oh man. And to top things off, their first dance was to DDR. (Dance Dance Revolution) whatever makes them happy!!!
School has been busy, and I finally dropped a class so I wouldn't be so stressed out. It was getting bad. I cried a lot and it just really wasn't worth it. I talked to my advisor and she agreed with me. I was doing too much. My eyes were bigger than my appetite, and so forth. Although I now have another "W" on my transcript, I don't care. It's the difference between a stupid letter or my sanity. Sanity wins.... everytime.
Work is fun! I really enjoy Buffalo Wild Wings, even though it gets pretty crazy and busy. I like the people and I looooove that I don't have to do sales. I hate sales. Sales and I are enemies. BOOO. god bless those who can sell a checkcard to a deaf/blind person, but me.... i'll stick to cooing with the little kids and calling it a day. Haha
Shoot, I have 1 minute. Let's see, I get to go to the Chanhassen Dinner Theater for my birthday and I'm super pumped about it! I get to see the Producers, which should be really good. Then this weekend I have a Phil Wickham and Shawn McDonald concert!! And then I think I'm going up to St John's to visit wonderful Mr. Barnes! I just figured I haven't been up there in a while. AND THEN IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!! AHHHHHH!!!! I love it. I don't know what I should do yet. I'll think about it... heck I have three weeks!
Ok, i'm out! I'll be late to class otherwise! I'll write more this month I promise! And it'll be more than just giving the agenda of my life. Lol.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NATE!!!
<3>
I've lived with Jen for over a month and we are still friends! YAY! Our goal is to prove everyone wrong when they said it's the worst idea ever to live with a friend. So take that America!! Also, we are looking more and more lived in by the week. We finally have bookshelves! Big bookshelves that took forever to put together, but we have them! AND we have cable....ooooo......ahhh.. Ya, we're fancy. We're still stealing internet though. I can't help that people don't put passwords on their accounts. I'm a poor college saving money. I win!
It's been crazy busy because I had Holly's Wedding, school, Kelly and Tim's wedding, lots of work, and fun adventures. Holly's Wedding was absolutely amazing, and my speech went really well!! Which is always good. I was nervous about it because I didn't know if I put enough time into it, or if my family would feel weird since I mentioned God alot. not that I would have taken it out, but yah know, it just makes things weird. And let's see, there were small issues, but nothing we couldn't handle. Holly forgot her shoes but Jen L. saved the day on that one! And there was no plug for the computer, but Andrew Beckman saved the day on that! What lifesavers! I adore BOTH of them!!! And pictures were really really fun, and again, Holly looked amazing... and ya!
Kelly and Tim's wedding was unique, to put it in the best words.... When Tim put on kelly's ring he said "One ring..." and when she put on his she said "to rule them all" (Lord of the Rings reference in case you didn't know) It was hysterical and just totally them. So go them! And then they walked back down the aisle to "Tim's favorite song" which happened to be the Star Wars theme! Hahaha. And then Zach and Julie Johnson pulled out light sabers and battled each other all the way down. Oh man. And to top things off, their first dance was to DDR. (Dance Dance Revolution) whatever makes them happy!!!
School has been busy, and I finally dropped a class so I wouldn't be so stressed out. It was getting bad. I cried a lot and it just really wasn't worth it. I talked to my advisor and she agreed with me. I was doing too much. My eyes were bigger than my appetite, and so forth. Although I now have another "W" on my transcript, I don't care. It's the difference between a stupid letter or my sanity. Sanity wins.... everytime.
Work is fun! I really enjoy Buffalo Wild Wings, even though it gets pretty crazy and busy. I like the people and I looooove that I don't have to do sales. I hate sales. Sales and I are enemies. BOOO. god bless those who can sell a checkcard to a deaf/blind person, but me.... i'll stick to cooing with the little kids and calling it a day. Haha
Shoot, I have 1 minute. Let's see, I get to go to the Chanhassen Dinner Theater for my birthday and I'm super pumped about it! I get to see the Producers, which should be really good. Then this weekend I have a Phil Wickham and Shawn McDonald concert!! And then I think I'm going up to St John's to visit wonderful Mr. Barnes! I just figured I haven't been up there in a while. AND THEN IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!! AHHHHHH!!!! I love it. I don't know what I should do yet. I'll think about it... heck I have three weeks!
Ok, i'm out! I'll be late to class otherwise! I'll write more this month I promise! And it'll be more than just giving the agenda of my life. Lol.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NATE!!!
<3>
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
The Story
i'm tired
I'm already overworked
I'm already behind in my homework
I'm already done. ::sigh::
Don't get me wrong, i'm really happy right now. I've gotten to start school up yet again which is ALWAYS a good thing, even if I am taking 18 credits! There are so many people I get to see once school is in session, so I'm quite happy! And unfortunately all my classes are super wonderful so I couldn't possibly think of dropping one to make my semester easier. Oh well, it's only three months right??
I'm also happy because I love my apartment and my roomie. Things are going so well right now it's unbelievable! Not that I thought things would go wrong, but it's sooo perfect! It's weird. I love her and I think we can handle each other pretty well. Of course it's only been two weeks, so who knows what could happen! Especially if I don't let her have a puppy. (Happy birthday?) We also had a moving in party and it was good! Anna and John Patnode even showed up!! That was like the highlight for sure. But we had about 20 people so it was a really big success! And also, everyone loves the apartment! Even John was like, dude, i'd just live in the kitchen. It made me laugh! People bought us so many things (margarita glasses, a book to make smoothies, a french press, home-grown pickles, melons, etc.) So I wanna thank everyone for that! you really made us feel happy in our little home! Lol.
I also think Hawaii is a for sure thing. I keep swinging back and forth because it's like the money's there, then it's not; then it's there again, but wait, then it's not! It's crazy! You'd think that because I'm working two jobs that I'd have enough money. Oh man, it's never the case! lol. I just have to know for sure by October first cuz that's the deadline. Cross your fingers guys!!
So yes... working two jobs. I think that's the cause of most of my stress. Wells Fargo is Th/Sat. and Buffalo Wild Wings (which I just started) is whenever they want me. I should be working about 30+ hrs a week. YIKES! Tonight is a prime example. It was $0.40 wing night and although I was second cut, I didn't get out until 11:30!! And I have soooo much homework. But what is one to do? Nothing. Deal with it because I need the money. Oh the life of a college student.
And of course, the BIGGEST news of the week.... HOLLY GETS MARRIED IN FIVE DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHH! I just don't even know what to do with myself! i'm so excited for her and she must be excited too. I'm happy because I finally finished my speech for her wedding. It's intense to put together cuz you want it perfect, but I got some good feedback, so I'm pretty happy. And Justin's coming with me!! Bad idea to bring an ex-boyfriend to a wedding? Probably. But the thing is he is one of my closest friends AND he knows the family anyway. He was the only sensible option. Of course a boyfriend would have been nice, but God hasn't decided to give me another one quite yet. We'll see what he has in store for me!!
Ok, I'm slacking off and so I better go do my homework so I can go to bed somewhat soon. I'll try to write more, maybe after Holly's wedding. Everyone pray that it goes well!!
<3>
P.S.- I love Ali (there's no meaning behind that, I was just thinking about her.)
I'm already overworked
I'm already behind in my homework
I'm already done. ::sigh::
Don't get me wrong, i'm really happy right now. I've gotten to start school up yet again which is ALWAYS a good thing, even if I am taking 18 credits! There are so many people I get to see once school is in session, so I'm quite happy! And unfortunately all my classes are super wonderful so I couldn't possibly think of dropping one to make my semester easier. Oh well, it's only three months right??
I'm also happy because I love my apartment and my roomie. Things are going so well right now it's unbelievable! Not that I thought things would go wrong, but it's sooo perfect! It's weird. I love her and I think we can handle each other pretty well. Of course it's only been two weeks, so who knows what could happen! Especially if I don't let her have a puppy. (Happy birthday?) We also had a moving in party and it was good! Anna and John Patnode even showed up!! That was like the highlight for sure. But we had about 20 people so it was a really big success! And also, everyone loves the apartment! Even John was like, dude, i'd just live in the kitchen. It made me laugh! People bought us so many things (margarita glasses, a book to make smoothies, a french press, home-grown pickles, melons, etc.) So I wanna thank everyone for that! you really made us feel happy in our little home! Lol.
I also think Hawaii is a for sure thing. I keep swinging back and forth because it's like the money's there, then it's not; then it's there again, but wait, then it's not! It's crazy! You'd think that because I'm working two jobs that I'd have enough money. Oh man, it's never the case! lol. I just have to know for sure by October first cuz that's the deadline. Cross your fingers guys!!
