So back in October, oh the lovely month of October, I was given a list. What kind of list the reader might ask the mighty (hee hee) blogger, and the blogger shall tell you. It is a list of 50 books. The list was given to me for my birthday because I had asked someone their top 100 books. Thinking that 100 is outrageous, he gave me 50. And for some reason, I hadn't looked over the list until, well, now. And on this list, how many have I read? 4. 4!!! Seriously? That is a HORRIBLE number. So what does all of this mean? Oh! Glad you asked! It means that I have made a New Year's Resolution. Oh the dreaded failed resolutions. Funny how I still don't have abs even though it's been my resolution since... 9th grade? Hah. But this type of resolution is to better my mind, not my body, and that's why I think it'll work. With school out the window (yes, I still have one class, and no, I won't have the money by January.... read Damn, you'll realize where my money has gone) I have lots of free time to read and, hopefully, work on my novel once again. That bad boy is comin along and I need to have my mind ready to go if I ever plan to get that thing out to breath. And since you can't rely on anyone to help you out, it's gotta be you and you alone.
Now this list is very daunting. It's not little easy peasey books, but monstrosities! Thank God I've already read Moby Dick. Check. Also To Kill A Mockingbird, Huck Finn, and Frankenstein are off the list, but my God, number 1 is Les Mis. See you next year. That thing will take me forever! Oye.
I'm thinking that every time I finish a book, I will post my thoughts on this here blog. Might as well pass my knowledge forth to all you readers. I'm not sure that sentence made sense. Maybe I can correct it once I've read all these books. :) Anyway...
Christmas is upon us and it's looking like a good one. My family is throwing a small and intimate get-together. Yes, you can put your eyes back inside your head. No, hell did not freeze over, and yes, I'm hanging out with my family instead of watching reruns on Hulu and eating Spaghettios. I'm not sure what came upon my mom to want to do something, but it might be kind of nice. Except this whole present thing. Look, I've never been instilled to buy my family presents. We never hang out and I've never had a ton of money to waste on hankies for my dad (seriously, who still uses those?) and yet another horse thing for my mom? But now that there is a full fledged event, gifts are necessary. For everyone. Holly, mom, dad, Andrew, Justin, Dusty, Olivia, and the girls. Eek! What do I even BUY these people? I mean my sister is easy. I have a constant list for her going on. Who knows. I've gotten some ideas, but the rest will be grabbed at the last second and crappy wrapping to match.
Now I have a secret. I've been keeping it from you this whole time. I should have started with it, but then the secret would have been out and none of my writing would have mattered. You wouldn't of been able to focus on anything and then this blog would have been wasted! Are you excited to learn my secret? YOU SHOULD BE! I.... am.... getting.... sidetracked! Hahahahahaha. did you think it was going to be that I was going to get married? Nope. Not even kind of. (well maybe someday!) I was originally cleaning my dump of a room, but then I found the list and decided to write a blog. So sorry, that was it. I hyped you for nothing. So settle, take a bath, let the excitement roll of your shoulders. I'm going to clean and try to continue to be productive.
Love
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Damn
Besides the fact that it's been a few days over a month long since I've written last, I still love this blog. It's just exhausting and daunting sometimes. And quite frankly, I don't think anyone wants to read my DAILY life. It's not THAT exciting. I do feel that Monday's events would be quite interesting to most people. So hey, why not share the gloom right?
On Monday, I did not want to go to work. It was more than normal. The night before I was told that the Vikings game was moved because of the unexpected collapse of the Metrodome. Damn (It's the word of the blog folks!) So the game was now moved to this Monday night. To make matters worse, one of the servers had finals so it was up to me to fill his position for the closing of the store. Every fiber in my being declined but the words that slipped from these lips were "I guess". I am a people-pleaser from the bottom of my heart so when the manager asked me to stay, I said I guess. I really wanted to go into work happy. Maybe then the night would be so long. A shift from 4:30-1:30? I can do it!
But when I pulled my dirty red car into the parking lot, I sighed a heavy sigh and knew that this wasn't going to be a good night. A frown on my face when I entered the restaurant, my manager pulls me aside and says "I know I said I'd cancel Monday night Trivia, but we decided to keep it tonight." Double Damn. Tears welled at the corners of my eyes and my heart collapsed in my stomach, begging me to end it now. It couldn't go on. Sure, a little dramatic maybe, but when all you want to do is be with your boyfriend and friends and instead work two jobs, you tend to be a little over the top with everything else.
My manager felt bad. He could obviously tell that this was the last thing I wanted to do in life. So he made it worth while. If I were to do this, he'd reward me in some way. Okay, I can handle that. This will make it worth it. Not true.
The night started off stagnantly and it was pretty much unbearable. Then my friend Kara and her boyfriend and his two friends graced me with their presence. They snatched up my last open table! God DOES love me! At least there was something to return to after circling my five other boring tables. And obviously to save me from the embarrassment of the football game we were witnessing.
As things go they had to leave, damn, and I was left to deal with the trivia people that would be pouring in through our doors in less than an hour. ::crosses fingers:: please don't be crazy please don't be rude please tip well. Lucky for me, most of the people didn't come in because they figured it was canceled. yippee! A few groups filtered through but I hardly paid any attention. I was too excited to play with my other co-workers and listen to the songs they were making up. Genius.
After all three of my tables won something during trivia, it was well after midnight and time to clean up. Damn. What a process! there was crap everywhere. Talk about awful. People: EAT CLEANER!!!! Please. Thank you. I was still doing some pretty badass vacuuming when one of the trivia hosts asked if I wanted her to start my car. Why not?! It's freezing out there and there is no excuse not too. If it has to run, it should run while I'm working. So after some thank yous, I continued to attempt to vacuum up all the salt from the roads outside.
This process took longer than expected. It was already 1:40 and it was finally time to go! Derek, a co-worker of mine, asked if I could start his car because he still had a few things left to do. I happily agreed and walked out the front door. That's when I froze. Not because of the crisp wintery weather that had left our night sky to be in the single digit numbers, but because my car was nowhere in sight. I looked to the left, thinking maybe I parked it a little farther than I remembered. No. I turned to the right to see if anyone had moved it as a prank. Double no. Double, triple damn. Well.... at this point the word wasn't damn. It was something more vulgar.
The rest is history. Mall police, City police, insurance calls and claims, depression, tears, anger, hostility, etc. You name it, I've experienced it. I acted calm and collected yesterday but without the boyfriend that I love so much being here with me, it makes me remember all the things I lost. All the things I loved and cherished. I know these things can't go to heaven with me when I die, but it's still pretty sad.
Damn
On Monday, I did not want to go to work. It was more than normal. The night before I was told that the Vikings game was moved because of the unexpected collapse of the Metrodome. Damn (It's the word of the blog folks!) So the game was now moved to this Monday night. To make matters worse, one of the servers had finals so it was up to me to fill his position for the closing of the store. Every fiber in my being declined but the words that slipped from these lips were "I guess". I am a people-pleaser from the bottom of my heart so when the manager asked me to stay, I said I guess. I really wanted to go into work happy. Maybe then the night would be so long. A shift from 4:30-1:30? I can do it!
But when I pulled my dirty red car into the parking lot, I sighed a heavy sigh and knew that this wasn't going to be a good night. A frown on my face when I entered the restaurant, my manager pulls me aside and says "I know I said I'd cancel Monday night Trivia, but we decided to keep it tonight." Double Damn. Tears welled at the corners of my eyes and my heart collapsed in my stomach, begging me to end it now. It couldn't go on. Sure, a little dramatic maybe, but when all you want to do is be with your boyfriend and friends and instead work two jobs, you tend to be a little over the top with everything else.
My manager felt bad. He could obviously tell that this was the last thing I wanted to do in life. So he made it worth while. If I were to do this, he'd reward me in some way. Okay, I can handle that. This will make it worth it. Not true.
The night started off stagnantly and it was pretty much unbearable. Then my friend Kara and her boyfriend and his two friends graced me with their presence. They snatched up my last open table! God DOES love me! At least there was something to return to after circling my five other boring tables. And obviously to save me from the embarrassment of the football game we were witnessing.
As things go they had to leave, damn, and I was left to deal with the trivia people that would be pouring in through our doors in less than an hour. ::crosses fingers:: please don't be crazy please don't be rude please tip well. Lucky for me, most of the people didn't come in because they figured it was canceled. yippee! A few groups filtered through but I hardly paid any attention. I was too excited to play with my other co-workers and listen to the songs they were making up. Genius.
After all three of my tables won something during trivia, it was well after midnight and time to clean up. Damn. What a process! there was crap everywhere. Talk about awful. People: EAT CLEANER!!!! Please. Thank you. I was still doing some pretty badass vacuuming when one of the trivia hosts asked if I wanted her to start my car. Why not?! It's freezing out there and there is no excuse not too. If it has to run, it should run while I'm working. So after some thank yous, I continued to attempt to vacuum up all the salt from the roads outside.
This process took longer than expected. It was already 1:40 and it was finally time to go! Derek, a co-worker of mine, asked if I could start his car because he still had a few things left to do. I happily agreed and walked out the front door. That's when I froze. Not because of the crisp wintery weather that had left our night sky to be in the single digit numbers, but because my car was nowhere in sight. I looked to the left, thinking maybe I parked it a little farther than I remembered. No. I turned to the right to see if anyone had moved it as a prank. Double no. Double, triple damn. Well.... at this point the word wasn't damn. It was something more vulgar.
The rest is history. Mall police, City police, insurance calls and claims, depression, tears, anger, hostility, etc. You name it, I've experienced it. I acted calm and collected yesterday but without the boyfriend that I love so much being here with me, it makes me remember all the things I lost. All the things I loved and cherished. I know these things can't go to heaven with me when I die, but it's still pretty sad.
Damn
Friday, November 12, 2010
****commitme****
Funny how the word commitment has "commit me" in it. That's what it is sometimes apparently. To be committed means that you are stuck in this place forever and you aren't sure you wanna be there forever. You were thinking of maybe wading around for a while and getting out of there before you are consumed in the water.
For some reason commitment has never been an issue for me. Okay, so maybe not in relationships. Except I've been pretty committed in going to school. And pretty committed to keeping most of my friends. And committed to writing a book. So you know what? I love commitment. I love the idea of having something and going for it. Yah, it's hard, and yah, it takes a while, but it's so worth it in the end. There is a huge reward for accomplishing the commitment you had signed up for. Did I really want to be royalty in high school? noooooo. But I did it. And in the end, I walked out with a great friend and some crazy experiences for my life. I've also been pretty committed to writing this blog. Some days its hard, and I don't feel interesting and I don't have great ideas to write about like other people, but man... I can look back into my life and see exactly what I was doing and how I was feeling, and how I've changed. That's worth everything.
Where is this coming from? Well I've become the only person ready for a commitment. The room mate calls it courage, I call it a freak accident. Does it stem all the way back to my parents not having a great marriage for most of my childhood? That commitment needs to mean more than just words on a piece of paper and an idea?
According to Wikipedia.com commitment is : "means to show loyalty, duty or pledge to something or someone." Don't we do that everyday? We pick our families cuz that's the right thing to do. We keep our friends because they become our allies in this life. We sign leases, buy cars, buy pets, go to school, make a career decision, etc.
Of course this has made me curious. What does the bible have to say about all this ? Well in Jeremiah 30:21 it says "Who is he who will devote himself to be close to me?" God knew that it wasn't going to be easy for His children to devote, or commit their lives to him. But that's what it is. And while that is the scariest of scary things to do, we do it because we want a relationship with our Father. Maybe some people are doing that for the wrong reason. They are making this "commitment" because they see the reward in the end... heaven. But God will know the difference. He will know the real reasons and the real motives you had for doing things. And with human relationships and commitments, we will never know. I will never know if people commit to one another for the right reasons. Let's hope that they do.
How is it possible that so many people around me have a problem with it? It's not even like guys are afraid of it and girls want it, but it's on both sides. I'm not sure if I'm just mature for my generation or what. Probably not because plenty of my friends are married with children, or children on the way. They obviously welcome commitment in their homes.
The one problem to commitment is being committed to someone who isn't sure about commitment. It's the trap door in the whole idea. For while I'm committed to someone the rest of my life, that person may never ever commit and we are stuck forever. I'm not saying this is the case, but... who knows?
Maybe I should just be... committed. heh.
Love
For some reason commitment has never been an issue for me. Okay, so maybe not in relationships. Except I've been pretty committed in going to school. And pretty committed to keeping most of my friends. And committed to writing a book. So you know what? I love commitment. I love the idea of having something and going for it. Yah, it's hard, and yah, it takes a while, but it's so worth it in the end. There is a huge reward for accomplishing the commitment you had signed up for. Did I really want to be royalty in high school? noooooo. But I did it. And in the end, I walked out with a great friend and some crazy experiences for my life. I've also been pretty committed to writing this blog. Some days its hard, and I don't feel interesting and I don't have great ideas to write about like other people, but man... I can look back into my life and see exactly what I was doing and how I was feeling, and how I've changed. That's worth everything.
Where is this coming from? Well I've become the only person ready for a commitment. The room mate calls it courage, I call it a freak accident. Does it stem all the way back to my parents not having a great marriage for most of my childhood? That commitment needs to mean more than just words on a piece of paper and an idea?
According to Wikipedia.com commitment is : "means to show loyalty, duty or pledge to something or someone." Don't we do that everyday? We pick our families cuz that's the right thing to do. We keep our friends because they become our allies in this life. We sign leases, buy cars, buy pets, go to school, make a career decision, etc.
Of course this has made me curious. What does the bible have to say about all this ? Well in Jeremiah 30:21 it says "Who is he who will devote himself to be close to me?" God knew that it wasn't going to be easy for His children to devote, or commit their lives to him. But that's what it is. And while that is the scariest of scary things to do, we do it because we want a relationship with our Father. Maybe some people are doing that for the wrong reason. They are making this "commitment" because they see the reward in the end... heaven. But God will know the difference. He will know the real reasons and the real motives you had for doing things. And with human relationships and commitments, we will never know. I will never know if people commit to one another for the right reasons. Let's hope that they do.
How is it possible that so many people around me have a problem with it? It's not even like guys are afraid of it and girls want it, but it's on both sides. I'm not sure if I'm just mature for my generation or what. Probably not because plenty of my friends are married with children, or children on the way. They obviously welcome commitment in their homes.
The one problem to commitment is being committed to someone who isn't sure about commitment. It's the trap door in the whole idea. For while I'm committed to someone the rest of my life, that person may never ever commit and we are stuck forever. I'm not saying this is the case, but... who knows?
Maybe I should just be... committed. heh.
Love
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
To me... you are Perfect
I think I was told that by someone amazing and wonderful once. :) Just saying...
I know I know, its been a long time since I've written and, gulp, I've failed my photo project. ON DAY ONE. Wow. Fail fail fail fail. Can't believe it. But really... WHAT was I thinking?? I started a huge project like this on my birthday. Which happens to be right before a weekend. Which was super busy. I'd have to be already deeply conditioned to take on such a huge task. This project needs to start on a Monday in the middle of January. Yep. That's my new idea. I need to be so bored and ready for anything to bring me back to life, and I deem this project that boredom saver. So save the date! The project will happen... just months from now.
Now, this is always the hard part. It's been what, 20 DAYS since I've written last. And a lot has happened. It's a busy time of year. What can I say. So let's recap in a sensible way.
Oct. 21- haunted trail, flowers, soup with friends=terrifyingly tasty
Oct. 22- murder mystery party, dinner, amazing boyfriend= dangerously delightful
Oct. 23- hayrides, bonfires, hot cider= refreshingly revitalizing
Oct. 24- work, birthdays, football=amazingly awesome (football on the Beckmans TV is awesome. Too bad the Packers won.)
Oct. 26- windiest day EVER, pizza with the Damjanoviches, Biggest loser and BIGGEST bunny= hysterically honest
Oct. 30-church, costume finding, Skip-Bo= surprisingly skippalicious
Oct. 31- birthday, wonderful and awesome Jennifer Beckman birthday party, the torture chair = frightfully fun
Nov. 1- rabbit rabbit (that's all I have to say)
Nov. 2- voting, polls, news watching= unbelievably unique
Nov. 4- window shopping, pizza with Megan, little girl thinking Megan is 8= magnificently marvelous
Nov. 5- cheesecake factory, Beckman fun, Hook= honestly humbling
Nov. 6- apple cider, Skip-Bo rematch, CVS run during the Daylight Savings Time= savingly super
Nov. 8- Nate's house, pizza and cookie making, mancala (sp?)= mostly moving
Nov. 9- Late night walk, deep conversations, time with boyfriend= perfectly priceless
Phew! that was a lot of work! Now of course I am missing some days, but I'd say that is a pretty great wrap up!! It's got all the great things that happened in the last 3 weeks and in only 165 words! Yes... I looked that up. I wanted to see how long that was. So that's what I've been up to. It's been crazy. And that's not even adding in all the work that's been in there. And of course all the dates I have with Alyssa. But this has been my life. And I love it.
I've noticed that a lot of my friends have been exclaiming how fast life is going by right now. And for some odd reason, I don't see it. Seriously, I really don't. I think I'm so enamored with life right now that I'm soaking up every moment. I mean heck, I basically just recalled three weeks in my life because I remember it all and enjoy it all. I'm surrounded by people I love and work that I like, and new experiences. I can't trade that in for anything. So while everyone else is for some reason saying life is going way too fast, I think it's going the perfect speed. Is it because I'm not waiting for anything? I'm not waiting for school to be done, or for a promotion at a job, or just a new job. Who knows. I have no reason. I just find it funny that I believe that it's November 10th, and everyone else can't believe it. Just something to think about.
