Wishing I was Born Again

Hey. This will be quick and to the point. Life is a stressball and I need to grow up and learn to handle it. It doesn't get easier and it certainly just doesn't go away. I know I've been hard to deal with this summer, but I just really don't know what to do with myself. I need to set myself on the right track and it needs to happen soon. hopefully this fall will be the perfect time to do so. Rent is cheaper and there are zero school expenses. If I can fix my credit, I can go back to school. And that's what I really need to do.

I also need to learn how to be a roommate to 5 other girls again. And how to take a house's worth of stuff and make it fit into half of a bedroom. It's overwhelming. I'm in panic mode and trying not to be crabby or ornery or any other negative thing, but all I really wanna do is go on a permanent run to no where and not deal with it. I don't even know how to have a roommate again. It's not to say that she won't be a nice girl, but I was notified 10 or so days before my move that I was ending up with a roommate inseated of my own room. It's hard to take in. I'm working on it. And yes, I know I will be okay, but I'm learning to cope and I don't need to be pleasant. My life is changing and I'm still on the last chapter of my life. I'll catch up soon. Promise. We all know i'm not good with change, why should this year be any different?

However, there are some ups in a crazy world. 1: rent is cheap 2: Justin, Jen, and Alyssa are home. 3: I have serving shifts 4: Zach and Kara are wonderful moveres 5: I have time to really work on my book 6: my roomie Megan is fantastic 7: I never have to go back to Wells Fargo! 8: Tim and I had a heart-to-heart on a night that I can barely remember and we like each other :) So yes, there are so many pluses in my life.

My nightly prayer: I pray that God will look over everyone as they start their year at school. I pray for widsom and knowledge to get my life straightened out, and I pray for patience as I deal with new people and new situations. I thank God for the life He has given me and I hope to become the child God wants me to be. Good night my dear friends.

Amy