So yes... working two jobs. I think that's the cause of most of my stress. Wells Fargo is Th/Sat. and Buffalo Wild Wings (which I just started) is whenever they want me. I should be working about 30+ hrs a week. YIKES! Tonight is a prime example. It was $0.40 wing night and although I was second cut, I didn't get out until 11:30!! And I have soooo much homework. But what is one to do? Nothing. Deal with it because I need the money. Oh the life of a college student.
And of course, the BIGGEST news of the week.... HOLLY GETS MARRIED IN FIVE DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHH! I just don't even know what to do with myself! i'm so excited for her and she must be excited too. I'm happy because I finally finished my speech for her wedding. It's intense to put together cuz you want it perfect, but I got some good feedback, so I'm pretty happy. And Justin's coming with me!! Bad idea to bring an ex-boyfriend to a wedding? Probably. But the thing is he is one of my closest friends AND he knows the family anyway. He was the only sensible option. Of course a boyfriend would have been nice, but God hasn't decided to give me another one quite yet. We'll see what he has in store for me!!
Ok, I'm slacking off and so I better go do my homework so I can go to bed somewhat soon. I'll try to write more, maybe after Holly's wedding. Everyone pray that it goes well!!
<3>
P.S.- I love Ali (there's no meaning behind that, I was just thinking about her.)
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Shout out to my AuNtS!
So... a found out a funny little fact last night that made me want to instantly write on my blog for the first time this month. It went a little something like this.
Sandy (aunt): So I e-mailed you but I wasn't sure if it was yours.
Me: Oh?
Sandy: Yah, I dunno, I got it off of your blog thing
Me: [stunned] M-my what?
Sandy: Your blog! I got it off of Facebook (FACEBOOK??).
Me: [still stunned] oh...
And so forth. APPARENTLY my aunt Sandy found it and has passed it along to Sherry (sp? crap! I dunno! You'd think I would know!) and Stacie as well. Oh man. I've got a family fan base. So here's my shout out to you guys! Thanks for reading... I hope it's entertaining enough. And I promse I'll write a lot during the school year. Summer gets too busy.
Moving right along...
Summer has been summer. It's not a real summer until you've gone up and down and the drama roller coaster ride, or until you can stand outside and feel the faint breeze of fall wrapping around your body. It's not over until the sun starts to set earlier and earlier and you finally are packing for school. Then you know it's time to go back to school and leave everything behind. I'm ready though. I have my keys to my FIRST APARTMENT EVER (YAY!!!!!!) and we move in on Monday already. Monday! Can you believe that? It's nuts. I haven't even packed (which means that I'm wasting my time on this thing, but I can't resist now that I know I have more than 5 readers!) but hopefully that can be done today! It's such a cute little place, and it's right in St. Paul. I hope all of you can see it soon! It's so wonderful. Plus we'll make it look super sweet. What a crazy year this will be....
Since I last wrote I went to Sonshine festival and on a Road Trip!! Sonshine was awesome as usual. I got to go with Seward, Andrew, and their friend.... forgot his names. Oops. I feel bad. Anyway, we got to spend a lot of time together and I think it was just what the doctor ordered. I spent money I didn't have... but that's normal. lol. Oh! Then we had Holly's bridal shower#1/Bachelorette party thing. That was soo much fun and turned out soo well!! We ate sushi, and had her try on lingerie and then we all chipped in and bought her what she was going to wear on her wedding night, and then we just were really girly and vegged out all night. It was simple but perfect. She had a lot of fun so I accomplished my goal for the evening. Oh and she gets married in like 3 weeks!!!!!! Oh my gosh... i'm the only one in my family not married. Always a bridesmaid/guest, never a bride. Whatever, I'm 21 and living it up! Plus, after listening to Mark Driscoll's message on "dating", I've realized that I gotta spend wayyyyy more time with the G man before I even think about dating. But that can take as long as it wants... I'm in for the long haul. ;)
So. Road Trip. 2008. Las Vegas. Grand Canyon. Colorado. Nebraska. 8 days. 4 people. 1 car. MAGIC
Haha sorry. I was being stupid. It was funny in my head. I just picture a commercial with a guy with a really deep voice saying those words. But no, the road trip was absolutely amazing. It was something that I thought I would never do, and now here I am with it under my belt and already trying to plan the next one. It was Kara, Justin, Zach, and myself and I think we just meshed well. And even if we didn't it was probably because we were on like 2-3 hours of sleep. Haha. I was on like 8 every night so I had no problems. jk.
Anyway, so the route was Nebraska to see Laura and Kara's cousins, and then we headed over to Colorado to stay with Justin's cousins and go up Pike's Peak and into the Rocky Mountain National park in Estes Park. Then we shot out to the Grand Canyon, bopped over to The Hoover Dam, and ended and Justin's dad's friend's house in Las Vegas. It seemed like we weren't gonna have enough time for it all, but it went so smoothly that I was really happy. Some highlights were:
*watching the Olympics (w and m gymnastics, diving, swimmin, etc.) at Laura's
* swimming and pushing each other into the pool at Laura's. FYI: I pushed Zach into the pool all by myself. I'm amazing and should probably get an Olympica gold medal for that one. But don't worry, I'm not gloating or anything. Also you should check out the photo on Facebook that Kara wll prob. put up soon. You'll see the funniest photo alive!!! I won't give it away though
* Playing Yahtzee in a coffee shop
* Playing with five kids all under the age of 12 (and all of their animals too)
* sleeping when we could
* Climbing this ridiculous mountain on the first day in Colorado on very little sleep (the view and satisifaction was worth it though)
* Seeing the grand canyon for the first time!
* Being able to say I was at the Hoover Dam (even though it was 109 degrees)
* Driving into Arizona from New Mexico and have the prettiest colored mountains surrounding you
* Getting screwed by all the indian reservations gas prices, and driving into Nevada's nothingness to FINALLY find gas at a ridiculous price
* Being on "the strip" from 7:30 PM to 4:30 AM.
* Coming out ahead in Vegas
* Riding the roller coaster that surrounds the hotel New York New York
* Having Zach get frusturated at Mc D's (Sorry.... everything is unhealthy there buddy)
* Justin getting really into the 4 card poker game.... and losing it all (not a highlight, just really funny)
* Kara not knowing what a wood chipper was
* And this could go on forever.
Pike's peak wasn't a highlight cuz I didn't feel very well up there. The ride down was awesome though. We made it fun!
Basically the whole trip was just filled with wonderfulness that would take too long to write about. I just figured I could get something down. I'll prob. write it down somewhere else. Or write more if people request more. I could go on for a while, so just ask!
I should be done. This is getting long! I'll write more soon... prob. after I move in o MONDAY!!!!!!!!!! See ya later!
Love you
Amy <3>
Sandy (aunt): So I e-mailed you but I wasn't sure if it was yours.
Me: Oh?
Sandy: Yah, I dunno, I got it off of your blog thing
Me: [stunned] M-my what?
Sandy: Your blog! I got it off of Facebook (FACEBOOK??).
Me: [still stunned] oh...
And so forth. APPARENTLY my aunt Sandy found it and has passed it along to Sherry (sp? crap! I dunno! You'd think I would know!) and Stacie as well. Oh man. I've got a family fan base. So here's my shout out to you guys! Thanks for reading... I hope it's entertaining enough. And I promse I'll write a lot during the school year. Summer gets too busy.
Moving right along...
Summer has been summer. It's not a real summer until you've gone up and down and the drama roller coaster ride, or until you can stand outside and feel the faint breeze of fall wrapping around your body. It's not over until the sun starts to set earlier and earlier and you finally are packing for school. Then you know it's time to go back to school and leave everything behind. I'm ready though. I have my keys to my FIRST APARTMENT EVER (YAY!!!!!!) and we move in on Monday already. Monday! Can you believe that? It's nuts. I haven't even packed (which means that I'm wasting my time on this thing, but I can't resist now that I know I have more than 5 readers!) but hopefully that can be done today! It's such a cute little place, and it's right in St. Paul. I hope all of you can see it soon! It's so wonderful. Plus we'll make it look super sweet. What a crazy year this will be....
Since I last wrote I went to Sonshine festival and on a Road Trip!! Sonshine was awesome as usual. I got to go with Seward, Andrew, and their friend.... forgot his names. Oops. I feel bad. Anyway, we got to spend a lot of time together and I think it was just what the doctor ordered. I spent money I didn't have... but that's normal. lol. Oh! Then we had Holly's bridal shower#1/Bachelorette party thing. That was soo much fun and turned out soo well!! We ate sushi, and had her try on lingerie and then we all chipped in and bought her what she was going to wear on her wedding night, and then we just were really girly and vegged out all night. It was simple but perfect. She had a lot of fun so I accomplished my goal for the evening. Oh and she gets married in like 3 weeks!!!!!! Oh my gosh... i'm the only one in my family not married. Always a bridesmaid/guest, never a bride. Whatever, I'm 21 and living it up! Plus, after listening to Mark Driscoll's message on "dating", I've realized that I gotta spend wayyyyy more time with the G man before I even think about dating. But that can take as long as it wants... I'm in for the long haul. ;)
So. Road Trip. 2008. Las Vegas. Grand Canyon. Colorado. Nebraska. 8 days. 4 people. 1 car. MAGIC
Haha sorry. I was being stupid. It was funny in my head. I just picture a commercial with a guy with a really deep voice saying those words. But no, the road trip was absolutely amazing. It was something that I thought I would never do, and now here I am with it under my belt and already trying to plan the next one. It was Kara, Justin, Zach, and myself and I think we just meshed well. And even if we didn't it was probably because we were on like 2-3 hours of sleep. Haha. I was on like 8 every night so I had no problems. jk.