Let me also say that I have a smart boyfriend. Our conversation last night was, well, satisfying. We went on a late night walk (Okay, it was 8, but it was already so DARK) and we talked about first the stars. and I wanted to find a satellite but of course none of them were near us when we stopped and looked. But then it turned into this conversation about galaxies, universes, space and time, energy and matter, and God. I can't even wrap my head around all the things that we discussed. He's so smart. I love that he can answer questions that I would otherwise have no idea how to answer. It was a perfect night. :)
Alright, I have to work. Hopefully that was a suffice recap of the last three weeks in my life. If it was non interesting, I suggest ending reading this blog. now. or.... now. or if you can't seem to just stop reading and keep reading the words that I am writing... maybe you are secretly in love with me and my writing. I'm okay with that.
Love
I know I know, its been a long time since I've written and, gulp, I've failed my photo project. ON DAY ONE. Wow. Fail fail fail fail. Can't believe it. But really... WHAT was I thinking?? I started a huge project like this on my birthday. Which happens to be right before a weekend. Which was super busy. I'd have to be already deeply conditioned to take on such a huge task. This project needs to start on a Monday in the middle of January. Yep. That's my new idea. I need to be so bored and ready for anything to bring me back to life, and I deem this project that boredom saver. So save the date! The project will happen... just months from now.
Now, this is always the hard part. It's been what, 20 DAYS since I've written last. And a lot has happened. It's a busy time of year. What can I say. So let's recap in a sensible way.
Oct. 21- haunted trail, flowers, soup with friends=terrifyingly tasty
Oct. 22- murder mystery party, dinner, amazing boyfriend= dangerously delightful
Oct. 23- hayrides, bonfires, hot cider= refreshingly revitalizing
Oct. 24- work, birthdays, football=amazingly awesome (football on the Beckmans TV is awesome. Too bad the Packers won.)
Oct. 26- windiest day EVER, pizza with the Damjanoviches, Biggest loser and BIGGEST bunny= hysterically honest
Oct. 30-church, costume finding, Skip-Bo= surprisingly skippalicious
Oct. 31- birthday, wonderful and awesome Jennifer Beckman birthday party, the torture chair = frightfully fun
Nov. 1- rabbit rabbit (that's all I have to say)
Nov. 2- voting, polls, news watching= unbelievably unique
Nov. 4- window shopping, pizza with Megan, little girl thinking Megan is 8= magnificently marvelous
Nov. 5- cheesecake factory, Beckman fun, Hook= honestly humbling
Nov. 6- apple cider, Skip-Bo rematch, CVS run during the Daylight Savings Time= savingly super
Nov. 8- Nate's house, pizza and cookie making, mancala (sp?)= mostly moving
Nov. 9- Late night walk, deep conversations, time with boyfriend= perfectly priceless
Phew! that was a lot of work! Now of course I am missing some days, but I'd say that is a pretty great wrap up!! It's got all the great things that happened in the last 3 weeks and in only 165 words! Yes... I looked that up. I wanted to see how long that was. So that's what I've been up to. It's been crazy. And that's not even adding in all the work that's been in there. And of course all the dates I have with Alyssa. But this has been my life. And I love it.
I've noticed that a lot of my friends have been exclaiming how fast life is going by right now. And for some odd reason, I don't see it. Seriously, I really don't. I think I'm so enamored with life right now that I'm soaking up every moment. I mean heck, I basically just recalled three weeks in my life because I remember it all and enjoy it all. I'm surrounded by people I love and work that I like, and new experiences. I can't trade that in for anything. So while everyone else is for some reason saying life is going way too fast, I think it's going the perfect speed. Is it because I'm not waiting for anything? I'm not waiting for school to be done, or for a promotion at a job, or just a new job. Who knows. I have no reason. I just find it funny that I believe that it's November 10th, and everyone else can't believe it. Just something to think about.
Let me also say that I have a smart boyfriend. Our conversation last night was, well, satisfying. We went on a late night walk (Okay, it was 8, but it was already so DARK) and we talked about first the stars. and I wanted to find a satellite but of course none of them were near us when we stopped and looked. But then it turned into this conversation about galaxies, universes, space and time, energy and matter, and God. I can't even wrap my head around all the things that we discussed. He's so smart. I love that he can answer questions that I would otherwise have no idea how to answer. It was a perfect night. :)
Alright, I have to work. Hopefully that was a suffice recap of the last three weeks in my life. If it was non interesting, I suggest ending reading this blog. now. or.... now. or if you can't seem to just stop reading and keep reading the words that I am writing... maybe you are secretly in love with me and my writing. I'm okay with that.
Love
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Day 1 of 365
Oh man! I am pumped. More pumped than you can believe! Why? Oh hmmm.... cuz... you know. It's my Birthday! That's right. As of 12am October 21st, it became a wonderful wonderful day. The stars are brighter, the moon is large, and the temperature is just right. While everyone doesn't feel this way about their own birthdays, I can't help but over excite to make up for their lack thereof. Why? Why would this day matter? Why would any birthday matter? Why let me give you my cliche birthday rant!
Not only were you a screaming crying bloody mess on this day of birth, but your mom and dad became parents, your life came into existence (in the breathing world anyway) and why because God brought us here to experience life. All the people in my life were brought here by God and given to me by God and I thank Him for that. And even though I guess WE didn't do anything on our birthday (Thank you mothers for deciding to actually have us. Bless your hearts) we are still here existing. Every year is a new adventure and every year we get a little wiser, and probably a little bit spacier. If this isn't a good enough reason to be excited about a birthday, well I'll never make you understand. But I still love them. I'm pretty sure I've been quoted to say "everyone has a birthday everyday" or something to that affect. I think I meant everyone has a birthday at some point. I'm insane. But we've established this long ago, so let's move on.
Oh! Don't let me forget that I am a TWIN and this makes this day more magical. :) Shout out to my seeeester! Love.
So what does my title mean today? Well.... many things I believe. It is the first day of my 24th year of living. That's pretty exciting. But we don't need a countdown like that. A year would feel crazy long if I counted EVERYDAY. No no.... this is for the...wait for it... wait for it... the infamous 365 day project! I know I mentioned it in one of my last blogs but the time has come to start. An acquaintance from way back started to do a photo project where you take a picture every day. It can be of anything. And while hers were really freaking sweet and I could never do anything like that, I figured why not start? I might learn something along the way. Well, I will for sure learn discipline (taking photos EVERYDAY... exhausting) skill (we don't want the SAME photo everyday) creativity, etc. I figured I'll start off pretty simple and see what I can do in the days and months to come. It'll be exciting! Or I might fail. Or I might miss a few days. Maybe not in that order. You get the point. I know this all seems crazy considering I have a million things on my plate, but I figured that it was something for me to do during the day instead of watching endless hours of television shows. Yes, those shows are still awesome, but this will at least break up my day. And who knows what could happen in this year. There could be wonderful things to photograph, why not capture a year of your life, a year of your prime life perhaps, on camera? So TODAY folks I will post my first ever, not-so-cool photo. The rest will be found on a facebook photo album or maybe even photobucket or something. We'll see how this project starts.
Better turn in. Tomorrow and Friday are going to be BIG days filled with haunted trails, murder mysteries, dinners, shopping, and friends. Shall be awesome and amazing. Thanks in advance to all who helped make this 2 day birthday event possible.
Love
Not only were you a screaming crying bloody mess on this day of birth, but your mom and dad became parents, your life came into existence (in the breathing world anyway) and why because God brought us here to experience life. All the people in my life were brought here by God and given to me by God and I thank Him for that. And even though I guess WE didn't do anything on our birthday (Thank you mothers for deciding to actually have us. Bless your hearts) we are still here existing. Every year is a new adventure and every year we get a little wiser, and probably a little bit spacier. If this isn't a good enough reason to be excited about a birthday, well I'll never make you understand. But I still love them. I'm pretty sure I've been quoted to say "everyone has a birthday everyday" or something to that affect. I think I meant everyone has a birthday at some point. I'm insane. But we've established this long ago, so let's move on.
Oh! Don't let me forget that I am a TWIN and this makes this day more magical. :) Shout out to my seeeester! Love.
So what does my title mean today? Well.... many things I believe. It is the first day of my 24th year of living. That's pretty exciting. But we don't need a countdown like that. A year would feel crazy long if I counted EVERYDAY. No no.... this is for the...wait for it... wait for it... the infamous 365 day project! I know I mentioned it in one of my last blogs but the time has come to start. An acquaintance from way back started to do a photo project where you take a picture every day. It can be of anything. And while hers were really freaking sweet and I could never do anything like that, I figured why not start? I might learn something along the way. Well, I will for sure learn discipline (taking photos EVERYDAY... exhausting) skill (we don't want the SAME photo everyday) creativity, etc. I figured I'll start off pretty simple and see what I can do in the days and months to come. It'll be exciting! Or I might fail. Or I might miss a few days. Maybe not in that order. You get the point. I know this all seems crazy considering I have a million things on my plate, but I figured that it was something for me to do during the day instead of watching endless hours of television shows. Yes, those shows are still awesome, but this will at least break up my day. And who knows what could happen in this year. There could be wonderful things to photograph, why not capture a year of your life, a year of your prime life perhaps, on camera? So TODAY folks I will post my first ever, not-so-cool photo. The rest will be found on a facebook photo album or maybe even photobucket or something. We'll see how this project starts.
Better turn in. Tomorrow and Friday are going to be BIG days filled with haunted trails, murder mysteries, dinners, shopping, and friends. Shall be awesome and amazing. Thanks in advance to all who helped make this 2 day birthday event possible.
Love
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Forgiveness Part Deux
I'm asking God for forgiveness today. Likewise, I'm asking others for forgiveness and giving forgiveness to others. Wow, that's a lot of forgiving. But it's heavily needed. I'm officially 24 in a week and I don't want baggage crossing over with me. New birthday creates new meaning and new ideas and new lives. Things happen that are unfortunate. They are tragic and messy, but think about if we NEVER forgave people and we carried it with us for all time? Kept a little pocket notebook next to our bed so we could re-read the bad things done to us?
Okay side note: If you wanna feel calmed, go to Pandora.com and make a playlist based on Mumford and Sons. Holy goodness it's wonderful. Sure some of the songs are like, really? You thought THIS was a good song to add to this epic list of music? Hmm.... no thanks Daughtry, nobody wants you here. Okay, so maybe not HIM, but other people that usually aren't your fancy. And if you like Daughtry, you can go ahead and stop reading my blog. I can almost guarantee you that I will bash him again, and others like him. And if you actually take my advice and do this, you should tell me how it goes. I'm quite curious to see if you, my reader, has the same taste in music. Don't get me wrong, I love other music, but for calming purposes, and some soothing voices, this is your channel.
Back to forgiveness. Here we go. So could you hold on to the bad things like that in your little notebook? What would it say? Tiffany told everyone on the playground that I liked Dan. It was embarrassing. I was 5. Of course I still remember it. My mind is a steal trap (except sometimes it's not. whoopsies. lol) But when I see this Tiffany girl I would never think of walking up to her and yelling at her for doing that to me. I was five! And heck, Dan is and was cute! Or hmmm... another example you guys are looking for? When I was 4 Sam in the trailer park we lived in (don't ask) ALWAYS led us around in follow the leader and Holly and I never got to. Maybe that's a bad example, because I don't think I'd be friends with her because of that. lol. But you get my point. If God forgives me probably before I even do the bad thing because He knows everything, then I can handle doing some of my own forgiveness. This is taken off BibleGateway.com
And you know... I probably shouldn't feel so bad that I can't seem to forgive as much as I want to. God made us these awesome and unique creatures that love, and hate, and have so much emotion we don't even know what to do with it. Things are bound to happen! And since we are born sinners, we are going to sin. We can't be perfect like our wonderful Father, so we sin and we feel bad and we repent and we do the cycle day in and day out. So... I guess I'm starting at step 1 today. I'm okay with that. The beginning is always nice. It's refreshing. Let's hope this step 1 lasts at least until my birthday! Or that we can go through the cycle again before then. Haha. What a silly world we live in. Have a wonderful day today friends and kids alike!
Love
Okay side note: If you wanna feel calmed, go to Pandora.com and make a playlist based on Mumford and Sons. Holy goodness it's wonderful. Sure some of the songs are like, really? You thought THIS was a good song to add to this epic list of music? Hmm.... no thanks Daughtry, nobody wants you here. Okay, so maybe not HIM, but other people that usually aren't your fancy. And if you like Daughtry, you can go ahead and stop reading my blog. I can almost guarantee you that I will bash him again, and others like him. And if you actually take my advice and do this, you should tell me how it goes. I'm quite curious to see if you, my reader, has the same taste in music. Don't get me wrong, I love other music, but for calming purposes, and some soothing voices, this is your channel.
Back to forgiveness. Here we go. So could you hold on to the bad things like that in your little notebook? What would it say? Tiffany told everyone on the playground that I liked Dan. It was embarrassing. I was 5. Of course I still remember it. My mind is a steal trap (except sometimes it's not. whoopsies. lol) But when I see this Tiffany girl I would never think of walking up to her and yelling at her for doing that to me. I was five! And heck, Dan is and was cute! Or hmmm... another example you guys are looking for? When I was 4 Sam in the trailer park we lived in (don't ask) ALWAYS led us around in follow the leader and Holly and I never got to. Maybe that's a bad example, because I don't think I'd be friends with her because of that. lol. But you get my point. If God forgives me probably before I even do the bad thing because He knows everything, then I can handle doing some of my own forgiveness. This is taken off BibleGateway.com
- Genesis 50:17
'This is what you are to say to Joseph: I ask you to forgive your brothers the sins and the wrongs they committed in treating you so badly.' Now please forgive the sins of the servants of the God of your father." When their message came to him, Joseph wept.
Genesis 50:16-18 (in Context) Genesis 50 (Whole Chapter)
And you know... I probably shouldn't feel so bad that I can't seem to forgive as much as I want to. God made us these awesome and unique creatures that love, and hate, and have so much emotion we don't even know what to do with it. Things are bound to happen! And since we are born sinners, we are going to sin. We can't be perfect like our wonderful Father, so we sin and we feel bad and we repent and we do the cycle day in and day out. So... I guess I'm starting at step 1 today. I'm okay with that. The beginning is always nice. It's refreshing. Let's hope this step 1 lasts at least until my birthday! Or that we can go through the cycle again before then. Haha. What a silly world we live in. Have a wonderful day today friends and kids alike!
Love
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Mile One: Here we are
Okay, we obviously see a very big change in my blog. I'm loving the new background... very fallish. And the profile photo? Well not to mention that it was at like 5 years old, it was needing to go. This one was taken on my sister's wedding day. I have another photo in my mind but it'll have to be developed before I put it up there. The Title? Oh the title is the best! I thought of it as I was trying to fall asleep last night. I kind of wrote a description on my "About me" section but I'll explain it to you kiddies right now anyway. Basically I think miles are interesting. We travel them everyday collecting them on our cars and not paying attention to them. Well I basically got my car brand new. It was shiny, it was showroom floor material, and it was mine. And I drove it EVERYWHERE. Seriously. Nebraska, Iowa, Chicago, D.C., New York, Boston, Cleveland, Wisconsin... this list could go on, but I won't bother. You get the point. And then suddenly my car hit 50,000 miles. Considering I started on mile 24, this was a huge deal! So I took a picture and decided, woah. What have I done in the last 50,000 miles? And the answer surprised me. So flashback... or forward.... to now. College is over (basically) and life is in a sense starting over. And instead of counting the years of college, or how many years have passed, it was just nice to kind of start over with actually doing so. I didn't want to write a new blog, I wanted to keep my same comfy one. Nothing really will change. Maybe the ideas I write about, or photos will be added a lot more (365 project is sounding oh-so-enticing.) So yep! Just thought I'd give you guys the heads up.
Love
Love
24 and 40
So while I'm still a week or so away from my birthday, I've noticed a trend. By 11pm this evening I realized that over 10 of my friends were already in bed, or at least heading to it. I can't even try to contain myself. The image I'm getting??
(Photo from somewhere online. Ringobingo.net apparently!)
Now that's not what I really had in mind. 20 somethings are supposed to be alive and full of energy, still living off of those college fumes. But most of my friends got day jobs and are not able to keep a young lifestyle and still be bright eyed at 8am. Where am I going with this? Well... it's a confusing place to be in I guess. Where do you go from this point? I serve at nights and everyone else works in the morning. I feel at a loss because I don't want to conform to this horribly rigid schedule, but I want to see my friends and boyfriend at a normal hour. Although the serving world has been paying me pretty well.... so it's hard to turn my cheek on it. Maybe I was just hoping that this phase in our life wouldn't hit already. Or if I were married by now it wouldn't be so bad because I could just come home to someone and curl in bed with them. With Alyssa, she might be weirded out if I curled up next to her. Actually.... she'd probably hit me because she'd be confused as to who was in her bed.
Hmmm, what to do what to do! There is always a possibility of a day job but it seems that all options depend on other options. Confusing? Yah. I know. I would love to start serving in downtown mornings and afternoons because there would be great clientele (aka business people and people enjoying the cities) and then I'd have all my nights off. But the downfall of this is that I need to finish a class next semester to graduate. I could do a night class but then that would interfere with the fact that I'm trying to see where this internship position will lead me. Will I get a job there? And if I do why quit my serving job now or quit the new place if I decide to switch. And I want to leave all doors open just so I don't close a window? Oh I dunno! So you see my dilemma?
