Do you ever find that you wish for things? All the time? And after you've gotten what you wished for, you tend to wish for something else? Is life just one big wish? And if by wishing are we wasting time like when we just want to get past those classes and just want summer to happen or just want friday to come? Are we wasting our lives by sitting waiting and wishing? Oh Jack Johnson, he's oh so wise. lol.
I just was walking home with my Hawaii peeps and was thinking about how I wish too much. Does wishing get me anywhere? And does wishing mean I'm asking God or am I just tempting the fates that I don't believe in? I guess I just thought that I wish for things and hope that they'll happen but i know it won't truly make me happy. Sometimes I wish for contentment. And then I feel like I get it. But then something takes it away.
Maybe what really spurred this on is my progression in my faith on this trip. Like I've been wanting to read the Bible and wanting to listen to sermons, but now I feel more attacked than ever. Things cross my mind like "do these people really like me on the trip?" or "am I really the fattest person on this trip?" or "do people really like me or do they like me cuz i'm nice?". Those are all the most ridiculous questions ever and they are there. It drives me nuts. And then someone will say something nice about me or I'll feel pretty and happy and then I get taken down a notch or two. Why can't I just learn about the Bible, feel pretty, and NOT get taken down by whatever is taking me down whether it be my own head or satan? Does this make sense? I guess it doesn't really have to. It's just my blog. I guess I wish (haha) that there could be an easy way. but who doesn't wish for that??
Hello Amy,
ReplyDeleteI may know what your feeling, as I have the same issue at times. I truly believe that the closer we get to God, or pursuing God, the harder it can get, but also the times of Joy are the best in the world. The closer to God, the more content we are, the happier we are, because we were created to be in communion with God. But it also gets more difficult due to attack, our own sin and what not. But its worth it :) I love you and you are pretty, and people do like you! and best of all Christ loves you more then anyone on this planet, in a way that you haven't begun to realize. You are an amazing person :) I really miss you!