Anyway, so the route was Nebraska to see Laura and Kara's cousins, and then we headed over to Colorado to stay with Justin's cousins and go up Pike's Peak and into the Rocky Mountain National park in Estes Park. Then we shot out to the Grand Canyon, bopped over to The Hoover Dam, and ended and Justin's dad's friend's house in Las Vegas. It seemed like we weren't gonna have enough time for it all, but it went so smoothly that I was really happy. Some highlights were:
*watching the Olympics (w and m gymnastics, diving, swimmin, etc.) at Laura's
* swimming and pushing each other into the pool at Laura's. FYI: I pushed Zach into the pool all by myself. I'm amazing and should probably get an Olympica gold medal for that one. But don't worry, I'm not gloating or anything. Also you should check out the photo on Facebook that Kara wll prob. put up soon. You'll see the funniest photo alive!!! I won't give it away though
* Playing Yahtzee in a coffee shop
* Playing with five kids all under the age of 12 (and all of their animals too)
* sleeping when we could
* Climbing this ridiculous mountain on the first day in Colorado on very little sleep (the view and satisifaction was worth it though)
* Seeing the grand canyon for the first time!
* Being able to say I was at the Hoover Dam (even though it was 109 degrees)
* Driving into Arizona from New Mexico and have the prettiest colored mountains surrounding you
* Getting screwed by all the indian reservations gas prices, and driving into Nevada's nothingness to FINALLY find gas at a ridiculous price
* Being on "the strip" from 7:30 PM to 4:30 AM.
* Coming out ahead in Vegas
* Riding the roller coaster that surrounds the hotel New York New York
* Having Zach get frusturated at Mc D's (Sorry.... everything is unhealthy there buddy)
* Justin getting really into the 4 card poker game.... and losing it all (not a highlight, just really funny)
* Kara not knowing what a wood chipper was
* And this could go on forever.
Pike's peak wasn't a highlight cuz I didn't feel very well up there. The ride down was awesome though. We made it fun!
Basically the whole trip was just filled with wonderfulness that would take too long to write about. I just figured I could get something down. I'll prob. write it down somewhere else. Or write more if people request more. I could go on for a while, so just ask!
I should be done. This is getting long! I'll write more soon... prob. after I move in o MONDAY!!!!!!!!!! See ya later!
Love you
Amy <3>
Sunday, July 13, 2008
So Long Self
OH so many things to write! And not enough time to write! Ah ha! So I'll just write what's been put on my heart for this evening.
One is the song "so long self" from Mercy Me. What a profound song. Example:
So to me this sounds like powerful stuff. It's meant to be a song about you saying this to... well.... you. And I agree with this. I want to be able to say "so long!" to this earthly person that likes to be apart of me all the time. Lol. I mean heck I'm not perfect, and I know we all make mistakes, but I'm wanting to be more Christ-like. I'm wanting to be in the light more than I am in the dark. I wanna be able to come to those wonderful gates at the end and not have God turn me away because he never knew me, or should I say, I never knew him. And so I attempt to say so long to myself and we'll see how that goes.
I also think this song works for others too. As you all know, there are MANY MANY MANY issues going on right now. If you didn't know this, you'd be pretty much blind. It's kinda hard to miss. Even Justin kinda knows what's going on and we all know he is somewhat clueless on things. lol. But we do love him! Anyway! I'm tired of this angry, hostile, bitter, jealous, raging group that we've been apart of. We're all guilty of it. We have all dug our heals in, not willing to budge. But enough is enough already! I mean my goodness! we are all acting like children. How embarrassing is that? To be 21-22 and acting like 2-3 year olds??? I don't' wanna be compared to that. neither should you guys. I'm sorry things are constantly changing (they have been since Travis died) but again, it's constant. With friends, guys, i've been close to all of you at one point or another. And then I move on to someone else that I want to get to know. It's what I've always done.
And another thing. I've been stressed. Everybody knows this. There are a lot of BIG things going on in my life, whether you people want to think or not. Surgery, BIG DEAL, finding my first place on my own, BIG DEAL, friends fighting, BIG DEAL, figuring out how to be financially stable, BIG DEAL. And so forth. And if you don't think so, well then your not understanding where i'm coming from. Plus, heck I've always been a worrier! lol. I don't need people to feel bad for me, but you just have to understand why I'm on edge.
I know people have been frustrated at me, and from your side of things I can see why. Believe me I can. And believe me when I say that I'm trying to work things out. Things have been hard and everything has been happening at once. Friendship takes a little push and a little pull. Ya know? But yelling at me or saying very angry and hurtful things does not make me want to come running back to you and make it all better. It makes me wanna say that we need to grow up and act our age before i'm willing to deal with this. Or maybe it's space we need right now. Maybe everyone needs to take a step back and breath. That could be fun.
I recieved a card recently (today actually) that really spoke out about what friendship is. I have to share it because this is how it should be.
Friendship sits at a little table with cups of coffee. It listens, smiles, and always knows exactly what you mean (YES... 2 bodies 1 mind kind of thing going on here. And i'm pretty sure THAT doesn't go away) It can unexpectedly burst into loud laughter, the kinds that makes others look- but sometimes, it's kind of quiet, too. (Laughter is always awesomely amazing!) Sometimes (now here is the kicker) friendship is every single day for a week, AND THEN OTHER TIMES it eels like forever since you've connected... no matter how much time goes by, you and your friendship mean the world to me.
See what I'm saying? Great card. It truly is. Real friendship, like the one we all have together, is like that. We go through the hardest of times, we dislike each other at times, we lose our patient, laugh super hard, share the best night together, and just sit with each other. But we always love each other in the end of it. I feel that as Christians we have this unique gift, Jesus, that brings us to this who new level of friendship that others cannot have. We can connect on something that isn't just simple things. It's a bigger plan with a bigger purpose and it's the most important thing between us all. So I think we need to go to sleep tonight without anger and without hurt feelings. We need to not let the sun go down and still be angry (as Travis once to Jenny long ago). He had a good point. Well... it's a point straight out of the Bible but it's still good and I can partially credit him. Pray about it guys. we'll get through this. we always do. We can't go what we've all been through and just end everything like that.
I love you all.
Amy
One is the song "so long self" from Mercy Me. What a profound song. Example:
Well if I come across a little bit distant
It’s just because I am
Things just seem to feel a little bit different
You understand
Believe it or not but life is not apparently
About me anyways
But I have met the One who really is worthy
So let me say
So long self
Well it’s been fun, but I have found somebody else
So long self
There’s just no room for two
So you are gonna have to move
So long self
Don’t take this wrong but you are wrong for me farewell
Oh well, goodbye, don’t cry
So long self
Stop right there because I know what your thinking
But no we can’t be friends
And even though I know your heart is breaking
This has to end
And come to think of it the blame for all of this
Simply falls on me
For wanting something more in life than all of this
Can’t you seeIt’s just because I am
Things just seem to feel a little bit different
You understand
Believe it or not but life is not apparently
About me anyways
But I have met the One who really is worthy
So let me say
So long self
Well it’s been fun, but I have found somebody else
So long self
There’s just no room for two
So you are gonna have to move
So long self
Don’t take this wrong but you are wrong for me farewell
Oh well, goodbye, don’t cry
So long self
Stop right there because I know what your thinking
But no we can’t be friends
And even though I know your heart is breaking
This has to end
And come to think of it the blame for all of this
Simply falls on me
For wanting something more in life than all of this
So to me this sounds like powerful stuff. It's meant to be a song about you saying this to... well.... you. And I agree with this. I want to be able to say "so long!" to this earthly person that likes to be apart of me all the time. Lol. I mean heck I'm not perfect, and I know we all make mistakes, but I'm wanting to be more Christ-like. I'm wanting to be in the light more than I am in the dark. I wanna be able to come to those wonderful gates at the end and not have God turn me away because he never knew me, or should I say, I never knew him. And so I attempt to say so long to myself and we'll see how that goes.