I guess that's my rant today. Of course I really don't want to go back into a different point in my life, I'm excited to see where it goes from here. I think Ill just sit here and wait for an answer. Or pray about it. That's always a good idea. : )
Love
(Photo from somewhere online. Ringobingo.net apparently!)Now that's not what I really had in mind. 20 somethings are supposed to be alive and full of energy, still living off of those college fumes. But most of my friends got day jobs and are not able to keep a young lifestyle and still be bright eyed at 8am. Where am I going with this? Well... it's a confusing place to be in I guess. Where do you go from this point? I serve at nights and everyone else works in the morning. I feel at a loss because I don't want to conform to this horribly rigid schedule, but I want to see my friends and boyfriend at a normal hour. Although the serving world has been paying me pretty well.... so it's hard to turn my cheek on it. Maybe I was just hoping that this phase in our life wouldn't hit already. Or if I were married by now it wouldn't be so bad because I could just come home to someone and curl in bed with them. With Alyssa, she might be weirded out if I curled up next to her. Actually.... she'd probably hit me because she'd be confused as to who was in her bed.
Hmmm, what to do what to do! There is always a possibility of a day job but it seems that all options depend on other options. Confusing? Yah. I know. I would love to start serving in downtown mornings and afternoons because there would be great clientele (aka business people and people enjoying the cities) and then I'd have all my nights off. But the downfall of this is that I need to finish a class next semester to graduate. I could do a night class but then that would interfere with the fact that I'm trying to see where this internship position will lead me. Will I get a job there? And if I do why quit my serving job now or quit the new place if I decide to switch. And I want to leave all doors open just so I don't close a window? Oh I dunno! So you see my dilemma?
I guess that's my rant today. Of course I really don't want to go back into a different point in my life, I'm excited to see where it goes from here. I think Ill just sit here and wait for an answer. Or pray about it. That's always a good idea. : )
Love
Wednesday, October 06, 2010
Not the smartest bulb....
So for months I've been very frustrated with my blog. I couldn't figure out why it wasn't letting me do certain things like change the font, font color, font size, etc. Well... turns out it's because I've had it on the wrong setting this whole time. Can someone say yikes! Honestly! You think I would have tried that. I'm not even sure what I really did TRY. There was an assumption that since Blogger had updated itself and I never changed anything that my stuff just got crappy. I was highly deceived by myself. So now that THAT's out of the way...
Good morning all! I know...it's really noon-time and not morning in any way, but I'm not a morning person. I was kind of this morning as Justin was getting ready for work. Alyssa was up as well since she had to be the boss at her work today, so I figured, why not? I didn't last that long. I helped Alyssa rub cream on her... tattoo... and made sure Justin didn't forget his lunch and then I was back in my warm and comfy bed. So you see... this morning stuff is just not for me. I've already done my share in morning jobs. There is talk about actually trying to serve during the days somewhere, but we'll see where that goes.
Speaking of tattoos, Alyssa got one like TWO days ago. I feel like these things have to be planned so far out in advance, and while yes, she had her estimate done on the thing but she was kinda like, well... today is the day. And then went. But hey, it looks nice, she is happy, and all is well.
Today will be a lazy day. It's the Twins first day in the play-offs and it'll be a very busy night. So I'm going to enjoy this opportunity to be alone, watch some wonderful shows on Hulu, eat something uber tasty, and work on my very long-time-taking novel. It should be a delight! I also learned today that RANDY MOSS is coming back to play for the Minnesota Vikings. Like... he'll be there for the game on Monday. Weird. Really weird. He was the ONLY player I knew on a sports team years and years ago. Now it's becoming a flashback to when he was here and now I can't seem to get the Titanic song out of my head. Like I said, weird.
Finances and legal issues. Life is too short for that so moving on.
The big 24 is coming up in almost two weeks and I'm not ready! I have NO idea what I want to do, no idea what I want to wear, no idea when to do it! I'm usually the one making plans for my birthday. Not because I don't think others would come up with something to do, but it's honestly not their job. It's my birthday and I'm the crazy one who thinks birthdays are just these magical things that happen once a year and that time is the only we get to really acknowledge someone on a yearly basis. It shouldn't be too hard to remember considering it happens the same time every year (Like Christmas and New Years) and why not make people in your life feel special? If I had the money, people would always get something from me. But I don't.... so... it'll probably be a hand-made card from me. Enjoy! At any rate, birthday plans are stuck in park. I don't wanna make people do anything in particular. I just want to see friends and family as usual. So if ANYONE has some good ideas, drop them by my way. :)
Lately Justin has been saying that I'm like Holly in a lot of ways. It's funny. Because I honest to God don't see it. I mean I think it's cute that we have these traits that make us the same even though we are very different people. It's nice to know we are twins in one way or another. But why don't I pick up on it? Hmmm... being a twin is confusing. It's much more than being just a sister. You have this bond automatically from birth. While we aren't identical twins, we still hung out in our mom's womb for 9 months together. And we still did EVERYTHING together until what? Middle school? That's like 13 years and 9 months of being glued to each other's side. It's quite interesting really. Not that I would really WANT twins (hoping it skips a generation...) but what a miraculous thing it would be. God really had something crazy going on when He thought up this one.
Speaking of the wonderful God. I've been slacking. And I really didn't notice/care until recently. Not sure why. Life is busy and crazy and you run out of time for things and in my case, I work ALL THE TIME when there should be church going on. But that's just how it is. We are supposed to fight against all these temptations to be busy and find time to settle down with the Lord. I think we make it more difficult than it actually is. All I really have to do is 1) pray or 2) reach over and grab my Bible and go. Or even better 3) switch screens on this laptop that I'm writing on and watch Mark Driscoll. Not hard. Which is what I'm going to do. Right. now.
Love
Good morning all! I know...it's really noon-time and not morning in any way, but I'm not a morning person. I was kind of this morning as Justin was getting ready for work. Alyssa was up as well since she had to be the boss at her work today, so I figured, why not? I didn't last that long. I helped Alyssa rub cream on her... tattoo... and made sure Justin didn't forget his lunch and then I was back in my warm and comfy bed. So you see... this morning stuff is just not for me. I've already done my share in morning jobs. There is talk about actually trying to serve during the days somewhere, but we'll see where that goes.
Speaking of tattoos, Alyssa got one like TWO days ago. I feel like these things have to be planned so far out in advance, and while yes, she had her estimate done on the thing but she was kinda like, well... today is the day. And then went. But hey, it looks nice, she is happy, and all is well.
Today will be a lazy day. It's the Twins first day in the play-offs and it'll be a very busy night. So I'm going to enjoy this opportunity to be alone, watch some wonderful shows on Hulu, eat something uber tasty, and work on my very long-time-taking novel. It should be a delight! I also learned today that RANDY MOSS is coming back to play for the Minnesota Vikings. Like... he'll be there for the game on Monday. Weird. Really weird. He was the ONLY player I knew on a sports team years and years ago. Now it's becoming a flashback to when he was here and now I can't seem to get the Titanic song out of my head. Like I said, weird.
Finances and legal issues. Life is too short for that so moving on.
The big 24 is coming up in almost two weeks and I'm not ready! I have NO idea what I want to do, no idea what I want to wear, no idea when to do it! I'm usually the one making plans for my birthday. Not because I don't think others would come up with something to do, but it's honestly not their job. It's my birthday and I'm the crazy one who thinks birthdays are just these magical things that happen once a year and that time is the only we get to really acknowledge someone on a yearly basis. It shouldn't be too hard to remember considering it happens the same time every year (Like Christmas and New Years) and why not make people in your life feel special? If I had the money, people would always get something from me. But I don't.... so... it'll probably be a hand-made card from me. Enjoy! At any rate, birthday plans are stuck in park. I don't wanna make people do anything in particular. I just want to see friends and family as usual. So if ANYONE has some good ideas, drop them by my way. :)
Lately Justin has been saying that I'm like Holly in a lot of ways. It's funny. Because I honest to God don't see it. I mean I think it's cute that we have these traits that make us the same even though we are very different people. It's nice to know we are twins in one way or another. But why don't I pick up on it? Hmmm... being a twin is confusing. It's much more than being just a sister. You have this bond automatically from birth. While we aren't identical twins, we still hung out in our mom's womb for 9 months together. And we still did EVERYTHING together until what? Middle school? That's like 13 years and 9 months of being glued to each other's side. It's quite interesting really. Not that I would really WANT twins (hoping it skips a generation...) but what a miraculous thing it would be. God really had something crazy going on when He thought up this one.
Speaking of the wonderful God. I've been slacking. And I really didn't notice/care until recently. Not sure why. Life is busy and crazy and you run out of time for things and in my case, I work ALL THE TIME when there should be church going on. But that's just how it is. We are supposed to fight against all these temptations to be busy and find time to settle down with the Lord. I think we make it more difficult than it actually is. All I really have to do is 1) pray or 2) reach over and grab my Bible and go. Or even better 3) switch screens on this laptop that I'm writing on and watch Mark Driscoll. Not hard. Which is what I'm going to do. Right. now.
Love
Sunday, October 03, 2010
***With Flowers In Your Hair***
The title today? A SONG. Go figure. It's a Mumford and Sons song and it's amazing. I absolutely love it. Alyssa gave me a CD full of wonderful music and that was one of them.... It's called "After the Storm". GO buy it right now. I dare you.
This week/weekend has been nuts. Now that wedding season is over, I'm working like crazy. It's great because I have money and I can start paying bills, I dunno, ON TIME, but it's tiring. But I'm making bank! And on Wednesday was Nate's birthday and he had a party on Saturday. We (Justin and I) were supposed to go to an apple orchard with him, Camry, and some other people but it was just too far of a drive so we were bad people and went to Apple Jack Orchards in Delano, MN. Let me just say that it is a great place. They have a wonderful corn maze which Justin and I conquered in an hour. Yes, it took that long! It was probably even longer but right away after we had been there for fifteen minutes, I REALLY had to pee so we had to go back and start all over. haha, I am four years old for sure.
(Copyright Apple Jack Orchards Inc. Picture taken from (http://www.applejackorchards.com/sitepages/pid43.php)
It was a lot of fun and I'm glad I got to do that with Justin. Oh! I forgot! we also went to my brother-in-law's restaurant! Mmmm it was very very tasty! :) We got a pizza with spicy sausage. I approved. And we got to sit outside since it was so nice out. Yay fall days!
Afterward we met up with Nate at his apartment and hung out with some rather cool people. I really enjoyed the conversation and the food that Nate so graciously gave to us. And I brought the Oreo's with the 5 BOO-RIFIC pictures on them. What a wonderful treat! haha
Once Nate's party died down, Alyssa, Justin, and I traveled over to the Beckman's place. Awww, that sounds cute to say. :) Anyway, they got a lot of gift cards from the wedding and bought some sweet stuff with it. They did well! And they were all dressed up because they were going to the Renaissance Festival today and had to make sure everything looked okay. I was so confused at first... I'm like is this how you dress when no one is around?? lol! Oh, and we got to see the wonderful slideshow from their Honeymoon. I know people always make fun in movies about having to watch people's slideshows, but I love it. It's usually pictures of things and places I'll never go to, so it's really refreshing. There was a HYSTERICAL picture of Jen trying to climb this rock and she was in these flip flops... oh man... it should be her facebook photo. That's all I'm saying.
Now it's my time to relax. I have a few hours in between my shifts and I'm lying in my bed with my jammies on. It's quite delightful. I know I have another crazy working week ahead of me but it'll hopefully end in a weekend at a cabin up north. Now that should be thrilling. I'll have that be the light at the end of the tunnel. huzzah!
So ladies and gents, have a great rest of your weekend.
Love
This week/weekend has been nuts. Now that wedding season is over, I'm working like crazy. It's great because I have money and I can start paying bills, I dunno, ON TIME, but it's tiring. But I'm making bank! And on Wednesday was Nate's birthday and he had a party on Saturday. We (Justin and I) were supposed to go to an apple orchard with him, Camry, and some other people but it was just too far of a drive so we were bad people and went to Apple Jack Orchards in Delano, MN. Let me just say that it is a great place. They have a wonderful corn maze which Justin and I conquered in an hour. Yes, it took that long! It was probably even longer but right away after we had been there for fifteen minutes, I REALLY had to pee so we had to go back and start all over. haha, I am four years old for sure.
(Copyright Apple Jack Orchards Inc. Picture taken from (http://www.applejackorchards.com/sitepages/pid43.php)
It was a lot of fun and I'm glad I got to do that with Justin. Oh! I forgot! we also went to my brother-in-law's restaurant! Mmmm it was very very tasty! :) We got a pizza with spicy sausage. I approved. And we got to sit outside since it was so nice out. Yay fall days!
Afterward we met up with Nate at his apartment and hung out with some rather cool people. I really enjoyed the conversation and the food that Nate so graciously gave to us. And I brought the Oreo's with the 5 BOO-RIFIC pictures on them. What a wonderful treat! haha
Once Nate's party died down, Alyssa, Justin, and I traveled over to the Beckman's place. Awww, that sounds cute to say. :) Anyway, they got a lot of gift cards from the wedding and bought some sweet stuff with it. They did well! And they were all dressed up because they were going to the Renaissance Festival today and had to make sure everything looked okay. I was so confused at first... I'm like is this how you dress when no one is around?? lol! Oh, and we got to see the wonderful slideshow from their Honeymoon. I know people always make fun in movies about having to watch people's slideshows, but I love it. It's usually pictures of things and places I'll never go to, so it's really refreshing. There was a HYSTERICAL picture of Jen trying to climb this rock and she was in these flip flops... oh man... it should be her facebook photo. That's all I'm saying.
Now it's my time to relax. I have a few hours in between my shifts and I'm lying in my bed with my jammies on. It's quite delightful. I know I have another crazy working week ahead of me but it'll hopefully end in a weekend at a cabin up north. Now that should be thrilling. I'll have that be the light at the end of the tunnel. huzzah!
So ladies and gents, have a great rest of your weekend.
Love
Friday, October 01, 2010
It's Friday and I'm not done yet
I'm exhausted. Just physically overwhelmingly exhausted. I've what feels like 70 hours this week, and I still have to work tonight and I have a double on Sunday. It's never ending and I think my body is going to hate me after everything is said and done. But it's my fault because I have lots of bills and I need to work like this to pay everything off. Man, you really don't understand bills and money and finances until you are in the thick of it. Or maybe it's just me. At any rate, I need to get rich fast or I'm doomed! When I say doomed, however, I think of that cartoon Invader Zim and it makes me laugh. Zim's little friend... Grr... would just run around saying doom. It was hysterical. Okay, maybe I'm delirious. I just woke up, leave me alone!
The nice thing is that it is OCTOBER! YAYAYAYAYAYAYYAYAY! My favorite month ever! Why you might ask? Hello!! Birthdays, and pretty leaves, and apple orchards, Halloween, MEA for the kids still in K-12, and I can't even think of anything else, but I'm sure there is more. It's much better than, oh I dunno, cold months. They are wet and cold and dirty looking and dreary. Haha. I'm mean. I think everyone is partial to the month they were born in. So maybe I won't be mean to them.
I also have Saturday off. Which is already jam packed with birthday things. But... it's okay. I'll still get some me time. And some Justin time. Hee hee.... Just...in...time... okay. .That was funny to me. Maybe I shouldn't write blogs when I've only been awake for 10 minutes.
My book is coming along nicely. I know I haven't been working on it lately, but sometimes people need breaks. And this last stint was my break! So I'm off again to work viciously hard on it. YAY! I need to get it out there. I need it to be this thing that has finally been rejected, or accepted, or degraded, ya know? It's cool that I've written something and I've done something that not everybody does, but it doesn't mean much if I'm too scared or not ready to put it out there. All things considered, the book isn't really FOR other people. I mean it's about my friend that died when I was in high school, yes, but it's also something that helped ME cope. Something that if people wanted to remember, they could because it'd be all written down in this book. But it's still what will make me an Author when you say "career goal" my mind screams author. And once I get this out of the way, I can start something new. Start on a new page and just go. Won't that be amazing?
Alright, time for my busy day to start.
Love
The nice thing is that it is OCTOBER! YAYAYAYAYAYAYYAYAY! My favorite month ever! Why you might ask? Hello!! Birthdays, and pretty leaves, and apple orchards, Halloween, MEA for the kids still in K-12, and I can't even think of anything else, but I'm sure there is more. It's much better than, oh I dunno, cold months. They are wet and cold and dirty looking and dreary. Haha. I'm mean. I think everyone is partial to the month they were born in. So maybe I won't be mean to them.
I also have Saturday off. Which is already jam packed with birthday things. But... it's okay. I'll still get some me time. And some Justin time. Hee hee.... Just...in...time... okay. .That was funny to me. Maybe I shouldn't write blogs when I've only been awake for 10 minutes.
My book is coming along nicely. I know I haven't been working on it lately, but sometimes people need breaks. And this last stint was my break! So I'm off again to work viciously hard on it. YAY! I need to get it out there. I need it to be this thing that has finally been rejected, or accepted, or degraded, ya know? It's cool that I've written something and I've done something that not everybody does, but it doesn't mean much if I'm too scared or not ready to put it out there. All things considered, the book isn't really FOR other people. I mean it's about my friend that died when I was in high school, yes, but it's also something that helped ME cope. Something that if people wanted to remember, they could because it'd be all written down in this book. But it's still what will make me an Author when you say "career goal" my mind screams author. And once I get this out of the way, I can start something new. Start on a new page and just go. Won't that be amazing?
Alright, time for my busy day to start.
Love
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Glee.... there's nothing like it
I would have to say that Glee is my favorite show these days. That sounds awfully corny but if you just watched the Britney Spears episode, I think you would have to agree with me. I mean my goodness! It was phenomonal! Okay, maybe a tad on the sexual side, but those people can sing, and dance, and act, and it's a huge performance they are putting on. And something they've done this year is focus on people that are AWESOME (like Santana) so we can see more of them. Haha. Anyway, I'm not going to spend an entire blog session writing about Glee, but I'll just say watch it and your welcome.
