Damn

Besides the fact that it's been a few days over a month long since I've written last, I still love this blog. It's just exhausting and daunting sometimes. And quite frankly, I don't think anyone wants to read my DAILY life. It's not THAT exciting. I do feel that Monday's events would be quite interesting to most people. So hey, why not share the gloom right?

On Monday, I did not want to go to work. It was more than normal. The night before I was told that the Vikings game was moved because of the unexpected collapse of the Metrodome. Damn (It's the word of the blog folks!) So the game was now moved to this Monday night. To make matters worse, one of the servers had finals so it was up to me to fill his position for the closing of the store. Every fiber in my being declined but the words that slipped from these lips were "I guess". I am a people-pleaser from the bottom of my heart so when the manager asked me to stay, I said I guess. I really wanted to go into work happy. Maybe then the night would be so long. A shift from 4:30-1:30? I can do it!

But when I pulled my dirty red car into the parking lot, I sighed a heavy sigh and knew that this wasn't going to be a good night. A frown on my face when I entered the restaurant, my manager pulls me aside and says "I know I said I'd cancel Monday night Trivia, but we decided to keep it tonight." Double Damn. Tears welled at the corners of my eyes and my heart collapsed in my stomach, begging me to end it now. It couldn't go on. Sure, a little dramatic maybe, but when all you want to do is be with your boyfriend and friends and instead work two jobs, you tend to be a little over the top with everything else.

My manager felt bad. He could obviously tell that this was the last thing I wanted to do in life. So he made it worth while. If I were to do this, he'd reward me in some way. Okay, I can handle that. This will make it worth it. Not true.

The night started off stagnantly and it was pretty much unbearable. Then my friend Kara and her boyfriend and his two friends graced me with their presence. They snatched up my last open table! God DOES love me! At least there was something to return to after circling my five other boring tables. And obviously to save me from the embarrassment of the football game we were witnessing.

As things go they had to leave, damn, and I was left to deal with the trivia people that would be pouring in through our doors in less than an hour. ::crosses fingers:: please don't be crazy please don't be rude please tip well. Lucky for me, most of the people didn't come in because they figured it was canceled. yippee! A few groups filtered through but I hardly paid any attention. I was too excited to play with my other co-workers and listen to the songs they were making up. Genius.

After all three of my tables won something during trivia, it was well after midnight and time to clean up. Damn. What a process! there was crap everywhere. Talk about awful. People: EAT CLEANER!!!! Please. Thank you. I was still doing some pretty badass vacuuming when one of the trivia hosts asked if I wanted her to start my car. Why not?! It's freezing out there and there is no excuse not too. If it has to run, it should run while I'm working. So after some thank yous, I continued to attempt to vacuum up all the salt from the roads outside.

This process took longer than expected. It was already 1:40 and it was finally time to go! Derek, a co-worker of mine, asked if I could start his car because he still had a few things left to do. I happily agreed and walked out the front door. That's when I froze. Not because of the crisp wintery weather that had left our night sky to be in the single digit numbers, but because my car was nowhere in sight. I looked to the left, thinking maybe I parked it a little farther than I remembered. No. I turned to the right to see if anyone had moved it as a prank. Double no. Double, triple damn. Well.... at this point the word wasn't damn. It was something more vulgar.

The rest is history. Mall police, City police, insurance calls and claims, depression, tears, anger, hostility, etc. You name it, I've experienced it. I acted calm and collected yesterday but without the boyfriend that I love so much being here with me, it makes me remember all the things I lost. All the things I loved and cherished. I know these things can't go to heaven with me when I die, but it's still pretty sad.

Damn