I also think this song works for others too. As you all know, there are MANY MANY MANY issues going on right now. If you didn't know this, you'd be pretty much blind. It's kinda hard to miss. Even Justin kinda knows what's going on and we all know he is somewhat clueless on things. lol. But we do love him! Anyway! I'm tired of this angry, hostile, bitter, jealous, raging group that we've been apart of. We're all guilty of it. We have all dug our heals in, not willing to budge. But enough is enough already! I mean my goodness! we are all acting like children. How embarrassing is that? To be 21-22 and acting like 2-3 year olds??? I don't' wanna be compared to that. neither should you guys. I'm sorry things are constantly changing (they have been since Travis died) but again, it's constant. With friends, guys, i've been close to all of you at one point or another. And then I move on to someone else that I want to get to know. It's what I've always done.
And another thing. I've been stressed. Everybody knows this. There are a lot of BIG things going on in my life, whether you people want to think or not. Surgery, BIG DEAL, finding my first place on my own, BIG DEAL, friends fighting, BIG DEAL, figuring out how to be financially stable, BIG DEAL. And so forth. And if you don't think so, well then your not understanding where i'm coming from. Plus, heck I've always been a worrier! lol. I don't need people to feel bad for me, but you just have to understand why I'm on edge.
I know people have been frustrated at me, and from your side of things I can see why. Believe me I can. And believe me when I say that I'm trying to work things out. Things have been hard and everything has been happening at once. Friendship takes a little push and a little pull. Ya know? But yelling at me or saying very angry and hurtful things does not make me want to come running back to you and make it all better. It makes me wanna say that we need to grow up and act our age before i'm willing to deal with this. Or maybe it's space we need right now. Maybe everyone needs to take a step back and breath. That could be fun.
I recieved a card recently (today actually) that really spoke out about what friendship is. I have to share it because this is how it should be.
Friendship sits at a little table with cups of coffee. It listens, smiles, and always knows exactly what you mean (YES... 2 bodies 1 mind kind of thing going on here. And i'm pretty sure THAT doesn't go away) It can unexpectedly burst into loud laughter, the kinds that makes others look- but sometimes, it's kind of quiet, too. (Laughter is always awesomely amazing!) Sometimes (now here is the kicker) friendship is every single day for a week, AND THEN OTHER TIMES it eels like forever since you've connected... no matter how much time goes by, you and your friendship mean the world to me.
See what I'm saying? Great card. It truly is. Real friendship, like the one we all have together, is like that. We go through the hardest of times, we dislike each other at times, we lose our patient, laugh super hard, share the best night together, and just sit with each other. But we always love each other in the end of it. I feel that as Christians we have this unique gift, Jesus, that brings us to this who new level of friendship that others cannot have. We can connect on something that isn't just simple things. It's a bigger plan with a bigger purpose and it's the most important thing between us all. So I think we need to go to sleep tonight without anger and without hurt feelings. We need to not let the sun go down and still be angry (as Travis once to Jenny long ago). He had a good point. Well... it's a point straight out of the Bible but it's still good and I can partially credit him. Pray about it guys. we'll get through this. we always do. We can't go what we've all been through and just end everything like that.
I love you all.
Amy
Thursday, July 03, 2008
Not Ideal
So I know I have to actually write something, besides this thing I'm gonna write now. I promise I'll write. I'll actually get around to it... someday.
But for now:
Saying goodbye is hard. It's never been a simple thing and I pretty much hold on to my friends and everything else around me until they die (love you travis!) or something else... But I'm feeling trapped in this spot where I'm fighting for something that's dead. Is it true friendship to stick around and make it work through "thick and thin" or is it just time to leave? I feel underappreciated and unwanted and it hurts. It stings. It just sucks. I don't ask for much. I enjoy being there for others and doing everything I can do please my wonderful friends! But I feel like it's never been returned. It might even be too late to make it work. I'm old news. I'm a has been. I've been there no matter what but I don't know if that means anything anymore. Now I'm not really going to answer the questions that will come from this blog because this is more just a beneficial thing for me. It doesn't matter who the person is because they already know who they are, and could prob. be okay with my conclusion. If they really cared, they'd be talking to me about it, but they don't. So I dunno. There's no actual removing going on here, so no worries.... but... it's time to say goodbye.
Wishing for the years past,
Amy
But for now:
Saying goodbye is hard. It's never been a simple thing and I pretty much hold on to my friends and everything else around me until they die (love you travis!) or something else... But I'm feeling trapped in this spot where I'm fighting for something that's dead. Is it true friendship to stick around and make it work through "thick and thin" or is it just time to leave? I feel underappreciated and unwanted and it hurts. It stings. It just sucks. I don't ask for much. I enjoy being there for others and doing everything I can do please my wonderful friends! But I feel like it's never been returned. It might even be too late to make it work. I'm old news. I'm a has been. I've been there no matter what but I don't know if that means anything anymore. Now I'm not really going to answer the questions that will come from this blog because this is more just a beneficial thing for me. It doesn't matter who the person is because they already know who they are, and could prob. be okay with my conclusion. If they really cared, they'd be talking to me about it, but they don't. So I dunno. There's no actual removing going on here, so no worries.... but... it's time to say goodbye.
Wishing for the years past,
Amy
Thursday, June 05, 2008
Forgiven so that I can forgive
That's the theme of my blog tonight. There is nothing that happened tonight that made me want to write such a blog, but it's a song that hit me and I really felt like writing it.
The song is from Delirious and it's called "Majesty/Here I Am" and there is a line in the song that goes like this
The song is from Delirious and it's called "Majesty/Here I Am" and there is a line in the song that goes like this
Here I am, humbled by the love that You give,
Forgiven so that I can forgive.
So here I stand, knowing that I am Your desire,
Sanctified by glory and fire.
These words mean a lot to me, and I think we forget what that second line really means. In everyday language it means to let someone off the hook for something. And even in those terms we usually don't do that to the full extent. We still hold it against that certain person when we get mad or we think about it and get angered by the thought of it. What does forgiveness really mean? Complete and Honest forgiveness of the wrong-doings of someone else against you? The act of forgetting because why? And so I went to the Bible to find versus that moved me. Like this one in Chronicles: Forgiven so that I can forgive.
So here I stand, knowing that I am Your desire,
Sanctified by glory and fire.
14 if my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land.
2 Chronicles 7:14
21Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, "Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother when he sins against me? Up to seven times?" 22Jesus answered, "I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times.
Matthew 18:21-22
I'm sure that there are more, but it is 3:30AM and I am getting tired. But I mean look at these statements. Look at what we are asked to do! God FORGAVE and by that he took away all of our sin. We are FORGIVEN. Are we even capable of such forgiveness?
The dictionary term, or what wiki says is that "Forgiveness is the process of ceasing to feel resentment, indignation or anger against another person for a perceived offense, difference or mistake, or ceasing to demand punishment or restitution." Wow. Ceasing to demand punishment. Sometimes I don't think we can even understand what God is saying to us. If He can forgive this nasty world of all the sins that we can possibly come up with, how then can we sit back and hold a grudge on a lie that was told??
I'm not saying that if someone does something bad against us that we can't be mad, or that we can't take some time apart, but I've realized that not only does the other person feel great once forgiveness, TRUE forgiveness is given, but You feel good. It is something that weighs down on you if you are not careful. I mean in my life I've taken some pretty big steps in forgiving certain people. And while I forgive them, I still hold it against them. I still take that moment that hurt me and rub it in their face. So really I'm running around calling it something that it really isn't. But tonight after hearing that song, I think I'm ready to forgive, or at least truly forgive.
Does any of this make any sense? All that I'm saying is that those few lines really touched me tonight, and I felt that forgiving is one of the hardest and best things to do. So if there is at least one thing that you really can't just let go, I encourage you to lift it up to God and ask for His strength to really forgive. It'll be hard, but sooo worth it in the end!
Alright, night wonderful friends!
Amy
The dictionary term, or what wiki says is that "Forgiveness is the process of ceasing to feel resentment, indignation or anger against another person for a perceived offense, difference or mistake, or ceasing to demand punishment or restitution." Wow. Ceasing to demand punishment. Sometimes I don't think we can even understand what God is saying to us. If He can forgive this nasty world of all the sins that we can possibly come up with, how then can we sit back and hold a grudge on a lie that was told??
I'm not saying that if someone does something bad against us that we can't be mad, or that we can't take some time apart, but I've realized that not only does the other person feel great once forgiveness, TRUE forgiveness is given, but You feel good. It is something that weighs down on you if you are not careful. I mean in my life I've taken some pretty big steps in forgiving certain people. And while I forgive them, I still hold it against them. I still take that moment that hurt me and rub it in their face. So really I'm running around calling it something that it really isn't. But tonight after hearing that song, I think I'm ready to forgive, or at least truly forgive.