I think I'm still sick! Last Wednesday night after work my throat was really sore, and then from then on until Saturday, I felt awful! But I felt fine for a few days, but now I feel it in my chest. I'm scared that I have something like bronchitis because I don't have health insurance so I couldn't possibly pay for medication right now. And I know I'm already getting Justin and probably Alyssa sick right along with me. Ugh. I feel bad. But I have so few times to actually see Justin these days, so I just say screw it. Whoopsies. Let's just hope this all blows over and that I'm healthy. :)
There's been talk about going up North and renting a cabin for a weekend, and that sounds wonderful. Especially this time of year. I mean the leaves are all colorful, it's brisk outside but there's someone to snuggle with, and I dunno. The whole thing is just magical sounding. I love it. I just have to make sure I have the money for it! I found out I like to spend money horribly. I mean I spent like $200 on clothing! What the flip! I'm insane! So I'm not letting myself buy things for maybe 3 weeks. or a month. or who knows! It's just that there are such pretty things out there that I would like to own. Haha. That's the problem. Man...
Yesterday I made baked ziti for the wonderful boyfriend and it turned out par. It wasn't horrible, but it wasn't amazing. Hopefully I can tweak it and it'll get even better. But then we went on a walk around Lake Harriet. Holy goodness! Its beautiful out there! Beautiful houses, beautiful people, beautiful animals. Everything. Even the hand sanitizer in the biffy smelled awesome. And we went at sunset so everything was illuminated in this charming gold color. It was a perfect end to a easy day. And then we went back to my place and played Gloom with my roomies Alyssa and Kassi! It was great. So I say yesterday was my favorite day of the week, EVEN though it's only Wednesday. I already know it was the best day!
Alright, since I don't feel well I'm going to lay in my bed all day until I have to work. Jealous? :)
Love
I think I'm still sick! Last Wednesday night after work my throat was really sore, and then from then on until Saturday, I felt awful! But I felt fine for a few days, but now I feel it in my chest. I'm scared that I have something like bronchitis because I don't have health insurance so I couldn't possibly pay for medication right now. And I know I'm already getting Justin and probably Alyssa sick right along with me. Ugh. I feel bad. But I have so few times to actually see Justin these days, so I just say screw it. Whoopsies. Let's just hope this all blows over and that I'm healthy. :)
There's been talk about going up North and renting a cabin for a weekend, and that sounds wonderful. Especially this time of year. I mean the leaves are all colorful, it's brisk outside but there's someone to snuggle with, and I dunno. The whole thing is just magical sounding. I love it. I just have to make sure I have the money for it! I found out I like to spend money horribly. I mean I spent like $200 on clothing! What the flip! I'm insane! So I'm not letting myself buy things for maybe 3 weeks. or a month. or who knows! It's just that there are such pretty things out there that I would like to own. Haha. That's the problem. Man...
Yesterday I made baked ziti for the wonderful boyfriend and it turned out par. It wasn't horrible, but it wasn't amazing. Hopefully I can tweak it and it'll get even better. But then we went on a walk around Lake Harriet. Holy goodness! Its beautiful out there! Beautiful houses, beautiful people, beautiful animals. Everything. Even the hand sanitizer in the biffy smelled awesome. And we went at sunset so everything was illuminated in this charming gold color. It was a perfect end to a easy day. And then we went back to my place and played Gloom with my roomies Alyssa and Kassi! It was great. So I say yesterday was my favorite day of the week, EVEN though it's only Wednesday. I already know it was the best day!
Alright, since I don't feel well I'm going to lay in my bed all day until I have to work. Jealous? :)
Love
Monday, September 27, 2010
Fall has Fallen!
Okay, yes that is a dorky statement, but it's true! It's fall and leaves are changing colors and life is happy and cold and fantastic! Here's the problem with people (it's not as terrible as I'm making it sound!) we beg and beg all 6 or 7 months to be warm. While we are in our mittens and boots and hats, we shiver hating the slushy brown stuff that is found EVERYWHERE. But then.... then we get this glorious summer and it is plagued with... HUMIDITY. Evil word, I know, but it's everywhere. So then all the people that wanted the summer and wanted the sun and the warmth and the tan skin, well now they want cool breezes and something to keep them from melting. It's a vicious cycle. I'd like to say I'm above all this back and for stuff.... and I might be. Because the only two seasons I ever want in my life are summer and... yep you guessed it, fall.
There's something amazing about Fall. Sure, leaves are "dying" and the grass is "dying" and the flowers are "dying", I get the trend, but it's a beautiful sight to see. Things we be "reborn" into new and bright and happy things, but it's just a process. And goll, it's a beautiful process. And I mean in the season of fall there is my birthday (and obviously my sister too) and like 8 other birthdays. Then there is Thanksgiving, and days off of school, and football, and warm hot chocolate, bonfires, hay rides, amazing smells, sweaters and sweatshirts, camping, oh man, I'm too excited. At any rate, it's awesome. How can someone not love all these things?? Sure school always starts this time of year, and thankfully I'm not apart of it, but it's the beginning of something new! It's a time to see friends you haven't seen! Okay, obviously I'm an advocate for Fall. If you wanna argue, I probably won't argue with you, but hug you and make you something that will change your mind. :)
UPDATE: 24 days until my birthday! YAYAYAY!
Other update? Justin, the boyfriend, makes me happy. Our mess of a life has been going strong for over 6 months, and I'm liking it. Let's just say that the song "Parachute" from Ingrid Michaelson is probably a good reference to how I feel about him. That song is great ps, so you should download it! But yes, Justin finally got a job (well internship) and now he works Monday through Friday 7-5 or so and I work evenings. Somethings gotta change! I miss him when I don't get to see him. But I'm thankful we had a whole summer to hang out all the time and just be together. It's wonderful. The only thing great about him getting this job, well two great things is that he's happy that he has a purpose, and that when I finally do get to see him... it's exciting and amazing and I can't remember even feeling bad that I hadn't seen him in so long. Shoot.... I like him too much. :) Oh well
Okay, I'm out to lunch with a friend from work!
Love
There's something amazing about Fall. Sure, leaves are "dying" and the grass is "dying" and the flowers are "dying", I get the trend, but it's a beautiful sight to see. Things we be "reborn" into new and bright and happy things, but it's just a process. And goll, it's a beautiful process. And I mean in the season of fall there is my birthday (and obviously my sister too) and like 8 other birthdays. Then there is Thanksgiving, and days off of school, and football, and warm hot chocolate, bonfires, hay rides, amazing smells, sweaters and sweatshirts, camping, oh man, I'm too excited. At any rate, it's awesome. How can someone not love all these things?? Sure school always starts this time of year, and thankfully I'm not apart of it, but it's the beginning of something new! It's a time to see friends you haven't seen! Okay, obviously I'm an advocate for Fall. If you wanna argue, I probably won't argue with you, but hug you and make you something that will change your mind. :)
UPDATE: 24 days until my birthday! YAYAYAY!
Other update? Justin, the boyfriend, makes me happy. Our mess of a life has been going strong for over 6 months, and I'm liking it. Let's just say that the song "Parachute" from Ingrid Michaelson is probably a good reference to how I feel about him. That song is great ps, so you should download it! But yes, Justin finally got a job (well internship) and now he works Monday through Friday 7-5 or so and I work evenings. Somethings gotta change! I miss him when I don't get to see him. But I'm thankful we had a whole summer to hang out all the time and just be together. It's wonderful. The only thing great about him getting this job, well two great things is that he's happy that he has a purpose, and that when I finally do get to see him... it's exciting and amazing and I can't remember even feeling bad that I hadn't seen him in so long. Shoot.... I like him too much. :) Oh well
Okay, I'm out to lunch with a friend from work!
Love
Monday, September 20, 2010
Marriage and Internet... but not together
Okay folks, I will be back to having 24/7 internet today! It's going to be glorious, down right amazing and awesome. If you can't tell.... it's been awful not having it since May. I mean my GOODNESS it's SEPTEMBER! I'm on a super high freaky binge from it and I use it where ever I can. Outside of Bethel? Open that laptop! Drinking coffee at Caribou? Let's do it there too! At the boyfriend's house?? Screw talking, let's facebook! So yes, let's just say I miss having the opportunity to be on here. I want to write on my blog daily, check my e-mail so I know what's going on, and of course watch everything under the sun. I mean, c'mon, it's SEASON PREMIERE WEEK!!! And I'm obviously insane...
So I don't remember what I wrote last, so I'm not going to write a lot about things in the past. Like I went to the state fair for a fun-filled day, or that I saw WICKED finally! Yes, It's amazing, yes I got the whole "popular" song now, yes, I think Glinda and I have some similar traits, lol. The big things that have happened are basically Jenny and Andrew's wedding. What a long and exhausting but amazing time. I was fortunate enough to have some time off (AND be able to AFFORD it...) and hang out with Jenny while she did the million's of tasks she needed to do. And while I cried because I was so worn out from everything at the end, the wedding turned out gorgeous and stunning. There were so many wonderful friends there that I really wanted to see. And even though the wedding had more glitches than any other wedding I've been apart of, we made it work. So thanks to all the ladies out there who were crazy enough to be along for this adventure!!!
I'm going to go I know this is short but I have so many things to do today before work! So have a happy cloudy day and I'll see you again TOMORROW since I'll have internet! YAYA!
So I don't remember what I wrote last, so I'm not going to write a lot about things in the past. Like I went to the state fair for a fun-filled day, or that I saw WICKED finally! Yes, It's amazing, yes I got the whole "popular" song now, yes, I think Glinda and I have some similar traits, lol. The big things that have happened are basically Jenny and Andrew's wedding. What a long and exhausting but amazing time. I was fortunate enough to have some time off (AND be able to AFFORD it...) and hang out with Jenny while she did the million's of tasks she needed to do. And while I cried because I was so worn out from everything at the end, the wedding turned out gorgeous and stunning. There were so many wonderful friends there that I really wanted to see. And even though the wedding had more glitches than any other wedding I've been apart of, we made it work. So thanks to all the ladies out there who were crazy enough to be along for this adventure!!!
I'm going to go I know this is short but I have so many things to do today before work! So have a happy cloudy day and I'll see you again TOMORROW since I'll have internet! YAYA!
Thursday, September 09, 2010
It's a Vikings kind of day
In less than SEVEN hours, my wonderful football team will be playing their first season game against the stupid Saints. Woo!! I'm pumped! because I work at a sport's bar, I think I'm even more pumped than I normally would be. But it's hard! Everyone else is jumping around like crazy. So it makes sense to want to do the same. GO VIKINGS!
Okay, enough on that, I am here because I'm wasting my time at Caribou and knew that if I didn't update soon, I, along with my fellow 3 readers, would go nuts! haha. So here I am. Updating you on this wonderful life.
First things first: I....SAW....WICKED. Oh my gosh. Seriously! Let me just say that it is phenominal! And NOTHING like the book for all you book readers out there. I haven't read the book personally myself, but I hear there are some SCANDALOUS sections in that book. As Justin said "It's a 'Disney-fied' version". And I couldn't agreed more. Maybe that's why I absolutely fell in love with it! It was funny and awesome and costumes were great, voices were even greater, and I FINALLY get why everyone loves that "Popular" song so much. Good heavens it was great. Plus Justin said i'm basically "Galinda" (The Ga is silent.... lol) and that was funny. We had some really wonderful seats thanks to Debbie! Yay! I suggest everyone see it. Unless you don't like plays and musicals. Then you should buy tickets and give it to someone who wants to go. :p
I live with Alyssa, have been finally for a month or so, and it's lovely. She likes to leave cabinet doors open. Hee hee. What a silly thing to do. Nothing annoying though. She's dead silent in the morning (or I'm dead asleep) and it works out perfectly. And since we have most of the same friends, and love the same things, it's like living with myself. Only better! I think I'd get sick of me. And she's great because even though I spend lots of time with the boyfriend, she is flexible and works with me, even when I don't deserve it. haha.
Boyfriend is good. He might have a job! Huzzah! He's very determined and has been working very hard to get a job he wants for a while. I'm impressed. He has an interview tomorrow and I'm excited because it seems pretty promising. It's all in God's hands in the end and we have to roll with the punches (that reminds me of an old Jo Dee Messina song.... love)
Jennifer's wedding is in T-minus 9 DAYS! SINGLE DIGITS!!!! AHHH!!!!! !(U$!)U$*!)$!@PI($!(*Y$@)(%*U@)(* I can't contain my excitement! It's been a long time coming and I can't wait for Andrew and Jen to start their lives together! And it'll be the wedding of the year! or heck, the wedding of all weddings!!! (Sorry John and Anna... yours will be runner up!) Okay, there are WAY too many exclamation points in this paragraph. I apologize. I'll simmer down. The wedding will be great and for all those who aren't coming..... you are for sure missing out. How many weddings let you sit on haybails and have a mini bar made out of old doors? That's right. Just saying.
Sometimes I feel like my blog is too fluffy. I never talk about politics or anything with meat to it. It might be due to the fact that my personality is a very vivacious one and it doesn't really want to deal with the reality of life 24-7. Isn't it nice to just take a break and not worry about it? I feel like it is. Shouldn't their be an escape from it? I think that's what this is. I mean granted, not EVERYTHING I write is all happy-go-lucky stuff, but I dunno... people need a little sunshine in their life.
That's it. I'm hungry hungry hungry! And I work in 3 hours so I gotta start doing things! Have a wonderful evening friends!
Okay, enough on that, I am here because I'm wasting my time at Caribou and knew that if I didn't update soon, I, along with my fellow 3 readers, would go nuts! haha. So here I am. Updating you on this wonderful life.
First things first: I....SAW....WICKED. Oh my gosh. Seriously! Let me just say that it is phenominal! And NOTHING like the book for all you book readers out there. I haven't read the book personally myself, but I hear there are some SCANDALOUS sections in that book. As Justin said "It's a 'Disney-fied' version". And I couldn't agreed more. Maybe that's why I absolutely fell in love with it! It was funny and awesome and costumes were great, voices were even greater, and I FINALLY get why everyone loves that "Popular" song so much. Good heavens it was great. Plus Justin said i'm basically "Galinda" (The Ga is silent.... lol) and that was funny. We had some really wonderful seats thanks to Debbie! Yay! I suggest everyone see it. Unless you don't like plays and musicals. Then you should buy tickets and give it to someone who wants to go. :p
I live with Alyssa, have been finally for a month or so, and it's lovely. She likes to leave cabinet doors open. Hee hee. What a silly thing to do. Nothing annoying though. She's dead silent in the morning (or I'm dead asleep) and it works out perfectly. And since we have most of the same friends, and love the same things, it's like living with myself. Only better! I think I'd get sick of me. And she's great because even though I spend lots of time with the boyfriend, she is flexible and works with me, even when I don't deserve it. haha.
Boyfriend is good. He might have a job! Huzzah! He's very determined and has been working very hard to get a job he wants for a while. I'm impressed. He has an interview tomorrow and I'm excited because it seems pretty promising. It's all in God's hands in the end and we have to roll with the punches (that reminds me of an old Jo Dee Messina song.... love)
Jennifer's wedding is in T-minus 9 DAYS! SINGLE DIGITS!!!! AHHH!!!!! !(U$!)U$*!)$!@PI($!(*Y$@)(%*U@)(* I can't contain my excitement! It's been a long time coming and I can't wait for Andrew and Jen to start their lives together! And it'll be the wedding of the year! or heck, the wedding of all weddings!!! (Sorry John and Anna... yours will be runner up!) Okay, there are WAY too many exclamation points in this paragraph. I apologize. I'll simmer down. The wedding will be great and for all those who aren't coming..... you are for sure missing out. How many weddings let you sit on haybails and have a mini bar made out of old doors? That's right. Just saying.
Sometimes I feel like my blog is too fluffy. I never talk about politics or anything with meat to it. It might be due to the fact that my personality is a very vivacious one and it doesn't really want to deal with the reality of life 24-7. Isn't it nice to just take a break and not worry about it? I feel like it is. Shouldn't their be an escape from it? I think that's what this is. I mean granted, not EVERYTHING I write is all happy-go-lucky stuff, but I dunno... people need a little sunshine in their life.
That's it. I'm hungry hungry hungry! And I work in 3 hours so I gotta start doing things! Have a wonderful evening friends!
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Boot Scootin' Boogy
I think that's a line from a song that my mom used to listen to when Holly and I were little. Country obviously. But I always enjoyed it. Hee hee. Look it up, I'm sure you'll love it. Or hate it with your whole heart. You pick!
Not having internet blows. It really does. I have having to try to find time to come on here and write. Because by now it's been like 3 weeks since I've written last and that means I have a MILLION stories for you. Like A MILLION. There's been drama, and weddings, and money successes, and highs and lows, and poker, and everything in between, but I won't remember half of it. Annoying.I can't keep you guys properly updated on life! WEll, I'll do my best
WEDDINGS There have been GREAT ones, and AWFUL ones. Seriously, It's been really hard this month dealing with all of them. One, I still can't get over. I've forgiven... well no I haven't. Man, I really need to do that. But I can't. I probably shouldn't talk about it TOO much considering this is an open blog and all, but let's just say I was more hurt by someone by something than I have been in a long time. Here's something to know about me. When I make friends, I latch on for life. I'm there for the ups and the downs and I work very hard to really get to know you. You become my family because that is who I am and that is how I feel about people. So when you cut me and stick that dagger into me, I die a little inside. I take it personally. People who wouldn't are crazy. And that wound lasts a long time because I've invested so much into you. It's hard to close and it's even harder to rise above. So think about that before you become friends with me. My little heart can't take it.
