Boot Scootin' Boogy

I think that's a line from a song that my mom used to listen to when Holly and I were little. Country obviously. But I always enjoyed it. Hee hee. Look it up, I'm sure you'll love it. Or hate it with your whole heart. You pick!

Not having internet blows. It really does. I have having to try to find time to come on here and write. Because by now it's been like 3 weeks since I've written last and that means I have a MILLION stories for you. Like A MILLION. There's been drama, and weddings, and money successes, and highs and lows, and poker, and everything in between, but I won't remember half of it. Annoying.I can't keep you guys properly updated on life! WEll, I'll do my best

WEDDINGS There have been GREAT ones, and AWFUL ones. Seriously, It's been really hard this month dealing with all of them. One, I still can't get over. I've forgiven... well no I haven't. Man, I really need to do that. But I can't. I probably shouldn't talk about it TOO much considering this is an open blog and all, but let's just say I was more hurt by someone by something than I have been in a long time. Here's something to know about me. When I make friends, I latch on for life. I'm there for the ups and the downs and I work very hard to really get to know you. You become my family because that is who I am and that is how I feel about people. So when you cut me and stick that dagger into me, I die a little inside. I take it personally. People who wouldn't are crazy. And that wound lasts a long time because I've invested so much into you. It's hard to close and it's even harder to rise above. So think about that before you become friends with me. My little heart can't take it.

Enough rambling, I had good weddings too! My Roomie from last year Ashley got married finally! YAYAYAYA! it's so exciting! It was a BEAUTIFUL WEDDING and reception. And even though I didn't know that many people I had Megan and my lovely boyfriend, and Kristen and the wedding party. So it was happy. That was a wedding done right. :) And heck yes, FREE WINE. Can't say no to that. Haha

Money is finally good for me right now. I've gotten a lot of money back from things that were outstanding from people and everything is finally peaceful. Now I don't wan to say this because something might just pop up suddenly, but for now, it's good.

Boyfriend Boyfriend Boyfriend! What to say about this wonderful person in my life? Who knows. He's always been in my life and I've always written about him. I can be all mushy, but I prob. shouldn't. It's a little much for this and for everyone reading it. But I think he is wonderful. I like that we don't spend EVERYDAY together because it's unnecessary and there are more things to life than boyfriends. But he is my best friend (guy-wise) so he's there anyways. I got the best of both worlds. It's amazing where our relationship is. I mean honestly, it's bizarre. But a good kind of bizarre. :) We go on walks a lot which is really fun because we go around Lake Calhoun or the roads around his house and we talk about life. And then we play guess who and it's wonderful. I love it. I'm just happy. I am happy with my life even though there are some huge issues, I'm still happy.

My job is going well. The people I work with make me smile. Some people are leaving for bigger and better things and it makes me wonder if I should do the same. Oye. But for now it's good and I'm making enough to get by. Who can't be happy with that? The other internship is almost ending. I might be back on for Timberwovles but nothing is for sure set. That would be awesome though cuz it'd be paid! YAYAYAYA. But we'll wait and see.

Poker has become pretty popular right now in my group of friends. Well I should say mike and justin and mike's little sister and friends. THEY are in love with it. I've always liked Texas Hold'em. It's intriguing. But I am no free enough to play. I just always wanna play games. That's my problem. There is something awesome about friends coming together to play games and try to beat the other person. I love it even though I don't win. It's the game, not the winning. Don't get me wrong, I'm competitive. But who isn't? If you aren't, don't pay with us. HAah

Okay, I'm done. I've got many things to do. Let's see if I can write a couple more times before the month ends! Internet will be in my hands hopefully in September. :)


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So this is what it is to be a Post-Grad. Great.

I wasn't aware of the stress that comes with the Post Graduation thing. You graduate, you're pumped, you move on, you look for jobs, and then you realize you are extremely and utterly broke. Which I mean, c'mon, story of my life, but I think I hit a new low this time. And there never seems to be enough money. I could work 40 hours a week and there wouldn't be enough. It was just last summer I was working TWO jobs and couldn't pay a cent for anything. Maybe I will blame the weddings and showers and such. That all takes in a lot of money. Or I can blame my landlord for his error. But I can blame myself because I never really picked up the understanding of good spending habits. I really have no clue. There is no way that I can be a person that files for bankruptcy at age 23, but some days I think about it. It would make life easy NOW, but not later. There just has to be a way out of this mess that I am in. God grant me peace, please. Pretty please! In all reality, I don't stress about this too often. Most of the time there is nothing you can do so you suck it up and deal with it when you have the money to do so. I need a few weeks where I can work a ton of hours and load up on tips, and then pay every late thing off. My mom is helping me out the best she can, and I am grateful for that. So maybe in a month things will work itself out. Otherwise Job#2 I'm looking for you!

What else is new in my life? Oh right right right... I MOVED! FINALLY! I'm free from the house of problems. No more flies, no more heat (that's a lie, it's still incredibly hot in the new place), no more landlords at 8AM, no more hand-washing dishes, no more lawns to mow. YAY! Of course I'm going to miss the free laundry and the wonderful running route I found, but oh well. Time to move on and start over. I really do like this new place. Sure, it's apartment in an apartment complex, but it could be worse. There are only four people to a floor and we are on the top floor and we live on the corner so really we only have one neighbor next to us, one below us, and one across the hall. I can live with that. Then we got new floors, new counter tops, and new paint. So that's been a treat. Boxes are littered across the living room floor but we are slowly making progress on diminishing those dumb boxes. Nothing feels better than when you are all moved in to a new place. I just want that feeling to happen.... NOW.

Another good this is that I got to go wakeboarding last week. Oh it was awesome. Sure the bindings were trying to crush my feet, but it felt good to know that 1) I'm still capable of getting up after 2 years and 2) that I can still keep my balance and not fall to my death while wakeboarding. So those ten minutes were ten minutes of glory and wonderfulness. Then I smelled like dirty lake water. It was worth it though. Whoever doesn't know how to wakeboard should learn. Immediately. If you are scared, don't be. It's fun and easy and awesome. Pure awesomeness.

Someone I really like right now is.... wait for it... wait for it... Justin! Duh. He has been really awesome lately, especially last night when I was upset about finances and such. I always feel bad talking to him about this kind of stuff because I don't want him thinking I'm a failure. But really you NEED to be able to talk about this stuff because if you can't, your relationship has nowhere to go. And I want this to go well so I have to suck it up and be vulnerable towards him. And in response, he was wonderful. On the crazy end of the subject of him, we have been "back together" or "rekindled the romance" or as his cousin said, we are "hot and steamy" again for almost five months! YAY! He may say like 2 months, but whatever, It's been since march. He can suck it. :)

Okay, internship over. I'm out to make the world a better place... for me. Haha

Amy