Does any of this make any sense? All that I'm saying is that those few lines really touched me tonight, and I felt that forgiving is one of the hardest and best things to do. So if there is at least one thing that you really can't just let go, I encourage you to lift it up to God and ask for His strength to really forgive. It'll be hard, but sooo worth it in the end!
Alright, night wonderful friends!
Amy
Wednesday, June 04, 2008
One Week Later
This week, oh this week. I've had such a wonderful week. This is the happiest I've been in a long time. EVEN HAPPIER then when I was kissing a certain boy... and those were happy times. lol.
Let's see, there was surgery one week ago today, which I'll go into detail on my other blog, and it was great. Who knew that I'd handle it sooo well?? Holly babied me all the way home and I pretty much slept for like the first two days. It was really great though. I mean I feel so rested that it's unbelievable! I haven't had time off from work AND school in years for this long! I can't even remember when this last occurred! It was something that was needed. Anyway, the pain has significantly decreased and I've even stopped all my pain meds! Go me!
I think the biggest thing is that my confidence has sky rocketed. It's bizarre. Like by having this surgery, I feel like I actually LOOK decent in clothes again. I really didn't think that was possible. I mean by no means am I "fat" but.... I have a WAIST and an hourglass figure, and heck, I'll take that over my box frame any day! ANY day. I just feel alive. It wasn't noticeable (fully anyway) until today I think. Today was a cold day. As always this is usually a perfect excuse for me to slip on a sweatshirt. But I decided no, why would I do such a silly thing? So instead I jumped right into a wonderfully yellow collared shirt. This may sound like a normal decision, but it's not; not for me. The stunning part is that I wasn't afraid of too much cleavage or looking gross in my shirt or being misshapen in my clothes. I felt that I actually looked good. I don't know when I've uttered that statement to myself. It's crazy. I could seriously ramble on and on about this forever, so i'll stop here for now. Just know that this may be one of the best decisions of my life. I would do it all over again if I had to. Pain is good when it ends with these resutls!
My week was also good because Adam and Nate and my Daddy bought me flowers, I had tons of visitors, and Seward just proved her best friendness once more. It was impossible for me to shower and I was on Day 5 and wonderful Seward pretty much bathed me. And combed my hair. And dressed me. And drove me around so I could actually leave me house and get fresh air and see people! It was so great of her. And it was nice to just giggle with her and have her around like that. I've been missing that I think. But we got lunch with Adam and Justin and I got to sit out in the sunshine and bask in it's wonderfulness. Then... we played cards. I'm always fond of cards.
So much else happened but it probably isn't too exciting for my readers. They've prob. already lost interest. I just keep writing though. I can't help it. I don't even know how to shorten what I say. My blog is just mashed with everything that I can possibly think of or whatever my fingers decide to type. I'd apologize but you guys knew what you were getting in to when you first signed on this silly thing way back in 2005. So I just smile.... and continue to write.
Long story short, I've got to see a lot of my friends while getting a full night's rest and having me time. Me time... I forgot what that was like. I'm free to do whatever whenever I want! I mean, I haven't set an alarm in over a week! How exciting is that?! It all ends.... uh... Sunday I think, but it's been so wonderful and I thank God for time.
And to end all of this on a happy note: I love love. I don't have a new love, but that's kinda not what I'm talking about. The love I'm talking about is in life. It's the love for my car and driving. It's the love for my wonderful friends who never cease to amaze me. It's for my Mom who really became a Mommy these last two weeks. It's the love for sunshine and for sleep. I'm just thrilled with the life that is in front of me! Yay!
Have a wonderful summer week people! Even the rain shouldn't make you frown. It's just making everything that much greener!
Amy <3
P.S.- Jen exists in my life again in less than 3 days. Wow.
Let's see, there was surgery one week ago today, which I'll go into detail on my other blog, and it was great. Who knew that I'd handle it sooo well?? Holly babied me all the way home and I pretty much slept for like the first two days. It was really great though. I mean I feel so rested that it's unbelievable! I haven't had time off from work AND school in years for this long! I can't even remember when this last occurred! It was something that was needed. Anyway, the pain has significantly decreased and I've even stopped all my pain meds! Go me!
I think the biggest thing is that my confidence has sky rocketed. It's bizarre. Like by having this surgery, I feel like I actually LOOK decent in clothes again. I really didn't think that was possible. I mean by no means am I "fat" but.... I have a WAIST and an hourglass figure, and heck, I'll take that over my box frame any day! ANY day. I just feel alive. It wasn't noticeable (fully anyway) until today I think. Today was a cold day. As always this is usually a perfect excuse for me to slip on a sweatshirt. But I decided no, why would I do such a silly thing? So instead I jumped right into a wonderfully yellow collared shirt. This may sound like a normal decision, but it's not; not for me. The stunning part is that I wasn't afraid of too much cleavage or looking gross in my shirt or being misshapen in my clothes. I felt that I actually looked good. I don't know when I've uttered that statement to myself. It's crazy. I could seriously ramble on and on about this forever, so i'll stop here for now. Just know that this may be one of the best decisions of my life. I would do it all over again if I had to. Pain is good when it ends with these resutls!
My week was also good because Adam and Nate and my Daddy bought me flowers, I had tons of visitors, and Seward just proved her best friendness once more. It was impossible for me to shower and I was on Day 5 and wonderful Seward pretty much bathed me. And combed my hair. And dressed me. And drove me around so I could actually leave me house and get fresh air and see people! It was so great of her. And it was nice to just giggle with her and have her around like that. I've been missing that I think. But we got lunch with Adam and Justin and I got to sit out in the sunshine and bask in it's wonderfulness. Then... we played cards. I'm always fond of cards.
So much else happened but it probably isn't too exciting for my readers. They've prob. already lost interest. I just keep writing though. I can't help it. I don't even know how to shorten what I say. My blog is just mashed with everything that I can possibly think of or whatever my fingers decide to type. I'd apologize but you guys knew what you were getting in to when you first signed on this silly thing way back in 2005. So I just smile.... and continue to write.
Long story short, I've got to see a lot of my friends while getting a full night's rest and having me time. Me time... I forgot what that was like. I'm free to do whatever whenever I want! I mean, I haven't set an alarm in over a week! How exciting is that?! It all ends.... uh... Sunday I think, but it's been so wonderful and I thank God for time.
And to end all of this on a happy note: I love love. I don't have a new love, but that's kinda not what I'm talking about. The love I'm talking about is in life. It's the love for my car and driving. It's the love for my wonderful friends who never cease to amaze me. It's for my Mom who really became a Mommy these last two weeks. It's the love for sunshine and for sleep. I'm just thrilled with the life that is in front of me! Yay!
Have a wonderful summer week people! Even the rain shouldn't make you frown. It's just making everything that much greener!
Amy <3
P.S.- Jen exists in my life again in less than 3 days. Wow.
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
t-minus 9 hours
Alright one and all- this is it. I have my surgery in NINE HOURS!!! Which means
1) Pray for me
2) YAY!
3) It'll be a while till I write
I'm really pumped about tomorrow (and still scared- which is soo normal) and i'm just glad that I have so many people supporting me! =)
I had my "going away party tonight and it was great. I thank EVERYONE for being there and I thank Lissa for the "boob cake" and the "teeny titty cakes" and Nate for hosting, and just seriously everyone who was there for me. It really makes everything a lot easier when i have the support. But yes... I need to sleep cuz I was supposed to be sleeping by like midnight for sure (says mother) but I'm such a night owl!
Well thanks guys for everything and I will be back soon! no worries!!!!!!!
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1) Pray for me
2) YAY!
3) It'll be a while till I write
I'm really pumped about tomorrow (and still scared- which is soo normal) and i'm just glad that I have so many people supporting me! =)
I had my "going away party tonight and it was great. I thank EVERYONE for being there and I thank Lissa for the "boob cake" and the "teeny titty cakes" and Nate for hosting, and just seriously everyone who was there for me. It really makes everything a lot easier when i have the support. But yes... I need to sleep cuz I was supposed to be sleeping by like midnight for sure (says mother) but I'm such a night owl!
Well thanks guys for everything and I will be back soon! no worries!!!!!!!
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Wednesday, May 21, 2008
So close!
So it's Wednesday! Why is Wednesday day a big deal?! Oh I dunno... cuz SO MANY THINGS HAVE HAPPENED TODAY AND YESTERDAY! WOO! I just don't even know where to start.
The fact that I have a few days left of school is crazily exciting. My room mate Jen moved out today which kinda sucks but I mean she's happy cuz she gets to be with her boyfriend and such. So I respect that. Alyssa and I are here until Friday (which had to be moved cuz I forgot that I worked on Saturday! BOO) so we are taking it easy. On Monday I got a really bad headache so I had to go to sleep at like 7:30PM! I haven't done that since I was a wee little one. lol. But that's okay. So I worked yesterday and studied at the same time for my Theology test. YIKES! I don't know how I did. I really just can't tell. I feel awful about it, which usually means I did OK. And when I looked over my notes I know for sure that I got things wrong, but a lot of it I feel like it was okay. I dunno. We shall see. It just is nerve wracking because I have a really bad grade in that class and I HAVE to do well on that Final!