Enough rambling, I had good weddings too! My Roomie from last year Ashley got married finally! YAYAYAYA! it's so exciting! It was a BEAUTIFUL WEDDING and reception. And even though I didn't know that many people I had Megan and my lovely boyfriend, and Kristen and the wedding party. So it was happy. That was a wedding done right. :) And heck yes, FREE WINE. Can't say no to that. Haha
Money is finally good for me right now. I've gotten a lot of money back from things that were outstanding from people and everything is finally peaceful. Now I don't wan to say this because something might just pop up suddenly, but for now, it's good.
Boyfriend Boyfriend Boyfriend! What to say about this wonderful person in my life? Who knows. He's always been in my life and I've always written about him. I can be all mushy, but I prob. shouldn't. It's a little much for this and for everyone reading it. But I think he is wonderful. I like that we don't spend EVERYDAY together because it's unnecessary and there are more things to life than boyfriends. But he is my best friend (guy-wise) so he's there anyways. I got the best of both worlds. It's amazing where our relationship is. I mean honestly, it's bizarre. But a good kind of bizarre. :) We go on walks a lot which is really fun because we go around Lake Calhoun or the roads around his house and we talk about life. And then we play guess who and it's wonderful. I love it. I'm just happy. I am happy with my life even though there are some huge issues, I'm still happy.
My job is going well. The people I work with make me smile. Some people are leaving for bigger and better things and it makes me wonder if I should do the same. Oye. But for now it's good and I'm making enough to get by. Who can't be happy with that? The other internship is almost ending. I might be back on for Timberwovles but nothing is for sure set. That would be awesome though cuz it'd be paid! YAYAYAYA. But we'll wait and see.
Poker has become pretty popular right now in my group of friends. Well I should say mike and justin and mike's little sister and friends. THEY are in love with it. I've always liked Texas Hold'em. It's intriguing. But I am no free enough to play. I just always wanna play games. That's my problem. There is something awesome about friends coming together to play games and try to beat the other person. I love it even though I don't win. It's the game, not the winning. Don't get me wrong, I'm competitive. But who isn't? If you aren't, don't pay with us. HAah
Okay, I'm done. I've got many things to do. Let's see if I can write a couple more times before the month ends! Internet will be in my hands hopefully in September. :)
<3
Not having internet blows. It really does. I have having to try to find time to come on here and write. Because by now it's been like 3 weeks since I've written last and that means I have a MILLION stories for you. Like A MILLION. There's been drama, and weddings, and money successes, and highs and lows, and poker, and everything in between, but I won't remember half of it. Annoying.I can't keep you guys properly updated on life! WEll, I'll do my best
WEDDINGS There have been GREAT ones, and AWFUL ones. Seriously, It's been really hard this month dealing with all of them. One, I still can't get over. I've forgiven... well no I haven't. Man, I really need to do that. But I can't. I probably shouldn't talk about it TOO much considering this is an open blog and all, but let's just say I was more hurt by someone by something than I have been in a long time. Here's something to know about me. When I make friends, I latch on for life. I'm there for the ups and the downs and I work very hard to really get to know you. You become my family because that is who I am and that is how I feel about people. So when you cut me and stick that dagger into me, I die a little inside. I take it personally. People who wouldn't are crazy. And that wound lasts a long time because I've invested so much into you. It's hard to close and it's even harder to rise above. So think about that before you become friends with me. My little heart can't take it.
Enough rambling, I had good weddings too! My Roomie from last year Ashley got married finally! YAYAYAYA! it's so exciting! It was a BEAUTIFUL WEDDING and reception. And even though I didn't know that many people I had Megan and my lovely boyfriend, and Kristen and the wedding party. So it was happy. That was a wedding done right. :) And heck yes, FREE WINE. Can't say no to that. Haha
Money is finally good for me right now. I've gotten a lot of money back from things that were outstanding from people and everything is finally peaceful. Now I don't wan to say this because something might just pop up suddenly, but for now, it's good.
Boyfriend Boyfriend Boyfriend! What to say about this wonderful person in my life? Who knows. He's always been in my life and I've always written about him. I can be all mushy, but I prob. shouldn't. It's a little much for this and for everyone reading it. But I think he is wonderful. I like that we don't spend EVERYDAY together because it's unnecessary and there are more things to life than boyfriends. But he is my best friend (guy-wise) so he's there anyways. I got the best of both worlds. It's amazing where our relationship is. I mean honestly, it's bizarre. But a good kind of bizarre. :) We go on walks a lot which is really fun because we go around Lake Calhoun or the roads around his house and we talk about life. And then we play guess who and it's wonderful. I love it. I'm just happy. I am happy with my life even though there are some huge issues, I'm still happy.
My job is going well. The people I work with make me smile. Some people are leaving for bigger and better things and it makes me wonder if I should do the same. Oye. But for now it's good and I'm making enough to get by. Who can't be happy with that? The other internship is almost ending. I might be back on for Timberwovles but nothing is for sure set. That would be awesome though cuz it'd be paid! YAYAYAYA. But we'll wait and see.
Poker has become pretty popular right now in my group of friends. Well I should say mike and justin and mike's little sister and friends. THEY are in love with it. I've always liked Texas Hold'em. It's intriguing. But I am no free enough to play. I just always wanna play games. That's my problem. There is something awesome about friends coming together to play games and try to beat the other person. I love it even though I don't win. It's the game, not the winning. Don't get me wrong, I'm competitive. But who isn't? If you aren't, don't pay with us. HAah
Okay, I'm done. I've got many things to do. Let's see if I can write a couple more times before the month ends! Internet will be in my hands hopefully in September. :)
<3
Monday, August 02, 2010
So this is what it is to be a Post-Grad. Great.
I wasn't aware of the stress that comes with the Post Graduation thing. You graduate, you're pumped, you move on, you look for jobs, and then you realize you are extremely and utterly broke. Which I mean, c'mon, story of my life, but I think I hit a new low this time. And there never seems to be enough money. I could work 40 hours a week and there wouldn't be enough. It was just last summer I was working TWO jobs and couldn't pay a cent for anything. Maybe I will blame the weddings and showers and such. That all takes in a lot of money. Or I can blame my landlord for his error. But I can blame myself because I never really picked up the understanding of good spending habits. I really have no clue. There is no way that I can be a person that files for bankruptcy at age 23, but some days I think about it. It would make life easy NOW, but not later. There just has to be a way out of this mess that I am in. God grant me peace, please. Pretty please! In all reality, I don't stress about this too often. Most of the time there is nothing you can do so you suck it up and deal with it when you have the money to do so. I need a few weeks where I can work a ton of hours and load up on tips, and then pay every late thing off. My mom is helping me out the best she can, and I am grateful for that. So maybe in a month things will work itself out. Otherwise Job#2 I'm looking for you!
What else is new in my life? Oh right right right... I MOVED! FINALLY! I'm free from the house of problems. No more flies, no more heat (that's a lie, it's still incredibly hot in the new place), no more landlords at 8AM, no more hand-washing dishes, no more lawns to mow. YAY! Of course I'm going to miss the free laundry and the wonderful running route I found, but oh well. Time to move on and start over. I really do like this new place. Sure, it's apartment in an apartment complex, but it could be worse. There are only four people to a floor and we are on the top floor and we live on the corner so really we only have one neighbor next to us, one below us, and one across the hall. I can live with that. Then we got new floors, new counter tops, and new paint. So that's been a treat. Boxes are littered across the living room floor but we are slowly making progress on diminishing those dumb boxes. Nothing feels better than when you are all moved in to a new place. I just want that feeling to happen.... NOW.
Another good this is that I got to go wakeboarding last week. Oh it was awesome. Sure the bindings were trying to crush my feet, but it felt good to know that 1) I'm still capable of getting up after 2 years and 2) that I can still keep my balance and not fall to my death while wakeboarding. So those ten minutes were ten minutes of glory and wonderfulness. Then I smelled like dirty lake water. It was worth it though. Whoever doesn't know how to wakeboard should learn. Immediately. If you are scared, don't be. It's fun and easy and awesome. Pure awesomeness.
Someone I really like right now is.... wait for it... wait for it... Justin! Duh. He has been really awesome lately, especially last night when I was upset about finances and such. I always feel bad talking to him about this kind of stuff because I don't want him thinking I'm a failure. But really you NEED to be able to talk about this stuff because if you can't, your relationship has nowhere to go. And I want this to go well so I have to suck it up and be vulnerable towards him. And in response, he was wonderful. On the crazy end of the subject of him, we have been "back together" or "rekindled the romance" or as his cousin said, we are "hot and steamy" again for almost five months! YAY! He may say like 2 months, but whatever, It's been since march. He can suck it. :)
Okay, internship over. I'm out to make the world a better place... for me. Haha
Amy
What else is new in my life? Oh right right right... I MOVED! FINALLY! I'm free from the house of problems. No more flies, no more heat (that's a lie, it's still incredibly hot in the new place), no more landlords at 8AM, no more hand-washing dishes, no more lawns to mow. YAY! Of course I'm going to miss the free laundry and the wonderful running route I found, but oh well. Time to move on and start over. I really do like this new place. Sure, it's apartment in an apartment complex, but it could be worse. There are only four people to a floor and we are on the top floor and we live on the corner so really we only have one neighbor next to us, one below us, and one across the hall. I can live with that. Then we got new floors, new counter tops, and new paint. So that's been a treat. Boxes are littered across the living room floor but we are slowly making progress on diminishing those dumb boxes. Nothing feels better than when you are all moved in to a new place. I just want that feeling to happen.... NOW.
Another good this is that I got to go wakeboarding last week. Oh it was awesome. Sure the bindings were trying to crush my feet, but it felt good to know that 1) I'm still capable of getting up after 2 years and 2) that I can still keep my balance and not fall to my death while wakeboarding. So those ten minutes were ten minutes of glory and wonderfulness. Then I smelled like dirty lake water. It was worth it though. Whoever doesn't know how to wakeboard should learn. Immediately. If you are scared, don't be. It's fun and easy and awesome. Pure awesomeness.
Someone I really like right now is.... wait for it... wait for it... Justin! Duh. He has been really awesome lately, especially last night when I was upset about finances and such. I always feel bad talking to him about this kind of stuff because I don't want him thinking I'm a failure. But really you NEED to be able to talk about this stuff because if you can't, your relationship has nowhere to go. And I want this to go well so I have to suck it up and be vulnerable towards him. And in response, he was wonderful. On the crazy end of the subject of him, we have been "back together" or "rekindled the romance" or as his cousin said, we are "hot and steamy" again for almost five months! YAY! He may say like 2 months, but whatever, It's been since march. He can suck it. :)
Okay, internship over. I'm out to make the world a better place... for me. Haha
Amy
Friday, July 23, 2010
The Desire to Move
Ohhhh there aren't enough words in the world to describe my desire to move. Usually I'm the girl that complains about this said action. I hate packing, I hate putting things in boxes only to take it out like an hour later. I hate making your friends help you because you are too cheap to do anything else. I hate how it's always SO hot when you move, so it makes you that much grumpier. So really it's an awful situation. BUT, my landlord is making it quite easy for me to not care about all these things. I'm obviously not going to bad talk someone in close relation with me (even though it would be a 1% chance he would ever find out) but let's just say I'm peeved. It's time to move and I won't miss it when I'm gone. What I'll miss is 2AM movies with Megan, late night girl chat/bug killing/America's Next Top Model watching/ trampoline sitting moments with Ashley, talking about boys with Kristin, puzzles with Mary, Kassi, and Megan, and Mary in general. Lol. They were fantastic roommates and the dynamic was perfect. Even though THREE of them are now getting married, I still wish we could all live together in the house. It'd be fun. But times are a changing and it's time to move on. Luckily all the roommates live in close proximity of me and it won't be hard to keep in touch. The summer has proved that since it's been Kassi and I in the house. SO GOODBYE OLD HOUSE. I will not live in you in T-minus 8 days.
I've been pondering the idea of adding another blog to my life. I had that one about my surgery for a while, but that had a D-day that came and went pretty fast. And honestly, how many people really wanted to know about my reduction? I think ... me? Maybe not even me. I deleted the blog so who knows. But this idea is even better. Okay, so I'm a server (I won't say where cuz there may be creepers who have fallen insanely in love with me and want to stalk my every move. I 'm on to you bleepers [blog+creepers=bleepers]) Anyway, the point of all of this is that because I serve, I meet a million random, awkward, and funny people every day on the job. And shouldn't SOMEONE be writing these stories down? Granted, I have found a few (Waiter Rant and Served: Every Night Waiting Tables) that are pretty funny and true to life. So why should I put my opinion out there? What will make MY stories equal or MORE exciting than everyone elses? Well that's the thing. I might not have the best opinion, but the stories are there and I want to write. The more practice I get, the better I am. And if people are interested, why not give them what they want? We'll see how it goes. I don't really know the logistics and if I'm even allowed to mention things like that online. By no means do I want to start something. But people are funny. Why not share the stories and have others laugh too? I dunno... i'll keep you posted.
Wedding season is almost in full swing. It is nuts. I just got two invites in the mail for bridal showers and I have a bachelorette party today. Then it's another bridal shower in august, 3 weddings, and many more showers and parties to plan and attend. Of course we top it all off with Seward and Andrew's wedding in September. That'll be the perfect ending to the perfect wedding season. Of course I have more weddings now in January and 2 in March so really the season never ends, but at least there is a break so I can celebrate other things.
It seems that I should have more to say, but for some season this Friday morning is drawing a blank for me. SO instead of rambling endlessly about something, I will end now. So farewell my lovely readers. Go outside, drink some iced coffee, go to Lake Calhoun if you can. Do something that doesn't involve sitting indoors and reading my blog. :) I dare you. And hey, if you do something fun, let me know what it is so I can do it too!
Amy
I've been pondering the idea of adding another blog to my life. I had that one about my surgery for a while, but that had a D-day that came and went pretty fast. And honestly, how many people really wanted to know about my reduction? I think ... me? Maybe not even me. I deleted the blog so who knows. But this idea is even better. Okay, so I'm a server (I won't say where cuz there may be creepers who have fallen insanely in love with me and want to stalk my every move. I 'm on to you bleepers [blog+creepers=bleepers]) Anyway, the point of all of this is that because I serve, I meet a million random, awkward, and funny people every day on the job. And shouldn't SOMEONE be writing these stories down? Granted, I have found a few (Waiter Rant and Served: Every Night Waiting Tables) that are pretty funny and true to life. So why should I put my opinion out there? What will make MY stories equal or MORE exciting than everyone elses? Well that's the thing. I might not have the best opinion, but the stories are there and I want to write. The more practice I get, the better I am. And if people are interested, why not give them what they want? We'll see how it goes. I don't really know the logistics and if I'm even allowed to mention things like that online. By no means do I want to start something. But people are funny. Why not share the stories and have others laugh too? I dunno... i'll keep you posted.
Wedding season is almost in full swing. It is nuts. I just got two invites in the mail for bridal showers and I have a bachelorette party today. Then it's another bridal shower in august, 3 weddings, and many more showers and parties to plan and attend. Of course we top it all off with Seward and Andrew's wedding in September. That'll be the perfect ending to the perfect wedding season. Of course I have more weddings now in January and 2 in March so really the season never ends, but at least there is a break so I can celebrate other things.
It seems that I should have more to say, but for some season this Friday morning is drawing a blank for me. SO instead of rambling endlessly about something, I will end now. So farewell my lovely readers. Go outside, drink some iced coffee, go to Lake Calhoun if you can. Do something that doesn't involve sitting indoors and reading my blog. :) I dare you. And hey, if you do something fun, let me know what it is so I can do it too!
Amy
Monday, July 19, 2010
God brought me cookies today
I was running late today to my internship. One, because my internal clock is set on Mondays and Fridays for 7:30 or later, NOT 7:20. Heaven forbid my body wakes me up for a time that would allow me to shower! Two, traffic was atrocious! I mean I thought I was in New York City. Three, I was on the phone with Justin and really, I can't multi-task. So as I come strolling into the office a good 13 minutes late, I turn the corner to see a stack of cookies on my desk. By stack I mean a half dozen. They were all wrapped up cutely with a little pink bow on top.
Now I think to myself: Do I eat them or do I not? Let's think here. I'm not sure if they would be anyone else's because only interns sit at this cubicle. Then, I was here on Friday morning and there were no cookies. Another intern of mine could have possibly left them behind, but I don't think that's a possibility. And then no one was here for the weekend, so that means they were left here intentionally for my eyes only. Of course none of this could make me eat them. I would feel bad if someone came in and saw an empty bag and a trace of crumbs to show that I was the cookie-eater culprit. Eesh... no thanks. I'm still an intern and not ready to bare the weight of a theft.
So there they sat. 9am rolled along and I was holding strong. By 9:30 I started to eye the suspiciously; wouldn't their owner come and claim them by now? When 10am hit, my lemonade wasn't as intriguing as my special stack of mystery cookies. The pink bow was calling my name. I then noticed a silver wire tie left on my desk. Remnants of ANOTHER cookie bag that must have been eaten! Oh my goodness! Then I see an ad around 10:15 for Oreo cookies. There's no way to escape. It's now 10:30 and I have had two cookies.
