The World Carries On Without You, But Nothing Remains the Same

Those are lyrics from A Fine Frenzy's song "Last of Days". I was listening to this song last night when I was driving back from a meeting, and I just got really sad. I missed Jen. I missed Travis. I missed being in high school. I missed being a kid. So I called Adam and begged him (which really wasn't necessary cuz he was more than willing) to let me talk to Jen on Sunday. I'm not sure why I miss her so much. I mean yes she's one of my best friends, and yes we are moving in together, but we only saw each other like twice a week! Maybe it's because the whole thing with Nate is just really tough and frustrating and I don't have her to lend her advice unless it's over facebook. That just doesnt' do it. I mean she's been gone FIVE WEEKS... and I still have so many ahead of me. And Travis... well I have an eternity for that. And that blows. I also miss my Seward because I had a dream that she died and it was so realistic and scary. I woke up without knowing if that was real or not. I hope nobody dies again. I'm not ready for it. but why do I have that icky feeling? I'm sure i'm just overreacting, but I mean anything is possible. At any rate, I LOVE you all and don't think otherwise. =)

I apologize for not writing sooner. Life... oh life. It's crazy and all I'm trying to do is balance my friends and my homework. So far, homework loses. As much as my mind WANTS homework to win, no other part of me wants it to. So it loses hard core. But it doesn't help that I've been sick for the past three weeks. That takes away my motivation. First I had Bronchitis, and then when I thought I was better, I stayed sick.... but I just let it happen cuz my friend Ben told me that I'll be sick for a while. But then I started feeling like a DIFFERENT sick so I went to the doctor again and he said I didn't have strep, but I have something (he's not sure what! That's not helpful) but he gave me medicine so happy day! I should be feeling wonderful by Monday, and that's so good to hear!

Last weekend was probably one of the better weekends that I've had! Not saying that most of my weekends aren't fun, but this one was just wonderful. It was Nick Schonhardt's (I KNOW I'm spelling that wrong! ahh!) birthday and Mike Johnson's Birthday! And Nick decided to have a bunch of people over at his parents house! Because it was Nick's birthday, Marlise came back from Chicago, and Ali came from Milwaukee. So I got to see two people then I never get to see and it made me really happy. We got to have some special bonding time over some late lunch before Nick's house. We needed it! Then we went to Nick's and there were so many people! I was there for 8 hours!! I talked myself to the point of not having a voice. That was partly because of me being sick, but also because I probably talked a week's worth while I was there. but who couldn't! I mean John, Anna, Justin, Sarah, Rachel, Mike, Adam, Ali, Marlise, Lee, Mary, Sam, Robbie. Zach, Brittany, Jake, Adam and Eric Neis, Nick, Mitch, Eric Norgren, Kara, Kyle, Nate, Kelly, Tim and so many others were there! It was like being in high school all over again! Where everybody hung out in one big group and had a good time. The nice thing was that Nick also had friends from school and family there. He just brought everyone together and did it nicely. Nate said he counted at one point and there were over 30 people there. lol. Good times. The people I listed above already made 26 people. lol. Man oh man. It was great that we all came together for Nick's birthday. Happy Birthday to Nick and Mike!! =) But yah, I'd go into more detail, but I've done enough. But yes.... Mary beat me in darts, I played a super long game of pool, I played doubles in fooseball (adam neis on my team, John and Jake on the other) and it got so intense that I actually BROKE the fooseball man's legs off! oopsies! And I "helped" build a fire off of smouldering coals... .or I just stood back and watched... same thing

Friday was fun too. I hung out with my roomie Alyssa the whole night. We ordered pizza, went to Target, and watched the move Martian Child, good movie by the way! And then our RA Skyler invited us to play Settlers and kicked our butts! But the ONLY reason he won is because all the other people are not competitive (which drives me crazy!) and they just trade him ridiculous trades! It still blows my mind! lol. But it was fun. It was just nice to spend some time with her. I don't do it a whole lot, so I was happy. Actually.... i've been hanging out with her a lot, who knows what I'm talking about! lol

And the other exciting thing from last weekend was that Karla (Graham's wife who works with me at the bank and who I absolutely adore) had her baby!!!! YAY!! It's so cute, looks totally like Graham! They neamed her Sophia Margaret which is funny because my brother and his wife just named their baby Sophia Madison. lol. So two Sophia's in like a month. Must be a popular name this year. But I'm super excited for her.

So hmmm, oh yes. Last night I went to my first Clairon meeting--> that's Bethel's newspaper. I've never gone before because my first semester it was during the time I worked (stupid Panera) and then last semester I worked Friday mornings so I always slept at Jen's house and watched Grey's Anatomy. But now I have no excuse, so I went. I know most people on the paper so it wasn't scary, but I did actually raise my hand to do a story. Eep!! April 17th is the paper my story will be in, and I couldn't be more terrified! I mean I've been writing forever, this should be nothing. And it's a profile on these two sisters that play doubles in tennis. Easy peasy! I should be fine. But it's still terrifying that the Bethel population can read and critique my story. Maybe I won't tell anyone that it's coming out. lol. Unless it's really good.....

Ok, I'm done. I gotta do stuff! Bye guys!!!

Love,
Amy <3