I think the reason I feel so great though is because I went to my mailbox and saw that I OFFICIALLY got accepted for the Hawaii Interim trip in January of next year! AHHH!!!! I, Amy Vergin, am going to be in HAWAII for 24 DAYS! How insane is that?! I'm just really excited for this opportunity! Like... I never go anywhere that exciting, so it's just like I get to experience a different culuture while learning how to surf and getting tan and going to different churches, and snorkeling, and just everything that I couldn't' even imagine. I think it works well too because I would get home sick if it was any longer. I can't be away for longer than that at this point. Am I being a pansy? Maybe. But I don't care. So in.... less than 8 months, I will be in that wonderful state. Yay for me!
What else... oh yes. Holly's wedding planning is totally crazy. I just feel like we have soo much to do and not enough time. lol. But I guess that's how all weddings are. I also have like my friend Calli and Tim's wedding in June and Kara's birthday coming up. Then I have Sonshine in July, along with Holly's bridal shower, and a dress fitting, and lots of WAKE BOARDING (when I can... hee hee) And then I have to find an apartment and move in in August, and then go on a camping trip. And I have JENNIFER (a.k.a wonderfulness) coming home on June 6th, and Holly's flower picking out on June 7th and Adam leaving for two weeks right away in June, and Adam potentially leaving later this year, and Justin doing research all summer and going to Seattle (not fair Justin Robert Knapp!) in July, and man oh man! This summer is going to be crazy!!! Like all of that makes me feel warn out already!!
That's it... I need a planner
Hmmm.... well yah. That's it. I really don't wanna move home. I'm not looking forward to it. I like living with Alyssa and being on my own. So going home is always a little sad. But I'm brought right back up knowing that I get to see all my friends all the time again and not having to worry about school and homework and grades!
I've also decided that I wanna do some classes in photography, or maybe even MINOR in photography. Not at Bethel because they don't have that minor. But maybe I could take some classes somewhere else? Who knows. We'll see. I just really like pictures. Ok... ANYWAY
I have more to say, but you have to go to my OTHER blog.... ha ha.
http://journeyofsurgery.blogspot.com/
Ok, I'm out. Love you guys!! Happy end of finals!!
Amy
The fact that I have a few days left of school is crazily exciting. My room mate Jen moved out today which kinda sucks but I mean she's happy cuz she gets to be with her boyfriend and such. So I respect that. Alyssa and I are here until Friday (which had to be moved cuz I forgot that I worked on Saturday! BOO) so we are taking it easy. On Monday I got a really bad headache so I had to go to sleep at like 7:30PM! I haven't done that since I was a wee little one. lol. But that's okay. So I worked yesterday and studied at the same time for my Theology test. YIKES! I don't know how I did. I really just can't tell. I feel awful about it, which usually means I did OK. And when I looked over my notes I know for sure that I got things wrong, but a lot of it I feel like it was okay. I dunno. We shall see. It just is nerve wracking because I have a really bad grade in that class and I HAVE to do well on that Final!
I think the reason I feel so great though is because I went to my mailbox and saw that I OFFICIALLY got accepted for the Hawaii Interim trip in January of next year! AHHH!!!! I, Amy Vergin, am going to be in HAWAII for 24 DAYS! How insane is that?! I'm just really excited for this opportunity! Like... I never go anywhere that exciting, so it's just like I get to experience a different culuture while learning how to surf and getting tan and going to different churches, and snorkeling, and just everything that I couldn't' even imagine. I think it works well too because I would get home sick if it was any longer. I can't be away for longer than that at this point. Am I being a pansy? Maybe. But I don't care. So in.... less than 8 months, I will be in that wonderful state. Yay for me!
What else... oh yes. Holly's wedding planning is totally crazy. I just feel like we have soo much to do and not enough time. lol. But I guess that's how all weddings are. I also have like my friend Calli and Tim's wedding in June and Kara's birthday coming up. Then I have Sonshine in July, along with Holly's bridal shower, and a dress fitting, and lots of WAKE BOARDING (when I can... hee hee) And then I have to find an apartment and move in in August, and then go on a camping trip. And I have JENNIFER (a.k.a wonderfulness) coming home on June 6th, and Holly's flower picking out on June 7th and Adam leaving for two weeks right away in June, and Adam potentially leaving later this year, and Justin doing research all summer and going to Seattle (not fair Justin Robert Knapp!) in July, and man oh man! This summer is going to be crazy!!! Like all of that makes me feel warn out already!!
That's it... I need a planner
Hmmm.... well yah. That's it. I really don't wanna move home. I'm not looking forward to it. I like living with Alyssa and being on my own. So going home is always a little sad. But I'm brought right back up knowing that I get to see all my friends all the time again and not having to worry about school and homework and grades!
I've also decided that I wanna do some classes in photography, or maybe even MINOR in photography. Not at Bethel because they don't have that minor. But maybe I could take some classes somewhere else? Who knows. We'll see. I just really like pictures. Ok... ANYWAY
I have more to say, but you have to go to my OTHER blog.... ha ha.
http://journeyofsurgery.blogspot.com/
Ok, I'm out. Love you guys!! Happy end of finals!!
Amy
Friday, May 16, 2008
God give me strength today...
My life has been a soap opera this week. Really, if you look at this story that's been told, it's really been going on for three years. a Story of heartache, and tears, and laughter, and smiles.
I struggle because I have to lose a friend, maybe two. And I don't think he understands that this is a really hard thing for me to do. No, it's none of YOU (you know who you are) It's prob. someone who never reads this, but it's still hard. I've been friends with him for so long, and to let go is like a friend dying, and we all know how well I handle THAT.
Basically I have to let go because bad decisions have/had been made. I have to walk away because it's not worth screwing up a marriage, especially when you can take the easy route and just screw up the friendships. Marriage should be forever. And no, there was no cheating on... .don't think that low of me or anyone else involved. That's why it's dumb. But I'm respecting everyone and backing down.
I need the strength though. i hate being in this position. I mean my friend thinks I never cared about him! So not true. And I hate that he is left feeling that way. I don't think he'll forgive me for anything, and that I regret. I wish I could make this whole thing better. But I can't.
So if he ever reads this, I hope he really understands where I'm coming from, and i hope he knows that I did it for him and for her.
I trust God will always make the right decisions.... maybe it's for the best.... but I wish it wasn't. Sigh
Still happy though cuz it's sunny and it's the LAST DAY OF CLASSES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
10 days till surgery
21 days till jen's back
2 finals
5 days till SUMMER!!!!!
so many countdowns
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I struggle because I have to lose a friend, maybe two. And I don't think he understands that this is a really hard thing for me to do. No, it's none of YOU (you know who you are) It's prob. someone who never reads this, but it's still hard. I've been friends with him for so long, and to let go is like a friend dying, and we all know how well I handle THAT.
Basically I have to let go because bad decisions have/had been made. I have to walk away because it's not worth screwing up a marriage, especially when you can take the easy route and just screw up the friendships. Marriage should be forever. And no, there was no cheating on... .don't think that low of me or anyone else involved. That's why it's dumb. But I'm respecting everyone and backing down.
I need the strength though. i hate being in this position. I mean my friend thinks I never cared about him! So not true. And I hate that he is left feeling that way. I don't think he'll forgive me for anything, and that I regret. I wish I could make this whole thing better. But I can't.
So if he ever reads this, I hope he really understands where I'm coming from, and i hope he knows that I did it for him and for her.
I trust God will always make the right decisions.... maybe it's for the best.... but I wish it wasn't. Sigh
Still happy though cuz it's sunny and it's the LAST DAY OF CLASSES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
10 days till surgery
21 days till jen's back
2 finals
5 days till SUMMER!!!!!
so many countdowns
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Wednesday, May 07, 2008
P.S. I love you
I cried tonight. I watched a movie that just... it didn't do anything huge and dramatic, it didn't have someone die in the end (actually in the beginning, and not detailed either) and it didn't have her die like in the Notebook. It just knew how to speak to me and I feel like every other living person. It was a movie about love, real love. (well maybe movie love, but a love that I think is possible) I mean these two people had undying love for each other. While I could understand how it is to lose love, I kinda related it more towards Travis on the dying part. It made me wish that Travis could have known he was dying because then he could have left us letters to help us cope. I think that's all we'd ever want. To be comforted, and know that the person who left us understands our pain, and how we want more than anything to have them back. I think that's why I always feel compelled to write notes about my friends just in case that moment happens when i'm not here anymore. I'm not trying to be morbid or weird, I'm just trying to help others cope.