So there's that, the perfect Monday morning start. That and I have been listening to Matt Kearney almost religiously for the last two days. I don't know what's drawing me to his music right now, but it's moving. I love his lyrics and the meaning he puts behind it. I think I'm craving God. That must be it. I've also been listening to 98.5 a little more often and dying to watch some Driscoll sermons. I'm not sure what has sparked this, but I bet it's a good thing. I had been talking to Justin's dad Joe about what his church service was about and he said that the speaker who is from Bethlehem Baptist basically said a message of you are either with God or you are going against God. I mean its SUPER basic, but really, that's all it needs to be. And it's true. It's so unbelievably true. I mean if we aren't working in strengthening our relationship with Him, they we are moving away from Him. And when I think of it like that, I don't want to be walking away. I want to be clinging to Him with all I have. There seems to be a strong tendency for me to almost "idolize" things on this earth. Music, boyfriend, friends, etc. and I fail to really think of my Father. In an everyday setting, I maybe think of God or something in that region once a day. And that's not the person I want to be. So again I begin the journey to be a person of faith and to really know the God that I believe in and follow.
This weekend was a pretty dang good one. And much needed. The week had been absolutely crazy. 20 hours of internship work, followed by a couple late nights at work and sleepless nights at Justin's (okay, not sleepless, but it's hard to sleep when you have a boyfriend that cute. Lol) But I'd say the weekend was a hit because I got to FINALLY see the movie Inception, seriously folks, WATCH IT! WATCH IT NOW!!!! You won't be disappointed unless all you watch movies for is porn-like romance and profanity, because this one has neither. And I got to watch a fantabulous storm from the Knapps house. We ran out to the dock and watched this huge wall cloud come in. It was nuts. I've never seen something move that fast. And you could just see the downpour following it. So we booked it back up the hill and watched the fern green sky throw lightning bolts and rain at us. It was quite the event. What made it even more amazing was the beautiful sky afterwards. It was sunset and the clouds parted to reveal golds and reds and fuchias all across the sky. Of course my silly camera phone captured nothing of this, but Nate got some good ones. But Justin's right, you really can't capture something you are currently viewing. It'll never be as good.
The only other special news from the weekend is that MEGAN GOT ENGAGED! AHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!! YAYAYAYAYAYAYAAYAYAYAYAYAAYAY!!!!!!!!!!! I could go on FOREVER about that. Holy Hannah I'm so super pumped for her! Can you believe it? Haven't even been dating a year, but here they are, ready to get married as early as January! I'm so pumped. I can't wait to see what God has in store for them. Just in case some people are behind, Megan was a girl I met in Hawaii and then lived with all of last year. She's definitely a keeper in my friend pile. Lol And Matt is a just a doll face. SO congrats for those two. :)
UPDATE: The cookies were placed there to be eaten by anyone. Hmm.... not as exciting. Oh well, it was a good adventure.
<3
Now I think to myself: Do I eat them or do I not? Let's think here. I'm not sure if they would be anyone else's because only interns sit at this cubicle. Then, I was here on Friday morning and there were no cookies. Another intern of mine could have possibly left them behind, but I don't think that's a possibility. And then no one was here for the weekend, so that means they were left here intentionally for my eyes only. Of course none of this could make me eat them. I would feel bad if someone came in and saw an empty bag and a trace of crumbs to show that I was the cookie-eater culprit. Eesh... no thanks. I'm still an intern and not ready to bare the weight of a theft.
So there they sat. 9am rolled along and I was holding strong. By 9:30 I started to eye the suspiciously; wouldn't their owner come and claim them by now? When 10am hit, my lemonade wasn't as intriguing as my special stack of mystery cookies. The pink bow was calling my name. I then noticed a silver wire tie left on my desk. Remnants of ANOTHER cookie bag that must have been eaten! Oh my goodness! Then I see an ad around 10:15 for Oreo cookies. There's no way to escape. It's now 10:30 and I have had two cookies.
So there's that, the perfect Monday morning start. That and I have been listening to Matt Kearney almost religiously for the last two days. I don't know what's drawing me to his music right now, but it's moving. I love his lyrics and the meaning he puts behind it. I think I'm craving God. That must be it. I've also been listening to 98.5 a little more often and dying to watch some Driscoll sermons. I'm not sure what has sparked this, but I bet it's a good thing. I had been talking to Justin's dad Joe about what his church service was about and he said that the speaker who is from Bethlehem Baptist basically said a message of you are either with God or you are going against God. I mean its SUPER basic, but really, that's all it needs to be. And it's true. It's so unbelievably true. I mean if we aren't working in strengthening our relationship with Him, they we are moving away from Him. And when I think of it like that, I don't want to be walking away. I want to be clinging to Him with all I have. There seems to be a strong tendency for me to almost "idolize" things on this earth. Music, boyfriend, friends, etc. and I fail to really think of my Father. In an everyday setting, I maybe think of God or something in that region once a day. And that's not the person I want to be. So again I begin the journey to be a person of faith and to really know the God that I believe in and follow.
This weekend was a pretty dang good one. And much needed. The week had been absolutely crazy. 20 hours of internship work, followed by a couple late nights at work and sleepless nights at Justin's (okay, not sleepless, but it's hard to sleep when you have a boyfriend that cute. Lol) But I'd say the weekend was a hit because I got to FINALLY see the movie Inception, seriously folks, WATCH IT! WATCH IT NOW!!!! You won't be disappointed unless all you watch movies for is porn-like romance and profanity, because this one has neither. And I got to watch a fantabulous storm from the Knapps house. We ran out to the dock and watched this huge wall cloud come in. It was nuts. I've never seen something move that fast. And you could just see the downpour following it. So we booked it back up the hill and watched the fern green sky throw lightning bolts and rain at us. It was quite the event. What made it even more amazing was the beautiful sky afterwards. It was sunset and the clouds parted to reveal golds and reds and fuchias all across the sky. Of course my silly camera phone captured nothing of this, but Nate got some good ones. But Justin's right, you really can't capture something you are currently viewing. It'll never be as good.
The only other special news from the weekend is that MEGAN GOT ENGAGED! AHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!! YAYAYAYAYAYAYAAYAYAYAYAYAAYAY!!!!!!!!!!! I could go on FOREVER about that. Holy Hannah I'm so super pumped for her! Can you believe it? Haven't even been dating a year, but here they are, ready to get married as early as January! I'm so pumped. I can't wait to see what God has in store for them. Just in case some people are behind, Megan was a girl I met in Hawaii and then lived with all of last year. She's definitely a keeper in my friend pile. Lol And Matt is a just a doll face. SO congrats for those two. :)
UPDATE: The cookies were placed there to be eaten by anyone. Hmm.... not as exciting. Oh well, it was a good adventure.
<3
Friday, July 09, 2010
More 4th of July Please!
First off, apparently Justin is going to start reading these... or so he says. That'll be quite interesting. BUT I cannot let that change anything! So I will continue to write free style. It is, of course, the only way to right a blog.
SO... the 4th of July! Oh man I've been WAITING for this day for such a long time. Every year I kind of forget about the magicalness that this day brings. I always forget how much fun I have and how many of my friends I get to see. I fail to remember that I run in to a million of people I knew in high school... and then some. Like people from Wells Fargo?? Trippy. Anyway, back to "the day". I got to accompany Justin and the fam to Joe's brother's 50th birthday bash. I would have to say this is the sweetest thing I've ever seen a family do. It makes me want to start a tradition... although being a twin, the tradition would last about mmm... 5 minutes. Great. WELL what this family does is all the kids (12 of them, excluding the birthday boy/girl) and the parents (holy Hannah they are getting old!) write letters to the birthday boy or girl when they turn 50. And it can be about anything. People cry, people laugh, and there are solemn faces and faces that look proud. It is quite the theatrical display. Everyone is in the back yard because, well frankly not that many people can fit comfortably in the house. Think of it: 13 siblings, almost all have spouses, those families have kids, and those kids have spouses and kids! Let's just say it was a very crowded event! But that's typical in the Knapp family. So the birthday kid sits up front with their parents and then there is an extra chair for the letter reader. Apparently they usually go in order from oldest to youngest, but they did it in reverse because the younger children always get the shaft because of time constraints. Yep. I said it. TIME CONSTRAINTS. And they aren't joking! Some of these letters are novellas! But the whole thing really made me want a big family yet again. Who knows, maybe I'll have a litter of children so they can do this for one another as they grow up. What's crazy about this whole thing is
1) The parents are still alive- they are already in their 90's
2) The first daughter Claudia was 22 years old when Henry, the 12th child, was born. That means Liz, the 13th and final, was born when she was 26!!! Talk about decades of difference!
3) They only have one child left to hit 50. Woah. Still baffles me how they could have so many kids
That took up most of the day. Not that that was a bad thing. We ate twice and hung out and I got to see people I haven't seen in several years due to the fact that I was outrageously single and no longer able to attend family events. So welcome back me, it's good to be back. :) haha
After our very long stay at Papa Knapps (no, I really won't call him that EVER), we made it out to see my family! And what a surprise when I walked in the door! My nieces Ashley and Sophie were there! I never really get to see them so it was wonderful that my parents were babysitting. Ashley I don't think likes me very much. She hadn't cried the WHOLE time and I walk through the door and say hello and she bursts into tears! She hate me! She must see it in my eyes that she scares me. I mean granted she is a few months old, but she can sense my fear. Oh babies. What to do with them. But Sophie! I know she likes me because she gave me a tootsie roll out of her candy bag. And that means a whole lot considering my dad said that she hasn't let it out of her sight since the parade earlier that morning. A-dor-a-ble. Man. Well, we didn't stay long because it was already getting late and we had a few more stops to make.
Next on our list was the wonderful Flemings. The main reason for that was because we wanted to see Sarah and Phil before they moved all the way to Sunny California. That feels like a world away! The only time I've even BEEN in Cali was in the airport on my way to Hawaii. It doesn't have very good connotations with me though. I basically spent that time in LAX puking and trying to sleep on the floor with a TERRIBLE migraine from either all the flight/lights or restaurant food that has too much MSG. Either way, no bueno for me and my memories of California. But I'm sure they'll have a good time. They just need to avoid those treacherous airports. The added bonus to visiting these two was that I got to see her parents! I love love love love them. Justin and I are thinking about hanging out with them more often. They may be parents, but they are the one of the coolest ones.
FINALLY after a very long day we made it to the 4th of July carnival in Delano. YES YES YES! I won't go into detail of everything we did, but I think a list would work well for this story. Funnel cake: YES! Cheese curds: YES! Zipper: YES! Zipper for the second time: YES! Awesome fireworks: YES! Tons of friends: YES! Running into the millions of people you know: YES! Everything about it was wonderful. Nobody got sick, (well, except for miss pukey from the Zipper. Thanks for aiming for the ground... where we walk. Nice aim) nobody got angry, everyone loved the fireworks (really they were to die for, the finale was different the years past, but it was better. I was impressed). So that was my 4th of July adventure. Busy, exhausting, but oh so worth it.
Since the event of the 4th, I was able to make very tasty cookies for Corie and Karrah who just moved into an adorable apartment in Uptown. It was so pretty and really big with nice wood floors and cozy rooms. I will be a frequent visitor in that apartment.
OH! And i'm finally an OFFICIAL bridesmaid in Jen's wedding. I mean, I always have been but I finally have a DRESS. Now I won't be naked and ashamed. Lol. Okay, I'm being dramatic. But still...
Justin and I basically went on our first official date. Although he'll deny it until he dies. Isn't he precious? We went to Hopkins super cheap theater to see Robin Hood. Not as bad as I was thinking. Either way, he bought my ticket and we thoughtfully chose seats (almost say in the love seat seating but... I decided it was weird and NOBODY sits in those...) and I got to eat candy. What a great date! Lol.
Final note: Lynx won their game last night! If you need to ask who the Lynx are, don't bother. It's not worth knowing. Go Lynx!
Amy
SO... the 4th of July! Oh man I've been WAITING for this day for such a long time. Every year I kind of forget about the magicalness that this day brings. I always forget how much fun I have and how many of my friends I get to see. I fail to remember that I run in to a million of people I knew in high school... and then some. Like people from Wells Fargo?? Trippy. Anyway, back to "the day". I got to accompany Justin and the fam to Joe's brother's 50th birthday bash. I would have to say this is the sweetest thing I've ever seen a family do. It makes me want to start a tradition... although being a twin, the tradition would last about mmm... 5 minutes. Great. WELL what this family does is all the kids (12 of them, excluding the birthday boy/girl) and the parents (holy Hannah they are getting old!) write letters to the birthday boy or girl when they turn 50. And it can be about anything. People cry, people laugh, and there are solemn faces and faces that look proud. It is quite the theatrical display. Everyone is in the back yard because, well frankly not that many people can fit comfortably in the house. Think of it: 13 siblings, almost all have spouses, those families have kids, and those kids have spouses and kids! Let's just say it was a very crowded event! But that's typical in the Knapp family. So the birthday kid sits up front with their parents and then there is an extra chair for the letter reader. Apparently they usually go in order from oldest to youngest, but they did it in reverse because the younger children always get the shaft because of time constraints. Yep. I said it. TIME CONSTRAINTS. And they aren't joking! Some of these letters are novellas! But the whole thing really made me want a big family yet again. Who knows, maybe I'll have a litter of children so they can do this for one another as they grow up. What's crazy about this whole thing is
1) The parents are still alive- they are already in their 90's
2) The first daughter Claudia was 22 years old when Henry, the 12th child, was born. That means Liz, the 13th and final, was born when she was 26!!! Talk about decades of difference!
3) They only have one child left to hit 50. Woah. Still baffles me how they could have so many kids
That took up most of the day. Not that that was a bad thing. We ate twice and hung out and I got to see people I haven't seen in several years due to the fact that I was outrageously single and no longer able to attend family events. So welcome back me, it's good to be back. :) haha
After our very long stay at Papa Knapps (no, I really won't call him that EVER), we made it out to see my family! And what a surprise when I walked in the door! My nieces Ashley and Sophie were there! I never really get to see them so it was wonderful that my parents were babysitting. Ashley I don't think likes me very much. She hadn't cried the WHOLE time and I walk through the door and say hello and she bursts into tears! She hate me! She must see it in my eyes that she scares me. I mean granted she is a few months old, but she can sense my fear. Oh babies. What to do with them. But Sophie! I know she likes me because she gave me a tootsie roll out of her candy bag. And that means a whole lot considering my dad said that she hasn't let it out of her sight since the parade earlier that morning. A-dor-a-ble. Man. Well, we didn't stay long because it was already getting late and we had a few more stops to make.
Next on our list was the wonderful Flemings. The main reason for that was because we wanted to see Sarah and Phil before they moved all the way to Sunny California. That feels like a world away! The only time I've even BEEN in Cali was in the airport on my way to Hawaii. It doesn't have very good connotations with me though. I basically spent that time in LAX puking and trying to sleep on the floor with a TERRIBLE migraine from either all the flight/lights or restaurant food that has too much MSG. Either way, no bueno for me and my memories of California. But I'm sure they'll have a good time. They just need to avoid those treacherous airports. The added bonus to visiting these two was that I got to see her parents! I love love love love them. Justin and I are thinking about hanging out with them more often. They may be parents, but they are the one of the coolest ones.
FINALLY after a very long day we made it to the 4th of July carnival in Delano. YES YES YES! I won't go into detail of everything we did, but I think a list would work well for this story. Funnel cake: YES! Cheese curds: YES! Zipper: YES! Zipper for the second time: YES! Awesome fireworks: YES! Tons of friends: YES! Running into the millions of people you know: YES! Everything about it was wonderful. Nobody got sick, (well, except for miss pukey from the Zipper. Thanks for aiming for the ground... where we walk. Nice aim) nobody got angry, everyone loved the fireworks (really they were to die for, the finale was different the years past, but it was better. I was impressed). So that was my 4th of July adventure. Busy, exhausting, but oh so worth it.
Since the event of the 4th, I was able to make very tasty cookies for Corie and Karrah who just moved into an adorable apartment in Uptown. It was so pretty and really big with nice wood floors and cozy rooms. I will be a frequent visitor in that apartment.
OH! And i'm finally an OFFICIAL bridesmaid in Jen's wedding. I mean, I always have been but I finally have a DRESS. Now I won't be naked and ashamed. Lol. Okay, I'm being dramatic. But still...
Justin and I basically went on our first official date. Although he'll deny it until he dies. Isn't he precious? We went to Hopkins super cheap theater to see Robin Hood. Not as bad as I was thinking. Either way, he bought my ticket and we thoughtfully chose seats (almost say in the love seat seating but... I decided it was weird and NOBODY sits in those...) and I got to eat candy. What a great date! Lol.
Final note: Lynx won their game last night! If you need to ask who the Lynx are, don't bother. It's not worth knowing. Go Lynx!
Amy
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
George
I fell in love a few days ago. I know. It seems crazy. And it was in such a small amount of time that I fell in love. I always thought these things took time. But no, it only took an evening. A few hours actually. Yes, his name is George and he is a Greyhound. Holy buckets! He was adorable. It might even be because his name IS George. How could you not love a George? I think I want one when I'm older. I like big dogs. :)
Anyway, that's my side note of George, the love of my life. My favorite moment with him was when I was with Camry, Nate, and Justin and I dropped some skittles on the floor and I said "George I dropped one!" It sounded like I was talking to someone who was human. Lol. I'm a dork. But it got a good laugh.
