The World At Large

Very good song. Modest Mouse. It reminds me of the O.C. because they had this band play on the show. And I feel like that is where I've heard this song. I could be wrong. Either way, I love the guys voice. Take a listen peeps!

I just watched Parenthood and it made me want a family. Like lots of siblings. Life would be so very different. I love having Holly as a sister, don't get me wrong. It's been an interesting experience to have a twin, but I was watching that show and it was fun to see the siblings hanging out and being silly with each other. I don't know what that's like. I don't know what it's like to have a lot of people like that. Maybe that is why I'm so big on friends. There are lots of them that simulate a family. You grow up with them and, God willing, they are there on the other side when 5, 10, or 15 years have passed. But who knows. I could be saying all of this because I'm on the side with a small family. Maybe the ones with big families want smaller ones? I mean they are less hassle. Anyone have a comment on this?

I spent the weekend in Menomonie (bah du du du) Sorry. can't help it! It was a treat! I love being able to spend time with Seward. Not only because we've been officially friends for 11 years in the next month, but because there is little time left before she is married. While marriage is a great new adventure, it changes things. She's no longer that girl that can do whatever she wants all the time. Heck, she's not even going to be my "Seward". I mean yes, I'll call her that until the day she dies, but she'll be a Beckman. Change has always been hard for me, so when it means that Jen is going to change, I panic. My heart flutters just like when people fight. My stomach gets in a knot and I can't help but think that things will change for the worst. And I know it won't. It just means we need to be different. Learn to grow with the changes I guess. That's the best thing though. We've been through IT ALL. If we can go through deaths, births, marriages, fights, sleep overs, and everything else, we can go through this! I know I seem uber dramatic on this, but it's me. So deal.

I'm ready for this upcoming week I think. It's going to be a long one, but in the end I think it'll be good. :D Fingers crossed. Prayers up to God.

Speaking of God.... I really need to focus on Him. I feel the lacking. And Seward really pointed it out too. Not just at me, but in a our friends in general. It's hard to really come back to God when you've been distance for so long. I don't sit here thinking that I don't need him or that I can do it on my own, but you just get into this groove and you keep saying like, "I'll pray after this" or "I want to watch this" and before you know it it's 2am and you didn't do a dang thing! So I'm going to be doing my best to be in LOVE with God. Whatever that means. I want to really learn what that means.

Alright, I'm out like uh.... snow on a 80 degree day? Sure. works.

Amy