The movie also made me want love more than anything and yet run away screaming. I don't want to hurt that much. I fear that I may lose that person. I'm not a strong enough person for that. Losing Travis was hard enough, but my husband? Couldn't do it. But I want someone to love me that much, to know that it'd be hard to be left without them here and to do something to help me know that i'm not alone. It's the sweetest gesture that anyone could ever do.
I think these are all the reasons I cried. the movie lived up to expectations, especially in a girl world. Men: Be that man to your wife. Be that one that loves her more than anyone else could ever love her. Worship the ground she walks on, and let her know it. Be sincere, be kind, but loving. And maybe watch the movie... it's just that good. It's not a cheesy love, it's not a romantic comedy, it's not a depressing movie, it's a perfect movie. That's my suggestion for tonight.
May we all find that love that you would die for. Or as quote from the movie: "for once I kiss you it to be the end of the world" sigh... how wonderful
Amy
The movie also made me want love more than anything and yet run away screaming. I don't want to hurt that much. I fear that I may lose that person. I'm not a strong enough person for that. Losing Travis was hard enough, but my husband? Couldn't do it. But I want someone to love me that much, to know that it'd be hard to be left without them here and to do something to help me know that i'm not alone. It's the sweetest gesture that anyone could ever do.
I think these are all the reasons I cried. the movie lived up to expectations, especially in a girl world. Men: Be that man to your wife. Be that one that loves her more than anyone else could ever love her. Worship the ground she walks on, and let her know it. Be sincere, be kind, but loving. And maybe watch the movie... it's just that good. It's not a cheesy love, it's not a romantic comedy, it's not a depressing movie, it's a perfect movie. That's my suggestion for tonight.
May we all find that love that you would die for. Or as quote from the movie: "for once I kiss you it to be the end of the world" sigh... how wonderful
Amy
Thursday, May 01, 2008
when is it enough?
I've recieved some disturbing news tonight and i felt that I needed to say something about it. I was going to let it go after I worked out, bu then I realized that this was a big deal.
There is a reason I do not answer my cell phone sometimes. Actually there are several reasons:
1) It's not on me
2) I'm at work
3) I'm trying to sleep cuz I wake up at 5:30
4) I'm in the middle of something important and it's rude to answer in the middle of that
5) I'm just not in the mood to talk
I think those are all the reasons why sometimes I'm not by my cell phone. And don't get me wrong, I love my friends and I love getting phone calls and I just love how I get to hear from my friends all the time. But there are times when I NEED to just not answer it.
I shouldn't be ridiculed when I'm not 100% available. No one should. I need a break sometime though. Even if it is an hour here or an hour there... I mean c'mon. That's a reasonable amount.
There is no part of me that wants to come off as "oh well I just have oh so many friends and I just don't have time for all of them!" That is NOT what I'm saying. But I'm just always meeting people and trying to keep in touch with everyone, and I just get tired. I'm just trying to make everyone happy and nothing sucks more than when I take that me time, and then I get people mad or people that keep calling, or people who leave me threatening messages. These should not be acceptable things.
Again, I love you all, but just understand that if I need some time...give me some! I'll call you back when I can, and leave a message if it's super important, or call again.... and sometimes I just don't have it sewn to my hip. Bare with me. I know I have to be a littl ebit better with answering it but sometimes if I answer this is what I'll say "I'm just not in the mood to talk" and then people will be like "why?" which ensues a conversation. I'm doing my best okay? I love you and I do care what's going on, just gimme a little credit okay?
Amy <3
There is a reason I do not answer my cell phone sometimes. Actually there are several reasons:
1) It's not on me
2) I'm at work
3) I'm trying to sleep cuz I wake up at 5:30
4) I'm in the middle of something important and it's rude to answer in the middle of that
5) I'm just not in the mood to talk
I think those are all the reasons why sometimes I'm not by my cell phone. And don't get me wrong, I love my friends and I love getting phone calls and I just love how I get to hear from my friends all the time. But there are times when I NEED to just not answer it.
I shouldn't be ridiculed when I'm not 100% available. No one should. I need a break sometime though. Even if it is an hour here or an hour there... I mean c'mon. That's a reasonable amount.
There is no part of me that wants to come off as "oh well I just have oh so many friends and I just don't have time for all of them!" That is NOT what I'm saying. But I'm just always meeting people and trying to keep in touch with everyone, and I just get tired. I'm just trying to make everyone happy and nothing sucks more than when I take that me time, and then I get people mad or people that keep calling, or people who leave me threatening messages. These should not be acceptable things.
Again, I love you all, but just understand that if I need some time...give me some! I'll call you back when I can, and leave a message if it's super important, or call again.... and sometimes I just don't have it sewn to my hip. Bare with me. I know I have to be a littl ebit better with answering it but sometimes if I answer this is what I'll say "I'm just not in the mood to talk" and then people will be like "why?" which ensues a conversation. I'm doing my best okay? I love you and I do care what's going on, just gimme a little credit okay?
Amy <3
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Freakin' sweet findings
So I went home the other day to my parent's house and I went on to the AOL thing. Not just the internet messenger, but like old style AOL. And my profile from like YEARS ago was still up there. It's funny to read and I though it would be fun to post. Mind you it's from 2003 sometime so it's obviously centered around certain things. But have a blast, I know I did. I also think it's fitting since I didn't write on April 21st, which was the 5 year mark of Travis passing away. I will say that that night was really good for me. I got to see the Knapps, and then sing with Kara and John, and talk to Anna, and then I got to just spend some time with Justin, which was good for all of us. =) Makes me happy. But here it is!
--> That music list is awful!!
Amy <3>
call me Amy! Or there's A-may-may, may may, Amers, shorty, ..holly calls me Ebbi..and in Spanish I'm Mamy Varson! Location How do you spell turkey? TU-UR-URKEY! John, you are seriously my brother! John's my guardian Driver! Extended cuddling never gets old. Journalism with the *~Editors~* Rock!! I love that class...."so much for my happy ending"...OUR THEME SONG!! Gender Female Marital Status Not what I want it to be..... Hobbies & Interests TO TRAVIS: You are the one and only. Your love was shared with all, and your heart brought us together. You made the "foursome" awesome. You gave me hope, faith, and happiness, and I could never ask for more from you. I think of you every single day, and Favorite Gadgets I pray to God that we will meet again. I miss you,I LOVE YOU, never forget me, and I'll never forget you. Be there forever 4 me Occupation I'll see you in Heaven. *God's Little Sidekick* I got a little dork livin inside me! "Oi with the poodles already" BellTacoStyle Personal Quote He's a little antsy in his pantsy, FLANNIN', Hey Woman Make me a sandwhich! (Travy) What a Betty. Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose. http://hometown.aol.com/amers1386/myhomepage/ The FaCtSI'm pretty basic, Brownish hair (when not dyed), green/blue/grey eyes and 5'2". Yes, I AM short, and proud of it! =) I live in a tiny town...yay Delano! I have too many animals to name, and just one sister. | ||||
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Hobbies...I have hobbies??I don't know wheter you consider the things I do as "hobbies" but I love being with people at all times. My friends are the best thing ever. I don't care what we do, as long as I'm with someone. I'd rather be bored with someone, then alone. I use to be a nintendo fanatic, but my sister started getting better then me, and now I just play here and there. I guess one hobby would be that I LOVE to write. Its the only way I can express myself. God is also a big part of me, and even though I struggle, I know he is always there and won't let me stray too far....I think that if anyone ever has any questions about God or losing someone or anything, e-mail me cuz I always feel like talking. =) | ||||
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~*GrEaT QuOtEs*~* Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal | ||||
Amy <3>
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Blogging about Blogging
So because I'm a crazy writer person, I've created yet ANOTHER blog. It's not that this one is not good enough for me, but I needed one to talk strictly about my surgery that's coming up. I have SO much to say about what is ahead of me that I wanted to devote it all to a different blog. I mean if not, this one would be non-stop surgery talk, and I figure people will get bored with it. And the good thing is, if people are really interested in the process, then they can visit the other blogsite! Everybody wins.
The reason I have so much to say is because I've never had surgery before. It's scary and thrilling all at the same time. But there are still so many questions and thoughts running through my head, so I just need to get them all out so I stay sane. So yes, the other blog is title "The Journey of Surgery" and here is the link: http://journeyofsurgery.blogspot.com/
So yes, don't worry, I won't stop writing on this thing, just know that if you wanna know ANYTHING about my "big day" it'll be on the other blog.
Have a great day guys!
Amy
The reason I have so much to say is because I've never had surgery before. It's scary and thrilling all at the same time. But there are still so many questions and thoughts running through my head, so I just need to get them all out so I stay sane. So yes, the other blog is title "The Journey of Surgery" and here is the link: http://journeyofsurgery.blogspot.com/
So yes, don't worry, I won't stop writing on this thing, just know that if you wanna know ANYTHING about my "big day" it'll be on the other blog.