In other news, It's almost the fourth of July! What a great freaking holiday. I've always been the one to love holidays that are more friend-oriented than the ones that you are stuck with your extended family for hours on end. And this one involves RIDES and FIREWORKS! I mean heck yes. Those are like my two favorite things! The Zipper is actually what I'm looking forward to the most. The way it spins you high into the sky and plummets you to the ground... the way you can see for miles as you stall on the very top. The feeling that you have when you realize that you are in the place you grew up with and you always return for that sense of nostalgia. It's more than gratifying. And then of course the wonderful fireworks and to the majesticness of the holiday. God Bless America? Or something like that. lol. The other nice thing about the 4th is that Justin invited me to hang out with his extended family!! Which totally negates the statement I made just a few sentences ago. But it's the fact that he invited me. Heck! He's making so much progress. It should be a little awkward cuz they'll be like, "haven't we seen you before?" and I'll be like yep.... like 6 years ago. Hey again. lol. But it's worth it. :)
I'm currently antsy because I'm waiting for my acquaintance to come home from a meeting with his teacher. Oye. Those two can talk! I want lunch real bad but I'm waiting for his butt to get back here. But I guess it's okay, it gives me time to do things that are good and productive.
Alright, i'm on borrowed time. I'm stealing internet and it may drop any second. so toodles! :)
Amy
Anyway, that's my side note of George, the love of my life. My favorite moment with him was when I was with Camry, Nate, and Justin and I dropped some skittles on the floor and I said "George I dropped one!" It sounded like I was talking to someone who was human. Lol. I'm a dork. But it got a good laugh.
In other news, It's almost the fourth of July! What a great freaking holiday. I've always been the one to love holidays that are more friend-oriented than the ones that you are stuck with your extended family for hours on end. And this one involves RIDES and FIREWORKS! I mean heck yes. Those are like my two favorite things! The Zipper is actually what I'm looking forward to the most. The way it spins you high into the sky and plummets you to the ground... the way you can see for miles as you stall on the very top. The feeling that you have when you realize that you are in the place you grew up with and you always return for that sense of nostalgia. It's more than gratifying. And then of course the wonderful fireworks and to the majesticness of the holiday. God Bless America? Or something like that. lol. The other nice thing about the 4th is that Justin invited me to hang out with his extended family!! Which totally negates the statement I made just a few sentences ago. But it's the fact that he invited me. Heck! He's making so much progress. It should be a little awkward cuz they'll be like, "haven't we seen you before?" and I'll be like yep.... like 6 years ago. Hey again. lol. But it's worth it. :)
I'm currently antsy because I'm waiting for my acquaintance to come home from a meeting with his teacher. Oye. Those two can talk! I want lunch real bad but I'm waiting for his butt to get back here. But I guess it's okay, it gives me time to do things that are good and productive.
Alright, i'm on borrowed time. I'm stealing internet and it may drop any second. so toodles! :)
Amy
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Baby Spiders
These things are the devil!! So while Alyssa, Justin, and I were hanging out on my bed yesterday, they noticed there were quite a few spiders on my ceiling. Of course I panicked and made Justin kill most of them, but then we went out on our merry way. Well I get home last night and there are DOZENS more!! I spent over an hour killing them! They just kept coming and coming from what seemed like no where. Their fangs were out for blood and they were iridescent so I couldn't really see them. They knew my fear and used it against me. But I conquered them! I showed them what it meant to be bigger, stronger, faster. Those babies didn't have a chance. Bwah ah ah.
Well it looks like a whole month has basically passed since I've updated last. How frustrating. I really hate that. It's not that I don't wanna write, but there is just no time to drive down the street and sit in my car to write my blog. Heck, there is no time to WRITE these days. I better make time for both. I do believe however that the second I have internet again I will be on my feel once more writing as much as I had been writing. It'll be nice. But lets not spend so much time talking about the failed writing of the month, let's talk about life cuz it's been pretty good!
I guess this will be my bold statement considering i'm putting it on my blog, but I am once again dating the infamous Justin. Now this is gutsy because there are still some people that don't know, and people we probably mean to tell in person. But he hasn't really seem to care that I've been telling people, so this will most likely be okay. He's told me he'd rather have me take a pregnancy test than post our "status" on Facebook. Drama queen much? lol. No, it was really funny. But I'll give him the space he needs. He's got some commitment issues. But what I've realized is, who doesn't?? It's scary to be in a relationship that could possibly lead to be connected for the rest of your life?! BIG WORDS. I mean, you CHOOSE to love and you CHOOSE to stay committed and you CHOOSE to do everything together. That's a lot of choosing. And up until recently I've been rather okay with being on my own. I have nothing holding me down and nothing to really be connected to. Obviously friends and family, but virtually free to do anything. It's beautiful. Back to the story, we basically have been in a sort of dating relationship since March. And he told his parents like two weeks ago. So i'm not really sure how long I should say. But yah... it's slow moving, we're slowly getting used to the idea.... so don't spook him! don't call him up and be like WTF?! Lol. All that can be directed to me. But then again, most people know now so I'm not too worried about this blog. And even though there will be lots of questions, know that I am very very happy. :)
Last night Justin and I went over to Jen Seward and Andrew Beckman's townhouse and played a would you rather board game with them and Andrew's four other friends. Oh man it was so much. I had a really really good time doing that. And I was told I was funny! Well, not directly. But we had to basically write in our own Would you Rather's and they liked mine. What can I say? God gave me a gift! :) One was "Would you rather carry a CPR dummy around forever... OR (this was my part) have the CPR dummy carry you around forever?. LOVE it. People are just funny. I dunno. I'm glad we went over there last night.
I really wish I could write more. I have so much more to tell. Like how two of my other friends are dating and I really like it. And that Karrah and Corie are moving to Uptown so I'll get to see them lots. And that Zach is going to France and he had a party for leaving and I saw a lot of Delano people and it was a treat. And Kara had her birthday and she's been roadtripping for over a week. And yes! Life is crazy and busy and I wish I could write all that happens. Soon enough.. soon enough. Love
Amy
Well it looks like a whole month has basically passed since I've updated last. How frustrating. I really hate that. It's not that I don't wanna write, but there is just no time to drive down the street and sit in my car to write my blog. Heck, there is no time to WRITE these days. I better make time for both. I do believe however that the second I have internet again I will be on my feel once more writing as much as I had been writing. It'll be nice. But lets not spend so much time talking about the failed writing of the month, let's talk about life cuz it's been pretty good!
I guess this will be my bold statement considering i'm putting it on my blog, but I am once again dating the infamous Justin. Now this is gutsy because there are still some people that don't know, and people we probably mean to tell in person. But he hasn't really seem to care that I've been telling people, so this will most likely be okay. He's told me he'd rather have me take a pregnancy test than post our "status" on Facebook. Drama queen much? lol. No, it was really funny. But I'll give him the space he needs. He's got some commitment issues. But what I've realized is, who doesn't?? It's scary to be in a relationship that could possibly lead to be connected for the rest of your life?! BIG WORDS. I mean, you CHOOSE to love and you CHOOSE to stay committed and you CHOOSE to do everything together. That's a lot of choosing. And up until recently I've been rather okay with being on my own. I have nothing holding me down and nothing to really be connected to. Obviously friends and family, but virtually free to do anything. It's beautiful. Back to the story, we basically have been in a sort of dating relationship since March. And he told his parents like two weeks ago. So i'm not really sure how long I should say. But yah... it's slow moving, we're slowly getting used to the idea.... so don't spook him! don't call him up and be like WTF?! Lol. All that can be directed to me. But then again, most people know now so I'm not too worried about this blog. And even though there will be lots of questions, know that I am very very happy. :)
Last night Justin and I went over to Jen Seward and Andrew Beckman's townhouse and played a would you rather board game with them and Andrew's four other friends. Oh man it was so much. I had a really really good time doing that. And I was told I was funny! Well, not directly. But we had to basically write in our own Would you Rather's and they liked mine. What can I say? God gave me a gift! :) One was "Would you rather carry a CPR dummy around forever... OR (this was my part) have the CPR dummy carry you around forever?. LOVE it. People are just funny. I dunno. I'm glad we went over there last night.
I really wish I could write more. I have so much more to tell. Like how two of my other friends are dating and I really like it. And that Karrah and Corie are moving to Uptown so I'll get to see them lots. And that Zach is going to France and he had a party for leaving and I saw a lot of Delano people and it was a treat. And Kara had her birthday and she's been roadtripping for over a week. And yes! Life is crazy and busy and I wish I could write all that happens. Soon enough.. soon enough. Love
Amy
Tuesday, June 08, 2010
The Gift of Hearing
That's what I need. I need to be able to hear! Oye! It's been SUCH a long few days that I can't even stand it. On Friday Alyssa had a pool party and I was in there ALL DAY. Then my ear plugged up and I thought nothing of it because it happens all the time. Bad choice. It is now TUESDAY and it's still plugged and it hurts! I bought all this stuff to unplug it and nothing has worked. My roomie Kassi told me that it should just go away on it's own, but most people are telling me to go to the doctor. The problem with the doctor is that it's EXPENSIVE when you don't have health insurance. And then there's the minute clinic but that's $54!! And when you have a lot of bills due this week, that's not going to happen. I think the system is screwed up. How can it be that I'm working and I have no insurance? I can see why so many people get sick and let it get so far. And I can see why people get angry. Who wouldn't be! Things happen and you want insurance for it. At the same time I've put TONS of money in from having health insurance and NEVER using it... why can't I have like back pay??? None of it makes sense to me. Probably why I don't have a government job. So for now... I'm deaf and in pain in my right ear. Grumbles....
AND today was supposed to be my adventure day with Seward (aka mini golfing) but it is raining and now it won't work. I can't think of any fun cheap ideas except for $1 theater. So maybe that. But I dunno. I had such big plans for being outdoors today!
Apparently it's my crabby blog day. hmmmm let's see if we can fix that. Justin comes home tomorrow from his trip to Colorado! I probably won't get to hang out with him cuz he'll get home super late, BUT... it's still exciting. :) Smiles all around on that topic. Oh yes, and MARLISE is in town again! Huzzah!!! She hasn't been up in a very long time so I'm pretty pumped. It's a little difficult because I have a lot of work and a lot of other plans to work around, but I'm sure it'll be fine. She's pretty flexible.
Kara has her housewarming party on Friday. Should be fun. Everyone should come! I don't even know WHO reads this, but come anyway. Bring a present. It'll be good.
Any big thought's I've had lately? Hmmmm..... just about John the Baptist. I've been watching Marc Driscoll a lot lately, and I'm currently downloading some sermons from David Johnson and Steve Wiens. I just love listening and learning from these guys. And since I don't make it to church a lot (which I need to do) I figured I can at least listen to it on my own time. So yah! It's good.
Alright, I better go. I have a full day ahead of me. Bye friends!
Amy
AND today was supposed to be my adventure day with Seward (aka mini golfing) but it is raining and now it won't work. I can't think of any fun cheap ideas except for $1 theater. So maybe that. But I dunno. I had such big plans for being outdoors today!
Apparently it's my crabby blog day. hmmmm let's see if we can fix that. Justin comes home tomorrow from his trip to Colorado! I probably won't get to hang out with him cuz he'll get home super late, BUT... it's still exciting. :) Smiles all around on that topic. Oh yes, and MARLISE is in town again! Huzzah!!! She hasn't been up in a very long time so I'm pretty pumped. It's a little difficult because I have a lot of work and a lot of other plans to work around, but I'm sure it'll be fine. She's pretty flexible.
Kara has her housewarming party on Friday. Should be fun. Everyone should come! I don't even know WHO reads this, but come anyway. Bring a present. It'll be good.
Any big thought's I've had lately? Hmmmm..... just about John the Baptist. I've been watching Marc Driscoll a lot lately, and I'm currently downloading some sermons from David Johnson and Steve Wiens. I just love listening and learning from these guys. And since I don't make it to church a lot (which I need to do) I figured I can at least listen to it on my own time. So yah! It's good.
Alright, I better go. I have a full day ahead of me. Bye friends!
Amy
Wednesday, June 02, 2010
Back to the Summer
Alright, well I feel like it's last summer again! NO INTERNET!! I'm currently stealing the Bethel-WiFi from Fountain which is luckily only a few houses down. But that means if I want internet, I either have to sit in my car like I'm on a stakeout or sit in a Caribou and purchase things. Oye. I completely understand why we don't have the internet currently. It's just Kassi and I and it gets EXPENSIVE when it's just two people. So I have to be able to suck it up and go with the flow. It's only til July right??
As for other news, the internship is going well. I finally work with another girl which has made it a lot more fun. Guys are always just closed off to a certain extent, where girls can open up pretty quickly. That's been really nice. I love the people I work with and I could see myself staying there for a while if they hire me on. Probably not event stuff but in other parts of the Lynx organization. Who knows! Maybe I'll get to work for the Twins or Vikings someday! What an interesting change in the direction of my life. haha
The rest of my life seems to be going pretty well. I'm broke as always, but I'm making it work. Don't I always? :) My job is great, friends are all home for the summer (some with little babies now) and other friends are coming to visit soon. So there are a lot of positives. OH! I almost forgot, I got to take Camry and Nate's engagement photos which went really really really well. We had clear skies, partly cloudy, cloudy, rainy, and sunset (well... sorta sunset) and it was perfect. Not only were the views and landscapes wonderful, but the couple themselves were AMAZING! They were so photogenic and easy to shoot. It wasn't like they'd pose and then be like "now what?" They made my first official photo shoot the easiest thing in the world. Now that I'm writing this I'm pretty sure that I have mentioned this in my last post. Sorry for the overlap guys!
Everyone who reads this probably already knows about my boy story. If not, well you're out of the loop and I'm sorry. Things have gone slowly and somewhat smoothly but we aren't at 100 percent of telling people. That's because we don't know what we are doing. Mostly because he is afraid of commitment. I'm willing to work with that for now. The only concern I've had is if he really feels the same way about me the way I do about him. But the more that time goes one, I'm pretty sure I don't have to worry. Hopefully when things start lining up and we both start seeing what our lives will look like this summer we'll be able to become more concrete. Key word is "hopefully" if not I know I have a few friends that will help make this boy really commit... or else. Haha
I got nothing else right now. I'm also starving and I just got done downloading a show to watch! So now I will head home to my internetless facility and eat in peace. Ciao my dear readers... I promise to keep writing even though it's become a tricky situation.
P.S.- I have nasty gooey stuff on my ceiling in my car. It looks super inappropriate. It really is this stuff they put in balloons to keep the air in. But it popped in my car a few months back and now it's forever stuck. Gross.
Amy
As for other news, the internship is going well. I finally work with another girl which has made it a lot more fun. Guys are always just closed off to a certain extent, where girls can open up pretty quickly. That's been really nice. I love the people I work with and I could see myself staying there for a while if they hire me on. Probably not event stuff but in other parts of the Lynx organization. Who knows! Maybe I'll get to work for the Twins or Vikings someday! What an interesting change in the direction of my life. haha
The rest of my life seems to be going pretty well. I'm broke as always, but I'm making it work. Don't I always? :) My job is great, friends are all home for the summer (some with little babies now) and other friends are coming to visit soon. So there are a lot of positives. OH! I almost forgot, I got to take Camry and Nate's engagement photos which went really really really well. We had clear skies, partly cloudy, cloudy, rainy, and sunset (well... sorta sunset) and it was perfect. Not only were the views and landscapes wonderful, but the couple themselves were AMAZING! They were so photogenic and easy to shoot. It wasn't like they'd pose and then be like "now what?" They made my first official photo shoot the easiest thing in the world. Now that I'm writing this I'm pretty sure that I have mentioned this in my last post. Sorry for the overlap guys!
Everyone who reads this probably already knows about my boy story. If not, well you're out of the loop and I'm sorry. Things have gone slowly and somewhat smoothly but we aren't at 100 percent of telling people. That's because we don't know what we are doing. Mostly because he is afraid of commitment. I'm willing to work with that for now. The only concern I've had is if he really feels the same way about me the way I do about him. But the more that time goes one, I'm pretty sure I don't have to worry. Hopefully when things start lining up and we both start seeing what our lives will look like this summer we'll be able to become more concrete. Key word is "hopefully" if not I know I have a few friends that will help make this boy really commit... or else. Haha
I got nothing else right now. I'm also starving and I just got done downloading a show to watch! So now I will head home to my internetless facility and eat in peace. Ciao my dear readers... I promise to keep writing even though it's become a tricky situation.
P.S.- I have nasty gooey stuff on my ceiling in my car. It looks super inappropriate. It really is this stuff they put in balloons to keep the air in. But it popped in my car a few months back and now it's forever stuck. Gross.
Amy
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
The Graduate
Yes. That is me! Obviously there are strings attached to this statement, but for the most part, I am a COLLEGE GRADUATE. Huzzah!! Hooray! Praise GOD! And all those other things we could shout in a moment like this. While yes... it was already 4 days since I walked, I still feel great about it. There is a weight lifted off my shoulders that is inconceivable. Don't get me wrong. School was great. I've loved having the opportunity (or forcing my way in really) of going and getting this extra knowledge put into my little head. Some stuff felt pointless, but there are things you can't take back. Professor Alsdurf really taught me about journalism and being an ethical writer. She was with me throughout the entire struggle and I love her for that. Professor Horstman taught me to use my creativity and really to question the things I read. He was funny and made my time at Bethel easy-going (especially when I was in his classes). Bill... oh Bill. He may not have been a professional be he started when I did and that's comforting. We may have butted heads because I was never very professional and was hard to keep focused, but I think we clicked on a personal level.
There are few others that I really hold high in my Bethel career, but those are the tops for me. I also wanted to talk a little bit about the speaker at my graduation because he said something that made me WANT to remember something. His name is Dan Taylor and he had been a professor at Bethel for 33 years! That's longer than I've been alive! Can you imagine?!First he said this:
"I went to the woods because I wished to live deliberately, to front only the essential facts of life, and see if I could not learn what it had to teach, and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived. I did not wish to live what was not life, living is so dear; nor did I wish to practise resignation, unless it was quite necessary. I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life, to live so sturdily and Spartan- like as to put to rout all that was not life, to cut a broad swath and shave close, to drive life into a corner, and reduce it to its lowest terms, and, if it proved to be mean, why then to get the whole and genuine meanness of it, and publish its meanness to the world; or if it were sublime, to know it by experience, and be able to give a true account of it in my next excursion."
