I wasn't aware of the stress that comes with the Post Graduation thing. You graduate, you're pumped, you move on, you look for jobs, and then you realize you are extremely and utterly broke. Which I mean, c'mon, story of my life, but I think I hit a new low this time. And there never seems to be enough money. I could work 40 hours a week and there wouldn't be enough. It was just last summer I was working TWO jobs and couldn't pay a cent for anything. Maybe I will blame the weddings and showers and such. That all takes in a lot of money. Or I can blame my landlord for his error. But I can blame myself because I never really picked up the understanding of good spending habits. I really have no clue. There is no way that I can be a person that files for bankruptcy at age 23, but some days I think about it. It would make life easy NOW, but not later. There just has to be a way out of this mess that I am in. God grant me peace, please. Pretty please! In all reality, I don't stress about this too often. Most of the time there is nothing you can do so you suck it up and deal with it when you have the money to do so. I need a few weeks where I can work a ton of hours and load up on tips, and then pay every late thing off. My mom is helping me out the best she can, and I am grateful for that. So maybe in a month things will work itself out. Otherwise Job#2 I'm looking for you!
What else is new in my life? Oh right right right... I MOVED! FINALLY! I'm free from the house of problems. No more flies, no more heat (that's a lie, it's still incredibly hot in the new place), no more landlords at 8AM, no more hand-washing dishes, no more lawns to mow. YAY! Of course I'm going to miss the free laundry and the wonderful running route I found, but oh well. Time to move on and start over. I really do like this new place. Sure, it's apartment in an apartment complex, but it could be worse. There are only four people to a floor and we are on the top floor and we live on the corner so really we only have one neighbor next to us, one below us, and one across the hall. I can live with that. Then we got new floors, new counter tops, and new paint. So that's been a treat. Boxes are littered across the living room floor but we are slowly making progress on diminishing those dumb boxes. Nothing feels better than when you are all moved in to a new place. I just want that feeling to happen.... NOW.
Another good this is that I got to go wakeboarding last week. Oh it was awesome. Sure the bindings were trying to crush my feet, but it felt good to know that 1) I'm still capable of getting up after 2 years and 2) that I can still keep my balance and not fall to my death while wakeboarding. So those ten minutes were ten minutes of glory and wonderfulness. Then I smelled like dirty lake water. It was worth it though. Whoever doesn't know how to wakeboard should learn. Immediately. If you are scared, don't be. It's fun and easy and awesome. Pure awesomeness.
Someone I really like right now is.... wait for it... wait for it... Justin! Duh. He has been really awesome lately, especially last night when I was upset about finances and such. I always feel bad talking to him about this kind of stuff because I don't want him thinking I'm a failure. But really you NEED to be able to talk about this stuff because if you can't, your relationship has nowhere to go. And I want this to go well so I have to suck it up and be vulnerable towards him. And in response, he was wonderful. On the crazy end of the subject of him, we have been "back together" or "rekindled the romance" or as his cousin said, we are "hot and steamy" again for almost five months! YAY! He may say like 2 months, but whatever, It's been since march. He can suck it. :)
Okay, internship over. I'm out to make the world a better place... for me. Haha
Amy
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