Have a great day guys!
Amy
Wednesday, April 09, 2008
Teen Thrill Kill... you've gotta be kidding me
We'll get to the Title of this later in this post, but we'll get to the fact that I haven't written in almost a month. Not because I haven't wanted to. I've even written blogs and just saved them so I can come back to them later and continue writing. But obviously nothing has been published.
It's been busy. i have another blog that I've been working on for my class and it's been keeping my pretty busy. I'll get the link in here so you can check it out (unless the teacher blocked other users from seeing, which then I'm ticked cuz what's the point if no one can read it!) But it's about music. I'm working on it... it's a work in progress type of thing. Haha. but it's fun to do. Some of it is assignment stuff that is boring, but I've completed to articles on there. I write it in blog form more than journalism form. Whatever... i'll get better.
http://ajvergin8749.edublogs.org/
So there's the link.... but anyway... Spring Break kept me pretty busy and I just felt like there was no time to do anything! I went down to Nebraska with Ali to see Laura and we just hung out watching Grey's Anatomy all weekend. It was super laid back and I was really excited to do that. Laura and I are always running around doing things to make it interesting, but I just like seeing her. =) It was fun and Ali had a blast too! I even ate Sushi again and LIKED It... who knew! And it wasn't because a certain boy waiter was helping us. (haha Kara)
After that Ali and I drove up to Milwaukee and we slept in the same bed as Josh! It was funny. Like I've known Josh forever, so it wasn't weird at all. It was nice to hang out with both of them. I then drove back to Minnesota and yah... that was my extended weekend! It was nice having alone time on the way back. I sang the entire 6 HOURS! Haha. But yah, the rest of the time I worked and hung out with Justin and Nate- I did that quite a bit actually! I love those boys though so it's totally worth it!
What kept me the busiest was house sitting the house from hell. It was just awful. 2 dogs, 4 puppies, and a cat. Talk about a handful... and there's a smell that goes along with a house that full of animals. The woman left me no directions (apparently she packed them by accident) and the puppies grew up a lot in ten days so they were jumping out of their pen, eating the older dog's food (which they just started eating mushy food, so it's prob. not good for them) and they can squeeze through the gate. I can't win. It was not a good experience at all. And I was supposed to sleep there but the dogs never shut up and went to the bathroom EVERYWHERE. So whatever. I get some money, but I'm just glad I'm done. ten days is a looong time. Especially when it's not even close to my dorm. Ahh! Ok, done ranting
What else.. I got to see Arlene and Travis last Sunday! Mind you I've never seen Travis before (but I had heard a lot of things... good things. lol) and Arlene I haven't seen in about two years. But she's the same girl that I met then and I absolutely love her! We ran around Uptown in the rain and got coffee, and played cards, and just kept busy. I wish she could always stay! =*(
Okay, anyway, basically the other sum up is: I miss Jen and can't wait to move in with her, I might study in Hawaii for next January-term which would be exciting as hell, I might have an internship for Metropolitan Media Group for the summer and that is thrilling, I might be studying in NEW YORK CITY for Spring semester! Ahh! It's crazy and might not happen, but I'm really excited about the possibility. Uh, and I'm having something exciting happening to me at the end of May... yay!
And finally, the title of my blog: So I happened to turn on the TV to see this trial for this 18 year-old-boy who did a thrill kill sometime in 2007. This whole thing is ridiculous. APPARENTLY it was "self defense" but here's the story: JP (the 18 yr old being charged) knew a man named Dan Sorenson who owed him money and had his gun. He decided to kill him for it, almost like a "thrill kill" or whatever they have been calling it. Then this other boy owed him like a $100 so he paid this boy to help him dispose of this Sorenson guy. And it was so brutal. First he lured this guy into his grandpa's basement, slit his throat, and then stabbed him about 12 times. After that, JP took a hacksaw and cut off his head, burned his fingers, lit fire to the torso, left it in a vacant lot, and threw the head into the river. WHAT THE CRAP!!
What is wrong with people? There was no way that this is a "self defense" thing! Like the guy who helped cleaned up started out defending his friend JP, but the big thing that happened in this story is that this eye witness switched sides and is now telling all the details of what happened. Not only is that the smarter thing to do, but his sentence is less. He's gonna still go to jail for 20-30 years. But he said that he made a "bad judgment call" when he decided to help JP out. Well duh you retard kid. You owed this guy $100.... get it from somewhere else! Don't say you'll help him dispose of a body! I just can't believe people are this sick. Okay, I'm sorry.... I just came across that and couldn't believe it. Yikes
I'm out,
Amy
It's been busy. i have another blog that I've been working on for my class and it's been keeping my pretty busy. I'll get the link in here so you can check it out (unless the teacher blocked other users from seeing, which then I'm ticked cuz what's the point if no one can read it!) But it's about music. I'm working on it... it's a work in progress type of thing. Haha. but it's fun to do. Some of it is assignment stuff that is boring, but I've completed to articles on there. I write it in blog form more than journalism form. Whatever... i'll get better.
http://ajvergin8749.edublogs.org/
So there's the link.... but anyway... Spring Break kept me pretty busy and I just felt like there was no time to do anything! I went down to Nebraska with Ali to see Laura and we just hung out watching Grey's Anatomy all weekend. It was super laid back and I was really excited to do that. Laura and I are always running around doing things to make it interesting, but I just like seeing her. =) It was fun and Ali had a blast too! I even ate Sushi again and LIKED It... who knew! And it wasn't because a certain boy waiter was helping us. (haha Kara)
After that Ali and I drove up to Milwaukee and we slept in the same bed as Josh! It was funny. Like I've known Josh forever, so it wasn't weird at all. It was nice to hang out with both of them. I then drove back to Minnesota and yah... that was my extended weekend! It was nice having alone time on the way back. I sang the entire 6 HOURS! Haha. But yah, the rest of the time I worked and hung out with Justin and Nate- I did that quite a bit actually! I love those boys though so it's totally worth it!
What kept me the busiest was house sitting the house from hell. It was just awful. 2 dogs, 4 puppies, and a cat. Talk about a handful... and there's a smell that goes along with a house that full of animals. The woman left me no directions (apparently she packed them by accident) and the puppies grew up a lot in ten days so they were jumping out of their pen, eating the older dog's food (which they just started eating mushy food, so it's prob. not good for them) and they can squeeze through the gate. I can't win. It was not a good experience at all. And I was supposed to sleep there but the dogs never shut up and went to the bathroom EVERYWHERE. So whatever. I get some money, but I'm just glad I'm done. ten days is a looong time. Especially when it's not even close to my dorm. Ahh! Ok, done ranting
What else.. I got to see Arlene and Travis last Sunday! Mind you I've never seen Travis before (but I had heard a lot of things... good things. lol) and Arlene I haven't seen in about two years. But she's the same girl that I met then and I absolutely love her! We ran around Uptown in the rain and got coffee, and played cards, and just kept busy. I wish she could always stay! =*(
Okay, anyway, basically the other sum up is: I miss Jen and can't wait to move in with her, I might study in Hawaii for next January-term which would be exciting as hell, I might have an internship for Metropolitan Media Group for the summer and that is thrilling, I might be studying in NEW YORK CITY for Spring semester! Ahh! It's crazy and might not happen, but I'm really excited about the possibility. Uh, and I'm having something exciting happening to me at the end of May... yay!
And finally, the title of my blog: So I happened to turn on the TV to see this trial for this 18 year-old-boy who did a thrill kill sometime in 2007. This whole thing is ridiculous. APPARENTLY it was "self defense" but here's the story: JP (the 18 yr old being charged) knew a man named Dan Sorenson who owed him money and had his gun. He decided to kill him for it, almost like a "thrill kill" or whatever they have been calling it. Then this other boy owed him like a $100 so he paid this boy to help him dispose of this Sorenson guy. And it was so brutal. First he lured this guy into his grandpa's basement, slit his throat, and then stabbed him about 12 times. After that, JP took a hacksaw and cut off his head, burned his fingers, lit fire to the torso, left it in a vacant lot, and threw the head into the river. WHAT THE CRAP!!
What is wrong with people? There was no way that this is a "self defense" thing! Like the guy who helped cleaned up started out defending his friend JP, but the big thing that happened in this story is that this eye witness switched sides and is now telling all the details of what happened. Not only is that the smarter thing to do, but his sentence is less. He's gonna still go to jail for 20-30 years. But he said that he made a "bad judgment call" when he decided to help JP out. Well duh you retard kid. You owed this guy $100.... get it from somewhere else! Don't say you'll help him dispose of a body! I just can't believe people are this sick. Okay, I'm sorry.... I just came across that and couldn't believe it. Yikes
I'm out,
Amy
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