Well okay, he didn't FIRST say that... but he said it. And it was deep and moving and set at the perfect time to say it. He was really funny for the first 10 minutes of his speech. He joked about how nobody ever remember what the speakers say at graduations and that he should say something profound. So then he continued to say "blahblahblah cafeteria food blahblahblah good education blahblahblah peace" and so forth! SO FUNNY! He had the whole audience laughing. And then he talked about how he was a kid from the '60's and that they only gave him 15 minutes to talk, well he'll talk for 18th. He did get serious though. He talked about be shalom in the world. What does that mean exactly? It means to go out there and live for God and do it in everything you do. And he said that we are never unemployed. Meaning we may be in between job, recently fired, laid off, looking for a job, etc. But we are ALWAYS employed for God. We should be working for Him at all times no matter where we are. It was awesome. I think that's all I remember from his speech. Good thing I'm writing it down huh? ;)
The two best things about the day: 1) I had mom, DAD, Holly, Seward, Justin, and Alyssa at my graduation. I loved it. My mom told me that dad might not be able to come cuz he was panicking, but he CAME! I was so excited. There was something moving about him being there. He's missed so many things in my life that I think I just figured he'd skip yet another thing in my life. But it made a difference that he was there and I let him know that. And of course, I had half friends and half family at the graduation. Very typical. I wouldn't have wanted it any other way though. These are the people that mean a lot to me and I want them apart of this momentous occasion. We got to go out to lunch at Don Pablos too and that was some goooood food.
2) I got to watch Justin, Alyssa, Jesse, and Mary Velasco graduate. I'm more than thrilled to watch other people walk because I get to be with them when they have just accomplished something HUGE. With Justin... it was big. I mean I've known him for so long and I watched him walk at his first graduation, watched him give that heartbreaking speech about Travis, and watched him be acknowledged as the Valedictorian. And now I watched him graduate with three majors, two minors, and summa cum laude. He's smart and he's worked hard for everything he has done. And obviously Alyssa I'd wanna watch because she's been the Bethel friend that has been a very good friend! AND my next year living buddy.
So yah, that was my wonderful weekend. The Knapps also took me out to dinner too and that was fun. I love spending time with them. They are my second family. :)
In other news....I took Nate and Camry's engagement photos! Mind you I know that I have no experience whatsoever and that I did it for free so that I could learn, but they were very gracious about it and even bought me dinner since I spent like three hours taking photos. And I had Alyssa be my little assistant which made my job easier. They were great to take photos of.
Okay, there's a "teddy bear terror" here and it's not letting me be! Later folks! Thanks for being here with me through it all!
Amy
There are few others that I really hold high in my Bethel career, but those are the tops for me. I also wanted to talk a little bit about the speaker at my graduation because he said something that made me WANT to remember something. His name is Dan Taylor and he had been a professor at Bethel for 33 years! That's longer than I've been alive! Can you imagine?!First he said this:
"I went to the woods because I wished to live deliberately, to front only the essential facts of life, and see if I could not learn what it had to teach, and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived. I did not wish to live what was not life, living is so dear; nor did I wish to practise resignation, unless it was quite necessary. I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life, to live so sturdily and Spartan- like as to put to rout all that was not life, to cut a broad swath and shave close, to drive life into a corner, and reduce it to its lowest terms, and, if it proved to be mean, why then to get the whole and genuine meanness of it, and publish its meanness to the world; or if it were sublime, to know it by experience, and be able to give a true account of it in my next excursion."
Well okay, he didn't FIRST say that... but he said it. And it was deep and moving and set at the perfect time to say it. He was really funny for the first 10 minutes of his speech. He joked about how nobody ever remember what the speakers say at graduations and that he should say something profound. So then he continued to say "blahblahblah cafeteria food blahblahblah good education blahblahblah peace" and so forth! SO FUNNY! He had the whole audience laughing. And then he talked about how he was a kid from the '60's and that they only gave him 15 minutes to talk, well he'll talk for 18th. He did get serious though. He talked about be shalom in the world. What does that mean exactly? It means to go out there and live for God and do it in everything you do. And he said that we are never unemployed. Meaning we may be in between job, recently fired, laid off, looking for a job, etc. But we are ALWAYS employed for God. We should be working for Him at all times no matter where we are. It was awesome. I think that's all I remember from his speech. Good thing I'm writing it down huh? ;)
The two best things about the day: 1) I had mom, DAD, Holly, Seward, Justin, and Alyssa at my graduation. I loved it. My mom told me that dad might not be able to come cuz he was panicking, but he CAME! I was so excited. There was something moving about him being there. He's missed so many things in my life that I think I just figured he'd skip yet another thing in my life. But it made a difference that he was there and I let him know that. And of course, I had half friends and half family at the graduation. Very typical. I wouldn't have wanted it any other way though. These are the people that mean a lot to me and I want them apart of this momentous occasion. We got to go out to lunch at Don Pablos too and that was some goooood food.
2) I got to watch Justin, Alyssa, Jesse, and Mary Velasco graduate. I'm more than thrilled to watch other people walk because I get to be with them when they have just accomplished something HUGE. With Justin... it was big. I mean I've known him for so long and I watched him walk at his first graduation, watched him give that heartbreaking speech about Travis, and watched him be acknowledged as the Valedictorian. And now I watched him graduate with three majors, two minors, and summa cum laude. He's smart and he's worked hard for everything he has done. And obviously Alyssa I'd wanna watch because she's been the Bethel friend that has been a very good friend! AND my next year living buddy.
So yah, that was my wonderful weekend. The Knapps also took me out to dinner too and that was fun. I love spending time with them. They are my second family. :)
In other news....I took Nate and Camry's engagement photos! Mind you I know that I have no experience whatsoever and that I did it for free so that I could learn, but they were very gracious about it and even bought me dinner since I spent like three hours taking photos. And I had Alyssa be my little assistant which made my job easier. They were great to take photos of.
Okay, there's a "teddy bear terror" here and it's not letting me be! Later folks! Thanks for being here with me through it all!
Amy
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Rescue me
I need to be rescued. It's time to be done with finals and I feel like I haven't even made a dent in the work that is to be completed. Which is funny because I have finished two papers already and only have 1 one more plus a group presentation. There's probably also a lot of stress because I need to return books, pick up my cap and gown, babysit, do a final dinner with my roomies and the boys, and still find time to sleep and work and be social. It's just a lot and I'm getting jittery. Help!
The one wonderful bonus from all of this is that I'm getting SUPER TAN! I've been writing my papers outside on the trampoline and getting a good color while doing it. Huzzah!
I also think I have somewhere to LIVE for the most of summer! Housing has been a nightmare, but our wonderful landlord Joe is willing to let Kassi and I live here until the end of July for $300 a month. Perfect. Oh so very perfect. It gives us all time to figure out our lives. I'm really pumped. Blessing from God, that's for sure.
In other news.... no. I have nothing. I better go. It's work time. Ciao kiddos! The next time I write I'll most likely be a COLLEGE GRADUATE (minus the internship and the random stupid class I have to take at some point. Oh well, close enough)
Amy
The one wonderful bonus from all of this is that I'm getting SUPER TAN! I've been writing my papers outside on the trampoline and getting a good color while doing it. Huzzah!
I also think I have somewhere to LIVE for the most of summer! Housing has been a nightmare, but our wonderful landlord Joe is willing to let Kassi and I live here until the end of July for $300 a month. Perfect. Oh so very perfect. It gives us all time to figure out our lives. I'm really pumped. Blessing from God, that's for sure.
In other news.... no. I have nothing. I better go. It's work time. Ciao kiddos! The next time I write I'll most likely be a COLLEGE GRADUATE (minus the internship and the random stupid class I have to take at some point. Oh well, close enough)
Amy
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Write Me a Song And I'll Say Yes
So I forgot to write one of the coolest posts! Well okay, maybe not the COOLEST... but pretty darn awesome. On May 16th, my friend Nate of like 7 years proposed to his wonderful girlfriend Camry. AHHHHH!!!! I just love this stuff. It's exhilarating to find people in love and willing to spend the rest of their life with one another. In a world that is so bitter towards marriage, I find it refreshing to know that sometimes there are people who will make it. At least hopefully. But there are major keys to making a marriage work. This I know, I've taken a full semester of a marriage class. So I'm now an expert! haha. I wish.
But really... we need to be with them and help them along the way. Isn't that what friends are for? Really, isn't that what the wedding party is for? I feel like I've said this before. The reason I've always wanted a big wedding party is not only because there are a lot of people in my life that are special to me, but also because those people I feel are going to support me and my husband. Ya know, keep us accountable in our marriage. They are standing up there to show the rest of the world that they agree on the marriage at hand and are ready to be apart of it to the best of their abilities. There's something amazing about a wedding party that some people aren't really aware of. That's a shame too. Maybe they don't see the party the same way I do, but it's something that is to be treasured.
Everyone is probably wondering how our wonderful Nate proposed right? WELL let me tell you... He went to Minnehaha Falls (I believe they had their first date there) and he wrote her a song, and at the end of the song he pulled out a ring and asked her to marry him. He even got her to record it (I'm still not sure how he pulled that one off) and his face looks like a puppy. Heck, I would have said yes to that face! Awwww! Just in case you were worried.... she said yes. :)
But really... we need to be with them and help them along the way. Isn't that what friends are for? Really, isn't that what the wedding party is for? I feel like I've said this before. The reason I've always wanted a big wedding party is not only because there are a lot of people in my life that are special to me, but also because those people I feel are going to support me and my husband. Ya know, keep us accountable in our marriage. They are standing up there to show the rest of the world that they agree on the marriage at hand and are ready to be apart of it to the best of their abilities. There's something amazing about a wedding party that some people aren't really aware of. That's a shame too. Maybe they don't see the party the same way I do, but it's something that is to be treasured.
Everyone is probably wondering how our wonderful Nate proposed right? WELL let me tell you... He went to Minnehaha Falls (I believe they had their first date there) and he wrote her a song, and at the end of the song he pulled out a ring and asked her to marry him. He even got her to record it (I'm still not sure how he pulled that one off) and his face looks like a puppy. Heck, I would have said yes to that face! Awwww! Just in case you were worried.... she said yes. :)
Monday, May 17, 2010
It's Complicated
So yesterday was the first day of my internship! Ahh!! Talk about stressful. The day started out just rough. I was supposed to get rid of my shift at work and I couldn't. Then there wasn't a guarantee that I would be out of work before I needed to be at the Lynx game. Oh yah, in case I didn't mention this, I am an intern for Group Events for the Minnesota Timberwolves/Lynx. Well as luck would have it, Buffalo Wild Wings was super slow so I was able to leave at almost 1pm. Phew. That made it so much easier. I went and bought some new pants and I was ready to go!
Basically I intern with Eric (Alissa, friend from work, that's her boyfriend) and Joanna (she also works in group events) and three boy interns. Woo! That's just what happens when you work in the sport world. So I'm okay with it. They are all pretty nice, but I really don't know for sure. The first day is always SO awkward. You stand in silence, trying to make small talk with complete strangers. You listen to your boss and hope you are doing everything right. You try to remember what closet is on what floor in case they ask you to go to it and grab something. You listen for the directions that may or may not come as to how to line people up for a high-five tunnel. Besides all that awkwardness, first day wasn't bad!
The perks of the job? Well after we do some pre-game stuff (depending on if we have an event lined up) we basically walk around, watch the game until 5 minutes to half time, then we line some people up for the high-five tunnel, and once that is over, we are free until the end of the game. We're allowed to sit down, watch the game, eat some food (for free) and just relax. My job is more the before and after of the game than anything else. It's not bad. And we don't even get out super later. WNBA games are short. 2 hours as opposed to 2.5 with the NBA. It's kind of nice.
Some awesome people I met: Joanna. She was really nice and easy to talk to. I was with her when I was helping little kids make posters that they could raise during the game. It was adorable. But yah, she's pretty young (upper 20's I'm guessing) and she was just cool. I also met this mom who I THINK was part of the girls scouts, but I'm not sure. We did a Lynx Party with Girl Scout troops but I think some people might have been through some churches or something. At any rate, she was really friendly and really interested in what I was doing (i.e. interning with the Lynx for Bethel University) She had gone to Northwestern and her friend had gone to Crown, so we are all in the same boat school wise. That's the nice thing about my internship: Meeting lots of sweet people.
Now unfortunately it is FINALS week so I'm supposed to be extremely busy, but I'm currently writing a blog. go figure. SO I will go, be a good student for one more week, and then call it a day! Can't wait to see what this summer will hold. I'm pretty excited. Some of the aspects of my summer will be very complicated, which I'm hoping to work out soon, but otherwise it'll be great.
Amy
Basically I intern with Eric (Alissa, friend from work, that's her boyfriend) and Joanna (she also works in group events) and three boy interns. Woo! That's just what happens when you work in the sport world. So I'm okay with it. They are all pretty nice, but I really don't know for sure. The first day is always SO awkward. You stand in silence, trying to make small talk with complete strangers. You listen to your boss and hope you are doing everything right. You try to remember what closet is on what floor in case they ask you to go to it and grab something. You listen for the directions that may or may not come as to how to line people up for a high-five tunnel. Besides all that awkwardness, first day wasn't bad!
The perks of the job? Well after we do some pre-game stuff (depending on if we have an event lined up) we basically walk around, watch the game until 5 minutes to half time, then we line some people up for the high-five tunnel, and once that is over, we are free until the end of the game. We're allowed to sit down, watch the game, eat some food (for free) and just relax. My job is more the before and after of the game than anything else. It's not bad. And we don't even get out super later. WNBA games are short. 2 hours as opposed to 2.5 with the NBA. It's kind of nice.
Some awesome people I met: Joanna. She was really nice and easy to talk to. I was with her when I was helping little kids make posters that they could raise during the game. It was adorable. But yah, she's pretty young (upper 20's I'm guessing) and she was just cool. I also met this mom who I THINK was part of the girls scouts, but I'm not sure. We did a Lynx Party with Girl Scout troops but I think some people might have been through some churches or something. At any rate, she was really friendly and really interested in what I was doing (i.e. interning with the Lynx for Bethel University) She had gone to Northwestern and her friend had gone to Crown, so we are all in the same boat school wise. That's the nice thing about my internship: Meeting lots of sweet people.
Now unfortunately it is FINALS week so I'm supposed to be extremely busy, but I'm currently writing a blog. go figure. SO I will go, be a good student for one more week, and then call it a day! Can't wait to see what this summer will hold. I'm pretty excited. Some of the aspects of my summer will be very complicated, which I'm hoping to work out soon, but otherwise it'll be great.
Amy
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Between The Hours Of Midnight to Nine
The question mark hangs over you.
There are other things to ask, but tonight I'll let them hang in the tainted air of secrecy.
That one graze of your thumb on my hand; it kills me.
How is it that your lips on my slightly wrinkled forehead and the exhale on my hair, breaks my heart in only the best way?
That question mark still hangs over you.
When your sleepful mind counteracts with your sleepless body, my sleepless heart flutters in rhythmic dances in unison with you.
I can't control my breathing unifying with yours; it's maddening.
You consume me, I consume you, we turn away.
There is always a part of us that is intertwined.
But I can't shake that question mark that hangs over you.
We are awake, laughing at the mumbled fumbled words pouring out of my untamed mouth.
The morning shines light on our secrets, on something we keep from the world so they won't ruin it.
You squeeze my hand and I recall you saying my name the night before; the way it clicked across your tongue and teeth.
I can't make that question mark that hangs over you leave us
It gnaws even when you smile that freckled smile at me.
It claws even when you laugh at my sarcasm; "I'm ashamed of you too".
It pulls as you check that wrist watch that you keep in your pocket.
It wrestles as you hug me goodbye and I take a deep breath in.
The question mark hangs over you.
For a reason you are my end point.
That is why I stay and I watch you trot to your car.
The next time will be the same; awkward, distant, suddenly calming and contagious.
This has to be it for us, and I know that those questions will never take away that
Mystifying question mark that hangs over you.
There are other things to ask, but tonight I'll let them hang in the tainted air of secrecy.
That one graze of your thumb on my hand; it kills me.
How is it that your lips on my slightly wrinkled forehead and the exhale on my hair, breaks my heart in only the best way?
That question mark still hangs over you.
When your sleepful mind counteracts with your sleepless body, my sleepless heart flutters in rhythmic dances in unison with you.
I can't control my breathing unifying with yours; it's maddening.
You consume me, I consume you, we turn away.
There is always a part of us that is intertwined.
But I can't shake that question mark that hangs over you.
We are awake, laughing at the mumbled fumbled words pouring out of my untamed mouth.
The morning shines light on our secrets, on something we keep from the world so they won't ruin it.
You squeeze my hand and I recall you saying my name the night before; the way it clicked across your tongue and teeth.
I can't make that question mark that hangs over you leave us
It gnaws even when you smile that freckled smile at me.
It claws even when you laugh at my sarcasm; "I'm ashamed of you too".
It pulls as you check that wrist watch that you keep in your pocket.
It wrestles as you hug me goodbye and I take a deep breath in.
The question mark hangs over you.
For a reason you are my end point.
That is why I stay and I watch you trot to your car.
The next time will be the same; awkward, distant, suddenly calming and contagious.
This has to be it for us, and I know that those questions will never take away that
Mystifying question mark that hangs over you.
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